by Kitty Berry
Raina tries to take deep breaths, but I can tell she’s struggling over this, over submitting to me as her Dom not just a guy she’s having sex with. I hold her close to my body to calm her. I stroke her back and run my hands through her hair, those gorgeous curls. I feel her soften and relax under my touch and it makes me grow thicker, harder somehow. I kiss her softly, barely brushing my lips across hers. My tongue makes a trail from her bottom lip down her chin to the crook of her neck.
She sighs and arches to my touch.
On an exhale of air, I slide between her legs and suck at her neck, leaving a love bite that will bring questions and teasing from the others tomorrow. But tonight, right here with her laid out naked like this for me, I really don’t give a flying fuck. She’s mine and my need to claim her, mark her as such is just too much and I succumb to my needs.
I reach for the cuffs and slide the first over her right wrist. When she stiffens, I look deep into her eyes and watch as she softens once again from my gaze. Beautiful. I reach for the other wrist, lay a soft kiss at her pressure point then slide the cuff on. Perfection at its finest. “I’m going to cuff you to the bed so you can’t move, Princess. Don’t worry, I won’t hurt you. Just going to wake you up a little. You’ll see. If it hurts or you want it to end, you just tell me.”
I flip her over onto her belly and cuff her wrists to the bed. She moans but doesn’t fight me. I make sure she’s not in pain and can’t hurt herself on her restraints before I cuff her ankles and spread her legs wide. I cuff her legs to the bed and rise to look at her. I can sense her concern at my absence so I gently brush my hand over the sexy dip at her lower back then over her firm ass. “Shh, Princess, relax. I’m right here with you. Just taking a few minutes to enjoy you. So beautiful. I’ve had this picture in my mind for so long now but somehow you’ve managed to surpass my imagination, my memory.”
I take a few deep breaths to pull myself away from the edge before I begin.
“Going to cover those sexy eyes now so all you’ll have is my touch, my voice, and my scent. Your primal instincts will kick in. Connect with me, with the feeling of my hands, the crop. You’ll become the feelings I give you. Relax into them, let them take you to a world of pleasure where all there is, all you need is us, our exchange of power, my voice, my touch, your feelings.”
She moans softly, my voice having the desired impact on her. I reach for the crop; it feels different in my hand with her ass presented to me. She’s not a naughty sub, a pain whore who was fresh and in need of a few smacks, not a newbie who needs to prove herself either. This is Raina, my Raina. The girl I’ve loved since before I knew what it meant to love someone. This is about the connection between us, not about the pain, not a punishment. This is about the trust she’s willing to give to me and the levels of pleasure I can bring to her. This is the true meaning of a BDSM relationship.
I gently run the crop over her thighs and watch as her skin prickles. She tenses but relaxes as my hand follows in the crop’s wake. I raise the crop in my right hand but make her wait. I let the anticipation set in before I bring it down gently, not what she expected. I repeat the motion a few times until she settles into my rhythm. Once she does, I strike harder, giving her the first taste of my world. Raina yelps at the sting of the crop on her bare ass, and before she can recover or protest, I rain seven more blows down on her ass, hard and fast. She begins to fight her restraints but never asks for me to stop. “Excellent,” I praise. “You’re bringing me so much pleasure, baby, you have no idea. Two more. Here they come, Princess. Take them like a good girl.”
I swing the crop two more times then I release it to the ground with a thud. I release her ankles first then her wrists. I lay over her, covering her back with my body. I nip at her ear then whisper, “Did you like that? Are you wet, Raina?” I ask her this as I slide a finger into her soft pink folds. I lose my breath when I feel the silky smooth skin coated in the creamy moisture. “Oh, Raina. You’re more than wet, baby. Did I almost make you come with my crop?”
“Mmm” she moans like a kitten in heat. And it’s that sound of hers, the one that gets me every time, the one I’ve longed for years to hear again. Music to my ears that shoots tingles straight to my cock.
I gently turn her over to look into her eyes. They’re glassy and dilated. She’s in a state of euphoria known as subspace, the psychological state that submissives can enter when their mind and body is deeply involved in a play scene with their Dom. It allows them to mentally separate themselves from their environment as they process the experience. This is not something most submissives can achieve on their first experience, but Raina and I played around enough in the past for her to get the connection between pain and pleasure right away. Our emotional connection has been deep from day one which also allowed her to put her complete trust in me tonight.
“Raina, can you hear me, Princess? You okay?” I check in. She sighs and reaches for me, soft and pliant in my arms as I cradle her to my body. “Honey, you’re in deep subspace, you’re barely coherent and I haven’t even made you come yet. You’re safe with me, though. I’m going to keep a careful watch on you and keep checking in. But right now, I’m not going to be able to talk because I have to get my mouth on that pussy.”
I move down her body like a panther on the prowl. “Spread your legs for me,” I demand as I grab them and help her along, unable to wait even a second for her to open her legs. I throw them over my shoulders as I sink face first in between them. My mouth closes over her pussy and I savor her taste, that familiar taste of hers, sugar and strawberries with just a hint of freshly fallen rain, like her name. “Fuck, you taste so good. There isn’t a sweeter pussy in this world, baby. Tell me this pussy is all mine. I want to hear those words on your lips. Say it.”
Raina looks at me between her legs. We lock eyes, the moment erotic and intense. When my lips clasp around her clit and I begin to suck, she’s unable to maintain eye contact. Her head falls back onto the pillow and she purrs like a kitten again. I release her tight bundle of nerves for just a moment. “Say it” I demand again.
“Yes, Pete. All yours. Always have been. No one else. Just you.”
“What’s all mine, Princess. Say it. I know you have a dirty, filthy mouth and I love it. Makes me so fucking hard.”
“My pussy. It’s all yours. Oh, yeah, Pete, you’re going to make me come.”
“Am I now? Where baby? Where are you going to come for me?”
“Mmmm. In your mouth. Please make me come with your tongue. So good.”
“With fucking pleasure, Princess. Then I’m going to fuck you. I’m going to bury myself so deep inside you that you’ll still feel me there in the morning.”
My tongue resumes licking her. I trail it slowly from her entrance to her clit but I’m careful not to brush it. I make slow agonizing circles around and around, teasing her little button into a tight hard bundle just waiting to detonate. She moans and sinks her hands into my hair, pulling my mouth tighter to her body. I make trips up and down her wet slit with my tongue until she’s so revved up, anymore would become painful. When my tongue finally connects again with her clit, she sighs, and her body relaxes around me.
“Good girl. That’s going to do it for you, I know baby. You ache, don’t you? I got you; I’m going to make it feel so good now. Mmm, ready? So sweet this pussy is,” I mumble into her folds then allow her the sweet release she’s been building up to. “Come in my mouth for me, Princess. Give it up for me.”
One, two, three swipes of my tongue over her clit and her body arches off the bed. My hands go to her hips to hold her in place, make her accept every second of the pleasure, the pleasure that’s almost pain, almost too much to take. I suckle at her until her body relaxes, the spasms subsiding. Raina goes completely lax as a sigh escapes with my name, “Pete” she breathes and it’s the sexiest, most arousing sound I think my ears have ever heard.
With her essence still on my lips, I slide up her body and kiss her deep and lo
ng. My tongue gains entry into her mouth, she’s pliant and relaxed, her post orgasmic high and her first trip under suits her. I fuck her mouth with my tongue, in and out. She moans into the kiss and clasps her hands around the nape of my neck. The feeling of her hands on my over sensitive skin sends chills down my body, my balls tighten, and I growl into her neck. I manage to wiggle free of my boxers, the last barrier between us.
“I want to fuck you bare, Princess. I can’t stand to think of having anything between us ever again, not even a piece of latex. I have never once been with a girl, other than you, without a condom. I’m clean; I would never jeopardize your safety. You must know that. Is it safe? I mean for you? Are you on birth control?”
“Yes, on the pill still.”
“Oh, thank fuck! Raina look at me. I want your eyes the whole time I’m inside you” I demand.
I nudge the head of my cock at her entrance and she gasps as I slowly push just enough for her to feel me. She’s tight; this isn’t going to be easy. Like the night she gave me her virginity, I don’t want to hurt her, but I know it’s inevitable. “I’m sorry, Princess. You know this is going to pinch a little. You’re so fucking tight and I’m like a caged animal just let loose. I’m doing my best to keep some composure, but I’m losing the battle fast.”
Raina cries out and arches her hips into mine as I push harder. She keeps her eyes locked on mine as I slide out and push harder still on the next thrust. Her eyes are wide and dilated, filled with emotions.
Two more pushes and I’m balls deep in heaven. Her pussy wraps around me, so tight and warm, wet and soft. She flutters, not the spasms of an orgasm, but the first indication that one is imminent. “Yeah, baby. Ready to give me one already? Let go for me. Now, Raina. Let me feel you come. I’m right there with you, baby. It’s been so long, and your pussy is…fuck, so fucking good. This, this right here, this pussy that’s all mine, is what coming home feels like. God Raina, I’m going to fucking come” I admit with a growl.
Raina’s nails bite into my shoulders as I thrust into her with a rhythm that is sure to send us both over the edge. As I nip her ear, I feel the flutters of her pussy turn into tight spasms and Raina cries out her orgasm. I can hold back no longer, I let go completely to the sensations coursing through my body. The pleasure, the desire, the love overpowers me and I fill her body with a curse and a grunt. “Fucking Christ!”
I fall on her in a heap of tangled limbs and sweat filled sheets. I don’t want to pull out, her pussy is like home to me and I don’t ever want to leave. I prop myself up on my arms to keep my weight off her then I brush the hair from her face. She’s smiling slightly, like the Cheshire cat but her eyes are closed, her lashes fluttering on her cheeks. Raina sank into subspace so fast and so deep that as soon as her orgasm faded, she dozed off.
I gently slide out of her, still semi-hard and roll to my side. I’m afraid she’s about to crash and wake up scared and disoriented in a second or two. I nudge her with my nose on her cheek then spread kisses over her neck as my fingertips travel down her belly and stop when they reach her pussy.
Raina gasps at the contact with her sensitive flesh and startles awake. “Pete” she calls.
“Yeah, Princess. I’m right here. You okay?”
“Feel cold. Weird. Don’t like this” she whines.
“I was afraid you wouldn’t. You’re okay though. Stay calm. I’m here and you’re safe. You sank into what’s called subspace; it’s the complete handover of control. You enjoyed my strokes, the spanking, everything, and your mind just released, allowing you to only experience the physical pleasures I was giving you, not the pain. Your body released endorphins to numb the pain. The problem is, after it’s over, the body drops from the high and suddenly you start to feel cold and incoherent. We call it bottoming out. I’m going to take care of you and in just a few minutes you’re going to feel normal again. Relax. Come here” I say as I pull her into my chest.
I prop myself up and drag her with me so I can sit with my back against the headboard. Raina curls against my side. I pull the blanket over us to warm her and I place a hand on her head, pressing her into my chest so she can hear and feel my heartbeat, my breathing. “Listen to my heart, feel my breathing. Relax and time yours with mine, let your heart beat in time with mine. That’s it. Good girl. You’re doing it. In and out, easy, keep breathing in time with me. There you go. Better” I praise.
Once she calms, and is breathing slowly again, I know I need to get her something to drink and something sweet to eat. “In my rush to get you in here, I forgot to get some things you need. I’m going to go to the kitchen for a drink and something sweet for you to eat then you can sleep, okay, baby? I’ll be right back. You stay warm under the covers and just keep breathing like you are, okay? You’ll be okay for a few minutes, right?”
“Sure, I’m fine now, just thirsty and so tired. God, Pete, I forgot what that was like. And I forgot how ah, equipped you are. That was…wow!”
“I’m glad I make you happy, Princess. That’s all that matters to me. Now, I have to take care of you. I’ll be right back with some water and something sweet, just like you” I say as I kiss her lips gently then tap her nose with the tip of my finger.
When I’m in the kitchen grabbing us two water bottles and two of the cupcakes from the new bakery around the block, Amanda walks in looking defeated. “When did you guys get home?” I ask.
“Oh, hey, Pete,” she says apparently just noticing that I was there. “Ah, about an hour ago.”
“So, were we too loud, did everyone hear us?”
“Nah. We’re all wrapped up in our own shit. No worries. Todd has a migraine though; I came to get him something to drink.”
“Let me take care of it. I just need to be sure Raina gets her drink and this cupcake then I’ll be in, or better yet, here. You go to Raina, I’m sure she’d love a little girl talk. I’ll go to Todd.”
“Thanks for the offer, but I want to go to him. I’ve lost so much time with him already and we only have a little time left.” She sighs and looks about ready to cry. I pull her into my chest and rub the hair out of her eyes. I take her face in my hands and soothe her with my words. “Amanda, listen to me. You’re my best friend’s girl, always have been, always will be. That gives you a special place in my heart forever. I will always be here for you. Let me help. Please, he’s my best friend.”
“You’re a good friend and a good man, Pete Roman. You deserve to be happy. I’m glad things are working out for you and Raina. At least one of us will walk away from all this with their life semi-intact. I have to go back to a marriage to a good man. A man who deserves to be loved by his wife. Not a woman who always thinks of him as second best. From day one with Lenny, I knew I would never love him the way I loved Todd. But he is a good man, a good provider. He’ll make a great father. He’s funny, he makes me laugh, and we have a lot in common. On paper, he’s my perfect match, I should love him. But in real life, he’s my friend. I care for him, but I don’t love him like a wife should love her husband. I love Todd. We wasted all these years apart and now, what do I have left? A few more weeks? Weeks where he may not know who the fuck I am?”
“Come with me” is all I say as I lead her to my room. I have to be sure Raina is safe before I can help her and Todd.
We walk into my room to find Raina dozing under the sheets, curled up with a smile plastered on her face.
“Looks like you did well tonight, Pete. God, you fucked her into a coma” she teases me with a slap to my arm.
I approach the bed and sit on the edge carefully so I don’t frighten her. Raina awakes when I bend and bring my lips to hers. She notices Amanda and sits up covering herself with the sheet. “Is everything okay with Todd? Oh, God, he’s not…”
“No,” I begin. “He’s okay. Has a headache though. I want to go take care of him for a few minutes. I want Amanda to stay with you to be sure you’re okay, too, but she wants to be with Todd. Are you okay if I leave you for a little bit
longer? I’m not comfortable doing it but…”
“Why wouldn’t she be okay?” Amanda asks completely uneducated in my lifestyle.
“Long story. She’s fine, just coming off a kind of sex high. She needs to drink this water and eat this,” I say indicating the cupcake. “Then she needs to sleep for a while.”
“Pete, I’m good. Please. Go to Todd. I’ll drink the whole bottle of water and even eat more than one bite of that cupcake,” she promises with a smirk. “I’m tired. When you come back, I’ll be sleeping safe and sound waiting for you.”
“Alright, but I’m not thrilled about leaving you alone right now,” I kiss her temple and hand her the water. I turn to exit the room; I open the door and let Amanda go out first so I can turn back to Raina. “I love you, Princess. If you need me, come to their room” I say before I close the door.
When we open the door to Todd and Amanda’s room, Todd looks confused and glassy eyed. He looks as if he’s there, but not present. When he tries to stand to greet me he sways and stumbles like he’s drunk. He reminds me of how we used to spin around in circles when we were kids then see who could stay on their feet the longest.
“Fuck, man, I’m dizzy” he slurs.
I reach out for him just in the nick of time. As I catch him in my arms, his eyes roll to the back of his head and the tremors of his seizure rake his body. I take him gently to the floor in my arms and hold him tightly to me. “Go get Chris. Tell him he’s having a seizure,” I order Amanda. “Todd, man, I’m right here. I’ve got you. You’re alright. Chris is coming. I’m going to stay right here with you. Just stay with me. Keep listening to my voice.”
Chris storms into the room, barely dressed, as Todd begins to vomit, the seizure over. His stomach empties over and over, on my legs, my chest, the floor, and all over himself. “Get her out of here; I don’t want her to see this. She deserves better” he manages.