‘I’m fine,’ she said. He had blue eyes, she noticed. Very, very blue eyes and a tangle of dark lashes that any woman would envy. There were a lot of little creases at the corners of his eyes, too. As if he spent a lot of time smiling. Or focusing on something very small.
He certainly wasn’t smiling right now.
‘Are you sure? Can I check your neck, at least? I’m a doctor.’
They were only a couple of blocks away from where Abby worked at St John’s Hospital so it was quite possible he’d been heading in the same direction. Not that Abby had ever seen him in the hospital corridors or cafeteria. She could be quite sure of that because she would have noticed him. He was rather an attractive man.
Okay...make that very attractive. Those intensely blue eyes beneath black hair that was tousled enough to suggest that he didn’t bother looking in a mirror very often, along with a bit of designer stubble, was a combination that made it unlikely that Abby’s heart rate was going to slow down anytime soon. Especially when he was looking at her like that—as if it was absolutely critical that she wasn’t injured.
And then he reached into the car to slide his hand beneath her long hair, which was loose at the moment, to touch her neck.
‘Does this hurt at all?’ he asked.
‘No...’ It didn’t hurt. Quite the opposite. She’d never had a man’s hand cupping the nape of her neck before, Abby realised, and it felt rather nice. More than rather nice, in fact. He had gentle hands but she could tell he knew exactly what he was doing and it was sending odd little spirals of sensation right down her spine.
Abby wasn’t at all sure that it was appropriate to be feeling that tingle when this was the purely professional touch of a doctor checking for a physical injury but it felt like something far more personal. Had she avoided letting any men this close to her for so long she’d forgotten that it could be something rather nice?
‘Try putting your chin on your chest. Very slowly. Stop if it starts hurting.’
The traffic lights had changed but Abby wasn’t going anywhere. A car driver tooted irritably as he pulled out to get around the obstruction the two cars were making. Someone else rolled down their window and shouted.
‘Everything okay? Want me to call an ambulance?’
‘I think we’re okay,’ the man shouted back. ‘But thank you.’ He turned back to Abby. ‘Look over one shoulder and then the other. Carefully...’
Abby did as she was told. The second direction sent her gaze back to him.
‘No pain?’
‘No pain,’ she confirmed.
‘And nothing else hurting at all? Can you take a deep breath? Oh, God...that’s the first thing I should have asked.’ His grimace was so like a face palm that Abby almost laughed.
He was so worried about her but she was quite sure she was fine. It had only been a little bump, really, and it probably hadn’t even done much damage to her beloved car. The relief came in such a strong wave that Abby felt slightly light-headed. Happy enough to make a joke.
‘I really am fine,’ she told the stranger. ‘Except...’
‘Except...?’
‘I can’t move my legs.’ Abby kept a straight face. ‘I don’t think I’m ever going to walk again.’
The way the colour drained out of his face made her realise that her attempt at humour had backfired.
‘Sorry... Maybe I should have said I’ll never play the violin again.’
The poor man was looking bewildered now.
‘You’re supposed to ask if I could play the violin before,’ Abby said helpfully. ‘And then I say “no” and it’s, you know...funny...’ It clearly wasn’t funny, though, so Abby offered up her brightest smile and used her hand to indicate what was folded up and fitted behind the passenger seat of her modified car.
Her wheelchair.
He wasn’t slow, that’s for sure. It took only a split second for him to realise that she was paraplegic and that she’d been making a joke about it. His breath came out in a strangled sound—as if he didn’t know whether to laugh or cry.
He chose to laugh, albeit shaking his head and catching Abby’s gaze at the same time. She could feel her smile stretching into a delighted grin. She was enjoying this, she realised. How inappropriate was that? Especially when she heard the blare of a siren trying to get through traffic that had been slowed down enough to be turning into the kind of traffic jam nobody wanted at peak rush hour. The flashing light of a police motorcycle could be seen threading its way through the traffic and Abby knew there was going to be even more of a hold-up while they sorted this minor accident out.
She was going to be late for work—something that she never allowed to happen—but, strangely, she was actually quite pleased she had an excuse to stay here a bit longer. With the blue-eyed stranger whose face had just become even more attractive when he’d laughed.
* * *
Good grief... Noah Baxter had just rear-ended the car of some young woman who was already living with a probable spinal injury that had made her paraplegic, standing in the middle of a traffic jam he was responsible for, and he was laughing about it?
Not just a wry chuckle either. It was a real laugh that came from somewhere deep in his gut and it felt like...
...it felt like he’d just stepped back in time, that’s what. To a life that was so utterly different to the one he led now. A life where things were funny and tender or stupid and you could simply enjoy the absurdity. Where laughter had been such a normal part of life that he hadn’t given it a second thought—never imagining for a moment that even the desire to laugh would be obliterated in a matter of only two terrible days.
A police officer was getting off his bike and coming towards them.
‘Anyone hurt here?’
‘No.’ It was the young woman in the car who spoke first. She still had a twinkle of amusement in her eyes after making that joke about never walking again. Hazel eyes, he noticed now, in a pale face that was framed by long waves of golden red hair. A rather striking-looking woman, in fact. And that smile...it was astonishingly contagious. Noah found himself smiling again as well.
‘It was entirely my fault, Officer,’ he said. ‘I’d been looking for a street sign to make sure I was going the right way and I braked a second too late. Do you need my details?’
The police officer was scanning the road around them. ‘What we need to do is clear this obstruction. Nobody’s hurt?’
‘No.’ Both Noah and the attractive redhead spoke together this time.
‘Any damage to the vehicles?’
‘I don’t think so.’ Noah hadn’t noticed a bumper lying on the road or anything when he’d rushed to the car in front to see if anyone had been injured. Now he followed the police officer to see that there were only very minor bumps and scratches. No big deal at all.
‘No need to write this up, then,’ the police officer decided. ‘I’m going to start directing the traffic. If you can both move your cars and get going, that would be very helpful.’
Noah nodded. He went back to the car in front. ‘There’s very little damage,’ he said. ‘Probably not worth losing a no-claims bonus with our insurance companies for either of us. And there’s no reason for the police to be involved.’
‘Oh...thank goodness for that. I love this car.’
‘He wants us to move our cars and head off asap. Are you sure you’re okay?’
‘I’m sure. Are you?’
‘Yes.’ Although there was an odd knot in his gut. Left over from that unfamiliar laughter? Maybe it was also responsible for Noah to do something he hadn’t done in more than a decade. ‘Can I have your phone number?’ he asked. ‘Just in case...?’
In case of what? That he’d want to check that symptoms of whiplash hadn’t become obvious? Or that her insurance company wouldn’t cover the damages if she decided to make a claim? Or...
simply because he’d like to see her again? Was her smile this time, as she held his gaze for a heartbeat longer than he might have expected, because she was thinking that she might like to see him again?
‘Just in case you decide you do want to make an insurance claim and you need my details,’ he added hurriedly. He always kept a small notepad in his shirt pocket, with a pen attached. A leftover habit from his days as a junior doctor when there had been just too many things to remember at times and keeping notes of anything important had been vital.
She was telling him her phone number. And then she turned the key in her ignition and started her car up again.
‘Oh...’ she said, catching his gaze again as she slid the car into gear, using controls that were attached to her steering wheel. ‘My name’s Abby, by the way.’
‘Noah,’ he responded. He was smiling again, too, as he slipped the notepad back into his pocket and got into his own car. How weird was this? He’d had a stupid, thankfully minor, accident that was a disruption he certainly didn’t need on his way to a meeting with the new colleagues he would be working with in a matter of days and yet it felt like the best thing that had happened to him in quite a while? Like...a few years?
The police officer was overruling the traffic lights to direct vehicles. He waved Abby through the intersection but then put his hand up to stop Noah going through yet. He watched Abby’s car getting further and further away and then the indicator went on and she turned, disappearing from his line of sight.
He still had the remnants of that knot in his gut.
Yeah...it was weird all right...
* * *
The routine was so well rehearsed, Abby could go through the steps without even thinking about it. Her disabled parking slot, on the ground floor of the hospital’s parking building, was extra wide, which made it easy to open her driver’s door and leave it wide open. The special controls on the central console allowed her to move the car seats. She could tilt the back of her own seat and then pull the passenger seat forward to make it easy to lift out the folded frame of her chair to put it on the ground beside her door.
The wheels, which were removed for transport, came out next and Abby clicked them back into place, pulled the bar at the back of the chair that unfolded it and then locked the brakes on.
It took less than sixty seconds after that to manoeuvre the chair into the best position, put the cushion on the seat, sling her shoulder bag over a push handle, lift her legs out of the car and then, with one hand on the cushion of the wheelchair and the other on the car seat, Abby used her upper body strength to swing herself into her chair. She pressed the remote to lock her car as she turned her chair and started rolling towards the parking building’s exit. She was ready for her work day and she was only a few minutes late, despite the delay caused by that minor accident.
Abruptly, Abby stopped and then swung her chair to go back to her car. How on earth had she forgotten to go and check the damage? Because she’d been thinking about a pair of dark, blue eyes with crinkly corners, perhaps, and that tingle of something she’d felt when they’d met her own gaze, not to mention that other tingle that his hand on her neck had generated? About a name that was unusual enough for him to be the first Noah she’d ever met? Wondering how soon he might ring her?
She would know it was him as soon as he spoke because his voice was etched into her memory as well. Abby could hear an echo of his voice right now, telling her that there was very little damage to her car as she inspected the rear bumper. He was right, there was only a scratch or two and one small dent that she traced with her fingers. It really wasn’t going to be worth either the hassle of the paperwork or losing any discount in the cost of her insurance policy.
It wasn’t the first ever scratch in that shiny red paintwork. She’d had the car for over two years now after all, and Abby had knocked the side more than once with the frame of her wheelchair but she still needed to get less precious about this vehicle. The problem was that it had been—and still was—such a big deal in her life.
Her older sister, Lisa, had gone into huge debt to cover the massive cost of a car with the kind of modifications Abby needed because she’d understood how life-changing it would be to have this kind of independence. She would also understand how unsettling it was to have been involved in an accident. She took a photo of the damage and texted it to Lisa.
Oops. Got rear-ended at a traffic light. Not the best way to start my day, huh?
Lisa’s response pinged in almost instantly.
OMG. U ok??
All good. Need to get to work now. Will come down and see you later.
Come now. Just to be on the safe side.
Both Lisa and her husband worked in St John’s Hospital’s emergency department now, although Lisa would be leaving before too long to start her maternity leave. Abby loved both her sister and her brother-in-law dearly but she wasn’t about to go and visit them. She had far too much work of her own to get on with. She shouldn’t have sent the message at all—she could have told Lisa about it later—but maybe she was still a little shaken up and had needed to touch base with her only family.
No need. Stop...
Abby found a picture icon she’d used in the past—a little helicopter. It was a private code that told Lisa she didn’t need a parent any more, especially of the hovering and overprotective type. She followed it with a smiley face, however.
Lisa had been a parent to her all her life. Six years older than Abby, she’d filled in the gaps left by a mother who had been unable to cope and had then died, leaving a grandmother to step in. It can’t have been easy for either of them after the accident that had left Abby in a wheelchair when she’d been little more than two years old. For good measure, Abby added a heart to finish her message.
She propelled herself out of the elevator, through the doors of the parking building and onto the footpath. She was reaching to push the button that would activate the lights for the pedestrian crossing when someone beat her to it.
‘Let me do that for you, love.’
It was never going to go away completely, was it? That beat of awareness of what could happen when a man assumed that her lack of physical ability gifted him the opportunity to take total control. She’d learned to deal with it, of course. To subdue fear and protect herself by becoming even more fiercely independent and not worrying about bruising anyone’s feelings by rejecting unwelcome advances. She’d even learned to do it quite politely so she bit back a retort that, actually, her hands worked perfectly well, which was why she was using a manual rather than an electric wheelchair, and instead she gave the man a tight smile, her sweet tone disguising a slightly sarcastic thank-you.
He was probably in his early forties, wearing jeans and a T-shirt under a jacket and carrying a laptop bag. It must be her morning for good-looking men, Abby decided, although this one had blond hair and looked like he might enjoy spending his downtime surfing or skiing or something. Anyway...she preferred dark hair. Especially with blue eyes...
The lights changed and Abby moved onto the pedestrian crossing. To her dismay, the man walked out ahead of her holding up one hand, not unlike the police officer who’d overridden the traffic lights to clear the jam, as if the drivers might be considering taking off before the lights went green again and running a poor defenceless disabled person over. It was obviously done to be of assistance to Abby but it made her feel like everybody was staring at her and unwanted assistance had always been a pet peeve from a very early age. One of Abby’s earliest memories was trying so hard to climb into a swing and pushing her sister’s helping hands away.
‘Go ’way. I can do it by myself...’
It was nothing like someone taking sexual advantage of her disability, of course, but it was on the same spectrum as far as Abby was concerned, and while she had learned to deal with the aftermath of that appalling incident, it was never going to be for
gotten.
She sped up on the other side of the road, eager to disappear into the steady stream of people already heading into what was a large, busy regional hospital, but the blond man was keeping pace.
‘Hey...could I buy you a coffee or something?’
‘No.’ Her negative response came out as being curt this time. Rude enough to make Abby feel a little ashamed of herself so she offered another tight smile. ‘Thanks, but no thanks. Don’t think my boyfriend would approve.’
‘Oh...’ He looked comically disappointed. ‘I should have guessed. See ya.’
Not if I see you first, Abby thought, but she let her breath out in a sigh as she took the corridor that led both to the hand clinic and, further on, to the emergency department. She didn’t have a boyfriend—it was just one of the more polite ways she had to brush off any interest that men showed in her. Especially men who saw her disability before they saw anything else about her.
She hadn’t brushed that Noah off, though, had she? She’d not only given him her phone number, the thought that he might ring her was creating an unfamiliar ripple of sensation that was...oh, help...embryonic excitement? Whatever it was, it was enough for Abby to fish in her shoulder bag to retrieve her phone as soon as she reached the clinic. It was also enough to feel disappointed that she hadn’t missed any messages or calls yet and that, no, her phone wasn’t on silent.
It had been a very, very long time since she’d felt that “waiting for a call” anxiety but it only took Abby a matter of moments to put two and two together about why she wanted to hear from the man who’d driven into the back of her car this morning. He hadn’t seen her disability, had he? He’d been shocked to see her wheelchair, which meant that when he’d met her, he hadn’t been influenced by any kind of social stereotyping or personal prejudice about disabled people.
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