“Walk around,” Ysabeau said. “I need to make sure you won’t fall off and kill yourself.”
“Show a little faith, Ysabeau.” Don’t let me fall, I bargained with Rakasa, and I’ ll make sure you get an apple a day for the rest of your life. My mount’s ears shot forward, then back, and she nickered gently. We circled the paddock twice before I drew to a gentle stop in front of Matthew’s mother. “Satisfied?”
“You’re a better rider than I expected,” she admitted. “You could probably jump, but I promised Matthew we would not.”
“He managed to wheedle a fair number of promises out of you before he left,” I muttered, hoping she wouldn’t hear me.
“Indeed,” she said crisply, “some of them harder to keep than others.”
We passed through the open paddock gate. Georges touched his cap to Ysabeau and shut the gate behind us, grinning and shaking his head.
Matthew’s mother kept us on relatively flat ground while I got used to the strange saddle. The trick was to keep your body square despite how off-kilter you felt.
“This isn’t too bad,” I said after about twenty minutes.
“It is better now that the saddles have two pommels,” Ysabeau said. “Before, all sidesaddles were good for was being led around by a man.” Her disgust was audible. “It was not until the Italian queen put a pommel and stirrup on her saddle that we could control our own horses. Her husband’s mistress rode astride so she could go with him when he exercised. Catherine was always being left at home, which is most unpleasant for a wife.” She shot me a withering glance. “Henry’s whore was named after the goddess of the hunt, like you.”
“I wouldn’t have crossed Catherine de’ Medici.” I shook my head.
“The king’s mistress, Diane de Poitiers, was the dangerous one,” Ysabeau said darkly. “She was a witch.”
“Actually or metaphorically?” I asked with interest.
“Both,” Matthew’s mother said in a tone that could strip paint. I laughed. Ysabeau looked surprised, then joined in.
We rode a bit farther. Ysabeau sniffed the air and sat taller in the saddle, her face alert.
“What is it?” I asked anxiously, keeping Rakasa under a tight rein.
“Rabbit.” She kicked Fiddat into a canter. I followed closely, reluctant to see if it was as difficult to track a witch in the forest as Matthew had suggested.
We streaked through the trees and out into the open field. Ysabeau held Fiddat back, and I pulled alongside her.
“Have you ever seen a vampire kill?” Ysabeau asked, watching my reaction carefully.
“No,” I said calmly.
“Rabbits are small. That’s where we will begin. Wait here.” She swung out of the saddle and dropped lightly to the ground. Fiddat stood obediently, watching her mistress. “Diana,” she said sharply, never taking her eyes off her prey, “do not come near me while I’m hunting or feeding. Do you understand?”
“Yes.” My mind raced at the implications. Ysabeau was going to chase down a rabbit, kill it, and drink its blood in front of me? Staying far away seemed an excellent suggestion.
Matthew’s mother darted across the grassy field, moving so fast it was impossible to keep her in focus. She slowed just as a falcon does in midair before it swoops in for the kill, then bent and grabbed a frightened rabbit by the ears. Ysabeau held it up triumphantly before sinking her teeth directly into its heart.
Rabbits may be small, but they are surprisingly bloody if you bite into them while they’re still alive. It was horrifying. Ysabeau sucked the blood out of the animal, which quickly ceased struggling, then wiped her mouth clean on its fur and tossed its carcass into the grass. Three seconds later she was swinging herself back into the saddle. Her cheeks were slightly flushed, and her eyes sparkled more than usual. Once mounted, she looked at me.
“Well?” she asked. “Shall we look for something more filling, or do you need to return to the house?”
Ysabeau de Clermont was testing me.
“After you,” I said grimly, touching Rakasa’s flank with my heel.
The remainder of our ride was measured not by the movement of the sun, which was still hidden behind clouds, but by the increasing amounts of blood Ysabeau’s hungry mouth drew from her kills. She was a relatively neat eater. Still, it would be some time before I was happy at the prospect of a large steak.
I was numb to the sight of blood after the rabbit, the enormous squirrel-like creature that Ysabeau told me was a marmot, the fox, and the wild goat—or so I thought. When Ysabeau gave chase to a young doe, however, something prickled inside me.
“Ysabeau,” I protested. “You can’t still be hungry. Leave it.”
“What? The goddess of the hunt objects to my pursuit of her deer?” Her voice mocked, but her eyes were curious.
“Yes,” I said promptly.
“I object to your hunting of my son. See what good that has done.” Ysabeau swung down from her horse.
My fingers itched to intervene, and it was all I could do to stay out of Ysabeau’s way while she stalked her prey. After each kill, her eyes revealed that she wasn’t completely in command of her emotions—or her actions.
The doe tried to escape. It almost succeeded by darting into some underbrush, but Ysabeau frightened the animal back into the open. After that, fatigue put the doe at a disadvantage. The chase touched off something visceral within me. Ysabeau killed swiftly, and the doe didn’t suffer, but I had to bite my lip to keep from shouting.
“There,” she said with satisfaction, returning to Fiddat. “We can go back to Sept-Tours.”
Wordlessly I turned Rakasa’s head in the direction of the château.
Ysabeau grabbed my horse’s reins. There were tiny drops of blood on her cream shirt. “Do you think vampires are beautiful now? Do you still think it would be easy to live with my son, knowing that he must kill to survive?”
It was difficult for me to put “Matthew” and “killing” in the same sentence. Were I to kiss him one day, when he was just returned from hunting, there might still be the taste of blood on his lips. And days like the one I was now spending with Ysabeau would be regular occurrences.
“If you’re trying to frighten me away from your son, Ysabeau, you failed,” I said resolutely. “You’re going to have to do better than this.”
“Marthe said this would not be enough to make you reconsider,” she confessed.
“She was right.” My voice was curt. “Is the trial over? Can we go home now?”
We rode toward the trees in silence. Once we were within the forest’s leafy green confines, Ysabeau turned to me. “Do you understand why you must not question Matthew when he tells you to do something?”
I sighed. “School is over for the day.”
“Do you think our dining habits are the only obstacle standing between you and my son?”
“Spit it out, Ysabeau. Why must I do what Matthew says?”
“Because he is the strongest vampire in the château. He is the head of the house.”
I stared at her in astonishment. “Are you saying I have to listen to him because he’s the alpha dog?”
“You think you are?” Ysabeau chortled.
“No,” I conceded. Ysabeau wasn’t the alpha dog either. She did what Matthew told her to do. So did Marcus, Miriam, and every vampire at the Bodleian Library. Even Domenico had ultimately backed down. “Are these the de Clermont pack rules?”
Ysabeau nodded, her green eyes glittering. “It is for your safety—and his, and everyone else’s—that you must obey. This is not a game.”
“I understand, Ysabeau.” I was losing my patience.
“No, you don’t,” she said softly. “You won’t either, until you are forced to see, just as I made you see what it is for a vampire to kill. Until then these are only words. One day your willfulness will cost your life, or someone else’s. Then you will know why I told you this.”
We returned to the château without further conversation. Wh
en we passed through Marthe’s ground-floor domain, she came out of the kitchen, a small chicken in her hands. I blanched. Marthe took in the tiny spots of blood on Ysabeau’s cuffs and gasped.
“She needs to know,” Ysabeau hissed.
Marthe said something low and foul-sounding in Occitan, then nodded at me. “Here, girl, come with me and I will teach you to make my tea.”
Now it was Ysabeau’s turn to look furious. Marthe made me something to drink and handed me a plate with a few crumbly biscuits studded with nuts. Eating chicken was out of the question.
Marthe kept me busy for hours, sorting dried herbs and spices into tiny piles and teaching me their names. By midafternoon I could identify them by smell with my eyes closed as well as by appearance.
“Parsley. Ginger. Feverfew. Rosemary. Sage. Queen Anne’s lace seeds. Mugwort. Pennyroyal. Angelica. Rue. Tansy. Juniper root.” I pointed to each in turn.
“Again,” Marthe said serenely, handing me a bunch of muslin bags.
I picked the strings apart, laying them individually on the table just as she did, reciting the names back to her one more time.
“Good. Now fill the bags with a pinch of each.”
“Why don’t we just mix it all together and spoon it into the bags?” I asked, taking a bit of pennyroyal between my fingers and wrinkling my nose at its minty smell.
“We might miss something. Each bag must have every single herb—all twelve.”
“Would missing a tiny seed like this really make a difference to the taste?” I held a tiny Queen Anne’s lace seed between my index finger and thumb.
“One pinch of each,” Marthe repeated. “Again.”
The vampire’s experienced hands moved surely from pile to pile, neatly filling the bags and tightening their strings. After we finished, Marthe brewed me a cup of tea using a bag I’d filled myself.
“It’s delicious,” I said, happily sipping my very own herbal tea.
“You will take it back to Oxford with you. One cup a day. It will keep you healthy.” She started putting bags into a tin. “When you need more, you will know how to make it.”
“Marthe, you don’t have to give me all of it,” I protested.
“You will drink this for Marthe, one cup a day. Yes?”
“Of course.” It seemed the least I could do for my sole remaining ally in the house—not to mention the person who fed me.
After my tea I went upstairs to Matthew’s study and switched on my computer. All that riding had made my forearms ache, so I moved the computer and manuscript to his desk, hoping that it might be more comfortable to work there rather than at my table by the window. Unfortunately, the leather chair was made for someone Matthew’s height, not mine, and my feet swung freely.
Sitting in Matthew’s chair made him seem closer, however, so I remained there while waiting for my computer to boot up. My eyes fell on a dark object tucked into the tallest shelf. It blended into the wood and the books’ leather bindings, which hid it from casual view. From Matthew’s desk, however, you could see its outlines.
It wasn’t a book but an ancient block of wood, octagonal in shape. Tiny arched windows were carved into each side. The thing was black, cracked, and misshapen with age.
With a pang of sadness, I realized it was a child’s toy.
Matthew had made it for Lucas before Matthew became a vampire, while he was building the first church. He’d tucked it into the corner of a shelf where no one would notice it—except him. He couldn’t fail to see it, every time he sat at his desk.
With Matthew at my side, it was all too easy to think we were the only two in the world. Not even Domenico’s warnings or Ysabeau’s tests had shaken my sense that our growing closeness was a matter solely between him and me.
But this little wooden tower, made with love an unimaginably long time ago, brought my illusions to an end. There were children to consider, both living and dead. There were families involved, including my own, with long and complicated genealogies and deeply ingrained prejudices, including my own. And Sarah and Em still didn’t know that I was in love with a vampire. It was time to share that news.
Ysabeau was in the salon, arranging flowers in a tall vase on top of a priceless Louis XIV escritoire with impeccable provenance—and a single owner.
“Ysabeau?” My voice sounded hesitant. “Is there a phone I could use?”
“He will call you when he wants to talk to you.” She took great care placing a twig with turning leaves still attached to it among the white and gold flowers.
“I’m not calling Matthew, Ysabeau. I need to speak to my aunt.”
“The witch who called the other night?” she asked. “What is her name?”
“Sarah,” I said with a frown.
“And she lives with a woman—another witch, yes?” Ysabeau kept putting white roses into the vase.
“Yes. Emily. Is that a problem?”
“No,” Ysabeau said, eyeing me over the blooms. “They are both witches. That’s all that matters.”
“That and they love each other.”
“Sarah is a good name,” Ysabeau continued, as if I hadn’t spoken. “You know the legend, of course.”
I shook my head. Ysabeau’s changes in conversation were almost as dizzying as her son’s mood swings.
“The mother of Isaac was called Sarai—‘quarrelsome’—but when she became pregnant, God changed it to Sarah, which means ‘princess.’”
“In my aunt’s case, Sarai is much more appropriate.” I waited for Ysabeau to tell me where the phone was.
“Emily is also a good name, a strong, Roman name.” Ysabeau clipped a rose stem between her sharp fingernails.
“What does Emily mean, Ysabeau?” Happily I was running out of family members.
“It means ‘industrious.’ Of course, the most interesting name belonged to your mother. Rebecca means ‘captivated,’ or ‘bound,’” Ysabeau said, a frown of concentration on her face as she studied the vase from one side and then the other. “An interesting name for a witch.”
“And what does your name mean?” I said impatiently.
“I was not always Ysabeau, but it was the name Philippe liked for me. It means ‘God’s promise.’” Ysabeau hesitated, searching my face, and made a decision. “My full name is Geneviève Mélisande Hélène Ysabeau Aude de Clermont.”
“It’s beautiful.” My patience returned as I speculated about the history behind the names.
Ysabeau gave me a small smile. “Names are important.”
“Does Matthew have other names?” I took a white rose from the basket and handed it to her. She murmured her thanks.
“Of course. We give all of our children many names when they are reborn to us. But Matthew was the name he came to us with, and he wanted to keep it. Christianity was very new then, and Philippe thought it might be useful if our son were named after an evangelist.”
“What are his other names?”
“His full name is Matthew Gabriel Philippe Bertrand Sébastien de Clermont. He was also a very good Sébastien, and a passable Gabriel. He hates Bertrand and will not answer to Philippe.”
“What is it about Philippe that bothers him?”
“It was his father’s favorite name.” Ysabeau’s hands stilled for a moment. “You must know he is dead. The Nazis caught him fighting for the Resistance.”
In the vision I’d had of Ysabeau, she’d said Matthew’s father was captured by witches.
“Nazis, Ysabeau, or witches?” I asked quietly, fearing the worst.
“Did Matthew tell you?” Ysabeau looked shocked.
“No. I saw you in one of my visions yesterday. You were crying.”
“Witches and Nazis both killed Philippe,” she said after a long pause. “The pain is recent, and sharp, but it will fade in time. For years after he was gone I hunted only in Argentina and Germany. It kept me sane.”
“Ysabeau, I’m so sorry.” The words were inadequate, but they were heartfelt. Matthew’s mother must ha
ve heard my sincerity, and she gave me a hesitant smile.
“It is not your fault. You were not there.”
“What names would you give me if you had to choose?” I asked softly, handing another stem to Ysabeau.
“Matthew is right. You are only Diana,” she said, pronouncing it in the French style as she always did, with the emphasis on the first syllable. “There are no other names for you. It is who you are.” Ysabeau pointed her white finger at the door to the library. “The phone is inside.”
Seated at the desk in the library, I switched on the lamp and dialed New York, hoping that both Sarah and Em were home.
“Diana.” Sarah sounded relieved. “Em said it was you.”
“I’m sorry I couldn’t call back last night. A lot happened.” I picked up a pencil and began to twirl it through my fingers.
“Would you like to talk about it?” Sarah asked. I almost dropped the phone. My aunt demanded we talk about things—she never requested.
“Is Em there? I’d rather tell the story once.”
Em picked up the extension, her voice warm and comforting. “Hi, Diana. Where are you?”
“With Matthew’s mother near Lyon.”
“Matthew’s mother?” Em was curious about genealogy. Not just her own, which was long and complicated, but everyone else’s, too.
“Ysabeau de Clermont.” I did my best to pronounce it as Ysabeau did, with its long vowels and swallowed consonants. “She’s something, Em. Sometimes I think she’s the reason humans are so afraid of vampires. Ysabeau’s straight out of a fairy tale.”
There was a pause. “Do you mean you’re with Mélisande de Clermont?” Em’s voice was intense. “I didn’t even think of the de Clermonts when you told me about Matthew. You’re sure her name is Ysabeau?”
I frowned. “Actually, her name is Geneviève. I think there’s a Mélisande in there, too. She just prefers Ysabeau.”
“Be careful, Diana,” Em warned. “Mélisande de Clermont is notorious. She hates witches, and she ate her way through most of Berlin after World War II.”
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