The first of the cruising party who received a letter was Allan. ‘More worries from those everlasting lawyers,’ was all he said, when he had read the letter, and had crumpled it up in his pocket. The rector’s turn came next, before the week’s sojourn at Castletown had expired. On the fifth day, he found a letter from Somersetshire waiting for him at the hotel. It had been brought there by Midwinter, and it contained news which entirely overthrew all Mr Brock’s holiday plans. The clergyman who had undertaken to do duty for him in his absence had been unexpectedly summoned home again; and Mr Brock had no choice (the day of the week being Friday) but to cross the next morning from Douglas to Liverpool, and get back by railway on Saturday night, in time for Sunday’s service.
Having read his letter, and resigned himself to his altered circumstances as patiently as he might, the rector passed next to a question that pressed for serious consideration in its turn. Burdened with his heavy responsibility towards Allan, and conscious of his own undiminished distrust of Allan’s new friend, how was he to act in the emergency that now beset him, towards the two young men who had been his companions on the cruise?
Mr Brock had first asked himself that awkward question on the Friday afternoon; and he was still trying, vainly, to answer it, alone in his own room, at one o’clock on the Saturday morning. It was then only the end of May, and the residence of the ladies at Thorpe-Ambrose (unless they chose to shorten it of their own accord) would not expire till the middle of June. Even if the repairs of the yacht had been completed (which was not the case), there was no possible pretence for hurrying Allan back to Somersetshire. But one other alternative remained – to leave him where he was. In other words, to leave him, at the turning point of his life, under the sole influence of a man whom he had first met with as a castaway at a village inn, and who was still, to all practical purposes, a total stranger to him.
In despair of obtaining any better means of enlightenment to guide his decision, Mr Brock reverted to the impression which Midwinter had produced on his own mind in the familiarity of the cruise.
Young as he was, the ex-usher had evidently lived a wild and varied life. He had seen and observed more than most men of twice his age; his talk showed a strange mixture of sense and absurdity – of vehement earnestness at one time, and fantastic humour at another. He could speak of books like a man who had really enjoyed them; he could take his turn at the helm like a sailor who knew his duty; he could sing, and tell stories, and cook, and climb the rigging, and lay the cloth for dinner, with an odd satirical delight in the exhibition of his own dexterity. The display of these, and other qualities like them, as his spirits rose with the cruise, had revealed the secret of his attraction for Allan plainly enough. But had all disclosures rested there? Had the man let no chance light on his character in the rector’s presence? Very little; and that little did not set him forth in a morally alluring aspect. His way in the world had lain evidently in doubtful places; familiarity with the small villainies of vagabonds peeped out of him now and then; words occasionally slipped off his tongue with an unpleasantly strong flavour about them; and, more significant still, he habitually slept the light suspicious sleep of a man who has been accustomed to close his eyes in doubt of the company under the same roof with him. Down to the very latest moment of the rector’s experience of him – down to that present Friday night – his conduct had been persistently secret and unaccountable to the very last. After bringing Mr Brock’s letter to the hotel, he had mysteriously disappeared from the house without leaving any message for his companions, and without letting anybody see whether he had, or had not, received a letter himself. At nightfall, he had come back stealthily in the darkness – had been caught on the stairs by Allan, eager to tell him of the change in the rector’s plans – had listened to the news without a word of remark – and had ended by sulkily locking himself into his own room. What was there in his favour to set against such revelations of his character as these – against his wandering eyes, his obstinate reserve with the rector, his ominous silence on the subject of family and friends? Little or nothing: the sum of all his merits began and ended with his gratitude to Allan.
Mr Brock left his seat on the side of the bed, trimmed his candle, and, still lost in his own thoughts, looked out absently at the night. The change of place brought no new ideas with it. His retrospect over his own past life had amply satisfied him that his present sense of responsibility rested on no merely fanciful grounds; and having brought him to that point, had left him there, standing at the window, and seeing nothing but the total darkness in his own mind faithfully reflected by the total darkness of the night.
‘If I only had a friend to apply to!’ thought the rector. ‘If I could only find some one to help me in this miserable place!’
At the moment when the aspiration crossed his mind, it was suddenly answered by a low knock at the door; and a voice said softly in the passage outside, ‘Let me come in.’
After an instant’s pause to steady his nerves, Mr Brock opened the door, and found himself, at one o’clock in the morning, standing face to face on the threshold of his own bedroom with Ozias Midwinter.
‘Are you ill?’ asked the rector, as soon as his astonishment would allow him to speak.
‘I have come here to make a clean breast of it!’ was the strange answer. ‘Will you let me in?’
With those words he walked into the room – his eyes on the ground, his lips ashy pale, and his hand holding something hidden behind him.
‘I saw the light under your door,’ he went on, without looking up, and without moving his hand; ‘and I know the trouble on your mind which is keeping you from your rest. You are going away to-morrow morning, and you don’t like leaving Mr Armadale alone with a stranger like me.’
Startled as he was, Mr Brock saw the serious necessity of being plain with a man, who had come at that time, and had said those words to him.
‘You have guessed right,’ he answered. ‘I stand in the place of a father to Allan Armadale, and I am naturally unwilling to leave him, at his age, with a man whom I don’t know.’
Ozias Midwinter took a step forward to the table. His wandering eyes rested on the rector’s New Testament, which was one of the objects lying on it.
‘You have read that Book, in the years of a long life, to many congregations,’ he said. ‘Has it taught you mercy to your miserable fellow-creatures?’
Without waiting to be answered, he looked Mr Brock in the face for the first time, and brought his hidden hand slowly into view.
‘Read that,’ he said; ‘and, for Christ’s sake, pity me when you know who I am.’
He laid a letter of many pages on the table. It was the letter that Mr Neal had posted at Wildbad nineteen years since.
CHAPTER II1
THE MAN REVEALED
The first cool breathings of the coming dawn fluttered through the open window as Mr Brock read the closing lines of the Confession. He put it from him in silence, without looking up. The first shock of discovery had struck his mind, and had passed away again. At his age, and with his habits of thought, his grasp was not strong enough to hold the whole revelation that had fallen on him. All his heart, when he closed the manuscript, was with the memory of the woman who had been the beloved friend of his later and happier life; all his thoughts were busy with the miserable secret of her treason to her own father which the letter had disclosed.
He was startled out of the narrow limits of his own little grief by the vibration of the table at which he sat, under a hand that was laid on it heavily. The instinct of reluctance was strong in him; but he conquered it, and looked up. There, silently confronting him in the mixed light of the yellow candle-flame and the faint grey dawn, stood the castaway of the village inn – the inheritor of the fatal Armadale name.
Mr Brock shuddered as the terror of the present time, and the darker terror yet of the future that might be coming, rushed back on him at the sight of the man’s face. The man saw it, and spoke first.
‘Is my father’s crime looking at you out of my eyes?’ he asked. ‘Has the ghost of the drowned man followed me into the room?’
The suffering and the passion that he was forcing back, shook the hand that he still kept on the table, and stifled the voice in which he spoke until it sank to a whisper.
‘I have no wish to treat you otherwise than justly and kindly,’ answered Mr Brock. ‘Do me justice on my side, and believe that I am incapable of cruelly holding you responsible for your father’s crime.’
The reply seemed to compose him. He bowed his head in silence, and took up the confession from the table.
‘Have you read this through?’ he asked quietly.
‘Every word of it, from first to last.’
‘Have I dealt openly with you so far? Has Ozias Midwinter—’
‘Do you still call yourself by that name’ interrupted Mr Brock, ‘now your true name is known to me?’
‘Since I have read my father’s confession’ was the answer, ‘I like my ugly alias better than ever. Allow me to repeat the question which I was about to put to you a minute since – Has Ozias Midwinter done his best, thus far, to enlighten Mr Brock?’
The rector evaded a direct reply. ‘Few men in your position’ he said, ‘would have had the courage to show me that letter.’
‘Don’t be too sure, sir, of the vagabond you picked up at the inn till you know a little more of him than you know now. You have got the secret of my birth, but you are not in possession yet of the story of my life. You ought to know it, and you shall know it, before you leave me alone with Mr Armadale. Will you wait, and rest a little while? or shall I tell it you now?’
‘Now’ said Mr Brock, still as far away as ever from knowing the real character of the man before him.
Everything Ozias Midwinter said, everything Ozias Midwinter did, was against him. He had spoken with a sardonic indifference, almost with an insolence of tone, which would have repelled the sympathies of any man who heard him. And now, instead of placing himself at the table, and addressing his story directly to the rector, he withdrew silently and ungraciously to the window-seat. There he sat – his face averted; his hands mechanically turning the leaves of his father’s letter till he came to the last. With his eyes fixed on the closing lines of the manuscript, and with a strange mixture of recklessness and sadness in his voice, he began his promised narrative in these words:
‘The first thing you know of me’ he said, ‘is what my father’s confession has told you already. He mentions here that I was a child, asleep on his breast, when he spoke his last words in this world, and when a stranger’s hand wrote them down for him at his death-bed. That stranger’s name, as you may have noticed, is signed on the cover – “Alexander Neal, Writer to the Signet, Edinburgh.” The first recollection I have is of Alexander Neal beating me with a horsewhip (I daresay I deserved it), in the character of my stepfather.’
‘Have you no recollection of your mother at the same time?’ asked Mr Brock.
‘Yes; I remember her having shabby old clothes made up to fit me, and having fine new frocks bought for her two children by her second husband. I remember the servants laughing at me in my old things, and the horsewhip finding its way to my shoulders again, for losing my temper and tearing my shabby clothes. My next recollection gets on to a year or two later. I remember myself locked up in a lumber-room, with a bit of bread and a mug of water, wondering what it was that made my mother and my stepfather seem to hate the very sight of me. I never settled that question till yesterday, and then I solved the mystery, when my father’s letter was put into my hands. My mother knew what had really happened on board the French timber-ship, and my stepfather knew what had really happened, and they were both well aware that the shameful secret which they would fain have kept from every living creature, was a secret which would be one day revealed to me. There was no help for it – the confession was in the executor’s hands, and there was I, an ill-conditioned brat, with my mother’s negro blood in my face, and my murdering father’s passions in my heart, inheritor of their secret in spite of them! I don’t wonder at the horsewhip now, or the shabby old clothes, or the bread and water in the lumber-room. Natural penalties all of them, sir, which the child was beginning to pay already for the father’s sin.’
Mr Brock looked at the swarthy, secret face, still obstinately turned away from him.‘Is this the stark insensibility of a vagabond’ he asked himself, ‘or the despair in disguise of a miserable man?’
‘School is my next recollection,’ the other went on. ‘ A cheap place in a lost corner of Scotland. I was left there, with a bad character to help me at starting. I spare you the story of the master’s cane in the schoolroom, and the boys’ kicks in the playground. I daresay there was ingrained ingratitude in my nature; at any rate, I ran away. The first person who met me asked my name. I was too young and too foolish to know the importance of concealing it, and, as a matter of course, I was taken back to school the same evening. The result taught me a lesson which I have not forgotten since. In a day or two more, like the vagabond I was, I ran away for the second time. The school watch-dog had had his instructions, I suppose: he stopped me before I got outside the gate. Here is his mark, among the rest, on the back of my hand. His master’s marks I can’t show all on my back. Can you believe in my perversity? There was a devil in me that no dog could worry out; I ran away again as soon as I left my bed; and this time I got off. At nightfall I found myself (with a pocketful of the school oatmeal) lost on a moor. I lay down on the fine soft heather, under the lee of a great grey rock. Do you think I felt lonely? Not I! I was away from the master’s cane, away from my schoolfellows’ kicks, away from my mother, away from my stepfather; and I lay down that night under my good friend the rock, the happiest boy in all Scotland!’
Through the wretched childhood which that one significant circumstance disclosed, Mr Brock began to see dimly how little was really strange, how little really unaccountable, in the character of the man who was now speaking to him.
‘I slept soundly,’ Midwinter continued, ‘under my friend the rock. When I woke in the morning, I found a sturdy old man with a fiddle, sitting on one side of me, and two dancing dogs in scarlet jackets on the other. Experience had made me too sharp to tell the truth, when the man put his first questions. He didn’t press them – he gave me a good breakfast out of his knapsack, and he let me romp with the dogs. “I’ll tell you what,” he said, when he had got my confidence in this manner, “you want three things, my man; you want a new father, a new family, and a new name. I’ll be your father; I’ll let you have the dogs for your brothers; and if you’ll promise to be very careful of it, I’ll give you my own name into the bargain. Ozias Midwinter, junior, you have had a good breakfast – if you want a good dinner, come along with me!” He got up; the dogs trotted after him, and I trotted after the dogs. Who was my new father? you will ask. A half-bred gipsy, sir; a drunkard, a ruffian, and a thief – and the best friend I ever had! Isn’t a man your friend who gives you your food, your shelter, and your education? Ozias Midwinter taught me to dance the Highland fling; to throw somersaults; to walk on stilts; and to sing songs to his fiddle. Sometimes we roamed the country, and performed at fairs. Sometimes we tried the large towns, and enlivened bad company over its cups. I was a nice lively little boy of eleven years old – and bad company, the women especially, took a fancy to me and my nimble feet. I was vagabond enough to like the life. The dogs and I lived together, ate and drank, and slept together. I can’t think of those poor little four-footed brothers of mine, even now, without a choking in the throat. Many is the beating we three took together; many is the hard day’s dancing we did together; many is the night we have slept together, and whimpered together, on the cold hill-side. I’m not trying to distress you, sir; I’m only telling you the truth. The life with all its hardships was a life that fitted me, and the half-bred gipsy who gave me his name, ruffian as he was, was a ruffian I liked.’
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��A man who beat you!’ exclaimed Mr Brock, in astonishment.
‘Didn’t I tell you just now, sir, that I lived with the dogs? and did you ever hear of a dog who liked his master the worse for beating him? Hundreds of thousands of miserable men, women, and children would have liked that man (as I liked him) if he had always given them what he always gave me – plenty to eat. It was stolen food mostly, and my new gipsy father was generous with it. He seldom laid the stick on us when he was sober; but it diverted him to hear us yelp when he was drunk. He died drunk, and enjoyed his favourite amusement with his last breath. One day (when I had been two years in his service), after giving us a good dinner out on the moor, he sat down with his back against a stone, and called us up to divert himself with his stick. He made the dogs yelp first, and then he called to me. I didn’t go very willingly – he had been drinking harder than usual, and the more he drank the better he liked his after-dinner amusement. He was in high good-humour that day, and he hit me so hard that he toppled over, in his drunken state, with the force of his own blow. He fell with his face in a puddle, and lay there without moving. I and the dogs stood at a distance, and looked at him: we thought he was feigning, to get us near and have another stroke at us. He feigned so long that we ventured up to him at last. It took me some time to pull him over – he was a heavy man. When I did get him on his back, he was dead. We made all the outcry we could; but the dogs were little, and I was little, and the place was lonely; and no help came to us. I took his fiddle, and his stick; I said to my two brothers, “Come along, we must get our own living now;” and we went away heavy hearted, and left him on the moor. Unnatural as it may seem to you, I was sorry for him. I kept his ugly name through all my after-wanderings, and I have enough of the old leaven left in me to like the sound of it still. Midwinter or Armadale, never mind my name now – we will talk of that afterwards; you must know the worst of me first.’
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