Devour

by Shelly Crane

  Devour

  Shelly Crane

  Copyright @Shelly Crane 2010

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  Editing services provided by Jennifer Nunez

  Cover models for the series: Veronica Herwarth and Charlie Heimbach

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  ISBN-13: 978-1466474024

  ISBN-10: 1466474025

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  This book is dedicated to the people who have recently come into my life in a whirlwind of positive words and encouragement through many avenues. I’ll be forever grateful for all the help I received from so many as I wrote this book and others. Through moving, sickness, disappointments and awesome days, you were there and I say thank you!

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  “But often, in the world's most crowded streets,

  But often, in the din of strife,

  There rises an unspeakable desire

  After the knowledge of our buried life,

  A thirst to spend our fire and restless force

  In tracking out our true, original course;

  A longing to inquire

  Into the mystery of this heart which beats

  So wild, so deep in us, to know

  Whence our lives come and where they go.

  And many a man in his own breast then delves,

  But deep enough, alas, none ever mines!

  And we have been on many thousand lines,

  And we have shown, on each, spirit and power,

  But hardly have we, for one little hour,

  Been on our own line, have we been ourselves;

  Hardly had skill to utter one of all

  The nameless feelings that course through our breast,

  But they course on for ever unexpress'd.

  And long we try in vain to speak and act

  Our hidden self, and what we say and do

  Is eloquent, is well—but 'tis not true!”

  ~The Buried Life by Matthew Arnold~

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  One

  There’s a game you play. The one where you guess what the shapes and objects the clouds have made above you. Today there was a lady with a long witchy nose, a rabbit, a sailboat. Everyone’s perception is different; we all see different things. I personally think you see what you want to see.

  I was solely entranced in my gazing. The sun was bright behind me as I lay in the grass, my head on my jacket. My insanely dark black hair was long and almost too warm as it fanned around my head and caught the sunlight. The small hill on the edge of the park was the perfect spying spot. Spying on clouds, on people, on squirrels, but I was alone. Alone here and alone in life. My family used to come here together, but no more. My sister was gone, joined the Navy and would be gone for four years. She couldn’t handle the fact that our parents died and decided to fulfill my dad’s wish for us to be in the armed forces.

  The burglary, and the burglar who took their lives, was something we all wished to forget. Even the Montana police hastened the investigation because things like that just didn’t happen in our town. But there I was, stuck in my last year of high school, living with my Pastor’s family as a temporary custody home until I graduated and went off to college. I was as alone as I could be.

  The sun so bright behind me made the shadow that was suddenly loomed over me startling.

  I looked up to see a guy standing by my head looking down at me. He had a little smile, almost wistful, on his lips as he cocked his head to the side. I sat up and twisted to see him better. His eyes were a freakishly bright violet. I’d never seen a guy with purple eyes - well, I’d never seen anyone with purple eyes. It was a rare thing, I guess, but now looking at them like that, they almost seemed natural.

  He was wearing a deep green button up shirt with the sleeves rolled up and jeans with a small tear in the knee. Aviator sunglasses hung from his collar. His hair was as black as mine and close cropped. His hands were in his pockets and he continued to stare at me until I spoke.

  “Hi.”

  “Hello, there,” he finally said, his voice deep and lilting with a small accent that I couldn’t place.

  “Can I...help you with something?” I asked since he continued to gaze at me unabashedly.

  “Nope. Just enjoying the view,” he said and then smiled slightly as he turned to look up at the clouds and then back down to me. “There always seems to be a rabbit and an old lady doesn’t there.”

  “How did you know I was...”

  “I guessed. Why else would you be laying here, alone, looking at the clouds?”

  I laughed nervously and twisted the ring on my finger; my nervous tick.

  “Are you new here? I haven’t seen you around. Big Timber is a small town so, you kinda know everyone whether you want to or not.”

  He laughed and it was delicious and rich making my stomach flip. I frowned. I had a boyfriend. What was wrong with me?

  “Yeah, I’m new. Just moved stateside from Zimbabwe. My parents were teachers at one of the schools there. I’m Elijah Thames, but everyone calls me Eli,” he said and knelt down in front of me, sticking out his hand in greeting.

  “Clara Hopkins.”

  I took his hand, almost expecting something to happen when our skin met. Though his hand was warm and rugged, it was just a normal handshake.

  “Nice to meet you, Clara Hopkins.”

  “You too, Eli. You came at the perfect time I guess. Second semester starts tomorrow so we all get new classes. It won’t just be you getting a new schedule.”

  “That’s nice, I guess. I’m pretty used to being the new kid though.”

  “Are your parents missionaries or something?”

  “Of sorts,” he said vaguely and stood. “So, what’s there to do in this town on a Sunday afternoon?”

  “You’re looking at it,” I said through a giggle. “This is about it, I’m afraid. There is an old theater in town but it only plays one movie at a time and there’s a club here, but I’ve never been to it. We usually just hang out at the burger place.”

  “Who’s we?”

  “What?”

  “You said ‘we hang out’. Who’s we?”

  “Oh. My friends and I. My boyfriend,” I said and was shocked at how reluctant I was to tell him that.

  “Ah, I see. I should have known it wouldn’t be that easy, huh?”

  “What wouldn’t?” I asked though I felt the blush creeping up, knowing exactly what he meant.

  He just smiled.

  “Well, can I walk you home at least? It’ll be getting dark soon.”

  “Um...sure, I guess.” I took the hand he offered and then picked my brown corduroy jacket up, slipping it back on. “So, do you always walk up to strange girls in the park and start conversations?”

  “Nah,” he said slyly and bumped my shoulder. “They didn’t have parks in Zimbabwe.”

  I burst out laughing and was intrigued by how comfortable we seemed to be together already.

  “Where do you live?” I asked him as we hopped onto the sidewalk.

  “We bought a place on Buxton.”


  “The bed and breakfast?”

  “Yeah. My parents are all about trying something new.”

  “Wow. Well, it’s a nice house. I’ve always loved that place.”

  “It’s nice and big. Too big but I guess once you get a house full of guests it won’t be big enough. I made my room the basement though, so that should help with the privacy.”

  “The basement? Won’t that be cold and muggy and...creepy?”

  “You watch a lot of scary movies, do you?” he said in amusement.

  “Maybe I do,” I spouted playfully. “I’m sure it’s nice enough anyway. But you know, it could be the attic,” I said and shivered in mock horror.

  “Oh, attic’s are way creepy.”

  We laughed and it resounded in the quiet darkening street.

  He seemed to know right where he was going so I just walked beside him and let him lead us. Buxton was only a few blocks away from the city park and I lived beside the church near there.

  We walked and talked for about a block before trouble turned the corner.

  My boyfriend, Tate, was coming down the street in his big 4x4 truck. He was on the wrestling team, the town’s pride. He was really good to me, very attentive, and while I enjoyed spending time with him, I wasn’t in love with him. And he was a very jealous guy. All he ever talked about was us going to college together next year, but I didn’t want to go to college. I wanted to go on a mission trip or maybe apply to a Music or Art school. If my parents were alive, they’d be so disappointed. My dad dreamed of his alma mater and the Army and my mom wanted me to marry right away and find a man to take care of me. Both of those dreams were nil.

  But Tate was a sweet guy. Even though he was popular, he was pretty nice to everyone...except guys who tried to talk to me. He once almost pummeled my science lab partner when he stopped me in the hall to get my notes.

  Apparently, his mom cheated on his dad all the time and his dad had no inclination to do anything about it. The whole town knew about it but they held a position of status and prime real estate in the town so no one cared, essentially. But Tate had always cared.

  “Oh boy,” I mumbled.

  “What? What’s wrong?”

  “Nothing’s wrong, just my boyfriend. Just don’t listen to anything he says for the next five minutes, ok? I’m sorry ahead of time.”

  “Ok,” he said, dragging it out in apprehension.

  Tate stopped the truck and I saw it overcome him. His fingers turned white on the steering wheel, his lips grim in a tight line. He opened the door and closed it gently, too gently to be considered normal. It was a façade.

  “Hey, Tate. Were you coming to see me?”

  “You weren’t at home. I was headed to the park to give you a ride…but I see you don’t need one what with prince charming walking you home and all,” he sneered, glaring daggers at Eli.

  “Tate, this is Eli. He’s new here and lives near me. We were walking home together, talking about school tomorrow.”

  “Uhuh.”

  “Tate,” I chided and went to give him a kiss on the cheek. I felt his skin, hot and angry on my lips before I pulled back. He flicked his eyes to me once before looking back to Eli. “Tate, this is ridiculous,” I whispered to him. “Why don’t you trust me?”

  “It’s other guys I don’t trust!” he yelled, making me jump. “You have no idea what guys are thinking about.”

  I took a deep confused breath. He’d never been that vehement before. I glanced over at Eli to apologize but he looked strange. Almost like he was...in ecstasy. His mouth was slightly open and his eyes hooded as he watched me. His breathing was heavy. I squinted at him and he seemed to snap out of it.

  “Come on, man,” he said to Tate. “Really, it was nothing. She was just telling me about classes changing and all since I just moved here. She told me she had a boyfriend within the first two minutes of talking to her.”

  Tate looked at me, his eyes softening a little. I looked at him pleadingly. He took a hesitant step towards me and when he saw I made no move to step away he caved and pulled me to him.

  “I’m sorry, Clara, you know how I get. I can’t... It’s dumb, I know. I’m really sorry.” He pulled back to look at me. “I didn’t mean to be like that.”

  “I know you didn’t,” I said softly and him being the blonde, beefy guy he was who stood right at my height level, put his forehead to mine.

  “How do you even put up with me?” he whispered.

  “I don’t know,” I said jokingly, “you’re pretty cute. I guess it makes up for it.”

  “Pretty cute?” he joked and suddenly dropped to one knee and in his best English white knight accent began to beg. “Oh, please, my darling. My love. Forgive me and my assness!”

  This was the Tate I knew and cared about. He was fun, playful and not afraid to make a fool of himself.

  I laughed and bowed a little.

  “You’re forgiven. Now. Tate, this is Eli Thames. Eli, this is Tate Richman. He’s captain of our wrestling team and his dad’s the mayor,” I said proudly.

  “Hi,” Eli said cautiously and stuck his hand out.

  Tate stood and took the hand offered.

  “Hey, man. Sorry. I’m can be a bit of an ass when it comes to this girl. I’m sure you can understand,” he said with a wry smile.

  “Understood.” Eli looked back to me and smiled a little sadly. “Well, I guess I’ll see you guys tomorrow.”

  “You can have lunch with us tomorrow,” I threw out. “I’m not sure if I’ll see you before then, but we eat at the long table right in the middle of the cafeteria.”

  “Ok. Thanks.”

  “See ya, man,” Tate said and waited for Eli to turn, then pulled me to him, snuggling into my neck. “Oh my gosh, Clara, you smell like something I very much want to eat.”

  I giggled and pushed him back a little.

  “You think you’re getting off that easy, buster?”

  “What do I owe you this time?” he asked amused and touched his tongue to his lip to think. “Diaper duty? Because if that’s it, it was nice knowing you.”

  “Hey!” I yelled playfully and smacked his chest. “No. Mrs. Ruth has the kids tonight, but you do have to take me home and...watch the last Vampire Diaries I DVRed.”

  “Ah, Clara,” he groaned. “Anything but that.”

  “Come on, it’s not that bad.”

  “It’s torture,” he said pointedly and then smiled. “But for you I’d do just about anything.”

  “I know,” I agreed and I did. Tate had reasons to be the way he was and the way he normally treated me would put the Salvatore brothers to shame. But for some reason, I just couldn’t move past the feeling that he was just some guy I liked, had feelings for, but knew it wasn’t going anywhere. “Come on.”

  He helped me into the truck and drove the short distance to the Parish. Once we stopped in front of the house, I started to get out but he stopped me.

  “Wait. Before we enter the no-touch zone...”

  He pulled me to him across the seat and kissed me. Tate was usually a gentleman and knew how far I was willing to let him go. Sometimes he casually tried to push the envelope; he was a guy after all. This was apparently going to be one of those times.

  His hand gripped my leg, as if to tug me into his lap. I let him. He seemed fueled by that and as his hands on my hips pulled me closer to him. I heard him groan a little. It rumbled through me and made my heart beat a little faster. I knew it was only torture to do this. I’d never let him do anything more than this. We were both virgins, though I was happier about it than he was. But sometimes, I just needed to feel the glue to the envelope strain a little.

  I let him kiss me for a good while, just like that. I ran my fingers through his hair. It’d been a year since we started dating. We’d both always gone to the same school together, always lived in this town. We hung out with the same friends but he’d never seemed interested in me before and I never thought about him that way. I’d been on a few
dates with other guys but never really dated anyone exclusively. Then one day, he met me at my locker, alone. It was odd because usually there was a group waiting there for me. As I made my way to him, he smiled bashfully.

  “Hey.”

  “Hey,” I had said cheerfully ignorant.

  “How was Spanish? I have that next semester.”

  “Brutal.”

  “I was afraid of that. So, um...there’s this movie playing at the Cineplex, Adam Sandler is in it. Looks pretty good. I was wondering if you wanted to go tonight?”

  “Sure. Who else is going?”

  “Just you. And me.”