by Brenae Shaw
“Wait, what did you say…? I don’t think I heard you correctly. So, at my track meet you knew who my dad was and you didn’t say anything? That’s why when you seen him, you had this look in your eyes that I’ve never seen before. Is that why you got with me?! To get back at my father?!”
“No baby girl, no. I had no clue who you were when I first met you. I ain’t know anything about you. That’s why I was so surprised that you was his daughter because it’s a price on his head, and my pops been looking for him since he got out. I’m not going to lie, when I seen your dad, I wanted to kill him right then and there. He took something from me that I can never get back. But you…you changed all that. I love you and I never wanted to hurt you. Hell, I never wanted you to find out this way, but your pops might not make it to see another day after what happened today.”
“What happened today?! What did he do?!”
“Baby girl, my pops is dead. I found him tied up, shot point blank in the head. I knew my pops had enemies, but Kori was his main one, and he the only one I could think of that could have done it.”
“Rashad, that’s not possible. My mom and dad are out of town, they left yesterday morning. I drove them myself, why you think I got the car? ...Lord, this is a lot to take in all in one day. Seems like my life keeps getting better and better.”
KJ sat on the swing looking up at the sky.
“Wait, you said they’re out of town…?”
“Yes, I took them at 4:30 in the morning. That’s why I didn’t go to school yesterday, but of course you wouldn’t have known that because you wasn’t answering or at school your damn self.”
“Something ain’t right. I got a bad feeling about this shit.”
As I was talking, I reached in my pocket and pulled the flash drive out.
“What’s that?”
“I transferred all the data from my pops camera to my flash drive to see who was at the house when my pops died. Only two people knew about this shit, and not too many knew the code to the gate. I need to go home and get on the computer and check this shit out.”
I realized I left my shit back at my dad’s house when I moved and it didn’t cross my mind to grab it while I was there.
“Fuck! I don’t have my computer.”
“I have my mac computer, we can use it. I just have to go home and grab it.’
“Wait baby girl, so all that shit I just told you, you not gone leave me? Even after all this?”
“Rashad, at the end of the day, what my father and your father had going on,ain’t have nothing to do with me. I know my father did some fucked up shit and I never really asked him about it, nor do I care, because it was his past. And the way things are looking, seems like it’s catching up with him. As for you, I knew something was up or different about you after that whole shit with Jayson. You was raised differently and you had to do what you thought was right. I’m sorry for your loss baby,both of them. Not only did you have to see your brother get killed in front of you,but you found your dad in that position, and I know that got your head fucked up. But the Rashad I know is strong and kind. A little aggressive when he’s pushed to his limit, but I’m grateful for you not taking the lead and killing my dad, because that would have hurt me. I love you. I’m in love with you and I’m here until the wheels fall off. I’m right here by your side and I’m not planning on leaving no time soon.”
Man I fucking love this girl. After all this, I thought she was going to give up on me and leave. But she the type of girl a nigga like me need. God I pray that nothing happens to her during all this mess, because if I lose her, I don’t know what I would do.
“Baby girl I love you so much. I got you forever baby, ain’t no leaving. We locked in for shit sho. Ima protect you the best way I can, I promise.”
“I know baby, I know.”
KJ grabbed my face and kissed me.
“Mmmhhh, I missedthem lips. Gimme another one.”
She laughed.
“You want another?”
“Yeah girl it’s been a week! I need to make up for all the time I missed.”
“How you gone make up for it?”
KJ gave me that look that instantly got my dick hard.
“How you want me to make it up to you?”
I grabbed her by the waist and slowly started kissing her on the neck, just like she liked it.
“Mhmmm, damn my pussy getting wet. Fuck, you know my spot.”
That I did know and I knew exactly where she wanted me, and that’s where I was going. I slid her pants down. She leaned up against the stairs next to the slide and lifted her right leg and put it on my shoulder to give me more access, just the way I liked it. Damn, baby girl pussy was glistening in the moonlight. Her juices was dripping like glitter and I needed that in my mouth, her taste on my tongue.
I started off licking her clit and taking my time making circles around it.
“Ahhhh shit Rashad, I miss this. Don’t stop, please don’t.”
I was too busy eating and my mama always told me don’t talk with my mouth full. I started going to work. I sucked, licked, munched, and twirled my tongue all around her pretty pearl and she came over and over. I was sucking all that shit up.
“Baby girl you taste so good, but I need to release some pressure.”
She ain’t hesitate to undo my belt to pull my pants down and what do you know, my dick was standing at attention, ready to take commands. KJ guided my shaft into her dripping waterfall and let’s just say, it took everything in me not to bust quick.
“Fuck!”
I picked her up and grabbed her ass so I could have a better grip to hold her up, and I started pumping inside her. I don’t know if it was just us fucking outside under the stars, or the fact that we haven’t seen, nor had sex with each other in a minute. All I knew was, this was giving us both an adrenaline rush. It was making her wetter and I was busting nut all up in her.
I think KJ was on birth control. We been fucking for about two months now and every time we had sex, I nutted in her. She felt so good around me, I didn’t want to stop. We came at the same time and I gave in. I laid her on the stairs with me on top of her and we stayed like that for five minutes.
“Ummm, baby? You getting heavy and my pussy getting a little cold”, she laughed.
She tried to push me off, but a nigga was heavy.
“Oh shit, I’m sorry baby.”
I got up gave her my shirt to clean her and myself up.
“I have never done that before. I don’t know if it’s you, but you bring out another side of me that I never thought I had. You’ve changed me Rashad, in a good way, and I love you for that. For showing me different, for bringing me out of my shell. Like I told you, I’m in this shit with you forever.”
“Baby girl, you just don’t know how much you’ve changed me for the better. I was on the path of doing some shit that could’ve cost me my life, but all I thought about was you and what I would do if I couldn’t see you again. I love you so much Kori. I really do and I’m not letting you go.”
“I love you Rashad.”
“I love you too baby girl.”
“Ok, let’s stop, before we get into round two”, she laughed.
“We gotta see what’s on that flash drive.”
“Yeah, you right, you right”, I laughed.
“Just meet me back at my house.”
“Ok bet. Gimme kiss. I’ll see you in a bit.” We gave each other a kiss and I waited until she got in the car and left before I drove off.
As I was driving, something wasn’t sitting right with me about my old man’s death. With Kori’s dad being out of town, the timing wasn’t adding up. I hope my head playing tricks on me because if the person I think did this isn’t dead,then I’m going to be the one who do it my damn self.
Chapter
16
Nene
Jayson thought he was going to get away with this and how he treated me the last time we met, but he had a whole notherthing coming. S
ee, I like to play the game where it hurts. I knew if I plead to the police that Jayson raped me, his whole basketball career would be long gone, and I ain’t give two fucks about him. Yeah, I was a hoe, but shit, I had to go out there and get it for myself. My daddy left when I was two. My mama was on drugs and sold her body for money. If it wasn’t drugs, she was selling her pussy. At least for me, I had something to show for it.A girl had to eat. I bought my own designer clothes, shoes, hair, nails, all the shit a girl like. I know the way I was getting my money was wrong, but everyone wasn’t so fortunate to have rich parents to take care of them.
When I got pregnant, I was scared out of my mind. I wanted to get rid of it because in reality, I knew Jayson wasn’t the father. It was his friend’s baby, Chris. The day we had the threesome, that’s wasn’t me and Chris’s first time meeting each other. We been fucking for six months while I was fucking Jayson. Don’t judge me. I know y’all slept with the best friends before. Fuck it,it’s life. But, I knew Jayson would claim it. He was finna become a big shot and I be damned if I got left behind, so, I pinned the baby on him. I don’t give a fuck. Call me a low down bitch, but I’m going to make Jayson’s life a living hell and I’m not going to stop until he feel my pain.
I just made it home from the police station from doing interviews about the whole rape case, when someone walked up behind me while I was unlocking my door.
“Who the fuck are you and why are you at my house?!”
I couldn’t really see his face because it was dark and he had a black hoodie on that covered his face.
“You Nene, right? Shelby daughter?”
“Yeah. Why the fuck you wanna know?!”
Two gunshots were fired.
“Ahhhhh!”
I felt a burning feeling in my chest. It was so painful, I couldn’t breathe. All I saw was blood on my hands and the shadow of the man run off. Oh God, please don’t let me and my baby die. I didn’t mean for any of this to happen. I promise I’ll tell the truth about everything, just please save me and my baby. I would have never thought I would lose my life. This was not only me, but my baby, that would never get to see the world. I slowly felt myself drift off. Everything just went dark and I took my last breath.
Jayson
I just got news on Nene and I’m not gonelie, that shit fucked with me heavy. Even though I hated that bitch, she ain’t deserve to die that way. I only been in jail for 48 hours and I couldn’t stand it here. I don’t think ima make it in here. A nigga like me don’t belong here and that shit starting to show. I hope I get out of here soon or ima end up killing myself in here.
“Say little nigga. I heard you love raping women. You think that shit cool and funny huh young blood? You know what they do to niggas like you that like to take women against their will? And you a pretty boy too.”
My heart dropped so fast. This nigga was big and buff as fuck. I know I wouldn’t be able to fight him off, and the way he was looking at me, I ain’t like it. Made a nigga feel uncomfortable.
Two more niggas came in behind him and I instantly shitted in my pants. Well, I thought I did. God, please don’t let this happen to me. I don’t want to get beat to death in here. I ain’t never prayed to God so much in my life until now.
“Sir, I don’t want no problems. I promise I ain’t rape no one in my life. That girl lied on me to get back at me for leaving her.”
“That’s what they all say…Ima have fun with you.”
He gave me the weirdest smile and I knew this was the end for me.
“Man, I don’t want no problems sir.”
I held my hands up as if that was going to stop him.
“Jimmy, J.D, hold him down and cover his mouth. He my bitch now.”
They came and grabbed me and threw me on the bed. I tried to scream but they had better advantage over me, so I was helpless. They put a sock in my mouth and wrapped it with a pillow case to where I couldn’t even hear my own screams. They tied my hands behind my back and my legs were tied to each side of the bed. How the fuck are they getting away with this shit? Where are the officers that are supposed to patrol this hell hole?
“It’s going to feel real good. I got it from here y’all. Watch out for the door.”
I tried to move and get loose, but I couldn’t go anywhere because I felt his weight on top of me. I instantly started crying and screaming, even though no one could hear me, but I couldn’t help it. He pulled my pants down and that’s where I lost myself, my soul, and my mind. That very day, I wanted to die. He shoved himself inside me and didn’t stop until he got all of himself inside me, and kept going.At this point, my body went numb and my brain shut off completely. I wanted this nightmare to be over with, but it seemed like hours before it ended.
“How you like that? Didn’t feel pretty huh? Don’t worry, it gets better and you’ll start liking it after awhile.”
He then licked the side of my face and told the other two dudes that was there earlier to come untie me and they just left me there.
I couldn’t even move. I was shocked and scared for my life. I felt something leaking from my leg and it was blood mixed with nut. I threw up and just curled up in the corner like a baby. I can’t do this.I know I’m not going to make it. I knew right then and there I wanted out. I don’t have anything to live for. Everything I worked hard for, I lost inthe blink of an eye. I have nothing else to live for and I don’t want to suffer like this.
So, I grabbed the sheet that they tied me up with and made it to where it would fit over the bed. I tied the other half to the window bar. I stood on top of the toilet after I knew the sheet was tight on the window bar, and at that moment, I let life take its course.
Call me a punk for taking the easy way out, but I would have died anyways and I rather leave my damn self, than to let them kill me. I felt myself losing a breath each time I tried to breathe and my last thought were, my parents and Kori. I wish I did right by her. Maybe my life would have been different. But, it’s too late now, huh?
Chapter
17
Lisa
I haven’t had a vacation in a long time. Actually, I can’t even remember when the last time I went anywhere. With having KJ at a young age and trying to finish school, I didn’t have time, especially with me working all the time. But, it was time to focus on my family and try to make things right between all of us.
Kori decided to take me to Miami for the weekend and I was shocked. I missed this man so much. He was my first love. He came back in my life and ever since that day, we’ve been spending time together everyday, all day. KJ and Kori been building their relationship back up too, and to see the smile on my baby girl face, makes me so happy. I knew I had to get it together and be there for her. I thought I was being a good parent by working and providing, but I was actually neglecting my baby and not even knowing it. I love my baby girl so much and I pray that nothing happens to her in any way, because I would lose my mind.
“I’m thinking about getting KJ a car for graduation. She deserves it all.”
Kori was on the balcony smoking a blunt.
“Baby, you’re late. I’ve been looking into one already that I think she would like.”
I showed him the picture of the all black charger with red glittered seats. Actually, it’s already hers. I just have to get some more stuff added to it for her. And justlike her father said, she deserves it all.
“Baby, that’s too much of a car for her, don’t you think?”
He was looking at me crazy like I got the girl a house or something.
“Well, it’s too late, because I already got it. It’ll be done by her graduation.”
Kori was finna protest.
“Aht aht, leave it alone. She worked her ass off and got into the college she dreamed of. My baby earned it and that’s final, end of discussion.”
“Ok, and when her ass call and say she got a speeding ticket, guess who paying for it?”
He looked at me with the side eye and I laughed.
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nbsp; “Oh, she gone pay for it. She gone learn, trust me.”
“Yeah, we gone see. But look, come here, I got a surprise for you.”
Kori had this black blind fold and I instantly got wet, but my pussy was sore as fuck because we had been fucking none stop since we got here.
“Baby I can’t take no more right now, my kitty cat need some rest.”
He laughed.
“She been resting for two hours, don’t you think that’s enough?!”
“Umm, no the fuck it’s not!”
I hit him playfully.
“Ok okok, but no, for real, put this on. I don’t want you to see what I have planned.”
“Ok.”
Kori put the blind fold on me and led me to where he wanted me to go. I had to keep my balance or my ass was going to fall, but he kept up behind me. His touch alone was making my body hot.
“Alright, take it off.”
I took the blind fold off and almost fell on my knees. I have no clue when he did all of this, but he had red and pink rose petals, with candles, leading up to a hot bubble bath.There were chocolate covered strawberries, grapes,and a bottle of wine with two glasses already filled to the top. I looked over to my left and it was nothing but gifts on top of gifts.
“Kori, you didn’t have to do this.”
I had tears running down my face at this point.
“Yes I did. You the one I always wanted to be with. I knew from day one that I was going to have you in my life forever. Yes we had a lot of ups and downs, and I know I’ve been gone, but you looked pass that and took me back, even after my past. You deserve all of this and more.”
“Baby what are you doing?! Oh my God! Please tell me you not finna do what I think you finna do…”
And yup. He did exactly what I thought. Kori dropped on one knee.
“Lisa Ranae? Will you marry me?”
“Yes, yes, yesssss! I’ll marry you!”
The ring he put on my finger was to die for. Of course it was a little too flashy for me, but I’m forever grateful.