by Anne Stuart
Unfortunately he wanted to do it so badly he might very well not leave her to go wandering through the ruins. And the longer he waited, the more entangled he was becoming.
He’d forgotten how much he liked Colby, and the cool, pristine beauty of Still Lake. It felt like the only home he’d ever known, which was flat-out crazy. He’d been living in his house in Sudbury, Massachusetts, for six years. Long enough to put down roots.
Except he wasn’t the kind of man who put down roots. Not here, not anywhere.
He was about to turn away when he saw a movement near the boarded-up wing. Someone was in the overgrown bushes, watching him. Possibly someone dangerous—maybe even the killer himself. Or someone who knew the answers to what had happened so long ago.
He didn’t move, trying to peer through the undergrowth to see if he could make out anything about the person hiding there. And then to his surprise the bushes parted and Sophie’s crazy old mother stepped out.
She looked just as peculiar as always, with her mismatched clothes and flyaway gray hair. She was looking right at him out of her beady eyes, and to his amazement she motioned him forward.
He had nothing to lose. He strolled across the open space to the edge of the overgrown shrubbery, only to have her grab his arm in her surprisingly firm grip and drag him deeper into the bushes. He had long enough to wonder if she’d flipped out entirely, when he saw the open window.
Someone had pried the boards off. The glass had been smashed long ago, and it was obvious that Grace had climbed through there. She was dustier than usual.
“Go ahead,” she said. “You’ve been trying to get in there since you came back.”
She sounded caustic, almost reasonable, but he reminded himself he was dealing with a woman who’d lost her mind. Funny, but she seemed saner than most of the people he’d been around lately.
“I’ve never been here before, Grace,” he said patiently.
“Sure you haven’t. And your interest in the murders is purely academic. You’re bigger than I am, but you can fit through the window. Mind the broken glass.” She turned away.
“Wait a minute!” he called after her. “Why were you wandering around in there?”
She looked back over her thin shoulder. “Same reason as you. I want to prove who killed all those girls.”
“All those girls? There were only three.” How could she possibly know about the others? How could she possibly know anything?
Grace’s mouth curved in a wry smile, and he could see a trace of the vibrant woman she’d once been. More than a trace.
“Don’t take everything at face value, Mr. Smith,” she said. And then she walked away before he could say anything else.
The window was a tight squeeze, but he made it through, dropping down on the littered floor lightly. It was dark—the one broken window let in only a little bit of light, but this time he’d brought his flashlight, and he turned it on, shining it down the hallway.
Twenty years ago the place had been a wreck. By now it was beyond repair. Interior walls had crumbled, exposing the Spartan rooms, and beneath the fallen plaster and debris the occasional hospital bed could be seen. He and Lorelei had used each and every one of those beds during the long summer. It seemed like another lifetime.
He moved through the dust and rubble, shining his flashlight into every corner, trying to open his mind to any lingering memory. They remained stubbornly elusive. He could recognize rooms, remember events prior to his last night in Colby. But the night of the killings remained a mystery.
Even the basement kitchen came up blank. He didn’t remember ever going down there, though he imagined he’d checked out every square inch of the place long ago. He’d been here that night, he knew it. But nothing, not even returning to old haunts, was going to bring back the past.
He wanted to slam his fist into one of the crumbling walls in frustration, but it probably would have brought the whole place tumbling down on him, and he wasn’t pissed enough to die. He’d wasted his time in coming here. The answers he needed just weren’t ready to be found, and the sooner he let go of it all, the better. Maybe when he was as old and dotty as Gracey he’d suddenly remember what happened that night. Or maybe he never would. He could live with it. He had for twenty years.
He headed back to the broken window, throwing one leg over the sill. His shirt caught on something, and he heard a ripping sound. He looked down, and his sleeve was torn open, caught on a protruding nail. A long line of beaded blood followed the scratch.
Lucky he’d had a tetanus shot recently, he thought. And then froze, as the drops of blood swelled on his arm and began to soak into the torn shirt.
There’d been blood everywhere. On the ground, in her hair, in her torn clothes. Blood on her hands and even in her wide, staring eyes. He’d tried to stop the bleeding, but she was already gone, and he’d knelt on the ground, holding her body, howling in grief.
Not in the hospital. In the inky dark interior of the toolshed. It was no wonder there was no sign of blood anywhere here. He’d found her in the toolshed.
Someone else was there, watching them. He’d known it, but he’d been too drunk and stoned to remember it. He’d held Lorelei’s limp body until he’d passed out, and when he awoke he was alone, lying on the grass in the dark.
He’d stumbled back to his bed, convinced he’d imagined it. Even the blood smearing his body the next morning hadn’t jarred his memory. Nothing had. Until now, as he watched the blood soak into the thin chambray of his shirt.
He hadn’t killed her. He knew it now, with a deep, certain sureness. Someone else had, someone who’d been watching them. Someone who was still watching him.
It wasn’t over.
He’d shown weakness, when he could ill afford to. He’d remained firm and true to his calling for so many years, and now, in the very twilight of his mission, his will had failed him. He’d seen her tears and felt her sorrow and foolishly thought she should have a chance to repent on her own.
He was older and wiser than that. It was a momentary failing on his part, but he wouldn’t make that mistake again. And there was no harm done. She was only enmeshed further still in her sinfulness, and it would be easier to get away with it once more. If that’s what he chose to do.
Two sisters would be likely to raise suspicions in even the most trusting of the local police. But he counted on God to shield him from their eyes. He would do what he had to do, no more shirking, no more questioning the mantle God had placed upon him.
He would kill Sophie Davis and her sister. And release their souls to paradise.
At least Marty was in a good mood tonight, Sophie thought, trying to count her blessings. The bad moods had been fewer and fewer, and tonight her sister had actually been pleasant. And very pretty. She’d come down to the kitchen, wearing a skimpy dress and subdued makeup, and even her fuchsia-tinted hair looked relatively normal.
“I won’t be here for dinner. I’m going on a date,” she announced.
Sophie merely raised an eyebrow. “It’s a little late to be telling me, isn’t it? Who are you going out with?”
“Patrick.” There was just a trace of defiance in her voice, which surprised Sophie. But then, everything about the situation was a surprise. Patrick Laflamme was supposed to be immune to Marty’s jungle charms. And he was hardly the type Marty usually went for—he was steady, responsible and very polite.
But Sophie knew when to keep her mouth shut. “Sounds nice. Any idea when you’ll be back?” She half expected a rude response, but Marty merely shrugged.
“Probably early,” she said. “He’s a hard-working little Boy Scout.”
Sophie turned her face to hide her smile. “How depressing,” she said.
“Not really.” Marty was being almost chatty. “Have you taken a good look at him? He’s worth the trouble.”
“I hadn’t noticed. Are you intending to corrupt him?” she asked lightly.
“I’m doing my best.” Again that mournfu
l tone. “And he’s trying to reform me.”
Sophie turned at that, no longer able to hide her curiosity. “Who do you think is going to win the battle?”
“I don’t think I have a snowball’s chance in hell,” she said. “He’ll probably have me going to church and singing in the choir before long.”
“You’re not usually that persuadable.”
“Patrick’s different.”
Thank you, God, Sophie said inwardly.
The front doorbell rang. “That’ll be him. I’ll be back early,” Marty said, running out of the kitchen.
Sophie dried her hands on her apron and followed her sister into the hallway. Patrick was standing in the doorway, freshly shaved, wearing a coat and tie. He had a bouquet of bright yellow flowers in his hand. “We won’t be back late, Miss Davis,” he said politely.
It always depressed her when the meticulously polite Patrick called her miss. At least it was marginally better than ma’am. “I have complete faith in you, Patrick,” she replied.
Marty turned and stuck her tongue out at her sister with surreptitious malice.
“I won’t let you down, ma’am.”
Oh, God, there it was. The dreaded ma’am. “Call me Sophie,” she said cheerfully.
“Yes, ma’am.”
Maybe there was something to be said for bad boys and losers, she thought morosely, watching them as they drove up the driveway in Patrick’s meticulously well-kept pickup truck. At least they never made her feel like an aging spinster.
Another car was coming down the driveway, passing Patrick’s on a wider stretch. That was something else she needed to find the money for, she thought, depressed. The driveway needed work.
Doc pulled up by the kitchen door and got out. He wasn’t alone, and Sophie could see Rima sitting in the front seat. She waved at her, and Rima nodded back, looking lost in her own world.
As sad as it was for Doc, Rima’s illness had been a blessing for Sophie. While she didn’t know the details of what kept Rima housebound and mostly silent, she did know that she hadn’t “been right” in years, according to Marge Averill. Doc had had plenty of time to hone his skills, his patience and his caring on his own wife, and he’d helped Sophie deal with Grace’s sudden, unexpected deterioration.
Sophie left the porch, heading for Doc’s car, but he forestalled her. “Rima doesn’t feel much like talking today,” he said, his gentle smile accepting. “It was all I could do to talk her into taking a little drive, but I wanted to check on that cut of yours and bring you these.”
He handed her a bouquet of bright yellow flowers, and she looked down at them, smiling. So Marty wasn’t the only Davis woman with a gentleman caller who brought her flowers. “How sweet!” she said. “I don’t know if I’ve ever seen these before. What are they called?”
“Judas tears. Rima grows them in her garden—they’re pretty rare around here. Rima’s flowers are her pride and joy—just about the only thing that interests her. I was thinking it might help her if we moved to a warmer climate, where the growing season was longer, but she won’t have it. Born here in Colby and she’ll die here.” He glanced back at the car with tender care. “But not for a good long time, I hope. I guess we’re just a couple of hardcore Vermonters.”
“Shouldn’t I thank her for the flowers?”
“No need,” Doc said. “I’ll tell her you appreciate them. She’ll just wait in the car while I check on your mother. She was pretty restless this morning, and I’m a little worried that she might start getting delusional.”
“Delusional?”
“Don’t you worry, Sophie. You aren’t alone in this. I’m here for you. If Grace starts imagining things we can control it with drugs. How’s the head?”
“Just fine. Not even a headache.”
“Why don’t you put the flowers in water while I check on Grace? You wouldn’t want them to die, would you?”
She looked down at the pretty bouquet. She’d been wrong, she thought. The flowers were unusual, but she’d seen them somewhere before, and recently. She just couldn’t remember where.
They looked like the same flowers that Patrick had brought Marty. That had to be it, she thought. But for some reason that wasn’t the connection she was looking for.
She was arranging the flowers in a small blue vase, trying to remember where else she’d seen them, when she heard Doc and Grace’s voices coming from her room. The tone was a little strained, which surprised her. Doc was devoted to Grace, as he was to all his patients, and even as Grace deteriorated she’d shown a surprising interest in Doc’s comings and goings. There’d been a time when she’d almost seemed jealous of the time Sophie spent with him—she certainly did her childish best to keep them apart. Keeping Doc for herself, it seemed. She had no choice but to share him with Rima, but she wasn’t about to let Sophie and Marty spend much time with him.
She heard her mother’s door close quietly, and she turned with the vase in her hand as Doc walked into the kitchen, his expression gloomy. “She’s not good, my dear,” he said gently. “I’m afraid she’s going to need to be on some kind of tranquilizer. She’s very agitated tonight. I think I’ll take Rima home and come back out and sit with her. If need be, I’ll give her something so that she’ll sleep through the night.”
Sophie didn’t bother to hide her stricken expression. “But what happened? She didn’t seem any different this morning. I know my accident upset her, but I made it clear that it was just a drunk driver….”
“What are you talking about?” Doc said sharply. “You told me you misjudged the curve and slid off the road. You didn’t say a word about another driver.”
Shit. “I didn’t want to worry you, Doc,” she said, embarrassed. “I was nearly run off the road up by Dutchman’s Falls. It was an accident, and the driver was probably too drunk to realize he almost killed me.”
“Maybe,” Doc said in a grim voice. “And maybe it was no accident.”
“Don’t be ridiculous. Who would want to hurt me?”
Doc just shook his head. “I’ll be back as soon as I can. Just keep an eye on Grace, will you? I don’t want to risk her wandering back down to the Whitten place. I don’t think she’d be safe.”
Sophie set the vase down on the kitchen table, her hands shaking slightly. “What are you saying? You think John Smith is trying to hurt us?”
“I don’t know,” he said. “All I know is that things have felt wrong, strange, ever since he moved in here. I don’t know what it is, but I’ve always had good instincts. And it just doesn’t feel right. Keep your mother safe, Sophie. I’d never forgive myself if something happened to her. Or you.”
Great, Sophie thought as he drove up the driveway. As if she weren’t paranoid enough, now Doc was imagining murderers lurking in the woodwork. Leaving her alone to worry about it.
She put dinner on the table, then went to her mother’s door and knocked softly. Not that Grace had shown much interest in food recently, but she couldn’t afford to miss meals.
“Dinnertime, Mama,” she called.
“Not hungry” came the voice from the other side of the door. She sounded like a cantankerous seven-year-old, and Sophie sighed. Just when it looked as if Marty might be improving, Grace was getting worse.
“You need to eat,” she said. “At least come out and keep me company.”
A long silence. “Are you alone?”
“Yes,” she said, startled. For a moment she’d sounded like the old Grace, rational and on top of things. “Even Marty’s gone out, and Doc took Rima home. Come on out and keep me company.”
The door opened a crack, revealing her mother standing there, her gray hair tangled, her clothes mismatched, an oddly lucid expression in her faded eyes. “Poor Rima,” she muttered obscurely. “What’s for supper?”
“Shepherd’s pie from the leftover roast lamb,” she said, following her mother back into the kitchen, only to come up short as Grace blocked the doorway.
“Where did those
come from?” her mother asked in a trembling voice.
“I bought the lamb at Audley’s, Ma,” she said patiently. “You had some last night, and you liked it—”
“I mean the flowers,” she said sharply.
“They’re from Rima. Doc brought them out for me. They’re pretty, aren’t they? I thought that was so sweet of her, to think of us even while she’s having such a difficult time…”
“They’re not from Rima,” Grace said. “They’re from him!”
God give me patience, Sophie thought wearily. “Yes, Doc brought them in, but Rima sent them. Come and sit down, Ma. I’m sure the flowers were meant for all of us, not just me.”
“Oh, my God, maybe they were,” Grace said obscurely, distressed. “Sophie, I have to talk to you.” She took Sophie’s hands in her gnarled ones, and she looked deeply troubled.
“Of course, Mama. What’s worrying you?” Sophie kept her voice low and reassuring.
“Don’t talk to me like I’m an idiot!” Grace snapped. It was the first time she’d shown anger in months. “You have to trust me. I know I’m a dizzy old broad, but I’m not nearly as wafty as you think.”
“I don’t think you’re wafty.”
“Of course you do. That’s what I wanted you to think. I was hoping to keep you safe, but it’s too late. It’s gone too far. He’s going to kill you. He’s probably going to kill us all.”
“What are you talking about, Mama?” Shit, Doc was right about the delusions. Grace was having a dilly of a one.
“Doc. He’s a murderer. He kills women, Sophie. It wasn’t that boy they convicted, it was Doc who killed them. Killed them all. And he’s killed more than those three people.”
“Why would Doc kill people, Grace?” Sophie asked gently. “He’s a healer, and the kindest man alive.”
“I don’t know,” Grace said stubbornly. “I only know that he’ll try to kill you, and soon.”
“And how do you know that?”
“The flowers.”
Sophie wanted to burst into tears. How could her mother have gotten so deluded so quickly? “I’ll get rid of the flowers,” she said patiently. “Then we’ll have some supper and some hot tea, and then Doc will come back and you can ask him whether he really wants to kill me…”