I flung myself into his arms and wrapped my arms and legs around him. “You’re alive,” I whispered. I buried my face in his neck and inhaled deep.
“Yeah, I am, darlin’.” His voice was rough and tired.
I leaned back, his arms holding me. “Are you okay?”
A slow smile spread across his lips.
The elevator dinged again, and the doors slid shut. He reached out and pressed a button. I looked over my shoulder at the panel. “You don’t even know where I was going.”
“I hit the stop button. I need a couple minutes with you.”
I looked up into his eyes. “Are you okay?” I asked again.
“I got you in my arms, Wren. You know when that happens, nothing can get better.”
“That’s not what I mean.” He knew what I was asking.
He pressed a kiss to my lips. “It’s done.”
“You mean… they won’t…?”
He shook his head. “The Hell Captains are no more.”
The men who had tormented and used me for months were gone. They couldn’t hurt me anymore. “But how?” How had he gotten rid of a whole club in hours?
“Remember what we talked about before, Wren? How sometimes I’m not going to be able to tell you things, because if I do, then I can’t keep you safe?”
I nodded.
“Just know they will never touch you again, and that’s all you need to know.”
My mind yelled at me I needed to know more. The words were ready to pour out of my lips, demanding to know every detail, but I clamped my lips shut and nodded my head.
“You look like you’re about to explode, darlin’.”
I plastered a smile on my face. “Nope, I’m good.” I had to trust him. He said I didn’t need to know more, and I had to listen to him. “You say I don’t need to worry anymore, so I won’t.” Lord, that was hard to say.
He pressed me against the wall of the elevator. “You are so full of shit.”
“Oh, my God,” I moaned. “Tell me what happened!” I had tried, I really had. But dammit, I needed to know. I wrapped my arms around his neck and batted my eyes at him. “Please.” That was the way to do it, beg.
He rested his forehead on mine. “You’re not going to let this go, are you?”
I shook my head. In the future, I knew there were going to be things he wouldn’t be able to tell me, but this had to do with me. These were men who had hurt me.
He managed to pull his phone out. He held it up to my face, and my jaw dropped.
“What the? How the?” I grabbed the phone from his hand and quickly scanned the short news article.
“We’ll talk about it when we get back to the clubhouse, yeah?”
I nodded.
“You okay?”
“Why are you asking me that?” He was the one who had, from the looks of the news article, torched an entire block.
“Just making sure.”
“I’m good. I got drunk, and then Karmen’s water broke. I sobered up real quick, but Cora and Jezebel weren’t so lucky.”
He chuckled and pressed a kiss to my lips. “Sounds like you had an eventful night, too.”
“I don’t think it was nearly explosive as yours.” I threw him a wink and couldn’t help but giggle at my lame joke.
“Karmen push that baby out yet?” he asked, changing the subject.
“Last we heard, it was going to be a while. She was barely dilated when we came in.”
“But it’s happening, right? Not a false alarm?”
I nodded. “Yup. Hopefully today, she’ll have it.”
“So where were you headed?”
“Coffee. Cora is dealing with a hangover, and I couldn’t stand sitting there anymore.” I threaded my fingers through his hair. “But now that you’re here, I think I might need a kiss.”
“You might need a kiss?”
I bit my lip and nodded. “Okay, I need a kiss.”
He pressed his lips to mine, and his tongue invaded my mouth. This time, when he kissed me, it was different. He was giving everything to me instead of taking what he wanted. I melted into his body, my arms wrapped tight around his neck.
My core was pressed against his dick, and a low growl rumbled from his throat.
“Son of a bitch, Wren. Stop or I’m going to take you right here in this elevator.” His lips lingered on mine as we both tried to catch our breath.
“Who needs coffee when you can kiss like that,” I mumbled.
The elevator started buzzing, and Maniac reached out to hit a button. “Good thing I didn’t fuck you against the wall. We would have been found with our pants down.”
He loosened his hold on me, and I slowly slid down the wall. “That would be a hell of a story.”
“So, coffee, and then we check to see when this baby is entering the world?” he asked.
I nodded. “Sounds like a plan.”
He brushed my hair behind my ear. “You look happy, darlin’.”
I titled my head to the side and smiled. “I am happy.” It was about damn time I was able to say that and actually mean it.
Maniac had helped me get there.
He helped me get through all the bullshit in my head.
He showed me everything I had to live for.
And most of all, he showed me I was worthy of being loved.
*
Chapter 24
Maniac
“Plot twist? He really said plot twist?” Wren peeled off in another round of giggles she couldn’t control.
“He said a bunch of other crazy shit, but that was the funniest.”
She laid her head on my bare chest and sighed. “We should probably get out of bed soon. Karmen, Nickel, and Cole will be here any minute.”
It was three days after Karmen had finally managed to push out her almost nine pound baby, and they were going to stop by the clubhouse around noon.
“You were the one who pulled me back into bed after I got out of the shower.”
“And you were the one who decided to walk naked out of the bathroom. What did you expect me to do?” She lazily traced circles on my chest and sighed.
“You okay?”
She laughed. “I think I might start getting sick of you asking me that all of the time.”
There was a time she wasn’t okay, and I was terrified that was going to happen again. “Just bear with me, darlin’. You not being okay is going to forever be in the back of my mind.”
She rolled her eyes. “Then I suppose I’ll try not to yell at you every time you ask me.”
“Much obliged.”
“I could ask you again if you’re okay after everything that happened with the Hell Captains.”
“Why the hell wouldn’t I be okay?”
“Because what you did was a lot, Maniac. You killed eigh—”
I pressed my finger against her lips and shook my head. “They deserved what they got. I’m sure you weren’t the first person they had done that to. The world is a much better place without those eight fuckwads walking around.”
“They said on the news they weren’t investigating the explosion.”
“As they shouldn’t since it was a faulty gas line that happened to run under the clubhouse.”
“Funny how things like that happen,” she laughed. She rolled out of bed, pulling the blanket with her.
“Where are you going?” I called.
She flounced to the bathroom and leaned against the doorframe. “Away from you or we’ll never leave this room.”
I leaned up on one elbow. “You say that like it’s a bad thing,” I drawled.
“It normally isn’t, but I’m anxious to see Cole again.”
I fell back on the pillow. “Replaced by a baby,” I grumbled.
“For a couple of hours. We need to give it a rest or we’ll be joining the mommy and daddy club.”
I covered my eyes with my hands. “Maybe someday, darlin’, but right now, I just want you for myself.”
“How
old are you, Maniac?”
My head popped up. “Thirty.”
She bit her lip.
“How old are you?”
“Twenty-seven.”
“Why do I feel like this should have been something we knew about each other a while ago?” I laughed. Wren and I had fast-forwarded through the normal relationship milestones and barreled right into living together. And love.
“It’ll make things more interesting. It’ll be like falling in love in reverse.”
“Say that again.” She had said love.
“Um, like falling in love in reverse? You know, like, we love each other now, but we’l—” She slapped her hand over her mouth. “Oh fuck,” she muffled.
I laid my head back down and raised my hands up in the air. “You just said you love me.”
“No, I didn’t” she protested.
“Why the hell can’t you tell me you love me? I tell you all the damn time.” I was frustrated as hell.
“I’m gonna go shower.” She stepped into the bathroom and slammed the door shut behind her.
“Oh, fuck that,” I growled. I tossed the covers off and stalked to the bathroom. Steam rolled out the door when I opened it, and Wren had already slipped into the shower. I had already showered, but I wasn’t going to let this shit go on for any longer.
I pushed back the curtain, put my back to the steaming water, and pulled her into my arms. “Why are you running from me?” I demanded.
“I’m not running. We need to get ready,” she insisted.
I grabbed her arms, pulled them over her head, and pushed her against the wall. “Stop lying to me.”
The light was in her eyes, but there was something else there. Something I didn’t know what it was. “Dammit, Maniac, I’m not lying to you.”
“Then tell me what is going on. I see it. I can feel it. Something isn’t right. I thought it was a little game you won’t tell me that you love me, but there’s more to it.” I pressed my body hard against hers. “I know your body is mine, but I don’t know if I have any other part of you.”
She closed her eyes and tilted her head back against the wall. “Why do you do this to me?”
“Make you do what? Not lie to yourself? I don’t know what I’m doing to you if you don’t talk to me.”
“I love you,” she whispered. “I love you so much it scares me. It scares me to know you have a piece of me. A piece I gave to you. A piece you could break, and I would never get back.”
“Open your eyes.”
She shook her head. “I told you. Please stop. I don’t know how to fix this. I don’t know how not to be scared.”
“Then give it to me,” I growled. “Give it to me like you did with the Hell Captains. I’ll figure it out. I’ll prove to you I love you and will never break your heart.”
She hung her head. “Why does everyone manage to make my problems seem like they’re nothing?”
That wasn’t what I was trying to do. I didn’t want her to think I was trying to make her feel like she was dumb for feeling the way she did. I delved my fingers into her hair and raised her head. “Your feelings are not nothing. Your feelings are yours, and you have every right to feel them. All I am saying is, I can’t help you work through them when you aren’t telling me what you feel.”
“I love you, Maniac. And after what you just said, I didn’t think it was possible, but I love you more. With every second that passes, I love you even more.” She wrapped her arms around my waist and face-planted into my chest.
Fucking hell. It was like pulling teeth to get her to talk to me. The normal small talk and everyday shit, she was good at, but when she started feeling something different, it was like she shut down and didn’t know how to deal with them.
“Darlin’, you gotta talk to me. You can be scared. You can feel whatever the hell you want. Just. Talk. To. Me.”
“Loving you is so easy, but my head just gets in the way. I can’t seem to shut my brain off.”
Finally. Fucking honesty. “I love you so fucking much, Wren. More than my next breath. More than my God damn club. I know I told you that you were equal with my club, but if all this were to go away tomorrow, I wasn’t in the club, but I still had you, I would die a happy man. You are my world, and you are my life.”
Her arms tightened around me, and she sobbed. She buried her face in my neck, and I just held her.
“You really are a crier,” I mumbled into her hair when she finally calmed down.
She smacked me on the shoulder and rolled her head to the side. “It’s all your fault. You can’t say things like that and not expect me to cry. Badass biker alphas don’t say shit like that.”
“Keep that to yourself, or it’ll ruin my street cred.”
“Your street cred?” she laughed. “I don’t think you have anything to worry about.” She ran her hands over my slick chest, tracing the small heart.
“What are you thinking about, darlin’?”
She tilted her head back. “That I hope we have a love half as good as the one your parents had. I’ve never really seen love last. I want that.”
“All you need to do is stay with me, and you’ll see it first-hand.”
Her hand trailed down my arm, and she threaded her fingers with mine. “First-hand you say?” She ran the tip of her nose up my cheek and pressed her lips next to my ear. “Can I see that right now?”
My fingers sunk into the soft flesh of her ass, and I lifted her up. Her legs instantly wrapped around my waist, and my dick was lined up perfectly with her sweet pussy. “I had you not even an hour ago, and I’m hard and ready for you. If that doesn’t say we were made for each other, then I don’t know what does.”
A moan escaped her lips as I lowered her onto my dick and felt her wet pussy envelope me. “Always better than the last,” she moaned.
She took the words right out of my mouth. I clutched her close, and she arched her back, tilting her pussy up, allowing me to go even deeper.
I let her ride me, driving deep inside her while the walls of her pussy clenched my dick. My eyes held hers, my lips a whisper away from hers, and our breath mingling. “Tell me again,” I demanded.
“I love you,” she whimpered.
“Louder.” I wanted the whole world to hear her.
“I love you,” she repeated, louder.
“Yes,” I growled. “Give it to me, Wren. Give me everything.”
Her eyes slammed shut, and she tossed her head back, her orgasm crashing over her.
I plunged into her, each thrust of my hips faster than the last. There was no way to describe the way Wren made me feel. My need for her burned through me to the point where I couldn’t stand it.
A groan ripped from my lips, and I held her close. I pumped one final time and emptied my come inside her. “Mine, mine,” I chanted over and over.
Her body grew limp in my arms, yet she still held on to me. Her head rolled to the side, and she opened her hooded eyes. Her content gaze met mine, and she smiled. “I like your shower.”
My body stilled, and I threw my head back laughing. “And I like you in it, darlin’.”
“I also love you.”
I pressed a kiss to her forehead and eased her legs from around me. “And I love you, Wren. That wasn’t so hard to say now, was it?”
She shook her head. “You seem to make everything easy for me, Maniac. You helped to heal my body, mended my soul, and put back together every piece of my heart.”
“It wasn’t easy, but you were well worth it.”
“That’s because I’m worthy of you,” she whispered.
She was.
Wren was whole.
Wren was loved.
Wren was mine.
*
Chapter 25
Wren
“Let me hold him,” I pleaded.
“I gotta go pump.”
“Dear God, woman, can you please not mention your breasts when you are in my presence?” Pipe got up from the couch and walked o
ver to Nikki. “You’re like a sister. A sister I don’t want to hear about her breasts. Ever.”
Nikki patted him on the shoulder. “I’m going to have to get you earmuffs for your sensitive ears, aren’t I?” she joked.
Karmen gingerly hoisted herself off of the couch. “Why does no one tell you about the gross things that happen to your body after having a baby? Like you will not believe what happened this morning when I—”
Pipe put his hands over his ears and shook his head. “Not today, Satan. You are not going to discuss this while I’m in the room.” He walked to the front door, managing to keep his hands on his ears, and opened the door with the crook of his elbow. “Not today, Satan,” he mumbled under his breath. He walked out, leaving the door wide open behind him.
Nikki threw her hands up in the air. “I don’t know what is going on with him. I think he’s losing his mind.”
Karmen put her hands on her boobs and jiggled them. “These are not breasts, they are a food dispensary.”
“True that,” Jezebel shouted.
After Maniac had showered with me, we finally managed to stumble out into the common room half an hour after Karmen and Nickel showed up. The girls and I were sitting in front of the TV, admiring Karmen’s little man. Cole was the cutest damn baby, but it was hard jockeying for time to hold him. Nikki had managed to butt me out of the way two times, and Jezebel had been inching closer to Cora, who was now holding him.
Maniac and the rest of the guys were somewhere outside doing Lord knows what. Nikki had mentioned with winter coming, they were getting their bikes ready to be parked.
“You gonna tell us what happened this morning?” Cora asked.
Karmen waved her hand at her. “Nothing happened. I was just giving Pipe shit. Good thing he cut me off when he did because the only thing I could think of to say was an elephant fell out of my vagina.”
“Now what in the hell is going on in your head? That was the only thing you could think of?” Nikki demanded.
Cora cracked up, hitting her hand on her knee. “I can totally picture Pipe’s face because you know he would have believed you.”
“It’s like you’re trying to replace Alice or something. Next thing you know, you’re gonna come walking out of your bedroom wearing a cow onesie with a blender under your arm.” Nikki tsked.
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