The Sound and the Fury

by William Faulkner

  listen save this for a while I want to know if shes all right

  have they been bothering her up there

  thats something you dont need to trouble yourself about

  then I heard myself saying Ill give you until sundown to leave town

  he broke a piece of bark and dropped it into the water then he laid the bark on the rail and rolled a cigarette with those two swift motions spun the match over the rail

  what will you do if I dont leave

  Ill kill you dont think that just because I look like a kid to you

  the smoke flowed in two jets from his nostrils across his face

  how old are you

  I began to shake my hands were on the rail I thought if I hid them hed know why

  Ill give you until tonight

  listen buddy whats your name Benjys the natural isnt he you are

  Quentin

  my mouth said it I didnt say it at all

  Ill give you till sundown

  Quentin

  he raked the cigarette ash carefully off against the rail he did it slowly and carefully like sharpening a pencil my hands had quit shaking

  listen no good taking it so hard its not your fault kid it would have been some other fellow

  did you ever have a sister did you

  no but theyre all bitches

  I hit him my open hand beat the impulse to shut it to his face his hand moved as fast as mine the cigarette went over the rail I swung with the other hand he caught it too before the cigarette reached the water he held both my wrists in the same hand his other hand flicked to his armpit under his coat behind him the sun slanted and a bird singing somewhere beyond the sun we looked at one another while the bird singing he turned my hands loose

  look here

  he took the bark from the rail and dropped it into the water it bobbed up the current took it floated away his hand lay on the rail holding the pistol loosely we waited

  you cant hit it now

  no

  it floated on it was quite still in the woods I heard the bird again and the water afterward the pistol came up he didn’t aim at all the bark disappeared then pieces of it floated up spreading he hit two more of them pieces of bark no bigger than silver dollars

  that’s enough I guess

  he swung the cylinder out and blew into the barrel a thin wisp of smoke dissolved he reloaded the three chambers shut the cylinder he handed it to me butt first

  what for I wont try to beat that

  youll need it from what you said Im giving you this one because youve seen what itll do

  to hell with your gun

  I hit him I was still trying to hit him long after he was holding my wrists but I still tried then it was like I was looking at him through a piece of colored glass I could hear my blood and then I could see the sky again and branches against it and the sun slanting through them and he holding me on my feet

  did you hit me

  I couldnt hear

  what

  yes how do you feel

  all right let go

  he let me go I leaned against the rail

  do you feel all right

  let me alone Im all right

  can you make it home all right

  go on let me alone

  youd better not try to walk take my horse

  no you go on

  you can hang the reins on the pommel and turn him loose hell go back to the stable

  let me alone you go on and let me alone

  I leaned on the rail looking at the water I heard him untie the horse and ride off and after a while I couldnt hear anything but the water and then the bird again I left the bridge and sat down with my back against a tree and leaned my head against the tree and shut my eyes a patch of sun came through and fell across my eyes and I moved a little further around the tree I heard the bird again and the water and then everything sort of rolled away and I didnt feel anything at all I felt almost good after all those days and the nights with honeysuckle coming up out of the darkness into my room where I was trying to sleep even when after a while I knew that he hadnt hit me that he had lied about that for her sake too and that I had just passed out like a girl but even that didnt matter anymore and I sat there against the tree with little flecks of sunlight brushing across my face like yellow leaves on a twig listening to the water and not thinking about anything at all even when I heard the horse coming fast I sat there with my eyes closed and heard its feet bunch scuttering the hissing sand and feet running and her hard running hands

  fool fool are you hurt

  I opened my eyes her hands running on my face

  I didnt know which way until I heard the pistol I didnt know where I didnt think he and you running off slipping I didnt think he would have

  she held my face between her hands bumping my head against the tree

  stop stop that

  I caught her wrists

  quit that quit it

  I knew he wouldnt I knew he wouldnt

  she tried to bump my head against the tree

  I told him never to speak to me again I told him

  she tried to break her wrists free

  let me go

  stop it Im stronger than you stop it now

  let me go Ive got to catch him and ask his let me go Quentin please let me go let me go

  all at once she quit her wrists went lax

  yes I can tell him I can make him believe anytime I can make him

  Caddy

  she hadnt hitched Prince he was liable to strike out for home if the notion took him

  anytime he will believe me

  do you love him Caddy

  do I what

  she looked at me then everything emptied out of her eyes and they looked like the eyes in statues blank and unseeing and serene

  put your hand against my throat

  she took my hand and held it flat against her throat

  now say his name

  Dalton Ames

  I felt the first surge of blood there it surged in strong accelerating beats

  say it again

  her face looked off into the trees where the sun slanted and where the bird

  say it again

  Dalton Ames

  her blood surged steadily beating and beating against my hand

  It kept on running for a long time, but my face felt cold and sort of dead, and my eye, and the cut place on my finger was smarting again. I could hear Shreve working the pump, then he came back with the basin and a round blob of twilight wobbling in it, with a yellow edge like a fading balloon, then my reflection. I tried to see my face in it.

  “Has it stopped?” Shreve said. “Give me the rag.” He tried to take it from my hand.

  “Look out,” I said. “I can do it. Yes, it’s about stopped now.” I dipped the rag again, breaking the balloon. The rag stained the water. “I wish I had a clean one.”

  “You need a piece of beefsteak for that eye,” Shreve said. “Damn if you wont have a shiner tomorrow. The son of a bitch,” he said.

  “Did I hurt him any?” I wrung out the handkerchief and tried to clean the blood off of my vest.

  “You cant get that off,” Shreve said. “You’ll have to send it to the cleaner’s. Come on, hold it on your eye, why dont you.”

  “I can get some of it off,” I said. But I wasn’t doing much good. “What sort of shape is my collar in?”

  “I dont know,” Shreve said. “Hold it against your eye. Here.”

  “Look out,” I said. “I can do it. Did I hurt him any?”

  “You may have hit him. I may have looked away just then or blinked or something. He boxed the hell out of you. He boxed you all over the place. What did you want to fight him with your fists for? You goddam fool. How do you feel?”

  “I feel fine,” I said. “I wonder if I can get something to clean my vest.”

  “Oh, forget your damn clothes. Does your eye hurt?”

  “I feel fine,” I said. Everything was sort o
f violet and still, the sky green paling into gold beyond the gable of the house and a plume of smoke rising from the chimney without any wind. I heard the pump again. A man was filling a pail, watching us across his pumping shoulder. A woman crossed the door, but she didn’t look out. I could hear a cow lowing somewhere.

  “Come on,” Shreve said. “Let your clothes alone and put that rag on your eye. I’ll send your suit out first thing tomorrow.”

  “All right. I’m sorry I didn’t bleed on him a little, at least.”

  “Son of a bitch,” Shreve said. Spoade came out of the house, talking to the woman I reckon, and crossed the yard. He looked at me with his cold, quizzical eyes.

  “Well, bud,” he said, looking at me, “I’ll be damned if you dont go to a lot of trouble to have your fun. Kidnapping, then fighting. What do you do on your holidays? burn houses?”

  “I’m all right,” I said. “What did Mrs Bland say?”

  “She’s giving Gerald hell for bloodying you up. She’ll give you hell for letting him, when she sees you. She dont object to the fighting, it’s the blood that annoys her. I think you lost caste with her a little by not holding your blood better. How do you feel?”

  “Sure,” Shreve said. “If you cant be a Bland, the next best thing is to commit adultery with one or get drunk and fight him, as the case may be.”

  “Quite right,” Spoade said. “But I didn’t know Quentin was drunk.”

  “He wasn’t,” Shreve said. “Do you have to be drunk to want to hit that son of a bitch?”

  “Well, I think I’d have to be pretty drunk to try it, after seeing how Quentin came out. Where’d he learn to box?”

  “He’s been going to Mike’s every day, over in town,” I said.

  “He has?” Spoade said. “Did you know that when you hit him?”

  “I dont know,” I said. “I guess so. Yes.”

  “Wet it again,” Shreve said. “Want some fresh water?”

  “This is all right,” I said. I dipped the cloth again and held it to my eye. “Wish I had something to clean my vest.” Spoade was still watching me.

  “Say,” he said. “What did you hit him for? What was it he said?”

  “I dont know. I dont know why I did.”

  “The first I knew was when you jumped up all of a sudden and said, ‘Did you ever have a sister? did you?’ and when he said No, you hit him. I noticed you kept on looking at him, but you didn’t seem to be paying any attention to what anybody was saying until you jumped up and asked him if he had any sisters.”

  “Ah, he was blowing off as usual,” Shreve said, “about his women. You know: like he does, before girls, so they dont know exactly what he’s saying. All his damn innuendo and lying and a lot of stuff that dont make sense even. Telling us about some wench that he made a date with to meet at a dance hall in Atlantic City and stood her up and went to the hotel and went to bed and how he lay there being sorry for her waiting on the pier for him, without him there to give her what she wanted. Talking about the body’s beauty and the sorry ends thereof and how tough women have it, without anything else they can do except lie on their backs. Leda lurking in the bushes, whimpering and moaning for the swan, see. The son of a bitch. I’d hit him myself. Only I’d grabbed up her damn hamper of wine and done it if it had been me.”

  “Oh,” Spoade said, “the champion of dames. Bud, you excite not only admiration, but horror.” He looked at me, cold and quizzical. “Good God,” he said.

  “I’m sorry I hit him,” I said. “Do I look too bad to go back and get it over with?”

  “Apologies, hell,” Shreve said. “Let them go to hell. We’re going to town.”

  “He ought to go back so they’ll know he fights like a gentleman,” Spoade said. “Gets licked like one, I mean.”

  “Like this?” Shreve said. “With his clothes all over blood?”

  “Why, all right,” Spoade said. “You know best.”

  “He cant go around in his undershirt,” Shreve said. “He’s not a senior yet. Come on, let’s go to town.”

  “You needn’t come,” I said. “You go on back to the picnic.”

  “Hell with them,” Shreve said. “Come on here.”

  “What’ll I tell them?” Spoade said. “Tell them you and Quentin had a fight too?”

  “Tell them nothing,” Shreve said. “Tell her her option expired at sunset. Come on, Quentin. I’ll ask that woman where the nearest interurban——”

  “No,” I said. “I’m not going back to town.”

  Shreve stopped, looking at me. Turning his glasses looked like small yellow moons.

  “What are you going to do?”

  “I’m not going back to town yet. You go on back to the picnic. Tell them I wouldn’t come back because my clothes were spoiled.”

  “Look here,” he said. “What are you up to?”

  “Nothing. I’m all right. You and Spoade go on back. I’ll see you tomorrow.” I went on across the yard, toward the road.

  “Do you know where the station is?” Shreve said.

  “I’ll find it. I’ll see you all tomorrow. Tell Mrs Bland I’m sorry I spoiled her party.” They stood watching me. I went around the house. A rock path went down to the road. Roses grew on both sides of the path. I went through the gate, onto the road. It dropped downhill, toward the woods, and I could make out the auto beside the road. I went up the hill. The light increased as I mounted, and before I reached the top I heard a car. It sounded far away across the twilight and I stopped and listened to it. I couldn’t make out the auto any longer, but Shreve was standing in the road before the house, looking up the hill. Behind him the yellow light lay like a wash of paint on the roof of the house. I lifted my hand and went on over the hill, listening to the car. Then the house was gone and I stopped in the green and yellow light and heard the car growing louder and louder, until just as it began to die away it ceased all together. I waited until I heard it start again. Then I went on.

  As I descended the light dwindled slowly, yet at the same time without altering its quality, as if I and not light were changing, decreasing, though even when the road ran into trees you could have read a newspaper. Pretty soon I came to a lane. I turned into it. It was closer and darker than the road, but when it came out at the trolley stop—another wooden marquee—the light was still unchanged. After the lane it seemed brighter, as though I had walked through night in the lane and come out into morning again. Pretty soon the car came. I got on it, they turning to look at my eye, and found a seat on the left side.

  The lights were on in the car, so while we ran between trees I couldn’t see anything except my own face and a woman across the aisle with a hat sitting right on top of her head, with a broken feather in it, but when we ran out of the trees I could see the twilight again, that quality of light as if time really had stopped for a while, with the sun hanging just under the horizon, and then we passed the marquee where the old man had been eating out of the sack, and the road going on under the twilight, into twilight and the sense of water peaceful and swift beyond. Then the car went on, the draft building steadily up in the open door until it was drawing steadily through the car with the odor of summer and darkness except honeysuckle. Honeysuckle was the saddest odor of all, I think. I remember lots of them. Wistaria was one. On the rainy days when Mother wasn’t feeling quite bad enough to stay away from the windows we used to play under it. When Mother stayed in bed Dilsey would put old clothes on us and let us go out in the rain because she said rain never hurt young folks. But if Mother was up we always began by playing on the porch until she said we were making too much noise, then we went out and played under the wistaria frame.

  This was where I saw the river for the last time this morning, about here. I could feel water beyond the twilight, smell. When it bloomed in the spring and it rained the smell was everywhere you didn’t notice it so much at other times but when it rained the smell began to come into the house at twilight either it would rain more at twilight or there w
as something in the light itself but it always smelled strongest then until I would lie in bed thinking when will it stop when will it stop. The draft in the door smelled of water, a damp steady breath. Sometimes I could put myself to sleep saying that over and over until after the honeysuckle got all mixed up in it the whole thing came to symbolise night and unrest I seemed to be lying neither asleep nor awake looking down a long corridor of gray halflight where all stable things had become shadowy paradoxical all I had done shadows all I had felt suffered taking visible form antic and perverse mocking without relevance inherent themselves with the denial of the significance they should have affirmed thinking I was I was not who was not was not who.

  I could smell the curves of the river beyond the dusk and I saw the last light supine and tranquil upon tideflats like pieces of broken mirror, then beyond them lights began in the pale clear air, trembling a little like butterflies hovering a long way off. Benjamin the child of. How he used to sit before that mirror. Refuge unfailing in which conflict tempered silenced reconciled. Benjamin the child of mine old age held hostage into Egypt. O Benjamin. Dilsey said it was because Mother was too proud for him. They come into white people’s lives like that in sudden sharp black trickles that isolate white facts for an instant in unarguable truth like under a microscope; the rest of the time just voices that laugh when you see nothing to laugh at, tears when no reason for tears. They will bet on the odd or even number of mourners at a funeral. A brothel full of them in Memphis went into a religious trance ran naked into the street. It took three policemen to subdue one of them. Yes Jesus O good man Jesus O that good man.

  The car stopped. I got out, with them looking at my eye. When the trolley came it was full. I stopped on the back platform.

  “Seats up front,” the conductor said. I looked into the car. There were no seats on the left side.

  “I’m not going far,” I said. “I’ll just stand here.”

  We crossed the river. The bridge, that is, arching slow and high into space, between silence and nothingness where lights—yellow and red and green—trembled in the clear air, repeating themselves.

  “Better go up front and get a seat,” the conductor said.

  “I get off pretty soon,” I said. “A couple of blocks.”