by Bodie Thoene
BEYOND
THE FARTHEST
STAR
THOENE
With love for all my NHS Star Sisters.
“Good men [and women!] are the stars, the planets of the ages wherein they live and illustrate the times.”
—Ben Jonson
Contents
Cover
Title Page
Dedication
Prologue
PART ONE
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
PART TWO
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
PART THREE
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen
Chapter Sixteen
Chapter Seventeen
Chapter Eighteen
Chapter Nineteen
Chapter Twenty
Chapter Twenty One
Chapter Twenty Two
Chapter Twenty Three
Chapter Twenty Four
Chapter Twenty Five
Chapter Twenty Six
Chapter Twenty Seven
Chapter Twenty Eight
Epilogue
Notes
About the Authors
Thoene Family Classics™
Copyright
About the Publisher
Share Your Thoughts
Prologue
Up through an empty house of stars,
Being what heart you are,
Up the inhuman steeps of space
As on a staircase go in grace,
Carrying the firelight on your face
Beyond the loneliest star.
G. K. Chesterton,
“The Ballad of the White Horse”
A THUNDERSTORM LURKED IN THE NORTH, beyond the Dallas skyline, back in the direction of Leonard.
Sixteen-year-old Anne Wells draped her book bag over the chair beside the hospital bed and fixed solemn brown eyes on the ominous Texas sky. Tossing her straight black hair, she adjusted the mini blinds, filtering the late afternoon sunlight in Pastor Adam Wells’s Parkland Hospital ICU room. The rasping of the ventilator that kept Anne’s father moored to this world reminded her of Darth Vader’s creepy breathing in Star Wars. The mechanical effect of Vader’s forced inhale and exhale between his commands had always terrified Anne as a child. For long months after watching the movie with a babysitter, Anne had awakened in the midst of nightmares and imagined the Dark Lord lurking in the shadows of her bedroom.
This December afternoon, Anne feared the thunderstorm. It was the wrong time of year for thunderstorms, but there it was anyway, lurking on the horizon like Darth Vader’s helmet. What if lightning knocked out the hospital’s electricity? What if Vader stopped breathing for Adam? She made a mental note to ask the attending nurse how long it would take for the emergency generators to kick in and the life-support machines to reset.
For two weeks Anne and her mother, Maurene, had taken turns watching over the ashen, comatose man hidden behind the blue-plaid curtain in the ICU. The media had waited downstairs in the lobby, hoping for some word. Adam did not awaken. Chances were he never would. Some guy from the New York Times sneaked in and took a picture of the unconscious preacher with his cell-phone camera. Former “Miracle Preacher Boy” … Pastor Adam Wells … with tubes down his throat and wires everywhere. The picture had shown up on the Internet. Talking heads on news programs had discussed the Texas tragedy and reviewed the details of Pastor Wells’ childhood as the “Miracle Preacher Boy,” complete with pictures of him as a kid shaking hands with the American president.
“What happened to derail the Miracle Preacher Boy?” the talking heads asked. That whole media frenzy had been pretty awful. It had calmed down after the first week, when Adam did not die immediately. A sign on the sliding door of the ICU cubicle announced FAMILY MEMBERS ONLY.
Now his condition was critical—but stable. Adam was hanging on to life by a thread. If the thread broke, the media would be back.
Meanwhile, Anne knew life went on without them back in Leonard, Texas. People listened to Christmas carols while Anne and her mother listened to the rhythm of Adam Wells’s lungs expanding and contracting.
Anne searched her backpack for her journal. She had an uneasy sense when she turned her back to Adam. What if he flew away before she turned around again? The antiseptic smell of hospitals always made her think of pain and grief, of last good-byes. Loss and hospital smells … both inescapable.
Raising her gaze to the window, Anne regarded the distant wall of black thunderheads as a threat. Sealed glass guaranteed that not even the relief of fresh air could come out of the roiling skies.
Retrieving notebook and pen, Anne sighed and sat in the uncomfortable visitor’s chair, opened to a blank, lined page, and began to write …
DAY 14
Mom went back to the hotel. Hope she can sleep. My turn again. All I can think is … if Vader’s ventilator stops, Adam will fly away forever.
I sit in this hospital listening to the machines breathe for him, and all I can think about is how he drew the stars for me and how before he got his first zit, God called him to preach the gospel to the multitudes. And how, when he was still a kid, the White House press secretary called him to pray with the president of the United States about some war. And how Time magazine called him “America’s next Billy Graham.”
So I guess I don’t blame him for being really angry all the time, since thirty years after his appearance on the Late Night Show with Bobby Shaffer the Lord called him to … well, this lame hick church in the middle of nowhere—First Church of Leonard, Texas. With, like, seven people in it. Actually, Adam blamed me for the Lord calling him to the hick church in the middle of nowhere. Not officially, in front of the deacons and all. But he blamed me, privately, all the same.
We were a family of secrets, and we were moving to the middle of nowhere: Leonard, Texas. The safest place in the whole world to keep secrets secret.
But it wasn’t. It wasn’t safe at all.
PART ONE
We need to find God, and He cannot be found in noise and restlessness. God is the friend of silence. See how nature—trees, flowers, grass—grows in silence; see the stars, the moon and the sun, how they move in silence. We need silence to be able to touch souls.
Mother Teresa
Chapter One
THE MIDSIZE, BURGUNDY RENTAL CAR exited the North Texas highway to head east along a two-lane road baking in the mid-September sun. DFW International Airport was just a distant memory. The Dallas skyline had long since sunk beneath the prairie. Now the biggest things meeting Anne’s gaze were barns and grain silos.
Anne caught Adam’s dark-brown eyes on her when she glanced up at the rearview mirror. “Leonard’s only sixty miles from Dallas,” he said defensively. “Less than an hour’s drive. Dallas. More than a million people. Is that a big enough city to make you happy?”
Anne’s reply dripped with sarcasm. “Wow, Adam. You mean they have, like, shopping malls?”
Anne could not believe Adam’s lack of understanding was so complete. Was he really so clueless?
“Don’t call me Adam, Anne. I’m your dad.”
Anne shrugged and looked away. “But do you want them to know I’m your daughter?”
Maurene’s voice was strained. “Honey, you know your dad is proud of—”
Adam interrupted, “This used to be all grain- and cotton-farming country.” He waved his hand at the flat, flat, flat land. “Now
a lot of ranching. Same as up in the hills above Central California.”
Anne stared at the back of Adam’s head. Could he somehow be urging her to see the cowboy connection as a positive? Anne’s glance fell on her black nail polish and heavy silver rings. “And I forgot to wear my boots and spurs. What will they think of me?”
The back of Adam’s neck turned red. An explosion could happen at any moment.
As always, Anne’s attractive but weary-looking mother intervened. Her chirpy, everything-will-work-out-for-the-best voice was higher pitched than usual. “Lots of art and culture in Dallas,” Maurene contributed. “Colleges and universities, right, Adam?”
Anne noticed the way her dad’s knuckles, white where they gripped the steering wheel, finally relaxed.
Good job, Mom, Anne silently applauded. Defused that one in the nick of time.
Sounding way too much like a public service announcement for the Greater Dallas Chamber of Commerce, Maurene recited: “SMU, of course. UT, Dallas. Texas Woman’s. Dallas Theological Seminary and Dallas Baptist.”
Anne snorted, then pretended to cough.
Maurene’s monologue trailed away when neither her husband nor her daughter offered any response. Worry lines re-formed above her opal-blue eyes.
Anne was back in her own thoughts. Did her parents imagine that she didn’t know how to use a computer? Leonard, Texas, population two thousand, give or take. “The Biggest Little Town in Northeast Texas.” Seriously, what genius thought that one up? And what audience was that slogan supposed to appeal to? People who lived in even smaller dumps than Leonard?
Leaving Bakersfield, California, for Leonard, Texas, wasn’t about missing the shopping malls or the movie theaters, the cowboys or, God forbid, the high school ball games. It wasn’t about the fact that ever since they stepped off the plane in Texas everyone spoke a foreign language—sort of.
Leaving Bakersfield was about missing friends. Anne had not had many friends at North High School, but at least a handful shared her view of the world as a dark and dangerous place. They also shared Anne’s appreciation for Inger Lorre’s music, or at least claimed they did.
The punk-rock tune “She’s Not Your Friend” from the album Transcendental Medication started scrolling through Anne’s head.
Maurene rummaged around in her purse, then squirmed against the shoulder harness to face Anne in the backseat. She extended a bottle of water with one hand and an oval-shaped white pill in the other.
Anne made a face but accepted the pill and the water. “Wow,” she said after swallowing, “one cosmic coincidence after another. Cowboys in Bakersfield and in Leonard, and just as I thought of the word medication, Mom hands me some. What are the odds?”
“Anne,” Adam said sternly, with another stare into the mirror, “these are nice folks here in Leonard. I already preached here two months ago. Five candidates, and I’m the one they called to come back for another visit.”
Staring at the rusted remains of a 1960-something Chevy pickup being swallowed by weeds in front of a single-wide mobile home, Anne remarked under her breath, “Bet the other four refused.”
“What was that?” Adam demanded.
Anne said nothing.
He exhaled. “Look, Anne, I really want this. I can do good here. I feel it. We can have a fresh start. I don’t need to tell you how important that is, do I? You want a fresh start too, don’t you? More than anything else?”
Again Anne said nothing. As the medication took effect, her expression became serene, despite the fact she knew such a thing wasn’t remotely possible. What she really wanted more than anything else was a cigarette.
Adam Wells grasped both sides of the wooden pulpit. The home of First Church of Leonard was small, square, and plain to the point of severity. Medium-brown wainscoting reached no more than three and a half feet up the white-painted walls, as if stretching any higher was too much effort. The only relief from the drab interior was the sprinkling of stained glass, and the windows contained mere daubs and stripes of muted purples and blues.
Leonard was a far cry from the carpeted theater seating, the expensive light and sound system, and the theatrical-quality technical effects of Adam’s previous post. Nevertheless, he was perfectly in his element on the stage, spartan as it was. When Adam strode onto the platform of a church, his lean good looks, high forehead, and square shoulders and measured, weighty words captured the attention of everyone present. As far back as Adam could remember, this had been true. He seemed to draw energy from the lectern itself.
“What does God offer you?” Adam asked the onlookers. “The water of life, Scripture says. Have you ever been thirsty, so thirsty that nothing but a drink of water held any interest for you? When you know real thirst, you realize that anything else—everything else—is of no importance until that thirst is relieved. Let me ask you: What are you thirsty for in your life right now? An answer to a deep, secret prayer? What is your greatest hunger? The need to be forgiven and know beyond any doubt that you are accepted by God as His own dear child? What are you thirsting and hungering for today?”
Adam had a reputation as a good teacher, a wise counselor, a considerate visitor to hospital wards and the homes of shut-ins. But it was when he appeared in his role as preacher that Adam was most in his element, and he knew it.
Adam would never liken himself to an Old Testament prophet. Such comparison smacked of ego. But he admitted in his heart that standing behind a pulpit—any pulpit, anywhere—invested him with an authority much like wearing the mantle of a prophet.
“Scripture says, ‘Come, all you who are thirsty, come to the waters; and you who have no money, come, buy and eat! … Why spend money on what is not bread, and your labor on what does not satisfy?’ ”
Without turning, Adam sensed the approval from the pair of church deacons seated behind him on the platform. Their introductions of him had been cordial, even excessively complimentary. The attitude radiating from them suggested they already regarded Adam as “their” pastor. That was a good thing. Ever since his pastorate in Great Falls, Montana, three years ago, he and his family had drifted through the pastorates of two California churches before he became jobless again.
The call to become the spiritual shepherd in Leonard was a sure thing, Adam realized. For form’s sake, the church board might deliberate for a week before notifying him, but the decision had already been made.
Internally Adam grimaced as he recalled Anne’s sarcasm about how the other candidates had refused this post. But this could be his last chance. Three pastorates in five years—each less significant than the last. If they failed in Leonard, he was headed to Bigmart as a door greeter. Squaring his shoulders, Adam put on his most sincere countenance.
He consoled his injured pride. The need for a man of Adam’s caliber and leadership was evident in this morning’s attendance. Barely twenty people sat on the stiff wooden benches in the stiff wooden auditorium that would easily have held 120 or even 150. Even though Adam had not yet met all his congregants, he had already sorted them into types: seven widows, an equal number of spinsters, an aging married couple, a handful of unattached males. No young families, no children. That fact alone meant a dying church.
Adam drew in a determined breath. He had been called just in time. There was a desperate need for him in Leonard. Perhaps here he could fulfill his life’s dream of making a difference. And maybe here his troubled family could find peace … put their lives back together.
Halfway back on the right was the only set Adam could not clearly classify: Former US Senator John Cutter, Leonard’s one claim to national political fame, sat ramrod stiff with his arms folded across his expensive blue suit. Cutter had promised to revitalize the town. His expression made it clear to Adam that he attended church for appearance’s sake. Cutter’s thirty-something wife, Candy, was twenty-something years younger than her husband. There was plenty of gossip about the pair.
As Adam spoke, Candy’s face had softened with emotion
. He’d seen such signs of internal struggle in other churches he’d pastored. Candy’s over-thick mascara started to smudge around the edges.
This duo represented both the first challenge and the first opportunity, Adam realized. Senator Cutter was a force to be reckoned with in Leonard and throughout northeast Texas. He’d claimed publicly that he’d bring new agribusiness to Leonard and revitalize the ailing town.
Adam smiled inwardly. What better showcase for a resurgent Texas prairie village than a megachurch rising from such humble beginnings?
And the key to Senator Cutter was clearly his wife. Rumor suggested that Candy Cutter had been an exotic dancer in her past, but now it appeared any hard shell from her previous life was melting. Adam’s words echoed around the entire shoebox that was First Church, but his message was for Candy.
Adam glanced at Maurene, seated in the front row. Sweeping her shoulder-length blonde hair with a quick, nervous gesture, she gave him a smile and a nod of approval.
But where was Anne?
Nowhere to be seen. Probably outside, smoking. Resentment and relief warred briefly within him. Probably it was better this way. Anne could be so disruptive, and nothing of that kind was needed today.
Adam knew two things with clarity. First, to say their family was not perfect was an understatement. The Wellses had their own set of struggles and storms, but what family did not? Adam grappled daily with the fact that his family’s storms seemed only to grow in intensity, as if there was something dark, ugly, at their core.
Second, Adam also rationalized that he had something to offer the hurting people of the world. He’d dreamed of it often, ever since he was a boy. If it was somehow required that he start again from this little corner of nowhere to get to that dream, then so be it.
“Who will come?” Adam challenged. “Who will come and drink the water of life freely offered to you? Who wants to receive beauty for ashes this very day?”
After a moment’s hesitation, Candy Cutter raised her hand. The same motion lifted her austere husband’s eyebrows.