After reading that letter, my stomach felt like I swallowed a pound of rocks. Not only was I to cast aside all doubt of the truth of these letters, I also had to die. Not only that, I had to die in the correct manner that would allow me to come back to life and share the fifth ritual. Did I need to kill myself, or would death find me first? I had no idea.
The more I thought about it, the more it bothered me. I wasn’t just going to kill myself and hope for the best. It didn’t make sense that to save the world I would have to commit suicide. That seemed like the worst way to do something good for humanity.
I convinced myself that instead something was going to happen that would lead to my death. I spent the rest of the day trying to figure out what that might be. When I couldn’t come up with any obvious answers, I began to wonder if I could follow through with whatever it was. It just didn’t make sense, and I wasn’t going to risk my life for nothing. I tried my best to stay positive, though. I told myself that whatever was going to happen was meant to happen.
Despite my anxieties about my potential death, it was exciting to think about the prospect of visiting the realm between lives, especially if I got to return. How cool would it be to meet the beings who entrusted me with this monumental task?
I also thought about what the fifth ritual might be. It was intriguing to think that the first four rituals all led up to and formed the foundation for the fifth one. It makes sense to me from a health perspective, in that being healthy is not an end in itself but rather a means to an end. Being healthy allows us to be a better version of ourselves, so that we can more effectively do the things in our lives that give it meaning. It sounded like the fifth ritual would help us carve out that path of meaning in our lives.
I woke up the next day with the realization that maybe Edgar didn’t really want me to die. Could it be that the Corporation had somehow forced Edgar to write a fake letter or had broken into the safe house and forged a fake letter calling for my death? The letter seemed real. It was written in the same handwriting, and it sounded like Edgar. I looked at it again to see if I could find any clues or hidden messages.
The part that stood out was the part where Edgar says I must overcome my doubt. The first time I read it, I thought it meant my doubt about whether or not this whole experience was real or if I was losing my mind. Now, I had to confront other doubts about the authenticity of this letter. My gut feeling was that it was real, but like Edgar said, I still had doubt.
It turns out I didn’t have to wait much longer to get an answer. Later that morning, I was startled by a knock on the door of the safe house. It probably wasn’t smart of me to answer it, but I thought it might be Adrienne. When I opened the door, instead of my soulmate, there were three men in black suits who said they needed to speak with me. I didn’t see much of a choice, so I let them in and we sat down in the living room, where they outlined the following demand.
They told me I needed to go on air with my next episode and confess that the podcast was a fictional story, meant merely for entertainment and serving no factual or health-oriented purpose. They told me to say I made everything up and to apologize for misleading my audience. They gave me a written document outlining all their requirements and told me to sign it. I asked them what would happen if I didn’t sign it and one of them said, “You don’t want to go there.”
I told them everything in my podcast was the truth and that I couldn’t deceive my audience or myself by saying otherwise. I told them I would rather face the consequences of not signing the document than to live with the knowledge that I didn’t stand up for the truth.
They then told me I might not have to worry about living at all if I didn’t sign it. Of course, my impending death was all I had been thinking about over the past 24 hours, so I quickly put two and two together and saw that this was how I was going to die. Exactly how, I still didn’t know, but I knew it was going to come at the hands of these goons.
Still, even when you know something is your fate, you wonder if you are doing it right. The littlest details become magnified, especially when your own death is involved. I had a sense of calm knowing that if Edgar was right, this should ultimately play out in my favor, but I also felt very anxious not knowing if things could still go awry.
Trusting in the truth and in fate, I said, “No, there is no way I’m signing this, no matter the consequences.” Then two of the guys grabbed me by the arms and escorted me out to the black SUV in the driveway.
We drove for a couple hours, ending up at an abandoned warehouse in the middle of nowhere. It wasn’t so much my death that I was thinking about, but how I would die in a way that would allow me to still come back to life. I didn’t see any opportunity for someone to resuscitate me out there in the middle of nowhere.
They took me into the warehouse and gave me one last chance to sign the document. I expected them to shoot me after I declined, but instead they held me down and shoved a needle in my arm. I would later wake up with said needle lying next to me in the warehouse, so I guess they were trying to make my death look like a drug overdose. Little did they know…
Which brings me to the main reason for this episode—to tell you about what transpired after my death and before I woke back up in that warehouse. The first thing that happened was a sensation of leaving my body. I could see myself lying on the warehouse floor. Then I saw a bright light and felt my consciousness transition outside of time and space. I could feel a tremendous sense of peace, joy, and love. Then I found myself in the presence of others.
Words cannot describe how these beings and I interacted. It was as if we were united by a collective consciousness, and our thoughts and emotions were shared instantly and simultaneously with each other. It was the most incredible feeling. Their love and compassion toward me was greater than anything I have ever experienced.
Their message to me wasn’t in words, like how I am speaking to you now, but rather like transferring concepts and ideas directly into my consciousness. I will do my best to convey that message to you now.
First, they thanked me, and more importantly thanked you, for all our efforts toward saving humanity. They said they are very pleased with how everything is playing out and that humanity is now on track toward achieving its fullest potential.
They reassured me that I would wake up from this visit with death, that my time with them would be temporary, and that I still have much work to do in this life. They said when my time comes many years from now, I would be reunited with them in that place between lives before being reborn into Edgar’s life.
They told me that before my death, I had just practiced the fifth ritual, which is to live a life of truth. They said that truth is the only path toward higher consciousness. The first four rituals help to develop the capacity to practice the fifth. They cultivate the ability to see the truth, the resolve to live the truth, and the courage to speak the truth.
The truth is a path that is not always clear or easy. That’s why the first four rituals are so important. They help to build the capacity to see, understand, interpret, and live the truth. The best means of building the strength to live and tell the truth is through practice. By speaking only that which is true and by living a life of truth, you will build the courage to stand by truth, even in the face of death.
Truth isn’t just what is true in the objective, materialistic sense, but what is true in purpose and in action. Truth is the best way to act in the world in a meaningful way. Some try to conceptualize truth as being outside and independent of conscious perception. In the realm between lives, there is only consciousness. That is the ultimate reality. As such, the ultimate truth is within our conscious experience, not outside of it.
As we gain new experiences in our lives, we gain a greater understanding of truth. Living a life of truth is a process; it is not static. Our conception of truth will always be incomplete, but we must strive to make the closest approximation possible. We can never fully know the truth, but it is
our responsibility to seek it out and do our best to make it manifest in our world.
Some live their lives as if everything worth knowing is already known, while others live as if nothing is truly knowable. To live a life of truth is to stand on the boundary between the known and unknown, always in search of greater truths. The truths of the past are comfortable, they are known. But they are incomplete. One must be open to the truths uncovered through life’s experiences. As Edgar said in his letter, truth is a process of discovery. We must be courageous and step forth into the unknown and seek a deeper understanding of truth in our lives.
This entire journey has been one of uncovering the truth. Each of the first four rituals possess truths that have been hidden by the people and organizations that profit from falsehood. We live in a world were information is abundant but truth is scarce. We have so many conflicting interests—personal, political, occupational—that the actual truth is of minimal importance in our daily lives. Just think of how many lies, however small, you say or act out in a day. Many of those lies are lies to ourselves about who we really are. Some are lies of the mind and some are lies of the heart.
In my own life, I have lived a life of falsehood. I didn’t tell the truth to my patients about what I thought was best for their health. I lied to myself about what was the best option for me. I convinced myself that these falsehoods were the best way to keep my job; however, telling the truth would have been the better route. It would have been the best for my patients, and even if I lost my job, I at least would have maintained my integrity.
In other matters, I lied to myself about my relationship with Adrienne. I knew things weren’t going well between us, but I tried to convince myself otherwise. I wanted to have a solid relationship with my soulmate, but the honest truth was that our relationship wasn’t working. We didn’t want the same things. I wanted an intimate relationship, and she wasn’t ready for that. She needed to work through other things that didn’t involve me.
It’s crazy when you stop to think about all the lies we tell ourselves every day. We create a false narrative about ourselves and the world around us. The little lies we tell ourselves may seem to make everything easier and more tolerable, but over the long run, they just make things worse. Telling the truth, especially to ourselves, is the only option if we want to find real meaning in our lives.
The more you lie, the more you are willing to compromise yourself, and even little white lies can lead to a terrible place, like the world in which Edgar originally found himself. If you commit small lies because they seem to make your life a little more comfortable, what is going to happen when you are in a situation where something greater is at stake? Will you have developed the courage to stand up for the truth and what is right? Or will you continue to just do what is comfortable and convenient by lying to yourself and to the world? We must develop the courage to tell the truth. It starts small, but over time, we can develop the strength to tell the truth even when it is difficult. If we can do that on a large scale, it may prevent us from creating a world in which a weak population allows a totalitarian government to take control.
It is important to restate that practicing the first four rituals will help you to better practice the fifth. The first four rituals help bring about the right state of mind to adequately see the truth in your life. Without the right state of mind, it is much more likely that the truth will be obscured. It is also more likely that you will adopt someone else’s version of the truth rather than your own. You will be more likely to be manipulated and used to further someone else’s agenda. The truth has no agenda. You must set aside your own selfish motives, and perhaps the motives that others have placed upon you, and trust that the truth is the best way forward.
I want you to know that I’ve done my best to share with you a message of truth throughout this podcast. That being said, I don’t want you to just take my word for it. I encourage you to seek out the truth in what I have shared with you. Just as I have been on a journey to uncover the truth, I want you to do the same in your own life. Discover the truth in the rituals yourself, and allow nature to be your guide.
The fifth ritual is to place the truth above all else. It is to live the truth and to speak the truth. Our actions reflect our words and our words our actions. The two are intertwined. Only through truth can we achieve a higher level of consciousness. We must have faith that the truth is always the best option. We must believe that the truth will bring about the best possible outcome, now and into the future.
I’ve been posting additional resources for each of the rituals on my website at awakethefuture.com. I don’t consider myself an expert on living a life of truth, so I don’t know what resources I should post. I’m sure some of you have already developed your practice of this ritual more than I have, so please share with me any resources you think might be useful. You can email me at [email protected] or submit the contact form on my website.
I still have a long way to go in my personal practice of living a life of truth, but I think I’m making progress. It goes to show that even though I’ve done a pretty good job of practicing the first four rituals, the fifth ritual still requires a focused effort to implement. Just because you’re doing the first four well, doesn’t mean that the fifth will be automatic.
So now we have all five rituals. The fire ritual is to follow the sun. The water ritual is to drink pure water. The air ritual is to avoid artificial fields. The earth ritual is to connect to the earth. And the fifth ritual is to live a life of truth.
Before I left the realm between lives, they told me one more thing. They told me I needed to change the pattern and not repeat the mistakes of the past. They said I still have much work to do after releasing the five rituals, but this would only happen if I changed the pattern and set a new course. I wasn’t sure what they meant by this at first, but I think I know now. I just hope it’s not too late.
Even though I’ve now released all five rituals to the world, I don’t feel like my work with this podcast is over yet. I’m not sure how many more episodes I will make. I don’t know if I’ll receive any more letters from Edgar, but until I figure out what the next steps are, and until I figure out what is happening with Adrienne, I’ll make sure I keep you in the loop on any further developments. Until then, practice the rituals, and let’s make the world a better place. Talk to you soon.
EPISODE 8:
A NEW BEGINNING
November 9, 2018
I left things off in the last episode unsure about where this podcast would go. I’ve now decided that this will be the last episode, at least for the foreseeable future. I’m still not exactly sure what I’m going to do instead to keep sharing the rituals with the world, but I’ll get into that a little later in this episode.
First, I have a lot of other things to catch you up on, including having received another letter from Edgar. This is what it said:
Dear Adam,
This will be my last letter to you. It’s been about a year in my life since I last visited you, and the effect our work has had on humanity has been nothing short of astounding. Words cannot describe the world in which I live. The Transcendent Beings I described in my last letter now exist all around me.
My mind, however, has been declining. I’m afraid my travels through consciousness, rewriting the contents of my mind multiple times, have taken their toll. There are days when I have difficulty remembering who I am or what version of my life I am currently in.
I am taking some further risk with my mind by coming back one more time to tell you this, but I needed to let you know our work together is done and our mission accomplished. It has been a pleasure to work with you, and it’s been a more than worthwhile trade off to sacrifice my mind for the tremendous betterment of the world. I would have traded the original version of my life for just a single day in this new world, so please do not feel sorry for me. It has been more than worth it.
Although our work together is done, it is
important that you continue your life’s mission. There is still much more that you can do in your current life to bring about this beautiful world that I, and one day you, call home.
The one last message I have for you is that when your consciousness enters the lifetime in which I am currently living, your experience will be entirely different. Although my letters to you will have still existed in the past, your future life as me will not require you to travel back to send those letters.
Those letters were written in different branches of time that no longer exist. Even though they were written in different branches, they still exist on the present branch, and they still will have the same effects on bringing about an awakening of human consciousness in the future. In essence, you will be able to have your cake and eat it too, benefiting from the consequences of the letters without ever having to write them.
I tell you this so that you do not worry about needing to do the same things I have done in this life. When you are born into your next life, you will live in this amazing world but there will be a new plan for you. I do not know what that plan will be, but of course, I’ll be there with you along the way.
Yours,
Edgar
It was awesome to hear from Edgar again, even if it was the last time. I’m so thankful for his resolve throughout our mission. He was always willing to sacrifice himself and the life he knew to continue to move forward. I’m proud that we carry the same soul. If you’re hearing this, Edgar, you’ve been a great friend and accomplice. I wish you the best in the remainder of your years in such a wondrous world.
That wasn’t the only letter I received, though. I also received an email from Adrienne. It said:
Adam,
I listened to your last episode, and I’m so relieved to know you are safe. In the days before I left the safe house, I had another recurring dream about the future. In the dream, we both were killed. I couldn’t let that dream come true, and I thought leaving was the only way to protect you. However, I began to have another dream shortly after I left. In this dream, I saw you lying dead in a warehouse.
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