“I never wanted to be different.”
“I know,” Maria said softly. “But one cannot help what one is born to be.”
“But won’t Ivan threaten to kill me if I leave, as he did my mother?”
“No, not this time. I will convince him that if he keeps you from your love, your broken heart will more likely bring him disaster, rather than good fortune. I will also remind him that you could divorce your Gajo at any time and return to the band. This is something you can do, Anna, so keep that in mind if you find yourself unhappy in your choice. And if you do return, you will not have to worry about Nicolai ever again. Your marriage to a Gajo will break your contract with the Lautarus. You can then do as you please, marry whom you please, marry no one if you please. The choice will once again be yours to be made at your leisure.”
“But I know nothing of bewitching men. How can I do this? You expect too much of me.”
“Do not doubt yourself, child. Look at you. This band has never seen a prettier woman. You have your mother’s glorious black hair with just enough curl to look wanton. You have your father’s purest blue eyes, his fair skin. You have your mother’s insight, her compassion. Many was the fight she got into with the band, to protect some Gajo she felt sorry for. You have done the same. You bewitch every man who looks at you. You just do not notice, because until now, you have not cared.”
“I just do not see how this can be done, in so short a time. Two months—”
“One week,” Maria cut in adamantly.
“But—”
“One week, Anna, no longer. Go to that town near here tomorrow. Look carefully at every man you see. Speak to those who interest you. Use your talent to help you. But make a choice, then bring him to me. I will know if he is a good choice.”
“But do I want a good choice?”
A question like that might have caused confusion in another, but not Maria. “You think to just use this man for a short time, then divorce him so you can return to the band? Only you can answer, child, if you can live with using a man this way. I would have no difficulty doing so, but I am not you. I think you would prefer to be happy in your choice, to make your first marriage be your only marriage.”
Maria was right, of course. Going from marriage to marriage was not much different than going from man to man. Anastasia, at least, didn’t see much difference in the two. She saw love as lasting forever. Anything less could not really be love.
Unfortunately, she didn’t see how, under the time constraint Maria was giving her, she could possibly find a man, an Englishman at that, whom she would want to stay married to. She was about to question the time constraint again when Maria’s expression, for the second time, turned very serious, and her hand was once again gripped by those gnarled fingers.
“There is something else that I must tell you, that I have also delayed too long in the telling. I will not be leaving this place.”
Anastasia frowned, thinking Maria meant to stay here with her and the English husband she was to find. But as much as she would love that to be possible, she knew Ivan would never permit it.
Hating to do so, she had to point that out. “You have told me countless times that Ivan will not let you leave, that he would kill you first.”
Maria smiled ironically. “There is nothing he can do to prevent my leaving this time, Anna. The privilege of age will not be denied a final resting place, and I have chosen this place. My time has come.”
“No!”
“Shush, daughter of my heart. This is not something that can be debated or bargained aside. And I have no desire to prolong the inevitable. I welcome this gladly, to end the pains that have burdened my body these last few years. I just must see you settled first, or I will not go in peace…Now, stop that. There is no need for tears, for something that is so natural as the death of a very old woman.”
Anastasia threw her arms around her grandmother, hiding her face against her shoulder so she would no longer see the tears that were absolutely impossible to stop. Maria had predicted distress. Distress was not exactly what Anastasia was feeling just now, with her world falling apart around her. This was much too much to withstand all at once.
But for Maria’s sake, she said, “I will do whatever is necessary to give you your peace.”
“I knew you would, child,” Maria said, patting her back soothingly. “And you see now why you must be married first? If you are all that Ivan has left, then he won’t let you go no matter the reasoning. As long as he thinks he still has me, then he will let you go. Now take yourself to bed. You need a good night’s sleep so you will have all your wits about you tomorrow, for tomorrow you search for your fate.”
Chapter 12
“And whose bed was she found in this week?”
“Lord Maldon’s. Really thought he had more sense. He must realize she’s got the pox by now, in her vain attempt to outdo the last great court Delilah.”
“And what makes you think he don’t already have it himself?”
“Hmmm, yes, I suppose it wouldn’t matter then, would it? Ah, well, there’s not much to be said for variety these days. Stick with a mistress that you keep to yourself, like I do. Might live longer that way.”
“Why don’t you just get married, then, if you want to stick with just one woman?”
“Gads, no. Nothing will put you in the grave quicker than a nagging wife. Do bite your tongue next time, before you make such an outlandish suggestion. ’Sides, what’s marriage got to do with keeping to just one woman?”
Christopher Malory was only vaguely listening to his friends’ gossip. He shouldn’t have brought them with him. They would expect to be entertained, were already showing signs of boredom as they sprawled in their chairs in his estate office, gossiping about old gossip. But he didn’t come to Haverston to entertain. He came twice a year to go over the account books, which he was trying to do this evening, then leave as quickly as possible.
It was not that he had any business or social engagements in London to draw him back in haste. It was that he never felt comfortable in Haverston, felt actually oppressed if he stayed too long.
It was a dark, gloomy place, with outdated furnishings, ugly grays and dull tans in the wall coverings throughout, even dour-looking servants who never said a word to him other than “Yes, m’lord,” or “No, m’lord.” He supposed he could redecorate it, but why bother, when he had no desire to remain in Haverston any longer than it took to go over the books and listen to his estate manager’s complaints?
It was a fine enough estate in size and income, but he hadn’t wanted or needed it. He’d already possessed a very nice estate in Ryding that he rarely visited either—he just didn’t care for the quiet of country living—as well as the title of viscount. But Haverston had been given to him in gratitude, along with a lofty new title, for having unwittingly saved the king’s life.
It hadn’t been intentional, his helping the king. It had occurred purely by accident when he’d stepped out of his mired coach into the road at just the moment that a runaway horse was tearing past. He happened to startle the horse into stopping, whereupon the horse had dumped its rider more or less into Christopher’s lap, as it were; at least Christopher had ended up flattened on the ground with a hefty weight on top of him.
As queer circumstances would have it, the rider turned out to be his king, who had been hunting in the nearby woods when his horse had been spooked by a small animal. King George, of course, had been exceedingly grateful for the interference which he swore had saved his life. And there’d been no talking him out of being quite generous in his gratitude.
His manager, Artemus Whipple, was sitting across the desk from him and avidly listening to the gossip, rather than the business at hand. Christopher had to say his name twice to draw his attention back to his last question, and repeat it once again.
Whipple was a portly, middle-aged man who had come with the estate, and Christopher had found no reason, really, to replace him. As long as the e
state produced an income, which it did, he could hardly fault him, even if some of the expenses he incurred could boggle the mind. He did always have a ready excuse for them. But some were so outlandish, they demanded questioning.
“Fifty pounds for laborers to plow and plant the home farm? Did you ship them in from the Americas?”
Whipple noted the sarcasm and blushed uncomfortably. “They were outrageously overpriced, yes, but it’s getting increasingly more difficult to find farmers to work here. There’s a silly rumor that Haverston is haunted and that’s why you won’t stay in residence.”
Christopher rolled his eyes. “What rubbish.”
“Oh, I say,” Walter Keats interjected. “First interesting thing I’ve heard since we got here. Who’s the haunter supposed to be?”
Walter, the youngest of the three friends at twenty-eight, was the one who abhorred the thought of marriage. His powdered wig was askew at the moment, after an itch had been scratched absentmindedly. Though wigs, and powered ones at that, were mostly worn only on formal occasions these days, Walter took his cue from the older aristocracy and didn’t leave his dressing room without one. Fact was, it was vanity and nothing more, since his dull brown hair didn’t give him quite the flair that a perfectly powered wig did, coupled with his vivid green eyes.
“Who?” Whipple asked the young lord with a blank look, as if he hadn’t expected his reason to be dissected, and in fact, Christopher rarely did question him further on any of his given excuses.
“Yes, who?” Walter persisted, putting the manager on the spot. “If a place is haunted, stands to reason someone is doing the haunting, now don’t it?”
Whipple’s blush increased as he said stiffly, “I really wouldn’t know, Lord Keats. I don’t give much credence to peasant superstition.”
“Nor does it matter,” Christopher added. “There are no ghosts here.”
Walter sighed. “You’re such a stick, Kit. If my home had history, as in the blood and gore type, I’d bloody well want to know it.”
“I don’t consider this my home, Walter.”
“Whyever not?”
Christopher gave a careless shrug. “The town house in London has always been my home. This place is just a place—a chore.”
David Rutherford, not as plump in the pockets as his two friends, shook his head. “Who but Kit would consider a place like this just a place. It does look a bit drab, I’ll allow, but it’s got such potential.”
David, at thirty, wasn’t quite as bored yet with life as Christopher was at thirty-two. He was handsome by any standards with his black hair and very light blue eyes, and most of his interests these days were centered around women, though he was game to try anything new, and especially anything that sounded the least bit adventurous or dangerous.
Christopher wished he felt the same, but he had developed a strange ennui this last year and couldn’t seem to find any interest in anything. He had come to realize that he was bored with all aspects of his life. It was a boredom that was beginning to weigh heavily on his mind.
With his parents dying when he was quite young, and having no other relatives, he had been raised by the family solicitor and servants, who perhaps gave him a different outlook on things. He did not find amusing what his friends did. Actually, he found very little about his life amusing anymore, which was why his boredom had become so noticeable.
“Whatever potential Haverston has would depend on time and inclination,” Christopher replied tiredly.
“You’ve got the time,” Walter pointed out. “So it must be lack of inclination.”
“Exactly,” Christopher said with a pointed look that he hoped would end the discussion, but just to be sure, he added, “Now, if you two don’t mind, I do have work to do here. I’d like to return to London before autumn.”
Since that season was a good month away, his sarcasm was duly noted and the two younger gentlemen exchanged aggrieved looks and got back to their gossiping. But Christopher no sooner glanced down at the next entry in the estate books when the butler arrived to announce some unexpected visitors from Havers Town.
The mayor, the Reverend Biggs, and Mr. Stanley, oldest member of Havers’s town council, had each shown up to welcome Christopher to the “neighborhood” on his first trip to Haverston several years ago. He had seen none of these men again, however, since there had been no occasion to visit the nearby town when he was in residence, and he couldn’t imagine what would bring them to Haverston again, particularly so late of an evening. They didn’t leave him guessing, though, got right to the point of their visit.
“We were invaded today, Lord Malory.”
“By a bunch of ungodly thieves and sellers of sin,” Reverend Biggs said most indignantly.
Walter latched on to the word “ungodly,” asking, “These are different from Godly thieves, I take it?”
He was being sarcastic, but the good reverend took him seriously instead, answering stiffly, “Heathens usually are, m’lord.”
David, however, had perked up considerably at the mention of sin. “What kind of sin were they selling?”
But Christopher, annoyed at yet another interruption to his chore, wanted to know, “Why do you bring this matter to me? Why didn’t you just have these criminals arrested?”
“Because they weren’t caught stealing. They are very clever, these heathens.”
Christopher impatiently waved that aside, since his question still hadn’t been answered. “As mayor, you can just ask them to leave your good town, so I repeat, why do you bring this matter to me?”
“Because the Gypsies aren’t staying in our town, Lord Malory, they are camping on your property, where we have no jurisdiction.”
“Gypsies? Oh, that kind of sin,” David said with a chuckle that earned him a disapproving frown from the reverend.
“So I take it you want me to ask them to leave?” Christopher said.
“Course he does, Kit. And Walter and I will come along to assist you. Couldn’t let you go alone, now could we? Never think it.”
Christopher rolled his eyes. His friends had found something to entertain themselves, after all, and by the look of them both, were quite looking forward to it.
Chapter 13
“I’ve never seen so many married men in one place,” Anastasia said in complete disgust as she joined her grandmother at their campfire that night. “For such a nice-sized town, it was sadly lacking for our purpose, Gran. I couldn’t find a single man who wasn’t either too old, too young, or too—unacceptable.”
“Not one?” Maria said in surprise.
“None.”
Maria frowned thoughtfully before asking, “What kind of ‘unacceptable’?”
“The kind that it would never be believed that I would fall in love with.”
Maria sighed with a nod. “No, that kind won’t do. Very well, I will tell Ivan tonight that we must leave. He will not question why. You can try the next town.”
“I thought you said you wanted to stay here, that you find this clearing a peaceful place to rest.”
“So I will look for a peaceful place down the road. Do not worry about me, child. I have the will to last until you wed—as long as you wed within the week.”
Anastasia’s shoulders drooped upon hearing that. She had promised herself that she wouldn’t cry again. If her grandmother really was suffering in her old age, then she would be truly selfish to wish her to remain with the living just because she knew she was going to be utterly lost without her love and guidance.
So little time left. So much she wanted to say to this woman who had raised her. So many things she wanted to thank her for. But she could think of nothing adequate enough to express it all, except..
“I love you, Gran.”
Maria’s face lit up with a smile and she reached over and squeezed Anastasia’s hand. “You will do fine, daughter of my heart. Your instincts will guide you, your insight will aid you; these things I predict for you. But if you or yours ever need my he
lp, you will have it.”
It was a fanciful claim, to offer help from the beyond, yet it still gave Anastasia immense comfort. She returned the squeeze and, to take the edge off their seriousness, teased, “You will be too busy, fending off all those handsome angels that have been waiting for you.”
“Pshaw! What do I want with more choices to make, when it’s peace I’m looking for?”
“Excellent point,” Sir William said as he joined them at the fire. “And besides, she will be waiting for me, so there won’t be any choices to make between those handsome angels, who, alas, will be infinitely disappointed.” He bowed to Maria, then dumped a handful of wildflowers into her lap. “Good evening, m’dear.”
Anastasia smiled as she observed Maria’s slight blush and the adoring look that the Englishman gave her. Another reason she liked William so much—he was good for her grandmother, was adding pleasure to her last days. She would always be grateful to him for that.
He didn’t stay long, though, since the food Maria was cooking wasn’t ready yet, and he took it upon himself to tend to her wagon horses several times each day. But no sooner did he move off toward the horses than some unexpected visitors arrived in the camp.
It was quite an entrance, three riders galloping in, stopping abruptly, one of the horses a large brown stallion that looked annoyed to have his brisk ride curtailed, if his tossing head, stomping feet, and, finally, rearing up on his back legs were any indication.
His rider controlled him admirably, though, and got him to settle down after a few moments. Anastasia looked at this man who could so easily handle such a powerful horse, and looked no further, was for the first time actually mesmerized by the sight of someone.
He was big, very big and broad of shoulder, thick of chest. His hair was blond, unpowdered. Half the English people she came across wore wigs, men and women alike, and half of those wore them powdered. But if that thick, tied-back golden mane was a wig, it was superbly made and lacking the tightly rolled curls at the temples that the English found so fashionable.
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