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by Aileen Wuornos


  Take it Slow Gal!

  Love Lee

  5-23-92

  Dear Dawn,

  . . . We did have alot of fun together. I remember taking you to the race track. or you coaxed me. But anyway. Remember how I teached you to panhandle. We made out pretty good too. Didnt we. Remember our bell bottom pants. Wheew whew and when studs came out. Lord we started to stud everything. I remember your black hip hugger bell bottoms you loved to wear. And you studded them up the leg. Then Ducky fell in love with em. And put them on. They were real tight. and a bit short on him. But he still wanted to wear them. And if I remember right. You’d both always fight over clothes. I remember the last time I saw Keith. Even though he had cancer. Was at your house in the basement. He went to a party and broke his leg coming down a step. His marrow was getting weak. I didnt witness this. I remember him telling me about it . . . The next time Id see him from this, was when I hitchhiked out to San Francisco, to see him at lettermans Army & medical center. I got Lucky. A construction worker gave me 100 bucks to help out on my trip to see him . . . so, I went shopping for some things to get him . . . I bought a wooden flute that was real gypsy lookin, and the book chariot of the Gods. and a Bible. I didnt know his cancer note was the size of half of a football on his neck. So I was sad at getting him the flute afterward. Anyway! when I finally arrived at the hospital. I asked where keith wuornos was. So a nurse said. Ones in room such and such over there. I said Thanks. Then proceeded in. There was 2 guys lying in separate hospital beds. One guy had a sheet and blanket up to his eyes. So I said. Is Keith wuornos here. I’m looking for my brother. So the guy. In the sheet up to the eyes said. He went downstairs to shoot some pool. OK! Thanks I said and started out, Thinking in mind suddenly. heck! if hes shootin pool, he must be feeling O.K. Great! Then the guy said Aili. come er. Questionably I turned and said Keith? He said don’t freak out when I pull the sheet down. And as he did. He imitated Bugs Bunny—and you know he can do him well —and he said Ā whats up doc! My eyes immediately filled with tears, as they widened to 50 cent pieces. The tumor was so huge on his neck. I kept telling him I’m sorry Im balling my eyes out Keith, but man. This is really scarring me. He said it was the size of maybe a pencil head. But since he volunteered to be a guinee pig for them. They didnt cut it out. and its grown some now. I flew off the handle and said. Whose your Doctor. So he told me. He said they keep telling him he has a 50/50 chance to live. But he didnt feel so. So I said. Ill be right back. I want to ask him myself. He protested a little. But soon I was out the door. Asking the nurse. She said oh there he is now. Right down the hall. I hurridly walked up to him. And said. What the hell do you think your doing to my brother Keith Wuornos . . . And I was yellin. But I didnt care. He said. I’m sorry that your brother has caught this disease. And we were trying all kinds of experiments to save his life. Bullshit I said. He’s already explained the genuee pig jazz to me. Go on in there, as I was pointing to his room. And tell him he’s dying. Man! You fucking bastard. I hope we get a chance to sue the fuck outta you. And turned around and walked off. When I got back to the room. Keith heard everything. But he didnt bicker on it. So he was glad I knew then that I told an army personnel off. ha ha ha! . . . He said I know how you getting your money Aili. I know your husseling. And I want you to stop it. I’m leaving you. . . 10,000 dollars in a benneficary. I said I wont take it Keith. I dont want your money . . . I just want you to live . . . Anyway I stayed three days visiting him. He said I was the only one who’d come to see him in nearly 8 months now. This broke my heart. So I told him. I’d come more often. When I could. Four months later when I was really doing good hooking, wanting to rent out an apartment in San Francisco so I could be near him. They transferred him then to Ann Arbor medical center. Screwing up my plans. So I hitched from Florida . . . now. Ducky, I think you, and others where dropping in. So I didnt have to worry about his spirits as much . . . I just thought I’d lay this story on you. Many many of them. I bet you’ve got alot of them too. So you see that’s why I’m writing so much. old friend! OK Gotta Go Love Lee

  6-1-92

  Dear Dawn,

  . . . Yes we are like Sisters. My heart feels for you as one. I love you as one . . . Once I do love someone. Its all out. I am a very affectionate person . . . Eventually Ill be working on a drawing. All my work has been in ink. And itll be sent to you. When I get started Ill let ya know. The artwork takes days . . . Arlene has around 18 blue ink ones. My best . . . Even since I hit this place. I havent communicated on the phone with Arlene. I miss it. But not a whole lot. Arlenes phone bills were. 1,500 and 3,000. what?! Yeah her and I when I first was introduced to her. We talked for 3 hours24 nearly everyday for quite a while . . . But the cops fuckin lied so much, and as so much lying has gone on, I don’t know who to trust anymore . . . Take it slow. 4-now. Love Lee

  6-2-92

  Dear Dawn,

  The contract I signed [with Jackie25] is NO-GOOD. I want her sued. So she realizes shes not going to get away with claiming something she doesnt rightfully have . . . There in for a big surprize thats for sure . . .

  Dawn do you remember when the barn out near uttica got burned down The matches and hey put together. All of us were trippin. . . . We went to this haunted house deal. Where devil worshippers were once in a while using it to sacrifice animals in. Anyway it had a barn full of hay. [Someone] came up with a great idea. Since it was full of the stuff. To put matches in a line like a wick with hay. Then lit it. We took off. And about 2 or 3 miles down the road at a store we sat. Waiting for the out come. And suddenly we saw the sky glow like mars was ready to come up from the horizon. If not. Its in my book. ha ha! I hope you do. We were stoned on orange sunshine26 and other stuff. plus beer. We had so much fun together. All of us. The gang. Certainly do miss those days. 4-sure! . . . We all just were out having fun like any teenagers do. Or did back then. Today the kids are really dangerous. That dam crack. Never tried it and Glad I didnt. Seems strange. Cause I’ve tried nearly every thing. But I started to hate drugs. BAD! after 17. Pot I gave up too then. And from then on just drank. Period. Since then I’ve only snorted about 5 lines in my life cocaine. And smoked about 20 joints. Zip! Thats it. Nothing else. When I husseled I only drank beer. A couple times mix. But wasnt really to into it. Because when I was 21 or 22. I got hooked on white lightening for 2 weeks. Decided to quit. And it took me a month and a half to just get over the shakes from it. I realized then. hard stuff wasnt worth it . . .

  ha ha ha! I was a trip in my early 20(s) Had alot of fun. Well . . . Take Good care of yourself.

  I mean it!

  please!

  4-now

  Love Lee

  6-2-92

  Dear Dawn,

  Hey Dawn! . . . I talked to BBC27 today. Nice crew! NBC Dateline. Kept cutting on me. I couldn’t get a whole sentence out for nothing. But BBC. They let me roll! And I am a bit worried. “On my timing.” But I also explained about Arlene, and Steve. as for There only interest in the money. As well as coaxing me to plead guilty . . . Which is really sick. Isnt it! But I’m kinda scared. Cause they are my back bone still to certain things. When they find out this. Shew! Shits gonna hit the fan. I spoke highly of you! . . . To be truthfull. I think I need a new lawyer. But do not know what the hell to do. I hope a pro boner comes along . . . I also explained how Arlene and Steve are lying to the media about me. That I said I wanted to die and jazz. I said it differently then that! I said, I guess if I have to die, in order to bust the crooked cops I will! . . .

  Yes they do have to prove without a reasonable doubt that I was raped. But they did not do that. That is one of at least 30 reasons, I did not receive a fair trial. And also why I waived off. All other trials. I could see. There was no point, in trying to fight a pack of Vulgerous evil cops and a county court system, all entwined in the movie . . . You see. That is why an investigation has to be done. And that is why. I need the Supreme court . . . Gotta Go 4-now Love Lee

  6-3-92

  Dear Dawn,
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  Hi! . . . Man the memories just start rolling away in my mind. I miss ya! . . . When you said about Dave askin us if we needed a lift. All this I do not recall . . . I must of been blitzed. Darn. I thought we went to the bar and you met him there.

  Matter of fact I thought Dave was hitting on me, and I shoved him off in my nonchalant manner. So he went to you . . . All these years I had a wrong panorama of it. Shit! oh well! . . .

  The wizard of oz I am completely intrigued with.28 And also had in mind at collecting stuff on it. When I was with Toni it started. With tyria I was going to begin. But she always spent my bread that I’d make. and I never had a chance to. So the next day I’d go out and make more. It was so easy to. And big bucks. All the bars, fancy night clubs, and restaurants we’d hit. As well as her buying clothes for herself. I had one beat up bra, a few pair of underwear—recked tennis shoes. 3 pairs of pants and 5 Tshirts to my name. She had gobs of clothes. I couldnt help it. I was insanely in love with her. And just wanted her to have it all. I was her puppet . . .

  Stay cool Dawn..

  Take good care of that health of yours. O.K.! 4-now Love

  Lee

  P.S. Thank you for the Wiz stamp. “I Love it!” Its neat.

  6-8-92

  (1)

  Arlene Jazz

  Dear Dawn,

  Im gonna do some feed back to you on all the cheating feelings and lying feelings I have over concerning Arlene . . . I have been nothing but lied to . . .

  When I was arrested . . . eventually I confessed to self-defense . . . Well the cops must of got pissed off. Cause I didnt fit there questions right for there “Seriel Killing scam” . . . Anyway [the cops] got pissed off and told the guards to put me in medical lock down, and feed her full of drugs. I was crying like a mother fucker, shaking like crazy., And was DTing and withdrawing from all my alcohol. Plus shook up! . . . So when they offered me a 25 mg Librium pill and 4 . . . 25 mg vistoril pills, I took them gladly ... I later learned these were sinous pills not tranquilizers29 from Arlenes “Doctor” . . . I stayed in this lock down haveing done nothing for 15 days. And now hooked on Visteril. Once

  they realized I was good and hooked they let me out. Now during the time in medical lock down. My public defender Raymond Cass and [another lawyer] came to see me 4 times. DURING JANUARY The 1st time was cass only. The very first thing he said to me. Was! I am gonna try to do my damest from keeping you from the chair, In the meantinme youll probably get life. And I know you haven’t got a family or financial aid,. Ive been contacted by a women named Jackie Giourx who would like to do a book and movie about you . . . I said. I’m not too interested in this ... I want to know about my case. What do you mean “life in prison!” I don’t deserve nothing man! I merely defended my ass . . . He said well we’ll talk about that later. Theres a lot of things I have to check into before I can give you any concrete answers. But right now . . . I came to financially help you! During your jail time your gonna need money . . . If your interested. You need to tell me now . . . I said right now I’m not! . . . So then he left. two days later he shows up, with my old P.D. who represented me in 81 on my armed Robbery charge. “Russel Armstrong” . . . When I saw him I was shocked! And kinda glad. he’s a good defense attorney. And immediately said. Are you going to be representing me . . . he said. No not really! Its all on Jackie again. And that Russel A is willing to become my civil attorney to the movie deal. to make sure everything is legal and honest. Free of charge at that. So I think (a) while. Then said . . . Sounds like a good deal. Then he says. But this will have to be very (a) closed subject and Silent, We could loose our careers over this. So I consider and consider listen more consider and finally agree. He then says. She’s willing to give you 60 dollars a month every month untill the movies completed. Then once completed $150,000 is as far as she’ll go . . . The Son of Sam law30 cant touch it. Because we’ll have it put in a trust fund. Where as one of us will be gaurdian over it. And will send you any amount whenever you need it. I was all messed up in the head over everything., the drugs (visteril), incarceration, all of it! But still agreed not rationalizing things out. Which today I regret over. The murder charges still were not discussed . . . Now the 16th31 I confessed and it was now around the 21st when I excepted the deal . . . 1 week later Russel comes to Jail with contract, 9 copies to sign “Why 9?” I later in life

  figure out why. The other people involved with them getting a piece of the rock. I sign contract on the 31st . . . next letters on the way. It really gets interesting. The crookedness is so wild and evil.

  Let me close So I can get on with a new letter.

  4-now

  Love

  Lee

  6-8-92

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  Arlene Jazz

  Dear Dawn,

  OK! Now comes in Arlene: Alright after I’m out of medical lock-up. (February 1st 91) Which occurred around 11:30 A.M. 2 hours later I am given a letter from her by a female guard. Now mail does not begin to be distributed until 4:00 or 5:00 in the evening. But I receive this around 2:00 P.M. . . . The letter does not seem to be “post marked”. But I do not recognize this untill weeks later . . . tyria’s letter was (also) handed to me early in the morning. With no stamp (or) post mark . . . Which led me to call her up on the phone that was tapped. All our 11 phone calls where recorded. As she worked as an Agent for the cops. To get me to confess. Why I actually did! Is because (over the phone) she threatened to kill herself. Although thoughts to turn myself in. Did come and go. Just to clear her anyway! I wasn’t in the market to do it then, though ... So anyway the letter speaks about her being a “Royal Christian” . . . And may have wound up like me. If it hadn’t been for Christ turning her life over to him Also that she NEVER, EVER, reads (or) listens to the News. But while she was in the hospital visiting her Father who just had “open heart surgery done”, she noticed my picture in the paper and circumstances, and my eyes she said. Seemed to show innocents. And she feels God had her pick up the Newspaper. And reveal this to her. And for her to come to my aid and help if she could. She leaves me her phone number. To call collect. I DO ... We talk a good three hours! I tell her all about the Bullshit that has been going on. I tell her about the contract. She asks me to send it to her. And she’ll get in touch with her “lawyer in Utah” And have him check it out and see if its Bogus or not. I still haven’t fired Cass and his evil ass gang! Its the 1st. I fire them verbally the 3rd. So about 3 weeks later I learn the contract is Bogus. But all along think it is by common sense the way its drawn. Anyway After re-reading it over and over! So that’s why I don’t fear firing Armstrong and Jackie too after I do Cass. Which is legally done the middle of February as well . . . Now heres the clincher Dawn . . . The envelope has no post mark . . . And how I figure this . . . got through is as such . . . Is that while Jackie was in Daytona at the Marriot for 4 days to see Russel Armstrong on contract, She also seen her ol’ friend Arlene . . . and lets her in on the money, as well, if she’d use her Christian ingenuity—and influence on me . . . (hoping) (I’d) spill my guts out about my life and history along the way to her. So Arlene wrote a letter and Jackie gave it to Russel, he got it through the Jail, probably small time pay off, And guard hands it to me! . . . Anyway it also seems strange a woman who owns 35 acres. 33 horses wealthy as hell would suddenly decide to come to my defense cause of Gods pushing . . . By the way! I feel Arlene knows I’m feeding you all this information and has refused to send me stamps! She doesn’t want you to know! . . . And I’ve got about 10 letters I need plus more to get out to you. So please send me a couple books of stamps if you can afford to. I want “YOU” to hear it “ALL”. Then you can tell the world! Someday and get rich. I’d love it. You deserve it. These scum balls don’t! . . . Anyways I feel that Arlene still came in for Jackie and pretended to act like she doesn’t know anything about the contract. Because cass [and the others] could loose their jobs over this. Working movie deals (while) being P.D.s. And Jackie also is scared (that I would learn) the contra
ct is, “Bogus.” And would seek a lawsuit! . . . So Arlene excepts contract for me to send . . . So now that shes agreed to this. Shes really gets me on her side! But you must realize the pills had me messed up . . . I’m to furious to think coherent . . . Shit. More in next letter. Love ya Gal

  Lee

  SORRY DAWN 4 pgs SUCK I KNOW!

  6-8-92

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  Arlene Jazz

  Dear Dawn,

  ... suddenly [Arlene] changes her tune and wants me to now give Jackie a chance . . . Make her change the contract . . . So on recorded convo, all 3 of us on phone talking. We get the situation squared off. Armstrong and anyone else is out . . . Arlene . . . start[s] me recording via phone info for her movie. Nothing about crimes (.) Just childhood life First. After first trial. I am to give her info on Killings. So no killings are discussed. But (are) secretly to Arlene. And very vague in detail. Just to let her know . . . (why) I had to do it . . . No new contract is drawn up. That is perpitually stated over and over . . . A few months go by ... And a Revelation none of us have known comes out of the dark. By Jackie finding out. Its the Investigators who had interviewed me for 3 hours when I confessed, and with tyria Jolene moore. (All are involved in a movie.) . . . 4 to 6 weeks “before” anyones arrest was even made. Of course tyria was working with them on how to get me to confess . . . tyria knows its “Self-defense”. But has been offered [money] to make her change her knowledge of Self-defense and agree with the cops . . . And Jackie (now) almost has her screen play finnished. And suddenly (now) Arlene gets in an accident. one of her mares kick her in the back . . . She says she was “merasulously healed by God.” . . . myself now I don’t even believe she was in that hospital . . . Suddenly the guards start messing me. Falsifying DR reports. To get me in Solitary confinement. Which leaves me unable to contact Trisha. I am locked up for 6 months in Solitary . . . the officers are also trying again to Kill me since the visteril didnt work ... I loose 45 lbs. They feed me food not even a dog, cat, or gator would eat . . They also harrass me heavy mentally ... And want me to hang myself bad. One guard even through me a torn towel in my cell. And said enjoy yourself tonight . . . Isnt it ever dirty Dawn. 4-now Love Lee

 

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