Yet that night she told Shirley that he might go.
They did not tell Susan right away. She did not know it until, a few days later, Shirley presented himself in her kitchen in his aviation uniform. Susan didn’t make half the fuss she had made when Jem and Walter had gone. She said stonily, “So they’re going to take you, too.”
“Take me? No. I’m going, Susan — got to.”
Susan sat down by the table, folded her knotted old hands, that had grown warped and twisted working for the Ingleside children to still their shaking, and said:
“Yes, you must go. I did not see once why such things must be, but I can see now.”
“You’re a brick, Susan,” said Shirley. He was relieved that she took it so coolly — he had been a little afraid, with a boy’s horror of “a scene.” He went out whistling gaily; but half an hour later, when pale Anne Blythe came in, Susan was still sitting there.
“Mrs. Dr. dear,” said Susan, making an admission she would once have died rather than make, “I feel very old. Jem and Walter were yours but Shirley is mine. And I cannot bear to think of him flying — his machine crashing down — the life crushed out of his body — the dear little body I nursed and cuddled when he was a wee baby.”
“Susan — don’t,” cried Anne.
“Oh, Mrs. Dr. dear, I beg your pardon. I ought not to have said anything like that out loud. I sometimes forget that I resolved to be a heroine. This — this has shaken me a little. But I will not forget myself again. Only if things do not go as smoothly in the kitchen for a few days I hope you will make due allowance for me. At least,” said poor Susan, forcing a grim smile in a desperate effort to recover lost standing, “at least flying is a clean job. He will not get so dirty and messed up as he would in the trenches, and that is well, for he has always been a tidy child.”
So Shirley went — not radiantly, as to a high adventure, like Jem, not in a white flame of sacrifice, like Walter, but in a cool, business-like mood, as of one doing something, rather dirty and disagreeable, that had just got to be done. He kissed Susan for the first time since he was five years old, and said, “Good-bye, Susan — mother Susan.”
“My little brown boy — my little brown boy,” said Susan. “I wonder,” she thought bitterly, as she looked at the doctor’s sorrowful face, “if you remember how you spanked him once when he was a baby. I am thankful I have nothing like that on my conscience now.”
The doctor did not remember the old discipline. But before he put on his hat to go out on his round of calls he stood for a moment in the great silent living-room that had once been full of children’s laughter.
“Our last son — our last son,” he said aloud. “A good, sturdy, sensible lad, too. Always reminded me of my father. I suppose I ought to be proud that he wanted to go — I was proud when Jem went — even when Walter went — but ‘our house is left us desolate.’”
“I have been thinking, doctor,” old Sandy of the Upper Glen said to him that afternoon, “that your house will be seeming very big the day.”
Highland Sandy’s quaint phrase struck the doctor as perfectly expressive. Ingleside did seem very big and empty that night. Yet Shirley had been away all winter except for week-ends, and had always been a quiet fellow even when home. Was it because he had been the only one left that his going seemed to leave such a huge blank — that every room seemed vacant and deserted — that the very trees on the lawn seemed to be trying to comfort each other with caresses of freshly-budding boughs for the loss of the last of the little lads who had romped under them in childhood?
Susan worked very hard all day and late into the night. When she had wound the kitchen clock and put Dr. Jekyll out, none too gently, she stood for a little while on the doorstep, looking down the Glen, which lay tranced in faint, silvery light from a sinking young moon. But Susan did not see the familiar hills and harbour. She was looking at the aviation camp in Kingsport where Shirley was that night.
“He called me ‘Mother Susan,’” she was thinking. “Well, all our men folk have gone now — Jem and Walter and Shirley and Jerry and Carl. And none of them had to be driven to it. So we have a right to be proud. But pride—” Susan sighed bitterly—”pride is cold company and that there is no gainsaying.”
The moon sank lower into a black cloud in the west, the Glen went out in an eclipse of sudden shadow — and thousands of miles away the Canadian boys in khaki — the living and the dead — were in possession of Vimy Ridge.
Vimy Ridge is a name written in crimson and gold on the Canadian annals of the Great War. “The British couldn’t take it and the French couldn’t take it,” said a German prisoner to his captors, “but you Canadians are such fools that you don’t know when a place can’t be taken!”
So the “fools” took it — and paid the price.
Jerry Meredith was seriously wounded at Vimy Ridge — shot in the back, the telegram said.
“Poor Nan,” said Mrs. Blythe, when the news came. She thought of her own happy girlhood at old Green Gables. There had been no tragedy like this in it. How the girls of to-day had to suffer! When Nan came home from Redmond two weeks later her face showed what those weeks had meant to her. John Meredith, too, seemed to have grown old suddenly in them. Faith did not come home; she was on her way across the Atlantic as a V.A.D. Di had tried to wring from her father consent to her going also, but had been told that for her mother’s sake it could not be given. So Di, after a flying visit home, went back to her Red Cross work in Kingsport.
The mayflowers bloomed in the secret nooks of Rainbow Valley. Rilla was watching for them. Jem had once taken his mother the earliest mayflowers; Walter brought them to her when Jem was gone; last spring Shirley had sought them out for her; now, Rilla thought she must take the boys’ place in this. But before she had discovered any, Bruce Meredith came to Ingleside one twilight with his hands full of delicate pink sprays. He stalked up the steps of the veranda and laid them on Mrs. Blythe’s lap.
“Because Shirley isn’t here to bring them,” he said in his funny, shy, blunt way.
“And you thought of this, you darling,” said Anne, her lips quivering, as she looked at the stocky, black-browed little chap, standing before her, with his hands thrust into his pockets.
“I wrote Jem to-day and told him not to worry ‘bout you not getting your mayflowers,” said Bruce seriously, “‘cause I’d see to that. And I told him I would be ten pretty soon now, so it won’t be very long before I’ll be eighteen, and then I’ll go to help him fight, and maybe let him come home for a rest while I took his place. I wrote Jerry, too. Jerry’s getting better, you know.”
“Is he? Have you had any good news about him?”
“Yes. Mother had a letter to-day, and it said he was out of danger.”
“Oh, thank God,” murmured Mrs. Blythe, in a half-whisper.
Bruce looked at her curiously.
“That is what father said when mother told him. But when l said it the other day when I found out Mr. Mead’s dog hadn’t hurt my kitten — I thought he had shooken it to death, you know — father looked awful solemn and said I must never say that again about a kitten. But I couldn’t understand why, Mrs. Blythe. I felt awful thankful, and it must have been God that saved Stripey, because that Mead dog had ‘normous jaws, and oh, how it shook poor Stripey. And so why couldn’t I thank Him? ‘Course,” added Bruce reminiscently, “maybe I said it too loud—’cause I was awful glad and excited when I found Stripey was all right. I ‘most shouted it, Mrs. Blythe. Maybe if I’d said it sort of whispery like you and father it would have been all right. Do you know, Mrs. Blythe” — Bruce dropped to a “whispery” tone, edging a little nearer to Anne—”what I would like to do to the Kaiser if I could?”
“What would you like to do, laddie?”
“Norman Reese said in school to-day that he would like to tie the Kaiser to a tree and set cross dogs to worrying him,” said Bruce gravely. “And Emily Flagg said she would like to put him in a cage and poke sharp th
ings into him. And they all said things like that. But Mrs. Blythe” — Bruce took a little square paw out of his pocket and put it earnestly on Anne’s knee—”I would like to turn the Kaiser into a good man — a very good man — all at once if I could. That is what I would do. Don’t you think, Mrs. Blythe, that would be the very worstest punishment of all?”
“Bless the child,” said Susan, “how do you make out that would be any kind of a punishment for that wicked fiend?”
“Don’t you see,” said Bruce, looking levelly at Susan, out of his blackly blue eyes, “if he was turned into a good man he would understand how dreadful the things he has done are, and he would feel so terrible about it that he would be more unhappy and miserable than he could ever be in any other way. He would feel just awful — and he would go on feeling like that forever. Yes” — Bruce clenched his hands and nodded his head emphatically, “yes, I would make the Kaiser a good man — that is what I would do — it would serve him ‘zackly right.”
CHAPTER XXVI
SUSAN HAS A PROPOSAL OF MARRIAGE
An aeroplane was flying over Glen St. Mary, like a great bird poised against the western sky — a sky so clear and of such a pale, silvery yellow, that it gave an impression of a vast, wind-freshened space of freedom. The little group on the Ingleside lawn looked up at it with fascinated eyes, although it was by no means an unusual thing to see an occasional hovering plane that summer. Susan was always intensely excited. Who knew but that it might be Shirley away up there in the clouds, flying over to the Island from Kingsport? But Shirley had gone overseas now, so Susan was not so keenly interested in this particular aeroplane and its pilot. Nevertheless, she looked at it with awe.
“I wonder, Mrs. Dr. dear,” she said solemnly, “what the old folks down there in the graveyard would think if they could rise out of their graves for one moment and behold that sight. I am sure my father would disapprove of it, for he was a man who did not believe in new-fangled ideas of any sort. He always cut his grain with a reaping hook to the day of his death. A mower he would not have. What was good enough for his father was good enough for him, he used to say. I hope it is not unfilial to say that I think he was wrong in that point of view, but I am not sure I go so far as to approve of aeroplanes, though they may be a military necessity. If the Almighty had meant us to fly he would have provided us with wings. Since He did not it is plain He meant us to stick to the solid earth. At any rate, you will never see me, Mrs. Dr. dear, cavorting through the sky in an aeroplane.”
“But you won’t refuse to cavort a bit in father’s new automobile when it comes, will you, Susan?” teased Rilla.
“I do not expect to trust my old bones in automobiles, either,” retorted Susan. “But I do not look upon them as some narrow-minded people do. Whiskers-on-the-moon says the Government should be turned out of office for permitting them to run on the Island at all. He foams at the mouth, they tell me, when he sees one. The other day he saw one coming along that narrow side-road by his wheatfield, and Whiskers bounded over the fence and stood right in the middle of the road, with his pitchfork. The man in the machine was an agent of some kind, and Whiskers hates agents as much as he hates automobiles. He made the car come to a halt, because there was not room to pass him on either side, and the agent could not actually run over him. Then he raised his pitchfork and shouted, ‘Get out of this with your devil-machine or I will run this pitchfork clean through you.’ And Mrs. Dr. dear, if you will believe me, that poor agent had to back his car clean out to the Lowbridge road, nearly a mile, Whiskers following him every step, shaking his pitchfork and bellowing insults. Now, Mrs. Dr. dear, I call such conduct unreasonable; but all the same,” added Susan, with a sigh, “what with aeroplanes and automobiles and all the rest of it, this Island is not what it used to be.”
The aeroplane soared and dipped and circled, and soared again, until it became a mere speck far over the sunset hills.
“‘With the majesty of pinion Which the Theban eagles bear Sailing with supreme dominion Through the azure fields of air.’”
quoted Anne Blythe dreamily.
“I wonder,” said Miss Oliver, “if humanity will be any happier because of aeroplanes. It seems to me that the sum of human happiness remains much the same from age to age, no matter how it may vary in distribution, and that all the ‘many inventions’ neither lessen nor increase it.”
“After all, the ‘kingdom of heaven is within you,’” said Mr. Meredith, gazing after the vanishing speck which symbolized man’s latest victory in a world-old struggle. “It does not depend on material achievements and triumphs.”
“Nevertheless, an aeroplane is a fascinating thing,” said the doctor. “It has always been one of humanity’s favourite dreams — the dream of flying. Dream after dream comes true — or rather is made true by persevering effort. I should like to have a flight in an aeroplane myself.”
“Shirley wrote me that he was dreadfully disappointed in his first flight,” said Rilla. “He had expected to experience the sensation of soaring up from the earth like a bird — and instead he just had the feeling that he wasn’t moving at all, but that the earth was dropping away under him. And the first time he went up alone he suddenly felt terribly homesick. He had never felt like that before; but all at once, he said, he felt as if he were adrift in space — and he had a wild desire to get back home to the old planet and the companionship of fellow creatures. He soon got over that feeling, but he says his first flight alone was a nightmare to him because of that dreadful sensation of ghastly loneliness.”
The aeroplane disappeared. The doctor threw back his head with a sigh.
“When I have watched one of those bird-men out of sight I come back to earth with an odd feeling of being merely a crawling insect. Anne,” he said, turning to his wife, “do you remember the first time I took you for a buggy ride in Avonlea — that night we went to the Carmody concert, the first fall you taught in Avonlea? I had out little black mare with the white star on her forehead, and a shining brand-new buggy — and I was the proudest fellow in the world, barring none. I suppose our grandson will be taking his sweetheart out quite casually for an evening ‘fly’ in his aeroplane.”
“An aeroplane won’t be as nice as little Silverspot was,” said Anne. “A machine is simply a machine — but Silverspot, why she was a personality, Gilbert. A drive behind her had something in it that not even a flight among sunset clouds could have. No, I don’t envy my grandson’s sweetheart, after all. Mr. Meredith is right. ‘The kingdom of Heaven’ — and of love — and of happiness — doesn’t depend on externals.”
“Besides,” said the doctor gravely, “our said grandson will have to give most of his attention to the aeroplane — he won’t be able to let the reins lie on its back while he gazes into his lady’s eyes. And I have an awful suspicion that you can’t run an aeroplane with one arm. No” — the doctor shook his head—”I believe I’d still prefer Silverspot after all.”
The Russian line broke again that summer and Susan said bitterly that she had expected it ever since Kerensky had gone and got married.
“Far be it from me to decry the holy state of matrimony, Mrs. Dr. dear, but I felt that when a man was running a revolution he had his hands full and should have postponed marriage until a more fitting season. The Russians are done for this time and there would be no sense in shutting our eyes to the fact. But have you seen Woodrow Wilson’s reply to the Pope’s peace proposals? It is magnificent. I really could not have expressed the rights of the matter better myself. I feel that I can forgive Wilson everything for it. He knows the meaning of words and that you may tie to. Speaking of meanings, have you heard the latest story about Whiskers-on-the-moon, Mrs. Dr. dear? It seems he was over at the Lowbridge Road school the other day and took a notion to examine the fourth class in spelling. They have the summer term there yet, you know, with the spring and fall vacations, being rather backward people on that road. My niece, Ella Baker, goes to that school and she it was who told me
the story. The teacher was not feeling well, having a dreadful headache, and she went out to get a little fresh air while Mr. Pryor was examining the class. The children got along all right with the spelling but when Whiskers began to question them about the meanings of the words they were all at sea, because they had not learned them. Ella and the other big scholars felt terrible over it. They love their teacher so, and it seems Mr. Pryor’s brother, Abel Pryor, who is trustee of that school, is against her and has been trying to turn the other trustees over to his way of thinking. And Ella and the rest were afraid that if the fourth class couldn’t tell Whiskers the meanings of the words he would think the teacher was no good and tell Abel so, and Abel would have a fine handle. But little Sandy Logan saved the situation. He is a Home boy, but he is as smart as a steel trap, and he sized up Whiskers-on-the-moon right off. ‘What does “anatomy” mean?’ Whiskers demanded. ‘A pain in your stomach,’ Sandy replied, quick as a flash and never batting an eyelid. Whiskers-on-the-moon is a very ignorant man, Mrs. Dr. dear; he didn’t know the meaning of the words himself, and he said ‘Very good — very good.’ The class caught right on — at least three or four of the brighter ones did — and they kept up the fun. Jean Blane said that ‘acoustic’ meant ‘a religious squabble,’ and Muriel Baker said that an ‘agnostic’ was ‘a man who had indigestion,’ and Jim Carter said that ‘acerbity’ meant that ‘you ate nothing but vegetable food,’ and so on all down the list. Whiskers swallowed it all, and kept saying ‘Very good — very good’ until Ella thought that die she would trying to keep a straight face. When the teacher came in, Whiskers complimented her on the splendid understanding the children had of their lesson and said he meant to tell the trustees what a jewel they had. It was ‘very unusual,’ he said, to find a fourth class who could answer up so prompt when it came to explaining what words meant. He went off beaming. But Ella told me this as a great secret, Mrs. Dr. dear, and we must keep it as such, for the sake of the Lowbridge Road teacher. It would likely be the ruin of her chances of keeping the school if Whiskers should ever find out how he had been bamboozled.”
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