hour, but for some reason I still didn’t think he was dead, murdered like the two other men. I’d
know, deep down, if he was, I was sure of it, and therefore there had to be a logical explanation
for what had happened, what was still happening. And Eva was coming. The thought buoyed
me and, finally satisfied that the police search had done no lasting damage, I headed for the
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kitchen to check the contents of the freezer. I hadn’t been shopping in days and we were all but
out of fresh food, but there were a couple of pizzas and wine in the wine rack. We’d manage,
for tonight. And Eva … surely Eva would help me work it out?
We’d been friends for years, since early in my newspaper reporter days, and even when
I’d quit hard news, we’d remained close. Eva was still in the job, now a crime reporter for The
Independent, and she’d covered some hugely complex stories in her time. She’d think of
something, wouldn’t she? Because there was clearly something, some huge something, that I
was missing. Something I hadn’t thought of yet, something that would explain why Danny had
lied to me about his new job, explain why he’d gone away. Explain all of it.
I picked up my phone, checking once again for a text or email from Danny – nothing, of
course – then looked at the time. Nearly five. Eva’s train was due in at Temple Meads station
at seven, and she’d told me she could probably stay until Thursday or Friday, having just
finished a major story and being due a few days off. Two hours – what was I going to do for
two hours? Go to bed, try to catch up on some sleep? But I was feeling more awake suddenly,
more alert. I put the phone down on the kitchen table and wandered restlessly into the hall, then
stopped, horrified, as I caught a glimpse of myself in the big wall mirror. When had I last
actually looked at myself properly? My hair, normally falling to my shoulders in soft, natural
waves, looked greasy, flat; my skin, free of any make-up, looked deathly pale, except for dark
circles like angry purple bruises under my eyes. I looked dreadful and, suddenly knowing
exactly how to fill the time until Eva arrived, I headed for the bathroom.
I stood under the blissfully hot water for a long time, letting it massage my painfully tense
shoulders, my eyes closed, mind wandering. For some reason, the trip Danny and I had made
to Ireland to visit his parents a couple of weeks after we’d got engaged drifted into my thoughts,
and for a moment I was back there, in the old farmhouse in Sligo, overlooking the shores of
Lough Gill. Always a W. B. Yeats fan, I’d been thrilled to discover that not just the lake, but
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its tiny island of Innisfree, little more than a rocky outcrop, were visible from our cramped little
room under the eaves, Danny’s childhood bedroom.
‘“I will arise and go now, go to Innisfree”,’ I’d chanted, as Danny, unpacking his suitcase,
frowned, bemused.
‘“And a small cabin build there, of clay and wattles made”,’ I continued, then sighed
dramatically. ‘Honestly, Danny, you’re the one who grew up here! How can you not know one
of Yeats’s most famous poems? ‘The Lake Isle of Innisfree’? Come on!’
He’d grinned at my exasperation.
‘I do know it, of course I do. We did it at school. I just don’t remember the words, not to
just reel them off like you do. I haven’t got that sort of brain.’
‘You haven’t got much of any sort of brain,’ I’d muttered, and then squealed as he’d
dragged me onto the bed and tickled me until I was helpless with laughter.
The laughter had been in short supply for most of the trip however, and I’d been glad
we’d only decided to stay for two nights, citing work we needed to get back to. Danny didn’t
talk about his childhood much, but I’d definitely got the impression it wasn’t the happiest time
of his life.
‘I don’t get on great with my parents,’ was all he would ever say, and I hadn’t pushed it.
If he wanted to tell me about it one day, I’d be there for him, but he clearly didn’t want to talk
about it then and that was fine. And when I finally met his parents, the animosity between them
and their son was immediately obvious. Bridget, a thin, downtrodden-looking woman with a
deeply lined face and white hair tied back tightly in a low bun at the nape of her neck, gave me
a quick peck on the cheek and a half smile when we arrived, but merely nodded at Danny, her
face stiffening again as she looked him up and down. Donal, visually an older version of Danny
with thinning grey hair, simply waved at both of us from his armchair, eyes barely moving
from the hurling game he was watching on the small television that sat on the sideboard next
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to him. He was frail from a recent string of illnesses, but nonetheless was a brusque, stern man,
a cold look in his eyes as he snapped orders from his corner of the farmhouse kitchen, his wife
jumping to do his bidding, her expression hard, as if she was permanently angry at everything
and everyone. I’d felt sorry for her, and taken an instant dislike to him, at the same time feeling
guilty for feeling like that about my fiancé’s elderly, clearly unwell father.
At dinner on our first evening both parents engaged in a little stilted conversation with us,
but after that they paid us scant attention; Danny, meanwhile, while virtually ignoring his father
and being equally ignored in return, seemed almost pathetically eager to please his mother,
repeatedly offering to help her with meal preparation or washing up, and looking crestfallen
when she told him she didn’t need his assistance. The look on his face at each rejection hurt
my heart and made me even more eager to leave the farmhouse at the earliest opportunity.
They were a staunch Catholic family, although Danny had told me not long after we’d
met that he had lapsed years ago, and had made me giggle when he’d explained the reason for
his rather unusual middle name.
‘It’s after Saint Ignatius,’ he’d said. ‘He was wounded in some battle and while he was in
bed recovering he wanted to read adventure stories, but the only thing available in the hospital
was religious stuff and books about saints. So he read those instead, and decided he wanted to
do what they had done. Bloody git. Means me and thousands of other poor sods got lumbered
with his stupid name.’
The O’Connor family house, spotlessly clean and cosy enough with its dated furniture,
sagging sofas and the big old Aga in the kitchen, didn’t have a picture of Saint Ignatius that I
could find, but it was certainly full of religious imagery. In the hallway, a plaster statue of
Jesus, arms outstretched, greeted visitors, while the rest of the house was dominated by
paintings and figurines depicting the Madonna and Child, Saint Bernadette (‘patron saint of
illness’, Danny had hissed, one eyebrow raised, as he’d given me the tour), Saint Jude (‘he’s
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for desperate causes’) and Saint Clare (‘eye diseases. And, weirdly, patron saint of laundry and
television,’ he’d said). Wildly sceptical, I’d googled Saint Clare at the first available
opportunity, only to find out he’d been absolutely right. Laundry? Why did laundry need a
patron saint?
The reason for the choice of saints soon, however, became cl
ear – Liam. Danny’s kid
brother was twenty-eight, partially sighted, and suffered from learning difficulties.
‘They had kids late; Mam was well into her forties when Liam was born, although maybe
that had nothing to do with his problems, who knows,’ Danny had told me on one of those
early, getting-to-know-you dates. ‘He’s always lived at home – he’s not able to work; he can’t
even look after himself, not really. I mean, he’s a good lad, and he tries – he can just about
make a cup of tea, but he can’t be trusted with the cooker or anything. Combination of his
learning difficulties and his eyesight. I worry, you know, about what will happen to him when
Mam and Dad die. I suppose it will work itself out though. Maybe I’ll be in a position to look
after him by then, or there are some good residential units nowadays. It’s not like the old days
in Ireland, when those places were like the kind of prisons you’d see in your worst nightmares.’
Having heard so much about him, I’d been looking forward to meeting Liam, but it
seemed that Danny was the only O’Connor blessed with warmth and a sense of humour. Liam
was definitely more like his parents in personality, and although he threw his arms around his
brother, clearly delighted to see him, he barely acknowledged me, grunting a sullen ‘Hiya,’
when Danny insisted he say hello to his new sister-in-law-to-be. I noticed, though, that Liam
was the only family member who seemed to actually like his father, patting Donal’s hair as he
passed him, Donal yelling: ‘Will ya STOP!’ but with a hint of a smile.
‘Yeah, they’ve always got on,’ Danny said when I remarked on the fact as we’d snuggled
together in bed later that night, trying to get comfortable in rough cotton sheets and scratchy
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blankets. ‘Dad’s a miserable bastard, but he’s always had a soft spot for Liam. About his only
redeeming feature.’
I didn’t ask any more questions. Donal was, it seemed to me, simply an unpleasant man
who ruled the house with an iron fist, and Bridget, while clearly unhappy, seemed to have a
heart of stone. But if Danny didn’t want to rake up the past, which he very obviously didn’t,
then that was fine. Some things were better left alone, I thought, and if Danny had had a tough
time at home growing up, well, that was a long time ago and he seemed happy enough now. It
wasn’t as if we’d be seeing his family regularly, and it was all about the future now, about me
and him. That was all that mattered.
Even so, a few weeks later when the news came in the early hours of a cold February
morning that Donal had died from a massive stroke, it seemed to hit Danny hard. For weeks
afterwards, in the run up to our wedding, he seemed grief-stricken. I never saw him cry – that
wasn’t Danny’s style – but he was quieter, sadder, needing more time alone or, when we were
together, regularly becoming lost in thought, his face rigid, fists clenched, relaxing only when
I wrapped my arms around him, muttering soothing words. That was why I’d been so surprised
when he’d announced that we wouldn’t be going back to Ireland for the funeral.
‘No point,’ he said. ‘I said goodbye to him when we were there last month. I don’t need
to go back again just to see his body being put in the ground. And Mam will be OK, she’s got
Liam, plenty of extended family. And you know how things are between us, she’d probably
prefer it if I wasn’t there anyway. I’d be a hypocrite if I went and cried at his funeral, Gem.
He’s no big loss.’
And so we didn’t go, but despite Danny’s cold words I could see that the loss of his father
had affected him deeply and that it continued to do so, even more than a year on, the same
anguish still flashing across his face at odd moments. They’re complicated sometimes, family
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relationships, aren’t they? Love and hate, hate and love, so tightly entwined that they almost
become one.
None of this was helping me work out where Danny was now though, and with a sudden
new sense of resolve I climbed out of the shower and started to towel myself dry. I’d blow-dry
my hair, maybe even put on a little make-up, some clean clothes, and then Eva would be here.
Two of us, two investigative reporters, even if one of us was somewhat out of the swing of
things. Two heads, focused on one problem. Danny hadn’t just vanished into thin air, and we
could work this out. We had to work this out. Somehow, somehow, we were going to get to the
bottom of it.
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‘Should be there in about twenty minutes. Traffic permitting, of course. Might get a bit heavier
as we get nearer to junction two.’
DC Frankie Stevens, who was driving, turned his head briefly to glance at Devon, then
fixed his eyes on the motorway again.
‘Quite possibly,’ Devon replied. The M4 had been remarkably quiet, and although they
hadn’t left Bristol until just before nine, they now expected to arrive at the O’Connors’ former
home in Chiswick before eleven fifteen, traffic permitting, as Frankie had said. The easy
journey had been the one bright spot in a so-far frustrating morning. Before they’d even left
police headquarters, the team checking all the private CCTV camera footage from around
Gemma and Danny’s Bristol home had finally reported their findings.
‘Nothing. We’ve checked the entire forty-eight-hour period around him going missing
and we can’t see a single person who looks like him, either on a bike or on foot. Although of
course that doesn’t necessarily mean much. Loads of routes he could have taken that have no
cameras on them at all.’
Even so, it had been a blow. The fact that Danny’s immediate neighbours had never laid
eyes on him had been frustrating enough, but maybe not that surprising in the modern age –
Devon didn’t think he’d recognize his own next-door neighbours if they came up and punched
him. It was another small oddity to add to the growing list of oddities in the Danny O’Connor
case though, and another possible lead which had drawn a blank. Devon had been desperately
hoping for something, anything to come of the CCTV search, and now that had led them down
a dead end too.
Is it too much to ask for one little lucky break in this bloody case? he had thought, as he
and Frankie left the incident room and headed out to the parking bay where the pool cars were
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kept. Seemingly, it was far too much to ask, as they’d barely reached the Bath junction of the
M4 when Devon’s mobile trilled. It was DC Mike Slater, who’d been tasked with accessing
the search data from the EHU dating app.
‘Remember they said their system had been crashing recently?’ he’d asked. ‘Well, it’s
back up and running again. But they’ve lost all their search data. Can’t get it back. They’ve
apologized, but it looks like there’s no way of retrieving it. So that’s that. No way of finding
who might have searched for men who look like Mervin, Ryan or Danny. Really sorry.’
‘Shit!’ Devon had replied. Then: ‘Sorry, Mike. Not your fault. Thanks for trying anyway.
We’ll just have to come at this from another angle, although don’t ask me what that is right
now.’
‘OK. Oh, and the tech guys can’t find any EHU date relate
d emails on either of the
victims’ phones either. Must have been deleted, which is bloody annoying, but I suppose people
do delete old emails. I know I do. I also checked out the email address on Danny’s profile. It
doesn’t exist, seems to be a fake one, or maybe one that’s since been closed down. So maybe
adds weight to the theory that his profile was put up on the site as some sort of weird joke?’
‘Maybe. Anything else?’
‘Oh yes … Tara checked into the bank account thing. Couldn’t find any other accounts in
his name with any UK bank. Plenty of Daniel O’Connors but no Daniel Ignatius O’Connor,
pretty unusual name. She had a closer look at his NatWest account too to see if there’ve been
any unusual transactions or anything in recent months but nothing stood out. No big
withdrawals or deposits. Dead end on that too, for now. Sorry.’
Devon had hung up feeling despondent. The investigations into the murders of Mervin
Elliott and Ryan Jones had now completely stalled, with no new witnesses or evidence
emerging. And now with Danny O’Connor still missing, the whole team was starting to feel
helpless. He sighed. Maybe he needed a good night out, a few drinks to take his mind off things,
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maybe even a date. He thought about that for a few seconds, then changed his mind. He was
still in love with Jasmine, that was the problem. He couldn’t imagine being with somebody
else, and even if some miracle happened and he did meet someone he was interested in,
wouldn’t the same thing just happen again?
The job isn’t getting any less demanding, the hours aren’t getting any shorter, he thought.
How does anyone in this profession manage to hold down a relationship, when work’s so all-
consuming? But they do, don’t they? Helena and her wife Charlotte are OK; Frankie’s not
seeing anyone right now, but he’s had more than one long-term relationship over the years.
Even Mike Slater’s managed to get married, and he seems happy …
‘Here we go,’ Frankie said suddenly, and Devon dragged his attention back to the
situation at hand. Up ahead, red tail lights had suddenly flashed on and the traffic slowed.
‘Bugger,’ said Frankie, and braked.
‘Bugger,’ agreed Devon.
He leaned back in his seat, trying to focus on the case again. He didn’t have time to think
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