“He took a bad turn the day before yesterday and has been getting worse ever since. The doctors don’t expect him to live till morning.”
Amelia began to talk rapidly in low tones. Emily heard nothing further. She got up and went blindly back into her room with such agony tearing at her heartstrings that she dully wondered why she could not shriek aloud.
Stephen — her husband — dying! In the burning anguish of that moment her own soul was as an open book before her. The love she had buried rose from the deeps of her being in an awful, accusing resurrection.
Out of her stupor and pain a purpose formed itself clearly. She must go to Stephen — she must beg and win his forgiveness before it was too late. She dared not go down to John and ask him to take her to her husband. He might refuse. The Phillipses had been known to do even harder things than that. At the best there would be a storm of protest and objection on her brother’s and sister’s part, and Emily felt that she could not encounter that in her present mood. It would drive her mad.
She lit a lamp and dressed herself noiselessly, but with feverish haste. Then she listened. The house was very still. Amelia and John had gone to bed. She wrapped herself in a heavy woollen shawl hanging in the hall and crept downstairs. With numbed fingers she fumbled at the key of the hall door, turned it and slipped out into the night.
The storm seemed to reach out and clutch her and swallow her up. She went through the garden, where the flowers already were crushed to earth; she crossed the long field beyond, where the rain cut her face like a whip and the wind almost twisted her in its grasp like a broken reed. Somehow or other, more by blind instinct than anything else, she found the path that led through commons and woods and waste valleys to her lost home.
In after years that frenzied walk through the storm and blackness seemed as an unbroken nightmare to Emily Fair’s recollection. Often she fell. Once as she did so a jagged, dead limb of fir struck her forehead and cut in it a gash that marked her for life. As she struggled to her feet and found her way again the blood trickled down over her face.
“Oh God, don’t let him die before I get to him — don’t — don’t — don’t!” she prayed desperately with more of defiance than entreaty in her voice. Then, realizing this, she cried out in horror. Surely some fearsome punishment would come upon her for her wickedness — she would find her husband lying dead.
When Emily opened the kitchen door of the Fair homestead Almira Sentner cried out in her alarm, who or what was this creature with the white face and wild eyes, with her torn and dripping garments and dishevelled, wind-writhen hair and the big drops of blood slowly trickling from her brow?
The next moment she recognized Emily and her face hardened. This woman, Stephen’s sister-in-law, had always hated Emily Fair.
“What do you want here?” she said harshly.
“Where is my husband?” asked Emily.
“You can’t see him,” said Mrs. Sentner defiantly. “The doctors won’t allow anyone in the room but those he’s used to. Strangers excite him.”
The insolence and cruelty of her speech fell on unheeding ears. Emily, understanding only that her husband yet lived, turned to the hall door.
“Stand back!” she said in a voice that was little more than a thrilling whisper, but which yet had in it something that cowed Almira Sentner’s malice. Sullenly she stood aside and Emily went unhindered up the stairs to the room where the sick man lay.
The two doctors in attendance were there, together with the trained nurse from the city. Emily pushed them aside and fell on her knees by the bed. One of the doctors made a hasty motion as if to draw her back, but the other checked him.
“It doesn’t matter now,” he said significantly.
Stephen Fair turned his languid, unshorn head on the pillow. His dull, fevered eyes met Emily’s. He had not recognized anyone all day, but he knew his wife.
“Emily!” he whispered.
Emily drew his head close to her face and kissed his lips passionately.
“Stephen, I’ve come back to you. Forgive me — forgive me — say that you forgive me.”
“It’s all right, my girl,” he said feebly.
She buried her face in the pillow beside his with a sob.
In the wan, grey light of the autumn dawn the old doctor came to the bedside and lifted Emily to her feet. She had not stirred the whole night. Now she raised her white face with dumb pleading in her eyes. The doctor glanced at the sleeping form on the bed.
“Your husband will live, Mrs. Fair,” he said gently. “I think your coming saved him. His joy turned the ebbing tide in favour of life.”
“Thank God!” said Emily.
And for the first time in her life her beautiful voice trembled.
Min
The morning sun hung, a red, lustreless ball, in the dull grey sky. A light snow had fallen in the night and the landscape, crossed by spider-like trails of fences, was as white and lifeless as if wrapped in a shroud.
A young man was driving down the road to Rykman’s Corner; the youthful face visible above the greatcoat was thoughtful and refined, the eyes deep blue and peculiarly beautiful, the mouth firm yet sensitive. It was not a handsome face, but there was a strangely subtle charm about it.
The chill breathlessness of the air seemed prophetic of more snow. The Reverend Allan Telford looked across the bare wastes and cold white hills and shivered, as if the icy lifelessness about him were slowly and relentlessly creeping into his own heart and life.
He felt utterly discouraged. In his soul he was asking bitterly what good had come of all his prayerful labours among the people of this pinched, narrow world, as rugged and unbeautiful in form and life as the barren hills that shut them in.
He had been two years among them and he counted it two years of failure. He had been too outspoken for them; they resented sullenly his direct and incisive tirades against their pet sins. They viewed his small innovations on their traditional ways of worship with disfavour and distrust and shut him out of their lives with an ever-increasing coldness. He had meant well and worked hard and he felt his failure keenly.
His thoughts reverted to a letter received the preceding day from a former classmate, stating that the pastorate of a certain desirable town church had become vacant and hinting that a call was to be moderated for him unless he signified his unwillingness to accept.
Two years before, Allan Telford, fresh from college and full of vigorous enthusiasm and high ideas, would have said:
“No, that is not for me. My work must lie among the poor and lowly of earth as did my Master’s. Shall I shrink from it because, to worldly eyes, the way looks dreary and uninviting?”
Now, looking back on his two years’ ministry, he said wearily:
“I can remain here no longer. If I do, I fear I shall sink down into something almost as pitiful as one of these canting, gossiping people myself. I can do them no good — they do not like or trust me. I will accept this call and go back to my own world.”
Perhaps the keynote of his failure was sounded in his last words, “my own world.” He had never felt, or tried to feel, that this narrow sphere was his own world. It was some lower level to which he had come with good tidings and honest intentions but, unconsciously, he had held himself above it, and his people felt and resented this. They expressed it by saying he was “stuck-up.”
Rykman’s Corner came into view as he drove over the brow of a long hill. He hated the place, knowing it well for what it was — a festering hotbed of gossip and malice, the habitat of all the slanderous rumours and innuendoes that permeated the social tissue of the community. The newest scandal, the worst-flavoured joke, the latest details of the most recent quarrel, were always to be had at Rykman’s store.
As the minister drove down the hill, a man came out of a small house at the foot and waited on the road. Had it been possible Telford would have pretended not to see him, but it was not possible, for Isaac Galletly meant to be seen and hailed the minister
cheerfully.
“Good mornin’, Mr. Telford. Ye won’t mind giving me a lift down to the Corner, I dessay?”
Telford checked his horse reluctantly and Galletly crawled into the cutter. He was that most despicable of created beings, a male gossip, and he spent most of his time travelling from house to house in the village, smoking his pipe in neighbourly kitchens and fanning into an active blaze all the smouldering feuds of the place. He had been nicknamed “The Morning Chronicle” by a sarcastic schoolteacher who had sojourned a winter at the Corner. The name was an apt one and clung. Telford had heard it.
I suppose he is starting out on his rounds now, he thought.
Galletly plunged undauntedly into the conversational gap.
“Quite a fall of snow last night. Reckon we’ll have more ‘fore long. That was a grand sermon ye gave us last Sunday, Mr. Telford. Reckon it went home to some folks, judgin’ from all I’ve heard. It was needed and that’s a fact. ‘Live peaceably with all men’ — that’s what I lay out to do. There ain’t a house in the district but what I can drop into and welcome. ‘Tain’t everybody in Rykman’s Corner can say the same.”
Galletly squinted out of the corner of his eye to see if the minister would open on the trail of this hint. Telford’s passive face was discouraging but Galletly was not to be baffled.
“I s’pose ye haven’t heard about the row down at Palmers’ last night?”
“No.”
The monosyllable was curt. Telford was vainly seeking to nip Galletly’s gossip in the bud. The name of Palmer conveyed no especial meaning to his ear. He knew where the Palmer homestead was, and that the plaintive-faced, fair-haired woman, whose name was Mrs. Fuller and who came to church occasionally, lived there. His knowledge went no further. He had called three times and found nobody at home — at least, to all appearances. Now he was fated to have the whole budget of some vulgar quarrel forced on him by Galletly.
“No? Everyone’s talkin’ of it. The long and short of it is that Min Palmer has had a regular up-and-down row with Rose Fuller and turned her and her little gal out of doors. I believe the two women had an awful time. Min’s a Tartar when her temper’s up — and that’s pretty often. Nobody knows how Rose managed to put up with her so long. But she has had to go at last. Goodness knows what the poor critter’ll do. She hasn’t a cent nor a relation — she was just an orphan girl that Palmer brought up. She is at Rawlingses now. Maybe when Min cools off, she’ll let her go back but it’s doubtful. Min hates her like p’isen.”
To Telford this was all very unintelligible. But he understood that Mrs. Fuller was in trouble of some kind and that it was his duty to help her if possible, although he had an odd and unaccountable aversion to the woman, for which he had often reproached himself.
“Who is this woman you call Min Palmer?” he said coldly. “What are the family circumstances? I ought to know, perhaps, if I am to be of any service — but I have no wish to hear idle gossip.”
His concluding sentence was quite unheeded by Galletly.
“Min Palmer’s the worst woman in Rykman’s Corner — or out of it. She always was an odd one. I mind her when she was a girl — a saucy, black-eyed baggage she was! Handsome, some folks called her. I never c’d see it. Her people were a queer crowd and Min was never brung up right — jest let run wild all her life. Well, Rod Palmer took to dancin’ attendance on her. Rod was a worthless scamp. Old Palmer was well off and Rod was his only child, but this Rose lived there and kept house for them after Mis’ Palmer died. She was a quiet, well-behaved little creetur. Folks said the old man wanted Rod to marry her — dunno if ’twas so or not. In the end, howsomever, he had to marry Min. Her brother got after him with a horse-whip, ye understand. Old Palmer was furious but he had to give in and Rod brought her home. She was a bit sobered down by her trouble and lived quiet and sullen-like at first. Her and Rod fought like cat and dog. Rose married Osh Fuller, a worthless, drunken fellow. He died in a year or so and left Rose and her baby without a roof over their heads. Then old Palmer went and brought her home. He set great store by Rose and he c’dn’t bear Min. Min had to be civil to Rose as long as old Palmer lived. Fin’lly Rod up and died and ’twasn’t long before his father went too. Then the queer part came in. Everyone expected that he’d purvide well for Rose and Min’d come in second best. But no will was to be found. I don’t say but what it was all right, mind you. I may have my own secret opinion, of course. Old Palmer had a regular mania, as ye might say, for makin’ wills. He’d have a lawyer out from town every year and have a new will made and the old one burnt. Lawyer Bell was there and made one ‘bout eight months ‘fore he died. It was s’posed he’d destroyed it and then died ‘fore he’d time to make another. He went off awful sudden. Anyway, everything went to Min’s child — to Min as ye might say. She’s been boss. Rose still stayed on there and Min let her, which was more than folks expected of her. But she’s turned her out at last. Min’s in one of her tantrums now and ‘tain’t safe to cross her path.”
“What is Mrs. Fuller to do?” asked Telford anxiously.
“That’s the question. She’s sickly — can’t work much — and then she has her leetle gal. Min was always jealous of that child. It’s a real purty, smart leetle creetur and old Palmer made a lot of it. Min’s own is an awful-looking thing — a cripple from the time ’twas born. There’s no doubt ’twas a jedgement on her. As for Rose, no doubt the god of the widow and fatherless will purvide for her.”
In spite of his disgust, Telford could not repress a smile at the tone, half-whine, half-snuffle, with which Galletly ended up.
“I think I had better call and see this Mrs. Palmer,” he said slowly.
“’Twould be no airthly use, Mr. Telford. Min’d slam the door in your face if she did nothing worse. She hates ministers and everything that’s good. She hasn’t darkened a church door for years. She never had any religious tendency to begin with, and when there was such a scandal about her, old Mr. Dinwoodie, our pastor then — a godly man, Mr. Telford — he didn’t hold no truck with evildoers — he went right to her to reprove and rebuke her for her sins. Min, she flew at him. She vowed then she’d never go to church again, and she never has. People hereabouts has talked to her and tried to do her good, but it ain’t no use. Why, I’ve heard that woman say there was no God. It’s a fact, Mr. Telford — I have. Some of our ministers has tried to visit her. They didn’t try it more than once. The last one — he was about your heft — he got a scare, I tell you. Min just caught him by the shoulder and shook him like a rat! Didn’t see it myself but Mrs. Rawlings did. Ye ought to hear her describin’ of it.”
Galletly chuckled over the recollection, his wicked little eyes glistening with delight. Telford was thankful when they reached the store. He felt that he could not endure this man’s society any longer.
Nevertheless, he felt strangely interested. This Min Palmer must at least be different from the rest of the Cornerites, if only in the greater force of her wickedness. He almost felt as if her sins on the grand scale were less blameworthy than the petty vices of her censorious neighbours.
Galletly eagerly joined the group of loungers on the dirty wet platform, and Telford passed into the store. A couple of slatternly women were talking to Mrs. Rykman about “the Palmer row.” Telford made his small purchases hastily. As he turned from the counter, he came face to face with a woman who had paused in the doorway to survey the scene with an air of sullen scorn. By some subtle intuition Telford knew that this was Min Palmer.
The young man’s first feeling was one of admiration for the woman before him, who, in spite of her grotesque attire and defiant, unwomanly air, was strikingly beautiful. She was tall, and not even the man’s ragged overcoat which she wore could conceal the grace of her figure. Her abundant black hair was twisted into a sagging knot at her neck, and from beneath the old fur cap looked out a pair of large and brilliant black eyes, heavily lashed, and full of a smouldering fire. Her skin was tanned and coarsened, but the warm c
rimson blood glowed in her cheeks with a dusky richness, and her face was a perfect oval, with features chiselled in almost classic regularity of outline.
Telford had a curious experience at that moment. He seemed to see, looking out from behind this external mask of degraded beauty, the semblance of what this woman might have been under more favouring circumstance of birth and environment, wherein her rich, passionate nature, potent for either good or evil, might have been trained and swayed aright until it had developed grandly out into the glorious womanhood the Creator must have planned for her. He knew, as if by revelation, that this woman had nothing in common with the narrow, self-righteous souls of Rykman’s Corner. Warped and perverted though her nature might be, she was yet far nobler than those who sat in judgement upon her.
Min made some scanty purchases and left the store quickly, brushing unheedingly past the minister as she did so. He saw her step on a rough wood-sleigh and drive down the river road. The platform loungers had been silent during her call, but now the talk bubbled forth anew. Telford was sick at heart as he drove swiftly away. He felt for Min Palmer a pity he could not understand or analyze. The attempt to measure the gulf between what she was and what she might have been hurt him like the stab of a knife.
He made several calls at various houses along the river during the forenoon. After dinner he suddenly turned his horse towards the Palmer place. Isaac Galletly, comfortably curled up in a neighbour’s chimney corner, saw him drive past.
“Ef the minister ain’t goin’ to Palmers’ after all!” he chuckled. “He’s a set one when he does take a notion. Well, I warned him what to expect. If Min claws his eyes out, he’ll only have himself to blame.”
Telford was not without his own misgivings as he drove into the Palmer yard. He tied his horse to the fence and looked doubtfully about him. Untrodden snowdrifts were heaped about the front door, so he turned towards the kitchen and walked slowly past the bare lilac trees along the fence. There was no sign of life about the place. It was beginning to snow again, softly and thickly, and the hills and river were hidden behind a misty white veil.
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