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by Percy Bysshe Shelley


  Love sometimes leads astray to misery.

  Yet think not, though subdued — and I may well 350

  Say that I am subdued — that the full hell

  Within me would infect the untainted breast

  Of sacred Nature with its own unrest;

  As some perverted beings think to find

  In soorn or hate a medicine for the mind

  Which soorn or hate have wounded — oh, how vain!

  The dagger heals not, but may rend again!

  Believe that I am ever still the same

  In creed as in resolve; and what may tame

  My heart must leave the understanding free, 360

  Or all would sink in this keen agony;

  Nor dream that I will join the vulgar cry;

  Or with my silence sanction tyranny;

  Or seek a moment’s shelter from my pain

  In any madness which the world calls gain,

  Ambition or revenge or thoughts as stern

  As those which make me what I am; or turn

  To avarice or misanthropy or lust.

  Heap on me soon, O grave, thy welcome dust!

  Till then the dungeon may demand its prey, 370

  And Poverty and Shame may meet and say,

  Halting beside me on the public way,

  “That love-devoted youth is ours; let ‘s sit

  Beside him; he may live some six months yet.”

  Or the red scaffold, as our country bends,

  May ask some willing victim; or ye, friends,

  May fall under some sorrow, which this heart

  Or hand may share or vanquish or avert;

  I am prepared — in truth, with no proud joy,

  To do or suffer aught, as when a boy 380

  I did devote to justice and to love

  My nature, worthless now! —

  ‘I must remove

  A veil from my pent mind. ‘T is torn aside!

  O pallid as Death’s dedicated bride,

  Thou mockery which art sitting by my side,

  Am I not wan like thee? at the grave’s call

  I haste, invited to thy wedding-ball,

  To greet the ghastly paramour for whom

  Thou hast deserted me — and made the tomb

  Thy bridal bed — but I beside your feet 390

  Will lie and watch ye from my winding-sheet —

  Thus — wide-awake though dead — yet stay, oh, stay!

  Go not so soon — know not what I say —

  Hear but my reasons — I am mad, I fear,

  My fancy is o’erwrought — thou art not here;

  Pale art thou, ‘t is most true — but thou art gone,

  Thy work is finished — I am left alone.

  . . . . . . . . .

  ‘Nay, was it I who wooed thee to this breast,

  Which like a serpent thou envenomest

  As in repayment of the warmth it lent? 400

  Didst thou not seek me for thine own content?

  Did not thy love awaken mine? I thought

  That thou wert she who said “You kiss me not

  Ever; I fear you do not love me now” —

  In truth I loved even to my overthrow

  Her who would fain forget these words; but they

  Cling to her mind, and cannot pass away.

  . . . . . . . . .

  ‘You say that I am proud — that when I speak

  My lip is tortured with the wrongs which break

  The spirit it expresses. — Never one 410

  Humbled himself before, as I have done!

  Even the instinctive worm on which we tread

  Turns, though it wound not — then with prostrate head

  Sinks in the dust and writhes like me — and dies?

  No: wears a living death of agonies!

  As the slow shadows of the pointed grass

  Mark the eternal periods, his pangs pass,

  Slow, ever-moving, making moments be

  As mine seem, — each an immortality!

  . . . . . . . . .

  ‘That you had never seen me — never heard 420

  My voice, and more than all had ne’er endured

  The deep pollution of my loathed embrace —

  That your eyes ne’er had lied love in my face —

  That, like some maniac monk, I had torn out

  The nerves of manhood by their bleeding root

  With mine own quivering fingers, so that ne’er

  Our hearts had for a moment mingled there

  To disunite in horror — these were not

  With thee like some suppressed and hideous thought

  Which flits athwart our musings but can find 430

  No rest within a pure and gentle mind;

  Thou sealedst them with many a bare broad word,

  And sear’dst my memory o’er them, — for I heard

  And can forget not; — they were ministered

  One after one, those curses. Mix them up

  Like self-destroying poisons in one cup,

  And they will make one blessing, which thou ne’er

  Didst imprecate for on me, — death.

  . . . . . . . . .

  ‘It were

  A cruel punishment for one most cruel,

  If such can love, to make that love the fuel 440

  Of the mind’s hell — hate, scorn, remorse, despair;

  But me, whose heart a stranger’s tear might wear

  As water-drops the sandy fountain-stone,

  Who loved and pitied all things, and could moan

  For woes which others hear not, and could see

  The absent with the glance of fantasy,

  And with the poor and trampled sit and weep,

  Following the captive to his dungeon deep;

  Me — who am as a nerve o’er which do creep

  The else unfelt oppressions of this earth, 450

  And was to thee the flame upon thy hearth,

  When all beside was cold: — that thou on me

  Shouldst rain these plagues of blistering agony!

  Such curses are from lips once eloquent

  With love’s too partial praise! Let none relent

  Who intend deeds too dreadful for a name

  Henceforth, if an example for the same

  They seek: — for thou on me look’dst so, and so —

  And didst speak thus — and thus. I live to show

  How much men bear and die not!

  . . . . . . . . .

  ‘Thou wilt tell 460

  With the grimace of hate how horrible

  It was to meet my love when thine grew less;

  Thou wilt admire how I could e’er address

  Such features to love’s work. This taunt, though true,

  (For indeed Nature nor in form nor hue

  Bestowed on me her choicest workmanship)

  Shall not be thy defence; for since thy lip

  Met mine first, years long past, — since thine eye kindled

  With soft fire under mine, — I have not dwindled,

  Nor changed in mind or body, or in aught 470

  But as love changes what it loveth not

  After long years and many trials.

  ‘How vain

  Are words! I thought never to speak again,

  Not even in secret, not to mine own heart;

  But from my lips the unwilling accents start,

  And from my pen the words flow as I write,

  Dazzling my eyes with scalding tears; my sight

  Is dim to see that charactered in vain

  On this unfeeling leaf, which burns the brain

  And eats into it, blotting all things fair 480

  And wise and good which time had written there.

  Those who inflict must suffer, for they see

  The work of their own hearts, and this must be

  Our chastisement or recompense. — O child!

  I would that thine were like to be more mild

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nbsp; For both our wretched sakes, — for thine the most

  Who feelest already all that thou hast lost

  Without the power to wish it thine again;

  And as slow years pass, a funereal train,

  Each with the ghost of some lost hope or friend 490

  Following it like its shadow, wilt thou bend

  No thought on my dead memory?

  . . . . . . . . .

  ‘Alas, love!

  Fear me not — against thee I would not move

  A finger in despite. Do I not live

  That thou mayst have less bitter cause to grieve?

  I give thee tears for scorn, and love for hate;

  And that thy lot may be less desolate

  Than his on whom thou tramplest, I refrain

  From that sweet sleep which medicines all pain.

  Then, when thou speakest of me, never say 500

  “He could forgive not.” Here I cast away

  All human passions, all revenge, all pride;

  I think, speak, act no ill; I do but hide

  Under these words, like embers, every spark

  Of that which has consumed me. Quick and dark

  The grave is yawning — as its roof shall cover

  My limbs with dust and worms under and over,

  So let Oblivion hide this grief — the air

  Closes upon my accents as despair

  Upon my heart — let death upon despair!’ 510

  He ceased, and overcome leant back awhile;

  Then rising, with a melancholy smile,

  Went to a sofa, and lay down, and slept

  A heavy sleep, and in his dreams he wept,

  And muttered some familiar name, and we

  Wept without shame in his society.

  I think I never was impressed so much;

  The man who were not must have lacked a touch

  Of human nature. — Then we lingered not,

  Although our argument was quite forgot; 520

  But, calling the attendants, went to dine

  At Maddalo’s; yet neither cheer nor wine

  Could give us spirits, for we talked of him

  And nothing else, till daylight made stars dim;

  And we agreed his was some dreadful ill

  Wrought on him boldly, yet unspeakable,

  By a dear friend; some deadly change in love

  Of one vowed deeply, which he dreamed not of;

  For whose sake he, it seemed, had fixed a blot

  Of falsehood on his mind which flourished not 530

  But in the light of all-beholding truth;

  And having stamped this canker on his youth

  She had abandoned him — and how much more

  Might be his woe, we guessed not; he had store

  Of friends and fortune once, as we could guess

  From his nice habits and his gentleness;

  These were now lost — it were a grief indeed

  If he had changed one unsustaining reed

  For all that such a man might else adorn.

  The colors of his mind seemed yet unworn; 540

  For the wild language of his grief was high —

  Such as in measure were called poetry.

  And I remember one remark which then

  Maddalo made. He said—’Most wretched men

  Are cradled into poetry by wrong;

  They learn in suffering what they teach in song.’

  If I had been an unconnected man,

  I, from this moment, should have formed some plan

  Never to leave sweet Venice, — for to me

  It was delight to ride by the lone sea; 550

  And then the town is silent — one may write

  Or read in gondolas by day or night,

  Having the little brazen lamp alight,

  Unseen, uninterrupted; books are there,

  Pictures, and casts from all those statues fair

  Which were twin-born with poetry, and all

  We seek in towns, with little to recall

  Regrets for the green country. I might sit

  In Maddalo’s great palace, and his wit

  And subtle talk would cheer the winter night 560

  And make me know myself, and the firelight

  Would flash upon our faces, till the day

  Might dawn and make me wonder at my stay.

  But I had friends in London too. The chief

  Attraction here was that I sought relief

  From the deep tenderness that maniac wrought

  Within me—’t was perhaps an idle thought,

  But I imagined that if day by day

  I watched him, and but seldom went away,

  And studied all the beatings of his heart 570

  With zeal, as men study some stubborn art

  For their own good, and could by patience find

  An entrance to the caverns of his mind,

  I might reclaim him from this dark estate.

  In friendships I had been most fortunate,

  Yet never saw I one whom I would call

  More willingly my friend; and this was all

  Accomplished not; such dreams of baseless good

  Oft come and go in crowds and solitude

  And leave no trace, — but what I now designed 580

  Made, for long years, impression on my mind.

  The following morning, urged by my affairs,

  I left bright Venice.

  After many years,

  And many changes, I returned; the name

  Of Venice, and its aspect, was the same;

  But Maddalo was travelling far away

  Among the mountains of Armenia.

  His dog was dead. His child had now become

  A woman; such as it has been my doom

  To meet with few, a wonder of this earth, 590

  Where there is little of transcendent worth,

  Like one of Shakespeare’s women. Kindly she,

  And with a manner beyond courtesy,

  Received her father’s friend; and, when I asked

  Of the lorn maniac, she her memory tasked,

  And told, as she had heard, the mournful tale:

  ‘That the poor sufferer’s health began to fail

  Two years from my departure, but that then

  The lady, who had left him, came again.

  Her mien had been imperious, but she now 600

  Looked meek — perhaps remorse had brought her low.

  Her coming made him better, and they stayed

  Together at my father’s — for I played

  As I remember with the lady’s shawl;

  I might be six years old — but after all

  She left him.’ ‘Why, her heart must have been tough.

  How did it end?’ ‘And was not this enough?

  They met — they parted.’ ‘Child, is there no more?’

  ‘Something within that interval which bore

  The stamp of why they parted, how they met; 610

  Yet if thine aged eyes disdain to wet

  Those wrinkled cheeks with youth’s remembered tears,

  Ask me no more, but let the silent years

  Be closed and cered over their memory,

  As yon mute marble where their corpses lie.’

  I urged and questioned still; she told me how

  All happened — but the cold world shall not know.

  PETER BELL THE THIRD

  BY MICHING MALLECHO, ESQ.

  Is it a party in a parlour,

  Crammed just as they on earth were crammed,

  Some sipping punch — some sipping tea;

  But, as you by their faces see,

  All silent, and all — damned!

  “Peter Bell”, by W.

  Wordsworth.

  OPHELIA. — What means this, my lord?

  HAMLET. — Marry, this is Miching Mallecho; it means mischief.

  Shakespeare.

  Composed at Florence, October, 1819, and for
warded to Hunt (November 2) to be published by C. & J. Ollier without the author’s name; ultimately printed by Mrs. Shelley in the second edition of the “Poetical Works”, 1839. A skit by John Hamilton Reynolds, “Peter Bell, a Lyrical Ballad”, had already appeared (April, 1819), a few days before the publication of Wordsworth’s “Peter Bell, a Tale”. These productions were reviewed in Leigh Hunt’s “Examiner” (April 26, May 3, 1819); and to the entertainment derived from his perusal of Hunt’s criticisms the composition of Shelley’s “Peter Bell the Third” is chiefly owing.

  CONTENTS

  PROLOGUE.

  PART 1. DEATH.

  PART 2. THE DEVIL.

  PART 3. HELL.

  PART 4. SIN.

  PART 5. GRACE.

  PART 6. DAMNATION.

  PART 7. DOUBLE DAMNATION.

  PETER BELL THE THIRD

  DEDICATION.

  TO THOMAS BROWN, ESQ., THE YOUNGER, H.F.

  Dear Tom,

  Allow me to request you to introduce Mr. Peter Bell to the respectable family of the Fudges. Although he may fall short of those very considerable personages in the more active properties which characterize the Rat and the Apostate, I suspect that even you, their historian, will confess that he surpasses them in the more peculiarly legitimate qualification of intolerable dulness.

  You know Mr. Examiner Hunt; well — it was he who presented me to two of the Mr. Bells. My intimacy with the younger Mr. Bell naturally sprung from this introduction to his brothers. And in presenting him to you, I have the satisfaction of being able to assure you that he is considerably the dullest of the three.

  There is this particular advantage in an acquaintance with any one of the Peter Bells, that if you know one Peter Bell, you know three Peter Bells; they are not one, but three; not three, but one. An awful mystery, which, after having caused torrents of blood, and having been hymned by groans enough to deafen the music of the spheres, is at length illustrated to the satisfaction of all parties in the theological world, by the nature of Mr. Peter Bell.

  Peter is a polyhedric Peter, or a Peter with many sides. He changes colours like a chameleon, and his coat like a snake. He is a Proteus of a Peter. He was at first sublime, pathetic, impressive, profound; then dull; then prosy and dull; and now dull — oh so very dull! it is an ultra-legitimate dulness.

  You will perceive that it is not necessary to consider Hell and the

  Devil as supernatural machinery. The whole scene of my epic is in

  ‘this world which is’ — so Peter informed us before his conversion to

  “White Obi” —

  ‘The world of all of us, AND WHERE

  WE FIND OUR HAPPINESS, OR NOT AT ALL.’

  Let me observe that I have spent six or seven days in composing this sublime piece; the orb of my moonlike genius has made the fourth part of its revolution round the dull earth which you inhabit, driving you mad, while it has retained its calmness and its splendour, and I have been fitting this its last phase ‘to occupy a permanent station in the literature of my country.’

 

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