Miss Trevor would not give up the foolscap book so easily, but for a long time Paul refused to show it to her. She came to the cove every day, and every day Paul seemed more delightful to her. He was so quaint, so clever, so spontaneous. Yet there was nothing premature or unnatural about him. He was wholly boy, fond of fun and frolic, not too good for little spurts of quick temper now and again, though, as he was careful to explain to Miss Trevor, he never showed them to a lady.
“I get real mad with the Twin Sailors sometimes, and even with Stephen, for all he’s so good to me. But I couldn’t be mad with you or Nora or the Golden Lady. It would never do.”
Every day he had some new story to tell of a wonderful adventure on rock or sea, always taking the precaution of assuring her beforehand that it wasn’t true. The boy’s fancy was like a prism, separating every ray that fell upon it into rainbows. He was passionately fond of the shore and water. The only world for him beyond Noel’s Cove was the world of his imagination. He had no companions except Stephen and the “rock people.”
“And now you,” he told Miss Trevor. “I love you too, but I know you’ll be going away before long, so I don’t let myself love you as much — quite — as Stephen and the rock people.”
“But you could, couldn’t you?” pleaded Miss Trevor. “If you and I were to go on being together every day, you could love me just as well as you love them, couldn’t you?”
Paul considered in a charming way he had.
“Of course I could love you better than the Twin Sailors and the Golden Lady,” he announced finally. “And I think perhaps I could love you as much as I love Stephen. But not as much as Nora — oh, no, I wouldn’t love you quite as much as Nora. She was first, you see; she’s always been there. I feel sure I couldn’t ever love anybody as much as Nora.”
One day when Stephen was out to the mackerel grounds, Paul took Miss Trevor into the little grey house and showed her his treasures. They climbed the ladder in one corner to the loft where Paul slept. The window of it, small and square-paned, looked seaward, and the moan of the sea and the pipe of the wind sounded there night and day. Paul had many rare shells and seaweeds, curious flotsam and jetsam of shore storms, and he had a small shelf full of books.
“They’re splendid,” he said enthusiastically. “Stephen brought me them all. Every time Stephen goes to town to ship his mackerel he brings me home a new book.”
“Were you ever in town yourself?” asked Miss Trevor.
“Oh, yes, twice. Stephen took me. It was a wonderful place. I tell you, when I next met the Twin Sailors it was me did the talking then. I had to tell them about all I saw and all that had happened. And Nora was ever so interested too. The Golden Lady wasn’t, though — she didn’t hardly listen. Golden people are like that.”
“Would you like,” said Miss Trevor, watching him closely, “to live always in a town and have all the books you wanted and play with real girls and boys — and visit those strange lands your twin sailors tell you of?”
Paul looked startled.
“I — don’t — know,” he said doubtfully. “I don’t think I’d like it very well if Stephen and Nora weren’t there too.”
But the new thought remained in his mind. It came back to him at intervals, seeming less new and startling every time.
“And why not?” Miss Trevor asked herself. “The boy should have a chance. I shall never have a son of my own — he shall be to me in the place of one.”
The day came when Paul at last showed her the foolscap book. He brought it to her as she sat on the rocks of the headland.
“I’m going to run around and talk to Nora while you read it,” he said. “I’m afraid I’ve been neglecting her lately — and I think she feels it.”
Miss Trevor took the foolscap book. It was made of several sheets of paper sewed together and encased in an oilcloth cover. It was nearly filled with writing in a round childish hand and it was very neat, although the orthography was rather wild and the punctuation capricious. Miss Trevor read it through in no very long time. It was a curious medley of quaint thoughts and fancies. Conversations with the Twin Sailors filled many of the pages; accounts of Paul’s “adventures” occupied others. Sometimes it seemed impossible that a child of eleven should have written them, then would come an expression so boyish and naive that Miss Trevor laughed delightedly over it. When she finished the book and closed it she found Stephen Kane at her elbow. He removed his pipe and nodded at the foolscap book.
“What do you think of it?” he said.
“I think it is wonderful. Paul is a very clever child.”
“I’ve often thought so,” said Stephen laconically. He thrust his hands into his pockets and gazed moodily out to sea. Miss Trevor had never before had an opportunity to talk to him in Paul’s absence and she determined to make the most of it.
“I want to know something about Paul,” she said, “all about him. Is he any relation to you?”
“No. I expected to marry his mother once, though,” said Stephen unemotionally. His hand in his pocket was clutching his pipe fiercely, but Miss Trevor could not know that. “She was a shore girl and very pretty. Well, she fell in love with a young fellow that came teaching up t’ the harbour school and he with her. They got married and she went away with him. He was a good enough sort of chap. I know that now, though once I wasn’t disposed to think much good of him. But ’twas a mistake all the same; Rachel couldn’t live away from the shore. She fretted and pined and broke her heart for it away there in his world. Finally her husband died and she came back — but it was too late for her. She only lived a month — and there was Paul, a baby of two. I took him. There was nobody else. Rachel had no relatives nor her husband either. I’ve done what I could for him — not that it’s been much, perhaps.”
“I am sure you have done a great deal for him,” said Miss Trevor rather patronizingly. “But I think he should have more than you can give him now. He should be sent to school.”
Stephen nodded.
“Maybe. He never went to school. The harbour school was too far away. I taught him to read and write and bought him all the books I could afford. But I can’t do any more for him.”
“But I can,” said Miss Trevor, “and I want to. Will you give Paul to me, Mr. Kane? I love him dearly and he shall have every advantage. I’m rich — I can do a great deal for him.”
Stephen continued to gaze out to sea with an expressionless face. Finally he said: “I’ve been expecting to hear you say something of the sort. I don’t know. If you took Paul away, he’d grow to be a cleverer man and a richer man maybe, but would he be any better — or happier? He’s his mother’s son — he loves the sea and its ways. There’s nothing of his father in him except his hankering after books. But I won’t choose for him — he can go if he likes — he can go if he likes.”
In the end Paul “liked,” since Stephen refused to influence him by so much as a word. Paul thought Stephen didn’t seem to care much whether he went or stayed, and he was dazzled by Miss Trevor’s charm and the lure of books and knowledge she held out to him.
“I’ll go, I guess,” he said, with a long sigh.
Miss Trevor clasped him close to her and kissed him maternally. Paul kissed her cheek shyly in return. He thought it very wonderful that he was to live with her always. He felt happy and excited — so happy and excited that the parting when it came slipped over him lightly. Miss Trevor even thought he took it too easily and had a vague wish that he had shown more sorrow. Stephen said farewell to the boy he loved better than life with no visible emotion.
“Good-bye, Paul. Be a good boy and learn all you can.” He hesitated a moment and then said slowly, “If you don’t like it, come back.”
“Did you bid good-bye to your rock people?” Miss Trevor asked him with a smile as they drove away.
“No. I — couldn’t — I — I — didn’t even tell them I was going away. Nora would break her heart. I’d rather not talk of them anymore, if you please. Maybe
I won’t want them when I’ve plenty of books and lots of other boys and girls — real ones — to play with.”
They drove the ten miles to the town where they were to take the train the next day. Paul enjoyed the drive and the sights of the busy streets at its end. He was all excitement and animation. After they had had tea at the house of the friend where Miss Trevor meant to spend the night, they went for a walk in the park. Paul was tired and very quiet when they came back. He was put away to sleep in a bedroom whose splendours frightened him, and left alone.
At first Paul lay very still on his luxurious perfumed pillows. It was the first night he had ever spent away from the little seaward-looking loft where he could touch the rafters with his hands. He thought of it now and a lump came into his throat and a strange, new, bitter longing came into his heart. He missed the sea plashing on the rocks below him — he could not sleep without that old lullaby. He turned his face into the pillow, and the longing and loneliness grew worse and hurt him until he moaned. Oh, he wanted to be back home! Surely he had not left it — he could never have meant to leave it. Out there the stars would be shining over the harbour. Stephen would be sitting at the door, all alone, with his violin. But he would not be playing it — all at once Paul knew he would not be playing it. He would be sitting there with his head bowed and the loneliness in his heart calling to the loneliness in Paul’s heart over all the miles between them. Oh, he could never have really meant to leave Stephen.
And Nora? Nora would be down on the rocks waiting for him — for him, Paul, who would never come to her more. He could see her elfin little face peering around the point, watching for him wistfully.
Paul sat up in bed, choking with tears. Oh, what were books and strange countries? — what was even Miss Trevor, the friend of a month? — to the call of the sea and Stephen’s kind, deep eyes and his dear rock people? He could not stay away from them — never — never.
He slipped out of bed very softly and dressed in the dark. Then he lighted the lamp timidly and opened the little brown chest Stephen had given him. It held his books and his treasures, but he took out only a pencil, a bit of paper and the foolscap book. With a hand shaking in his eagerness, he wrote:
dear miss Trever
Im going back home, dont be fritened about me because I know the way. Ive got to go. something is calling me. dont be cross. I love you, but I cant stay. Im leaving my foolscap book for you, you can keep it always but I must go back to Stephen and nora
Paul
He put the note on the foolscap book and laid them on the table. Then he blew out the light, took his cap and went softly out. The house was very still. Holding his breath, he tiptoed downstairs and opened the front door. Before it ran the street which went, he knew, straight out to the country road that led home. Paul closed the door and stole down the steps, his heart beating painfully, but when he reached the sidewalk he broke into a frantic run under the limes. It was late and no one was out on that quiet street. He ran until his breath gave out, then walked miserably until he recovered it, and then ran again. He dared not stop running until he was out of that horrible town, which seemed like a prison closing around him, where the houses shut out the stars and the wind could only creep in a narrow space like a fettered, cringing thing, instead of sweeping grandly over great salt wastes of sea.
At last the houses grew few and scattered, and finally he left them behind. He drew a long breath; this was better — rather smothering yet, of course, with nothing but hills and fields and dark woods all about him, but at least his own sky was above him, looking just the same as it looked out home at Noel’s Cove. He recognized the stars as friends; how often Stephen had pointed them out to him as they sat at night by the door of the little house.
He was not at all frightened now. He knew the way home and the kind night was before him. Every step was bringing him nearer to Stephen and Nora and the Twin Sailors. He whistled as he walked sturdily along.
The dawn was just breaking when he reached Noel’s Cove. The eastern sky was all pale rose and silver, and the sea was mottled over with dear grey ripples. In the west over the harbour the sky was a very fine ethereal blue and the wind blew from there, salt and bracing. Paul was tired, but he ran lightly down the shelving rocks to the cove. Stephen was getting ready to launch his boat. When he saw Paul he started and a strange, vivid, exultant expression flashed across his face.
Paul felt a sudden chill — the upspringing fountain of his gladness was checked in mid-leap. He had known no doubt on the way home — all that long, weary walk he had known no doubt — but now?
“Stephen,” he cried. “I’ve come back! I had to! Stephen, are you glad — are you glad?”
Stephen’s face was as emotionless as ever. The burst of feeling which had frightened Paul by its unaccustomedness had passed like a fleeting outbreak of sunshine between dull clouds.
“I reckon I am,” he said. “Yes, I reckon I am. I kind of — hoped — you would come back. You’d better go in and get some breakfast.”
Paul’s eyes were as radiant as the deepening dawn. He knew Stephen was glad and he knew there was nothing more to be said about it. They were back just where they were before Miss Trevor came — back in their perfect, unmarred, sufficient comradeship.
“I must just run around and see Nora first,” said Paul.
Abel and His Great Adventure
“Come out of doors, master — come out of doors. I can’t talk or think right with walls around me — never could. Let’s go out to the garden.” These were almost the first words I ever heard Abel Armstrong say. He was a member of the board of school trustees in Stillwater, and I had not met him before this late May evening, when I had gone down to confer with him upon some small matter of business. For I was “the new schoolmaster” in Stillwater, having taken the school for the summer term.
It was a rather lonely country district — a fact of which I was glad, for life had been going somewhat awry with me and my heart was sore and rebellious over many things that have nothing to do with this narration. Stillwater offered time and opportunity for healing and counsel. Yet, looking back, I doubt if I should have found either had it not been for Abel and his beloved garden.
Abel Armstrong (he was always called “Old Abel”, though he was barely sixty) lived in a quaint, gray house close by the harbour shore. I heard a good deal about him before I saw him. He was called “queer”, but Stillwater folks seemed to be very fond of him. He and his sister, Tamzine, lived together; she, so my garrulous landlady informed me, had not been sound of mind at times for many years; but she was all right now, only odd and quiet. Abel had gone to college for a year when he was young, but had given it up when Tamzine “went crazy”. There was no one else to look after her. Abel had settled down to it with apparent content: at least he had never complained.
“Always took things easy, Abel did,” said Mrs. Campbell. “Never seemed to worry over disappointments and trials as most folks do. Seems to me that as long as Abel Armstrong can stride up and down in that garden of his, reciting poetry and speeches, or talking to that yaller cat of his as if it was a human, he doesn’t care much how the world wags on. He never had much git-up-and-git. His father was a hustler, but the family didn’t take after him. They all favoured the mother’s people — sorter shiftless and dreamy. ‘Taint the way to git on in this world.”
No, good and worthy Mrs. Campbell. It was not the way to get on in your world; but there are other worlds where getting on is estimated by different standards, and Abel Armstrong lived in one of these — a world far beyond the ken of the thrifty Stillwater farmers and fishers. Something of this I had sensed, even before I saw him; and that night in his garden, under a sky of smoky red, blossoming into stars above the harbour, I found a friend whose personality and philosophy were to calm and harmonize and enrich my whole existence. This sketch is my grateful tribute to one of the rarest and finest souls God ever clothed with clay.
He was a tall man, somewhat ungainly of
figure and homely of face. But his large, deep eyes of velvety nut-brown were very beautiful and marvellously bright and clear for a man of his age. He wore a little pointed, well-cared-for beard, innocent of gray; but his hair was grizzled, and altogether he had the appearance of a man who had passed through many sorrows which had marked his body as well as his soul. Looking at him, I doubted Mrs. Campbell’s conclusion that he had not “minded” giving up college. This man had given up much and felt it deeply; but he had outlived the pain and the blessing of sacrifice had come to him. His voice was very melodious and beautiful, and the brown hand he held out to me was peculiarly long and shapely and flexible.
We went out to the garden in the scented moist air of a maritime spring evening. Behind the garden was a cloudy pine wood; the house closed it in on the left, while in front and on the right a row of tall Lombardy poplars stood out in stately purple silhouette against the sunset sky.
“Always liked Lombardies,” said Abel, waving a long arm at them. “They are the trees of princesses. When I was a boy they were fashionable. Anyone who had any pretensions to gentility had a row of Lombardies at the foot of his lawn or up his lane, or at any rate one on either side of his front door. They’re out of fashion now. Folks complain they die at the top and get ragged-looking. So they do — so they do, if you don’t risk your neck every spring climbing up a light ladder to trim them out as I do. My neck isn’t worth much to anyone, which, I suppose, is why I’ve never broken it; and my Lombardies never look out-at-elbows. My mother was especially fond of them. She liked their dignity and their stand-offishness. They don’t hobnob with every Tom, Dick and Harry. If it’s pines for company, master, it’s Lombardies for society.”
We stepped from the front doorstone into the garden. There was another entrance — a sagging gate flanked by two branching white lilacs. From it a little dappled path led to a huge apple-tree in the centre, a great swelling cone of rosy blossom with a mossy circular seat around its trunk. But Abel’s favourite seat, so he told me, was lower down the slope, under a little trellis overhung with the delicate emerald of young hop-vines. He led me to it and pointed proudly to the fine view of the harbour visible from it. The early sunset glow of rose and flame had faded out of the sky; the water was silvery and mirror-like; dim sails drifted along by the darkening shore. A bell was ringing in a small Catholic chapel across the harbour. Mellowly and dreamily sweet the chime floated through the dusk, blent with the moan of the sea. The great revolving light at the channel trembled and flashed against the opal sky, and far out, beyond the golden sand-dunes of the bar, was the crinkled gray ribbon of a passing steamer’s smoke.
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