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by Joe Hill


  “It’s a nice tradition, though. All of us could stand to spend less time thinking about ourselves.”

  “What’s with all the masks?”

  “Every vacation home ought to have a few masks lying around. What if you want a vacation from your own face? I get awfully sick of being the same person day in, day out. What do you think of that one, do you like it?”

  I was absentmindedly fingering the glassy, blank-featured mask hanging from the window. When she brought my attention to what I was doing, I pulled my hand back. A chill crawled along the thickening flesh of my forearms.

  “You should put it on,” she said, her voice breathy and eager. “You should see how you look in it.”

  “It’s awful,” I said.

  “Are you going to be okay sleeping in your own room? You could sleep in bed with us. That’s what you did the last time you were here. Although you were much younger then.”

  “That’s all right. I wouldn’t want to get in the way, in case you feel like conceiving someone else.”

  “Be careful what you wish for,” she said. “History repeats.”

  THE ONLY FURNITURE in my small room was a camp cot dressed in sheets that smelled of mothballs and a wardrobe against one wall, with paisley drapes pulled across the mirror on the back. A half-face mask hung from the curtain rod. It was made of green silk leaves, sewn together and ornamented with emerald sequins, and I liked it until I turned the light off. In the gloom, the leaves looked like the horny scales of some lizard-faced thing, with dark gaping sockets where the eyes belonged. I switched the light back on and got up long enough to turn it face to the wall.

  Trees grew against the house and sometimes a limb batted the side of the cottage, making a knocking sound that always brought me awake with the idea someone was at the bedroom door. I woke, dozed, and woke again. The wind built to a thin shriek and from somewhere outside came a steady, metallic ping-ping-ping, as if a wheel were turning in the gale. I went to the window to look, not expecting to see anything. The moon was up, though, and as the trees blew, moonlight raced across the ground, through the darkness, like schools of those little silver fish that live in deep water and glow in the dark.

  A bicycle leaned against a tree, an antique with a giant front wheel and a rear wheel almost comically too small. The front wheel turned continuously, ping-ping-ping. A boy came across the grass toward it, a chubby boy with fair hair, in a white nightgown, and at the sight of him I felt an instinctive rush of dread. He took the handlebars of the bike, then cocked his head as if at a sound, and I mewed, shrank back from the glass. He turned and stared at me with silver eyes and silver teeth, dimples in his fat cupid cheeks, and I sprang awake in my mothball-smelling bed, making unhappy sounds of fear in my throat.

  When morning came, and I finally struggled up out of sleep for the last time, I found myself in the master bedroom, under heaped quilts, with the sun slanting across my face. The impression of my mother’s head still dented the pillow beside me. I didn’t remember rushing there in the dark and was glad. At thirteen, I was still a little kid, but I had my pride.

  I lay like a salamander on a rock—sun-dazed and awake without being conscious—until I heard someone pull a zipper on the other side of the room. I peered around and saw my father, opening the suitcase on top of the bureau. Some subtle rustling of the quilts caught his attention, and he turned his head to look at me.

  He was naked. The morning sunshine bronzed his short, compact body. He wore the clear plastic mask that had been hanging in the window of the great room the night before. It squashed the features beneath, flattening them out of their recognizable shapes. He stared at me blankly, as if he hadn’t known I was lying there in the bed, or perhaps as if he didn’t know me at all. The thick length of his penis rested on a cushion of gingery hair. I had seen him naked often enough before, but with the mask on he was someone different, and his nakedness was disconcerting. He looked at me and did not speak—and that was disconcerting too.

  I opened my mouth to say hello and good morning, but there was a wheeze in my chest. The thought crossed my mind that he was, really and not metaphorically, a person I didn’t know. I couldn’t hold his stare, looked away, then slipped from under the quilts and went into the great room, willing myself not to run.

  A pot clanked in the kitchen. Water hissed from a faucet. I followed the sounds to my mother, who was at the sink, filling a tea kettle. She heard the pad of my feet, and glanced back over her shoulder. The sight of her stopped me in my tracks. She had on a black kitten mask, edged in rhinestones, and with glistening whiskers. She was not naked, but wore a MILLER LITE T-shirt that came to her hips. Her legs, though, were bare, and when she leaned over the sink to shut off the water I saw a flash of strappy black panties. I was reassured by the fact that she had grinned to see me, and not just stared at me as if we had never met.

  “Egg pancakes in the oven,” she said.

  “Why are you and Dad wearing masks?”

  “It’s Halloween, isn’t it?”

  “No,” I said. “Try next Thursday.”

  “Any law against starting early?” she asked. Then she paused by the stove, an oven mitt on one hand, and shot another look at me. “Actually. Actually.”

  “Here it comes. The truck is backing up. The back end is rising. The bullshit is about to come sliding out.”

  “In this place it’s always Halloween. It’s called Masquerade House. That’s our secret name for it. It’s one of the rules of the cottage: While you’re staying here you have to wear a mask. It’s always been that way.”

  “I can wait until Halloween.”

  She pulled a pan out of the oven and cut me a piece of egg pancake, poured me a cup of tea. Then she sat down across from me to watch me eat.

  “You have to wear a mask. The playing-card people saw you last night. They’ll be coming now. You have to put a mask on so they won’t recognize you.”

  “Why wouldn’t they recognize me? I recognize you.”

  “You think you do,” she said, her long-lashed eyes vivid and humorous. “Playing-card people wouldn’t know you behind a mask. It’s their Achilles heel. They take everything at face value. They’re very one-dimensional thinkers.”

  “Ha ha,” I said. “When’s the appraiser coming?”

  “Sometime. Later. I don’t really know. I’m not sure there even is an appraiser. I might’ve made that up.”

  “I’ve only been awake twenty minutes and I’m already bored. Couldn’t you guys have found a babysitter for me and come up here for your weird mask-wearing, baby-making weekend by yourselves?” As soon as I said it, I felt myself starting to blush, but I was pleased that I had it in me to needle her about their masks and her black underwear and the burlesque game they had going that they thought I was too young to understand.

  She said, “I’d rather have you along. Now you won’t be getting into trouble with that girl.”

  The heat in my cheeks deepened, the way coals will when someone sighs over them. “What girl?”

  “I’m not sure which girl. It’s either Jane Redhill or her friend. Probably her friend. The person you always go over to Luke’s house hoping to see.”

  Luke was the one who liked her friend, Melinda; I liked Jane. Still, my mother had guessed close enough to unsettle me. Her smile broadened at my stricken silence.

  “She is a pert little cutie, isn’t she? Jane’s friend? I guess they both are. The friend, though, seems more your type. What’s her name? Melinda? The way she goes around in her baggy farmer overalls. I bet she spends her afternoons reading in a treehouse she built with her father. I bet she baits her own worms and plays football with the boys.”

  “Luke is hot for her.”

  “So it’s Jane.”

  “Who said it has to be either of them?”

  “There must be some reason you hang around with Luke. Besides Luke.” Then she said, “Jane came by selling magazine subscriptions to benefit her church a few days ago. She seem
s like a very wholesome young thing. Very community minded. I wish I thought she had a sense of humor. When you’re a little older, you should cold-cock Luke Redhill and drop him in the old quarry. That Melinda will fall right into your arms. The two of you can mourn for him together. Grief can be very romantic.” She took my empty plate and got up. “Find a mask. Play along.”

  She put my plate in the sink and went out. I finished a glass of juice and meandered into the great room after her. I glanced at the master bedroom, just as she was pushing the door shut behind her. The man who I took for my father still wore his disfiguring mask of ice, and had pulled on a pair of jeans. For a moment our eyes met, his gaze dispassionate and unfamiliar. He put a possessive hand on my mother’s hip. The door closed and they were gone.

  In the other bedroom, I sat on the edge of my bed and stuck my feet into my sneakers. The wind whined under the eaves. I felt glum and out of sorts, wanted to be home, had no idea what to do with myself. As I stood, I happened to glance at the green mask made of sewn silk leaves, turned once again to face the room. I pulled it down, rubbed it between thumb and forefinger, trying out the slippery smoothness of it. Almost as an afterthought, I put it on.

  MY MOTHER WAS in the living room, fresh from the shower.

  “It’s you,” she said. “Very Dionysian. Very Pan. We should get a towel. You could walk around in a little toga.”

  “That would be fun. Until hypothermia set in.”

  “It is drafty in here, isn’t it? We need a fire. One of us has to go into the forest and collect an armful of dead wood.”

  “Boy, I wonder who that’s going to be.”

  “Wait. We’ll make it into a game. It’ll be exciting.”

  “I’m sure. Nothing livens up a morning like tramping around in the cold foraging for sticks.”

  “Listen. Don’t wander from the forest path. Out there in the woods, nothing is real except for the path. Children who drift away from it never find their way back. Also—this is the most important thing—don’t let anyone see you, unless they come masked. Anyone in a mask is hiding out from the playing-card people, just like us.”

  “If the woods are so dangerous for children, maybe I ought to stay here and you or Dad can go play pick-up sticks. Is he ever coming out of the bedroom?”

  But she was shaking her head. “Grown-ups can’t go into the forest at all. Not even the trail is safe for someone my age. I can’t even see the trail. Once you get as old as me it disappears from sight. I only know about it because your father and I used to take walks on it, when we came up here as teenagers. Only the young can find their way through all the wonders and illusions in the deep dark woods.”

  Outside was drab and cold beneath the pigeon-colored sky. I went around the back of the house, to see if there was a woodpile. On my way past the master bedroom, my father thumped on the glass. I went to the window to see what he wanted, and was surprised by my own reflection, superimposed over his face. I was still wearing the mask of silk leaves, had for a moment forgotten about it.

  He pulled the top half of the window down and leaned out, his own face squashed by its shell of clear plastic, his wintry blue eyes a little blank. “Where are you going?”

  “I’m going to check out the woods, I guess. Mom wants me to collect sticks for a fire.”

  He hung his arms over the top of the window and stared across the yard. He watched some rust-colored leaves trip end-over-end across the grass. “I wish I was going.”

  “Then come.”

  He glanced up at me, and smiled, for the first time all day. “No. Not right now. Tell you what. You go on, and maybe I’ll meet you out there in a while.”

  “Okay.”

  “It’s funny. As soon as you leave this place, you forget how—pure it is. What the air smells like.” He stared at the grass and the lake for another moment, then turned his head, caught my eye. “You forget other things too. Jack, listen, I don’t want you to forget about—”

  The door opened behind him, on the far side of the room. My father fell silent. My mother stood in the doorway. She was in her jeans and sweater, playing with the wide buckle of her belt.

  “Boys,” she said. “What are we talking about?”

  My father didn’t glance back at her, but went on staring at me, and beneath his new face of melted crystal, I thought I saw a look of chagrin, as if he’d been caught doing something faintly embarrassing; cheating at solitaire maybe. I remembered, then, her drawing her fingers across his lips, closing an imaginary zipper, the night before. My head went queer and light. I had the sudden idea I was seeing another part of some unwholesome game playing out between them, the less of which I knew, the happier I’d be.

  “Nothing,” I said. “I was just telling Dad I was going for a walk. And now I’m going. For my walk.” Backing away from the window as I spoke.

  My mother coughed. My father slowly pushed the top half of the window shut, his gaze still level with mine. He turned the lock—then pressed his palm to the glass, in a gesture of goodbye. When he lowered his hand, a steamy imprint of it remained, a ghost hand that shrank in on itself and vanished. My father drew down the shade.

  I FORGOT ABOUT gathering sticks almost as soon as I set out. I had by then decided that my parents only wanted me out of the house so they could have the place to themselves, a thought that made me peevish. At the head of the trail I pulled off my mask of silk leaves and hung it on a branch.

  I walked with my head down and my hands shoved into the pockets of my coat. For a while the path ran parallel to the lake, visible beyond the hemlocks in slivers of frigid-looking blue. I was too busy thinking that if they wanted to be perverted and un-parent-like, they should’ve figured a way to come up to Big Cat Lake without me, to notice the path turning and leading away from the water. I didn’t look up until I heard the sound coming toward me along the trail: a steely whirring, the creak of a metal frame under stress. Directly ahead the path divided to go around a boulder, the size and rough shape of a half-buried coffin stood on end. Beyond the boulder, the path came back together and wound away into the pines.

  I was alarmed, I don’t know why. It was something about the way the wind rose just then, so the trees flailed at the sky. It was the frantic way the leaves scurried about my ankles, as if in a sudden hurry to get off the trail. Without thinking, I sat down behind the boulder, back to the stone, hugging my knees to my chest.

  A moment later the boy on the antique bike—the boy I thought I had dreamed—rode past on my left, without so much as a glance my way. He was dressed in the nightgown he had been wearing the night before. A harness of white straps held a pair of modest white-feathered wings to his back. Maybe he had had them on the first time I saw him and I hadn’t noticed them in the dark. As he rattled past, I had a brief look at his dimpled cheeks and blond bangs, features set in an expression of serene confidence. His gaze was cool, distant. Seeking. I watched him expertly guide his Charlie Chaplin cycle between stones and roots, around a curve, and out of sight.

  If I hadn’t seen him in the night, I might have thought he was a boy on his way to a costume party, although it was too cold to be out gallivanting in a nightgown. I wanted to be back at the cabin, out of the wind, safe with my parents. I was in dread of the trees, waving and shushing around me.

  But when I moved, it was to continue in the direction I had been heading, glancing often over my shoulder to make sure the bicyclist wasn’t coming up behind me. I didn’t have the nerve to walk back along the trail, knowing that the boy on the antique bike was somewhere out there, between myself and the cabin.

  I hurried along, hoping to find a road, or one of the other summer houses along the lake, eager to be anywhere but in the woods. Anywhere turned out to be less than a ten-minute walk from the coffin-shaped rock. It was clearly marked—a weathered plank, with the words “ANY-WHERE” painted on it, was nailed to the trunk of a pine—a bare patch in the woods where people had once camped. A few charred sticks sat in the bottom o
f a blackened firepit. Someone, children maybe, had built a lean-to between a pair of boulders. The boulders were about the same height, tilting in toward one another, and a sheet of plywood had been set across the top of them. A log had been pulled across the opening that faced the clearing, providing both a place for people to sit by a fire and a barrier that had to be climbed over to enter the shelter.

  I stood at the ruin of the ancient campfire, trying to get my bearings. Two trails on the far side of the camp led away. There was little difference between them, both narrow ruts gouged out in the brush, and no clue as to where either of them might lead.

  “Where are you trying to go?” said a girl on my left, her voice pitched to a good-humored hush.

  I leaped, took a half-step away, looked around. She was leaning out of the shelter, hands on the log. I hadn’t seen her in the shadows of the lean-to. She was black-haired, a little older than myself—sixteen maybe—and I had a sense she was pretty. It was hard to be sure. She wore a black sequined mask, with a fan of ostrich feathers standing up from one side. Just behind her, further back in the dark, was a boy, the upper half of his face hidden behind a smooth plastic mask the color of milk.

  “I’m looking for my way back,” I said.

  “Back where?” asked the girl.

  The boy kneeling behind her took a measured look at her outthrust bottom in her faded jeans. She was, consciously or not, wiggling her hips a little from side to side.

  “My family has a summer place near here. I was wondering if one of those two trails would take me there.”

  “You could go back the way you came,” she said, but mischievously, as if she already knew I was afraid to double back.

  “I’d rather not,” I said.

  “What brought you all the way out here?” asked the boy.

  “My mother sent me to collect wood for the fire.”

  He snorted. “Sounds like the beginning of a fairy tale.” The girl cast a disapproving look back at him, which he ignored. “One of the bad ones. Your parents can’t feed you anymore, so they send you off to get lost in the woods. Eventually someone gets eaten by a witch for dinner. Baked into a pie. Be careful it’s not you.”

 

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