“I haven’t wanted her yet.”
The breath caught in my throat. “She’ll move on,” I guaranteed.
“You’re certain?”
“Once a girl knows a guy doesn’t want her, she’ll find someone who does.”
He was quiet a moment. “That sounds—logical.”
“Good. Um. Horashow.”
He chuckled again, the sound washing over me, warming the pit of my stomach. “Dobray nohch,” he said.
“Good night,” I replied.
CHAPTER FIVE
The next day Pietr did not once kiss Sarah. Watching, I realized avoiding her lips was difficult. Stooping to get his backpack, her lips were in his way. Grabbing something from his locker, she nearly fell in sliding between him and his notebooks. Sarah’s lips were as predictably present as acne the day of a dance.
I wondered how often people got kissed because it was easier to give in than dance away.
Pietr shot me an exasperated look after he nearly toppled into the girls’ bathroom avoiding Sarah.
I stayed firm, and Pietr returned to watching the clock whenever Sarah was near.
Time meant everything to Pietr Rusakova because it was so quickly running out. The bonuses to being a werewolf: strength, agility, quick healing. The downside? A short life span and a time-bomb-style countdown ticking away in your ears and getting louder when you made your first full change.
Pietr was dying.
And he knew it.
He’d once told me time didn’t matter when he was with me. The way he kissed me, I believed him. Every bit of me wanted to make time stand still for him.
In the cafeteria I opened my bagged lunch and pulled out my sandwich and carrot sticks. Fishing out the yogurt I decided how to start. “It’s almost here, you know.” I pulled the foil off the yogurt and dug around the bottom with my spoon to mix the berries in. The best stuff was always on the bottom. I paused. Did yogurt and society at large have that in common?
“What?” Pietr cocked his head in speculation.
“Oh. Halloween,” I said.
Amy choked with laughter, setting her milk down. “You are so transparent!”
“What?” Pietr focused his attention more keenly on me.
Sarah giggled.
I shrugged.
Sputtering, Pietr declared, “She’s right!” He reached across the table and jabbed my shoulder. “You’re fishing—about your birthday, da?”
“Nooo,” I insisted.
“Methinks the lady doth protest too much,” Pietr quipped, reloading his fork. “Wait.” He set the fork down. “You said before that you always host some sort of birthday bash.” His eyes narrowed.
I looked down.
“Oh,” he said, realizing as he looked at my lunch.
“Crap.” Amy’s mood spiraled.
Dad’s factory had been in the papers and on the local news again recently. Anytime a business that had been around so long started widespread layoffs, it was talked about. It only made sense we’d be cutting out unnecessary expenditures. Like my birthday party.
“I’ve had sixteen of them already,” I pointed out, brushing it off. Though I’d brought it up.
Amy stared at my sandwich. Living in the trailer park like she did, her dad already out of work, she was as powerless in this as I was.
Pietr grinned as he chewed. “I’ll have to keep Catherine out of the kitchen for the sake of the guests, but Max suggested a Halloween party.… More to celebrate is always better.”
I didn’t ask but hoped there might be a hidden meaning to his words. Perhaps more to celebrate had something to do with finding their mother. Or being free of Sarah. Either way, I’d welcome the news.
“If you don’t mind your birthday being celebrated early, I can convince my family to hold it in conjunction—”
“What a stupendous idea!” Sarah said, pulling out one of her more recent vocabulary additions. Since the accident she’d developed a fascination with words, often finding ones I’d misplaced. A fascination with words, and with Pietr. “I’ll help.”
The joy drained out of the concept for me. “I don’t want to intrude.”
Pietr kicked me under the table but laughed. “Intrude? You can help with the guest list.”
I looked at the chain sparkling around his neck. If he just took it off he’d have flocks of girls desperate to attend even a quilting bee with Pietr Rusakova. The Rusakovas had a strange power that could only be described as the ultimate animal magnetism. Pietr didn’t need guest suggestions from me.
“Okay,” I conceded. “If it’s no imposition. It’s really no big deal—and I don’t want it to turn into one, either. ”
Amy rolled her eyes at Pietr.
“Hey! Really! It’s no big deal,” I repeated.
This time she rolled her eyes at me. And stuck out her tongue. What a pal.
I waved my hands in the air. “Fine! Whatever.”
Amy grabbed my arm. “Even I know that’s not how you wrap up this conversation,” she leered, tugging me to face Pietr. “What do you say?” she coaxed in a singsong voice, like a mother training her child.
“Thank you, Pietr.” My face burned as he laughed, the low, amused sound sending a shudder down my backbone.
He refocused on the clock.
A few hours and we would be together, at least for a while.
* * *
“Have you seen it?” I asked into the phone.
“Nyet,” he admitted. “The Princess Bride?”
“Yep. I thought … since my birthday’s going to be celebrated at your Halloween party and I hope … well…” God. Why did I stumble and stutter around him? “I hope all this mess with Sarah will be done. That—”
“We’ll be official,” he finished for me. “It shouldn’t take long. Many things should be better by then.”
“So we can go as a couple?”
“Da. My present to you.” He paused, and I got the impression he was taking notes. “This—Man in Black—do I look like him?”
I giggled. “Not exactly.” I pointed out the most important part. “But he’s the movie’s hero. Only blond.”
“Like Derek.” The words came out sharply.
“No. Not like Derek. Not at all,” I objected. “Do you still not get it, Pietr? I seriously like you.” I’d decided not to bring up anything remotely related to love. “Derek’s old news. There was nothing between us, and there won’t ever be.”
My words were greeted by thick silence.
“I can’t imagine what it would take to push me away from you and toward Derek. I don’t want to imagine.”
He sighed. “So I am to dress as the Man in Black and you will be this—Buttercup?”
“Yes. Da,” I corrected.
“Say it again.”
“What?”
His voice grew husky as he repeated his request. “Say yes—in Russian—again.”
I blushed. “Da,” I whispered. “Will you teach me more Russian, Pietr?”
“Mmm. Only the important words,” he promised.
I bit back my request for the three most important words to me. “What words would you teach me?”
“Pocelujte menyah.”
“What’s that mean?”
He groaned. “Repeat it tonight and perhaps I will show you. Now, though, I must rent a movie.”
“You’re going to do that?”
“Of course. I’m a werewolf, not a cretin. We have Blockbuster cards.”
It blew my mind. Werewolves rented DVDs. At my local Blockbuster.
“I’ll see you tonight,” he guaranteed.
“Da,” I agreed.
* * *
I raced Rio around the paddock that evening, practicing my newest Russian phrase, wondering about Pietr and Sarah, worrying about insisting on going on a scouting mission where I was the only one without freakishly good healing abilities.
I readied for bed—or the ruse of sleep—knowing the Rusakovas would protect me. That
worried me, too. I didn’t want anyone getting hurt because of me. What did Cat really think I could do to help?
I was, after all, only human.
Something cracked against my window. I jumped, rushing over to haul it open.
He stood outside, darkness draping his arms and shoulders in a long ebony coat. He wore black jeans and nothing else. Moonlight washed across his bare chest and stomach. My heart pounded.
Pietr. Dazzling in the darkness. He tilted his head, saying nothing. But I knew what the action meant.
The window slid shut with a squeak. I grabbed a sweater hanging from the edge of my dresser drawer and shrugged into it. Turning off my bedroom lights I locked my door behind me. Dad knew I did so to keep Annabelle Lee from snooping—he might not suspect anything if he came home late and found it that way.
I crept down the stairs and out the door, ignoring the need for a jacket. If Dad returned while I was gone, that’d be the first thing he’d notice. Besides, the way my heart raced so quickly and my blood pumped so hotly I couldn’t imagine I needed a jacket at all.
I edged into the darkness gnawing at the soft light that spilled from Annabelle Lee’s bedroom window above. She was probably still awake, reading. “Pietr,” I whispered, my eyes struggling to find him among the tree trunks and the branches of bushes crackling in the breeze.
CHAPTER SIX
“Uh!” I stumbled back, startled to find him so close. He caught me, his hand hot and fierce as he yanked me up so I stood stably. He studied my face.
“Pocelujte menyah,” I said. Loudly. And very haltingly.
Something flared in his eyes, bright as wildfire, and he grabbed me, covering my mouth with his. I gasped, and he moved his lips against mine, pinning our bodies together with his powerful arms. Every nerve ending in my body sparked like electricity rioted just beneath my skin as we breathed the same air. Shared the same tastes.
He pulled back, blinking. His eyes glowed the red lantern light of the wolf’s and he blew out a breath, bracing himself.
I threw myself at him, reaching up to wrap my arms around his neck and covering his face with eager kisses.
“Easy,” he said, his voice strangling in a growl as he gripped my waist and pried me off. His eyes were stunningly bright, as bold as the blinking stoplight at the edge of town. His nostrils flared, filled with my scent. His form quivered in the darkness, stuttering around the edges. He shook himself, puffed out a breath, and rubbed his head. “We need to hurry,” he said, smile curling.
“Where’s the car?”
“Off the road at the driveway’s edge.”
“Let’s go.” I started walking down the drive.
From behind me Pietr called, “This’ll be faster.”
I heard something unzip. My eyes popped realizing Pietr only wore one zipper’s worth of clothing. I spun around and caught a pair of black jeans.
With my face.
I heard, “Hop on,” and the wolf was beside me, casting his muzzle up in an arc to remind me to climb up.
“Uhh—” Stunned, I rolled the jeans and tucked them under my arm before climbing onto the wolf’s back. Clutching the thick ruff of fur covering his broad shoulders I tried not to think about the fact I was riding Pietr.
Yeah. Not easy to forget leaning across his powerful back, my face in fur that smelled of pine-filled forests. He raced down the long gravel drive to the car, his body so hot from the change I wished I’d carried my sweater with his jeans.
The echo of his heart pounded through his ribs and spine, jolted against my chest, filling me with our shared pulses. My head spun. My stomach dropped like I was riding a roller coaster, not a werewolf. I melted against him, and all my worries and confusion bubbled back up in my wriggling stomach.
Why couldn’t things in my life be simple? Why couldn’t Pietr and I just be us? Together. In public. Crap. Why must Pietr be so amazing and so complicated—so frustrating?
We stopped neatly beside the car and I jumped off him, throwing his jeans at him. “Ugh!” I cried as he changed and slipped into his pants. “You could have just carried me. As a human. But, no. You had to get naked and go all wolf—commando. Filling my head with…” I clamped my hands over my mouth.
He had the good grace to look abashed. As if he’d never considered another possibility. “The wolf…” But he fell silent, head down as he dragged his knuckles across his forehead.
“The wolf makes him stupid,” Cat finished for him, opening the door and pulling me onto the seat beside her as headlights appeared down the road.
My body buzzed. It was like the time I’d trained so hard with Rio and found out the competition was cancelled. Like there was something still to do. With a growl of my own, I clicked my seat belt together.
Cat glared at Pietr as he tumbled into the front seat.
From the driver’s seat Max peered back at me, eyes glowing just beneath his tousle of dark curls. He had a charmingly sheepish look whenever he wasn’t wolfishly eyeing the girls who threw themselves at him. Max was werewolf number three. A few inches taller than Pietr and broader across the shoulders and chest, Maximilian Rusakova was a daunting figure whether slinking through the shadowy halls of Junction High or driving the family’s cherry-red convertible. If Max had been interested in football he could have made Junction’s Jackrabbits unstoppable.
But Max had just one interest.
Girls.
And the girls returned his interest. Eagerly (at least when he didn’t wear his specially devised necklace—which, regardless of how often Cat reminded me they were creatures of science, the necklace still seemed like it required a better, more magical, explanation).
Nuts. I was nervous. I was mentally babbling.
Nearly eighteen years old, Max was one of the most wanted seniors at Junction High, but to me, he was too much of a good thing—a little overpowering in a lot of small ways.
He rolled with laughter. “You’re both so messed up,” he choked out, wiping his eyes with the back of his hand. “Just do it and get it over with!”
“What?” I exclaimed, heat flooding my face. Do it? Okay, maybe Max was a lot overpowering in some ways.
“Watching you two frustrate each other cracks me up,” he snorted, putting the car into gear. “Don’t do it and I’m guaranteed lots of laughs! How crazy is it: a werewolf revving high and the human who wants him watches him date her friend!” The driver’s seat trembled beneath his quaking laugh.
Pietr’s face was suddenly beside Max’s ear, his lips drawn back, teeth lengthening as he grated out, “Drrrive.”
Crossing my arms, I scowled into the mirror at Max.
Normal, normal, normal! Why couldn’t I have that? But as the car pulled away I realized as angry as I was at Max, as frustrated with Pietr, still there was no place I’d rather be than with the Rusakovas.
Dammit.
* * *
I pulled myself together on the drive. “So, tell me why I’m needed. I mean, I’ll help you guys—you know that. But why do you need me?”
Max snickered, more hyena than wolf. “Are you asking Cat or Pietr?”
Cat smacked the back of Max’s seat. “Idiot!”
My eyes narrowed, and I doubled the intensity of the glare I shot Max. “Cat.”
She turned in the seat to face me. “You’ll stay with the car while we scout. I do not want us to leave and come back to find it gone. There are no good places to hide it. Stay in the front passenger’s seat, and if anyone asks questions, say—”
“The car stopped working and my stupid companion, who drove, ditched me to go find some help. We forgot our cells.”
Cat smiled at me proudly. “Horashow.”
“Spahseebuh,” I thanked her in kind.
* * *
Max pulled the car over on the edge of a road running alongside one of the many suburban neighborhoods that made up Junction. I’d been here before, years ago. There was a community pool not far from a church Mom had us attend before she and Dad
all but gave up on organized religion. I earned my first (and last) perfect attendance during the two years we were members.
It had been a friendly little neighborhood then. Now, in the soft light the occasional working streetlight cast, I noticed the sidewalks I’d once walked in what Mom called “my Sunday best” had become cracked and uneven.
“There is an old church we ran past recently. A scent we recognize,” Cat explained.
“Is it a brick and whitewashed church?”
Max’s eyes sparked. “Da, Jessie. You know it?”
“I attended it. Years ago.”
“Many probably say the same. It is abandoned,” Cat said.
“Can you guys even—” I couldn’t complete the thought.
Cat giggled. “Creatures of science, Jessie. A church is no problem. Holy water—no problem. Crucifixes? No problem.”
“Crucifixes freak you out,” Max corrected, staring her down.
“I simply feel it is strange to display an instrument of torture on your wall.” She shrugged. “We could not get the floor plans through public records,” Cat said, hesitating. “Too many questions.”
“Too little time,” Pietr added.
“It’s easy.” I chewed my lower lip, recalling details. “The main doors are probably lit. But there’s the door on the right side—up a small slope—that leads into the nave, and one around back that opens into the acolyte’s waiting room. There’s a downstairs with a kitchen and a big room they turned into Sunday school classrooms with funky folding doors. It’ll be quick to see the place.”
They nodded. Cat looked at Pietr smugly. “See, it was good to bring Jessie.”
I knew Pietr hadn’t thought I was needed, but it suddenly sounded like he hadn’t really wanted me along at all. “Wait. There’s also a basement. In the classroom area there’s a big wooden door in the floor. There’s a small staircase, but it was bad even then. The church ladies complained when they put the season’s chowchow down there before the fair.”
“Chowchow? Like the dog?” Cat quirked an eyebrow.
“No, chowchow like beans, cauliflower, and vinegar…”
“Strange people,” Max muttered.
“Seriously?” I strained against my seat belt.
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