by Tanith Lee
I was taken aback. Imaginative, as I freely admit I am, I would not say I was especially superstitious. But something now disturbed me, and that very much, and not being able to divine what it was, beyond the presence of that wry old house, discomposed me further.
Accordingly, I stared at the house, right at it, and crossing over, gazed up the outer wall, over which the vines and ivies hung so thickly. What an ugly house it was, I thought, and no mistake. Even its windows of filthy glass, largely overgrown by creeper, were ugly. While that window there, above, was the ugliest of all, an absolute eyesore, stuck on at quite the wrong architectural moment.
While I was thinking this, and standing there, staring so feverishly and insolently, with no warning the childish rhyme came back into my head, from out of some store-cupboard of the brain. And with it a host of tiny bits and pieces that, over the years of my visits here, and all unconsidered, I had apparently garnered. I heard my aunt say again how a woman had been bricked up in ‘that house’; and a friend of my aunt’s, a titled lady I barely knew, I heard saying once again, as she must have done years before: “Oh, the peasantry won’t go by the place after dark. No, it’s a fact. They go all out of their way by Joiner’s Crossing. And this, mark you, because of a tale more than a hundred years old.”
And the rhyme? I had doubtless heard children singing it in play, in the streets and yards of Steepleford, and maybe they still do so, although, I wonder if they do. I will set it down, for having remembered it, I have never since forgotten.
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She looks through water,
She looks through air,
She leaps at the moon
And she looks in.
*
Give her silver,
Give her gold,
And bind her eyes
With a brick and a pin.
*
“Aunt Alice,” I said to her that evening, when we were pursuing some sherry before the meal, “I want to tell you about something I saw on my walk today, coming here to the town.”
Pleased to see me, she turned to me a willing, expectant face, but no sooner did I mention the house in Salter’s Lane than she laughed.
“Dear boy, I shall have to think you obsessed by the place. Are you intending to buy it? I should certainly be delighted to have you live in the town, but not in such a miserable property.”
I replied, rather irritably, that nothing was further from my desires; and looking rather crushed, she amended, “I’m sorry, Frederick. I am sure that London is more suited to your temperament than such a dreary backwater as Steepleford.” After which much of the evening was spent in my praising Steepleford and herself, for I felt ashamed of my bad temper. When I was a boy, this aunt had been very kind to me, and deserved far better of me than three-yearly visits laced with petty ill-humour.
By ten o’clock we were friends again and playing cards, and so I reintroduced my topic. Although, I admit I stuck strictly to facts as I saw them, omitting all the other sensations I have outlined.
“The oddest thing, Aunt, is that I could swear the window which I saw had not been there previously. It was very high up, almost into the roof, rather small, yet somehow extremely noticeable. Although I have only once — to my recollection — looked at the house before, yet I thought I remembered it quite well; and I truly believe there never was a window in that position — however fantastic this may sound.”
As women will, my aunt then said something damningly practical. “So many of the house windows there are closed up with ivy and creeper. Could some of this overgrowth simply have fallen away, and so revealed the casement you speak of?”
Such a banal solution had not occurred to me. I agreed that she was probably correct. To myself I said that I must put up with the necessary boredom of my visit, and not try preposterously to dress it up with invented supernatural flights.
The following morning, I penitently accompanied my aunt on her round of social calls. By midday, my face had set like cement in a polite smile; and thus, as we crossed Market Gate Street, I found myself beaming at a small, nondescript man in unostentatious dress, who had touched his hat to us.
“Ah, Mr Polleto,” said my aunt, magnanimous to a fault. “What fine weather we are having.”
Mr Polleto conceded that we were. He had a flat dusty voice, old even beyond his bent and well-aged appearance. In it my ears caught just the trace of some foreignness. Then I found myself introduced; and not standing on ceremony, as my aunt had not, I shook hands with him. What a hand he had! It was neither cold nor hot, not damp, but rather dry — it did not have much strength in it, certainly, yet nor was it a weak hand. But an uncomfortable hand it was. It did not seem to fit in mine, and I sensed it would not fit in anyone’s.
“Mr Polleto has resided in the town for quite three years now, I believe,” said my aunt, when we had parted from him. She then told me of the general disappointment that he had not lived up to his name. “He has the cottage by the old tiltyard.”
But I was not interested in Mr Polleto and his indescribable handshake. His face I had already mislaid, for he was one of those men who are eternally unmemorable, or seem so — for if ever seen again, somehow they are known at once, as I have already demonstrated, and later must demonstrate further.
However, now I wanted my lunch, and was dismayed to find my aunt was leading me to yet another doorstep. I rallied rather feebly. “And which lady is this, Aunt Alice?”
“No lady, Frederick. This is the house of our local scholar. I have some purchases to make and will leave you here, with Mr Farbody, who has written and published pamphlets.”
“Indeed,” said I, but just then the maid let me in; and presently I was taking a glass of very drinkable Madeira, in a sunlit library, with Mr Farbody, who had at once addressed me with: “My good sir, I understand you are interested in the history of the Hawkins house.”
*
“Well, it is a curious tale,” Farbody continued, requiring little prompting from me. “Did you know that the farm-hands hereabouts, and workers and their families in the town, have kept up a tradition that the spot is cursed?”
“I remember someone saying that people refuse to go along Salter’s Lane by night.”
“Well that, of course, isn’t always to be avoided, but they make a to-do about it. The thing is, it seems, not to look at the building. I’ve heard of girls, if due to be married, still binding their eyes with a scarf and having to be led, if they should need to pass the house even in daylight.”
“And all this because Amber Maria Hawkins was thought a witch?”
“Ah, she was a witch, if the tales may be believed,” and here he winked at me. “She could see treasure in the ground, for one thing. No one knows her origins. Josebaar said he came across her one day in the woods. She was probably a gypsy girl, but all alone, bright-haired and straying with her arms full of wild flowers. He took a fancy for her, and perhaps she for him, it seems so — or else she liked the idea of his status in the town. He had already made some money and his family was an old one. And if she was a gypsy or itinerant, homeless and without kin, all that may have appealed to her, do you see. So there and then she is supposed to have said to him, ‘You may sport with me, and I will let you. Or you may marry me and I will make you rich.’ And he said, ‘How might that be, seeing you are in rags?’ To which Amber Maria replied simply, ‘You I will bring silver and gold.’”
At this, the rhyme came into my head again and I interrupted. “I thought it was she was to have the gold and silver?”
Farbody smiled, and lit his pipe. “It does seem she might have been rich on her own account for sure, if she’d cared to be, for the next thing she did was point at the ground under a tree and say to Hawkins, ‘Dig there, and you will find a large store of coins.’ Even money likes money, so he dug in the ground, and hey presto! found a box of gold pieces, deep down and undisturbed for a century. When he asked her how she knew where to dig, she shrugged and said, ‘I saw them.’ No
r did Amber do this only once, but several times, apparently. And in the same way she could find items that had been lost. And once she is supposed to have seen a sheep that had fallen down a deep well, which animal was then got out alive. She could see, you understand, through things. Through the earth, through stone, and through certain other natural materials, though not, I think, through metal, which may account for the metals in the rhyme.
“What does the rhyme mean?” I asked him.
“It’s essentially to do with binding her, shutting her up where she couldn’t do harm. You see, Hawkins was besotted with her some while, but then he began to be afraid of her. He’s said to have told the priest, ‘She will sit quiet all day and only look at me,’ and when the priest said that many a man would be thankful for such a placid, adoring wife, Hawkins replied she did not look on him, but into him. And he said that once he had told her hotly to leave off, for he was a sinner like all men, and if she would keep on staring in such a way, she would see his foul and mortal corruption. To which she gave this strange response: ‘Men say always they are wretched and tainted by flesh and sin, but in all men there is such goodness and beauty, as in the earth and all living things, that it is to me like my food and drink, and I can never be tired of having it.’”
When Farbody told me this, there in that warm and pleasant room, the sunlight on the books and the domestic pipe-smoke mild in the air, the hair rose on my neck.
“In Heaven’s name,” I said.
The scholar smiled again, pleased with himself, and with the peculiar tale he had memorized so well. “Yes, something in that gives you a turn, doesn’t it. She seems to be speaking so charmingly, innocently; and it makes the skin creep. I can tell you, sir, I read this story first when I was a boy of eleven; and I was awake nights after, until my mother scolded some reason into me and hid the volume I’d been reading. Which may explain,” he amiably added, “my life-long quest for such hidden trifles of knowledge.”
Farbody then went on with the narrative.
* * * *
Josebaar turned quickly from love to shrinking horror at his young wife. At first he tried to arrange a separation between them, but she would have none of this; then he had thoughts of escaping her by going overseas. But she guessed his course, and is said to have assured him she loved him too well to let him go. If he must leave, she would find and follow him, and he did not doubt that she had the powers to do so.
In the end, Hawkins, pale and harried, went to his friends, among whom was the priest, and confessed he was in such fear he should not ‘soon remain alive, since the woman eats me up from the inside out.’ By what grim stages the others came round to Hawkins’ state of mind, Farbody said one might only conjecture, and similarly if any money was involved in it. “But those were ignorant and superstitious times,” he reflected. “Alas, they are still. Whatever went on, or the span of its duration, a plan was presently constructed to rid Josebaar Hawkins of the woman.
“He pretended to her that he had only been testing her with his talk of going off, to see how much she loved him. And finding her so faithful, he meant to reward her. He told her he had put by an especial gift for her, an heirloom of his family, kept in a wooden chest in the attics of the house. But it would amuse him if she would go up and look first through the wood of the lid, and so say what she saw, before he unlocked the chest and gave her the trophy. Well, it seems she could easily see through wood but not through her husband, and up she went. No sooner was she in the room with the empty chest, than he slammed closed the door and secured it. And then at once came a gang of men and bricked the door up, and others came along the roof to seal and brick up the window.”
The bizarre quality of Farbody’s recitation was added to, for me, by a sense of historical fact which seemed to underlie the whole. I found I asked abruptly, “Could she not have opened the window — or broken the pane, before the roof-gang reached her?”
“No, dear sir. Remember, the glass in those days was of much thicker and sturdier stuff than the flimsy crystal of our day. Besides, he had previously pinned the window shut. I mean, he had driven iron pins through the frame to the brickwork, and hammered in long pins lengthwise all across.”
“Hence the horrible rhyme, a brick and a pin.”
“Just so. Besides too, she was very high up, and the men anyway would have thrust her back; she was physically no match for them. They must have been a harsh crew. All the while they were doing it, blocking her in to die the slow death of starvation and thirst, Amber Maria was shrieking and imploring them. And after they had finished, she screamed and howled in her prison uncountable days and nights, before she fell silent forever. There are many reports of this.”
I shuddered. “In God’s name, you speak as if it happened.”
He looked at me. “My dear sir, it did. I can make no claims for her sorcery, but the facts of her death are undoubtedly true. Some years after, Josebaar Hawkins was hanged for her murder. For he confessed to it, having had not a quiet hour since.”
“And then. Did they unlock the room?”
“That they did not. The story concludes with that asseveration. No one would go near the house, let alone pull bricks away from any part of it. That they left, and leave, to the mercy of God.”
I sat some while in silence. Perhaps, very likely, I looked grim or rattled, for the scholar came and refilled my glass and moved the biscuit plate nearer my elbow.
“The children’s rhyme,” said Farbody, “as you are aware, has its own oddities. The brick and the pin relate to the window and door, the sealing of the room. I’ve come across one text which states that Amber Maria could see only through natural substances; and that therefore a brick, which is man-mixed, would defeat her gaze, just as would refined metal; obviously the very reason why she could detect coins in the ground, rather than see through these also. But do you recall that other line, She leaps at the moon?”
I said that I did.
“Salter’s Lane,” said the scholar, “has nothing to do with the salting trade. Indeed, one wouldn’t expect it, so far as we are here from the sea. No, the word salter relates to the Latin, saltare, to leap. In Mediaeval times, that area of the woods was known to be a place where witches held their revels, and danced the Wild Dance for their lord, Satan, ‘leaping high as the moon.’ Which moon, of course, is a calendar feature of the sabbat, whether full or horned for the Devil.”
Just then the door-bell jangled. My aunt had returned for me. I was astonished to see, glancing at Farbody’s clock, that only half an hour had elapsed. But then I suppose, I was struggling back to my own time, across the centuries.
I thanked him; and going out with my aunt into the summer street, I resolved to shake myself free of the unnaturally strong emotion that had dropped upon me. And so we went to our luncheon.
* * * *
Three or four days later I, reluctantly but evincing cheerfulness, accompanied my aunt to a church tea-party, in honour of the new bell which had recently been installed, and for which everyone had, the year before, been engaged in fund-raising. Here the social classes mingled with uneasy and ill-founded camaraderie, and I was revealed to a succession of people of all types, to whom it seemed my aunt wished to show off her nephew. Touched by her pride in me, I did my best to be jolly.
“And look,” said Aunt Alice, “there is Daffodil Sempson. Or rather, Mrs King, as she is married to a hotel keeper at St Leonards now, and has come for the first time to visit her sister. They are somewhat an estranged family. None of them is in service now; but in her youth, Daffodil was lady’s maid to the Misses Condimer, and travelled all over Europe with them, before she was even seventeen. A great advantage for any girl.”
Struck I admit by the name Daffodil, I turned, and saw a very pleasing young woman, dressed most stylishly, a trick no doubt learnt during her travels with the minor aristocracy.
“By all means introduce me to her,” I told my aunt, with a more genuine enthusiasm.
But neith
er of us was able to catch the lady’s eye. She seemed to be fixedly interested in something that went on at the far end of the room, where several people were walking about, and the tables groaned beneath their cakes and lemonade.
“I wonder what has engaged her attention so,” speculated my aunt.
Mrs King, née Sempson, was staring now almost unnaturally. Then I saw her turn her pretty head, seem to check, and then once more compulsively gaze back towards the tables.
Suddenly she quite changed colour. I have been witness to several instances of abrupt illness, slight or extreme. Mrs King seemed in the grip of the latter. Her face took on not a white, but a thickly-shining, greenish pallor. Without thinking I moved towards her. But in that moment she dropped to the ground.
At once she was surrounded by women, one of whom must have been her sister. Presently she was carried away.
On all sides were sympathetic murmurs concerning the heat.
To my sorrow, Mrs King did not return to enjoy the over-bountiful tea. My aunt made enquiries of her sister, who said that Daffodil had been obliged to be sent home in the pony-cart. “It is a great nuisance, as she intended returning to St Leonards tomorrow, and now she won’t be well enough.”
“Is her indisposition more serious than we had hoped?” asked my aunt.
“Oh,” said the sister, blinking at me with eyes not half so fine as her sibling’s, “she makes a fuss about it. She has these delicate ways from her younger years. I may say, she’d never have dared go on so then. They would have dismissed her.”
“I thought,” said I sternly, “that she seemed most unwell.”
“No, it isn’t that she’s ill,” declared the vulgar sister, whose hat might have been a lesson to us all in the virtues of regret. “She says it’s something that she saw in Austria, once.” My aunt and I evidenced incomprehension. The sister said, “I can say nothing of it. She refuses to explain. She says it’s too dreadful, and it’s taken her these six years to put it from her, and now she’s been reminded and will need to stay in bed, with me expected to be flapping round her all day long, and neglecting my duties and Pa.”