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by Quan Barry


  —Vietnamese ghost tale

  I tell you it is better this way.

  I have taken the last coin from my eyes

  and spent it on honey. The betel woman, her teeth

  scarlet as the rooster's comb, is onto nothing

  though her grandchild, the pretty one who hates

  the old woman's dark spit, followed me

  as I returned with my jar

  of sweet light. I tell you they will come for you

  in the evening. After the bell has called the women

  from the fields. They will bring the men with torches

  and with spades, and your father will place the bowl

  of his ear to the ground and hear your long cry

  trembling through the dirt. I tell you they will dig

  for you, cracking the lid from this freshly laid box, pitch-sealed

  and milkless. A woman will come forward, guide

  your silt-caked head to her breast, and then the legend

  of the child of death

  will be born. Now as we wait, the tamarind fixed

  above like stars, your mouth suckling

  my honey-slicked fingers, I tell you

  be her daughter. We had our chance.

  reading

  Ann Arbor

  He just sat there

  eating from the bowls of his hands.

  When it was over the poets rushed out,

  back into the bookjackets of their lives. He just sat quietly

  warm in the droppings of words, belly full,

  the complimentary wine rising in him. Outside

  the long night waited to take him home.

  Snow White

  In some versions

  he kisses me. In others

  the glass coffin shatters,

  the apple dislodges

  its bruise from my throat.

  However it happens,

  he won't let me sleep—

  this marital morning

  the invasive clouds

  festooned with ice.

  some refrains Sam would have played had he been asked

  You must remember nothing. Loyalty is as useless

  as an assassination. Treaties broken like a night of glass.

  I left Harlem to be my own man. Got shanghaied in Europe,

  a theatre volatile as the moon. Pallid as a master race.

  You've always been good at the carving up.

  Like a butcher with his canvas of meats hacking a landscape

  through the offal. What gets burned. As Paris is learning,

  the stratagem of black folk is to grin and resist.

  To you, rumors are like falling in love—not even as sound

  as a spin of the wheel. Like the rising sun,

  each atrocity millions of miles removed. How long

  won't you believe? What you do to me they'll do to you.

  Even here in this city of a white house, you dream of clouds

  sprouting like black lungs. Your love comes back

  like a particle falling from a higher state. It's then you remember

  every dog has his requited day. I'm still due.

  This is how it will end: a Japanese city named for an island

  will beg for water. Each brown face adorned with the keloid star.

  Even though you aren't sure, I know you have it in you. Ask my lord

  if a kiss is just a kiss. Bwana, who's the boy now?

  studio audience

  Places everyone. The child star

  darts in from the wings, game face hard

  like a professional athlete

  who doesn't have time to stop & think

  tops I've only got two more seasons in me.

  It's a half hour show, which means

  twenty-three actual minutes of tape, the hook

  formulated at fourteen minutes in then cut

  to commercial. This is episode fifty-six:

  “Two Green Thumbs.” Hijinks

  ensue as little Timmy learns a hard life lesson.

  From seats rowed like lettuce

  we know when to laugh, pay no attention

  to the men behind the curtain

  because the overhead sign cues us, our response

  prompt as clocks. Applause.

  A headsetted woman stands on-camera, snaps

  the board shut, scene 5 take 2, wipe back

  to Timmy & Principal Blop & the denouement

  which predictably comes at the twenty spot.

  If a tree falls in the forest & there's no key grip around…

  But this is scripted. A functional TV family with Dolby sound

  & body mics & TDs & four & five

  takes, “home” a pasteboard set with out-of-shot signs flashing live, live.

  synopsis

  It's what's inside most folk that scares ‘em.

  —Clint Eastwood in High Plains Drifter

  Finally, you paint the town red. You order up

  two hundred gallons of crimson, one barbecued steer,

  and tell the townspeople, “Get to work.”

  The local midget you've named mayor and sheriff

  is on your side. He was hiding under the saloon on the night

  you were bullwhipped to death by Stacey and his cousins.

  They've just been released from jail

  after serving one year for a crime they didn't commit.

  This time it's personal. They plan to empty

  the mining company's safe, dynamite the whole place

  if it comes to that. Because of the paint, people, you rename

  the town Hell. Now there is nothing to do but wait

  for Stacey and his cousins to ride in. You find time

  for exactly two forcible rapes, though the next morning

  the women are seen radiantly combing their hair.

  The midget mayor/sheriff asks when you'll give the signal.

  You tell him, “I won't give the signal. You will.”

  High noon. Stacey and his cousins ride in

  to find hoisted above the town's red square a banner

  the local women have sewn together at your orders

  with linen from the town's one red hotel. “Welcome home, boys!”

  the banner says. In time Stacey and his cousins die

  the kind of death men like Stacey and his cousins die.

  Today the town is red and smoldering as are the women

  who have acquired your taste. The midget mayor/sheriff

  is busy with a knife. “I'm almost finished here,” he pipes.

  In last night's shoot out, he killed a man. “Finished,” he says.

  His handiwork is good. You take a last long look at Hell,

  kick your horse in the ribs, tip your hat to the mayor/sheriff

  and tell him through your teeth, “You knew it all along.”

  for Sean

  tradition

  My mother says women were made to bleed

  and the whole thing takes twenty minutes.

  She says afterwards they'll wrap me up like a butterfly

  for forty nights and I'll drink only camel's milk.

  My mother says tomorrow

  I'll be a little bride hands red with henna.

  I'll be shining in white and get to wear as much gold

  as I want. She says afterwards something will get killed

  and the whole clan will come to eat

  only they won't sit down

  until I've been washed in the Nile.

  My mother says tomorrow the blacksmith's wife

  will cut away a part of me I don't need. She says

  it might hurt if the blacksmith's wife

  uses scissors instead of a knife. My sister says at her khefad

  the blacksmith's wife used glass and then tied her shut

  with acacia thorns and horsehair and Mother

  had to remind her to put a match head in the wound

  so the whole thing wouldn't heal c
losed

  and my sister could still pee.

  My aunt says up north they use something called cautery

  which means they make that place burn like the sun.

  My mother says I have nothing to fear

  because women like us were made to bleed.

  My mother says someday I'll meet a man

  who'll want me smooth and small. She says we'll marry

  and he'll take a dagger and slit me open

  like a letter addressed just to him.

  My mother says tomorrow I'll be a little bride. She says

  the whole thing takes twenty minutes

  and after forty days I'll come out just like her

  smooth and small lips sealed.

  triage

  A gulf divides us, and there is no fairy bridge of birds to carry me across.

  I. WHAT DUC SAID

  For the most part, the small intestine is mine

  as is the right hand and leg, the vena cava's dark pull

  back to air. We share a bowel. A stump grows between us

  like a radish so pale I suspect it shines when we sleep.

  In your language you would say we are shaped like a T—

  look closely and like the rain of airplanes

  we will form before your eyes. Nights Viet dreams

  of things north, of being left on mountains. Even the nurses

  must learn to tolerate our form, our body wizened

  like the burnt flocks that fall like a pogrom out of the sky.

  II. WHAT VIET SAID

  I don't like. To be alone.

  When Due sleeps. I feel our third leg shining.

  Like the hare in the moon. Like a flare.

  It casts our shadow on the ceiling. I fear it.

  This dense cloud hanging. Over me.

  Half of it is. Out of my control.

  III. WHAT THEY SAID

  there are things we know that we cannot say:

  that she will not love as she should: that she will not die

  when she wants: this is our beginning: she is walking

  through the fields: the tall grains whisper

  between her thighs: an early star: then

  it is raining: the caustic drops sudden: sharp

  as the braid that cuts the baby from its mother:

  she thinks of rice: of seeds massing in the wind:

  teratically the rain brings on a night that bleeds:

  under the stiff white hare of the moon: on a path

  raised like a scar: something inside her clicks

  as if her body has pulled out the pin on 12 million:

  this is the time we spend in the ellipse of our mother:

  in the land of the seagull and fox: in a place

  where a young girl will not love as she should:

  will not die when she wants:

  IV. WHAT SCIENCE SAID

  “There were about 72 million litres of toxic chemicals

  sprayed over Vietnamese land and Vietnamese people

  during the war. This amount of toxic chemicals

  was contaminated by 200–500 kilograms

  of Dioxin (2•3•7•8 Tetra- Chloro-Debenzo-Para-Dioxin (TCDD))

  contained in Agent Orange. An American scientist estimated that

  only 85 grams of 2•3•7•8 TCDD

  can kill all 12 million citizens of New York City.”

  V. WHAT I SAID

  By conservative estimates the mangroves will not return

  in this century. Neither will the eyes, the limbs twisted like roots.

  Today Viet lies deep in the mosquito sickness—if he dies,

  Due dies too. There will be no time for separation, no time to airlift

  the split being into surgery. Instead, the living half will wait passively

  for what invariably will come rolling on, the roofs filling with people.

  I didn't ask to survive.

  “’Twas mercy brought me from my Pagan land”

  The compositions published under her name are below the dignity of criticism.

  —Thomas Jefferson

  In your first winter you will be pronounced

  Seven. Someone will pay to name you

  For a ship. You will owe your life

  To tight packing, the hull racing to port, human cargo

  Impacted like teeth. Within months the floes

  Will dissipate, the thaw freeing

  The harbor's dark trade. You will master the spoken

  Word, then Euclidian principles, then history,

  Then the systems of the night sky, Latin

  And the Bible falling as well. Finally

  You will write. You will have paper

  At your bed and keep a log burning

  Through the prodigal darkness.

  Only once will you speak of your mother's

  Genuflecting at the sun. You will be carted

  From sitting room to room. You will be a thing of wonder.

  Generals will write your name. Phillis. Phyllis.

  Like the colonies you too will come and go.

  vigil

  And both the girls cried bitterly (though they hardly knew why) and clung to the Lion and kissed his mane and his nose and his paws and his great, sad eyes. Then he turned from them and walked out onto the top of the hill. And Lucy and Susan, crouching in the bushes, looked after him and this is what they saw.

  —C. S. Lewis, The Lion, the Witch, and the Wardrobe

  Tonight we will function like women.

  The snow has gone away, the ice with its amniotic glare.

  I clasp my sister's tiny hand.

  We will not turn away

  Though spring, spring with its black appetite,

  Comes seeping out of the earth.

  The lion was sad. He suffered us

  To touch him. When I placed the bread of my hands

  In his mammalian heat, I was reminded

  That the world outside this world

  Is all vinegar and gall, that to be a young girl at the foot of a god

  Requires patience. Timing.

  The White Witch has mustered her partisans.

  Because I am fascinated by her bracelets strung with baby teeth,

  I will remember her as the woman

  Who grins with her wrists. From my thicket of heather

  I note that in her own congenital way

  She is pure, that tonight she ushers something new into the world.

  I cannot stop it. I cannot stop it just as in that other place

  I could not keep the planes with their spiked fires from coming.

  Though in this closed realm the smell of camphor is overwhelming

  I have nothing but my hands to use

  In ministering to the dead. Here too

  My hands must suffice.

  Hush now while I testify. They are shaving him.

  The corona of his mane falls away

  Like pieces of money. In the moon's milk light

  Her bangled wrists grin as she raises the blade.

  Something is diffused. In whatever world he comes again

  There will be women like us who choose to.

  visitor

  In hindsight the amazing thing wasn't her surviving

  but the fact that a stranger entered her room.

  Of course it's all supposition, nothing

  too convicting. Perhaps they struggled.

  Maybe he simply ordered her supine.

  All they uncovered: a locked house, her bedroom door

  slightly ajar, approximately four pints staining

  her pillow, a one inch section atop the crown of her head

  crushed as finely as herbs. Three days later

  the paperweight came back from the lab

  sticky with an unreadable palm, almost as if

  someone were cupping it, racing to beat

  a stack of papers before they stirred.

  I'm not making this up. She was my sister's best friend,
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  a teen with more than a hundred sutures

  embedded in her scalp. Like a dead tree she went on,

  maintaining she remembered nothing

  about the incident, each night

  sleeping behind the same door

  across from his, desperate to believe

  in the official version, in planned randomness.

  I can't tell you her name. I won't tell you

  because it's all you'll remember, you'll lie down at night

  thinking it doesn't apply.

  Whitsunday

  Everything that will ever happen has happened.

  The scorpion sheds its dead cardiac light, the southern cross

  burns its orienting pall on the world.

  Even the moon of the green corn slants her grained face

  at a redundant angle. Behold! The sky is black with old news

  and each year the earth spins itself through the same six seasons.

  Do you know who I am? Or should I say, “Do you accept?”

  This afternoon my god wrote his name on my skin, the flesh abraded,

  salt-white and million-eyed. Reader, my god is a god of love—

  he is studded with stinging arms. He grants me iridescence,

  second sight: everything I will ever be I have been. Behold!

  The scorpion sheds its red thoracic eye, the southern cross

  burns its pall on the world. Night. Glory. Corn. Lord.

  Isn't it enough my whole body tastes white?

  Whitsunday

  Today on land a lesser being would robe itself in glass.

  Instead you give birth to yourself—the planulae, the polyps

  budding five thousand times, pulsing through the ocean

  like bright ventricles. What is it about the power of seven?

  I was alone and you came to me, I was bleeding

  and the blurred thumbprints of your eyes sensed it.

  I would say I was in love with you, with your munificent power

  to divide. Your kingdom is briny and many-tongued;

  it is a forest at the bottom of the sea. I was alone and you came

  to me, I was bleeding and you flashed your lobed impassive face,

  the cilia of your raiment like glass, each vitric whip signifying:

  “On this day a ladder of blood came down from the sky.”

 

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