His brother Billy had told her about this quirk of his, that he dressed in this manner so no one would mistake him for what he was. Billy hadn’t told her the reason, but she had a feeling it had something to do with the bitterness she had sensed in Colt when she first met him, rather than pride in his heritage. She wished she knew the cause, because it came to her, with considerable surprise, that she had a strong desire to rid him of that bitterness, to see this man happy.
She had another immediate surprise, however, to find she had distracted herself so thoroughly she had somehow missed seeing him in all his naked splendor. Being lifted off her feet brought that knowledge home, and she thoughtlessly cried, “Wait!”
“What?” he growled.
Idiot! You can’t tell him you want to see his…“Nothing.”
“Good, because I can’t wait.”
He did not pause in carrying her straight to the bed or in laying her on it and instantly coming down on top of her. Before she even had a chance to adjust to his unfamiliar weight, her legs were nudged apart by his knees. But more shocking than that was the realization that he really wasn’t going to wait another minute. She might not have seen it, but she could feel it, the flesh he meant to fill her with, and it was going to happen now.
She tried to hold on, to brace herself, but he caught her hands and held them instead, making her even more frantic—until he kissed her, deeply, making her feel his urgency, making her want it.
And then he was looking down at her with such fierce passion she wasn’t even aware he had made his first tentative entry. It was the withdrawal she noticed, that and his second thrust, which gained only another inch.
“Christ, you’re tight,” he gritted out as if he were in pain. “I think I could spend the rest of my days inside you, but right now I want you too much. Open for me, Duchess, before I explode.”
He said this with his lips just barely touching hers, and although he still wouldn’t call her by name, he made her title now sound like an endearment. But it was his groan when she did as he wanted that brought an answering sound from her own throat. He had slipped farther inside, but still not enough. She could feel what it was costing him to let her body adjust to his size instead of just plunging into her. His whole upper body was tense and straining, yet his eyes continued to hold her mesmerized with their intensity.
“It’ll be a rough ride. Can you take it?”
Jocelyn gulped, but nodded. She was rewarded with a smile of blatant male satisfaction.
“I figured you could,” he added in a strained voice. “Has it been three years?”
She knew what he was asking. Other men she had rebuffed had insinuated that as a widow, she should be starved for sex. Colt would have his answer soon enough.
“It’s none of my business, right?” This time he didn’t give her a chance to respond. “Never mind. I don’t want to know.”
She didn’t notice his harsher tone, or know that the thought of her with other men, like this, had just ended his desire to restrain himself for her sake. He closed his eyes and thrust deep, heard her sharp gasp, felt the barrier he had ripped open, and went still as death.
Jocelyn was tense herself, waiting for the inevitable questions. They didn’t come. After a long agonizing moment, he started kissing her instead, his tongue licking at her lips, entreating them to part for him, then slipping inside her mouth to make her a little crazy with wild sensations rippling through her, the heady taste of him. And his hands caressing her—he was so incredibly tender with her now, she wanted to cry.
From her cheek to her throat to her breasts, his touch was so gentle, almost too gentle, until his mouth followed the same path and she was bathed in heat and the abrasion of his tongue across sensitive nipples. She moaned with pleasure. He suckled and she thought she would die.
Tears did come to her eyes as she held his head to her breasts. She felt cherished, precious, and so very desired. She felt beautiful in his eyes, something she had never felt before. And all the while he lavished her body with such exquisite care, she could feel his heat deep inside her, still, patient now, but throbbing with need she desperately wanted to fulfill.
There was no pain left when he began to move in her again much later. There hadn’t been from his first shattering kiss. And he had built her desire up to such a fevered pitch, within moments she was dissolving in a white-hot flood of sensation. Through that haze of pleasure she barely heard him reach his own climax, and she was asleep before the last shudder left his body.
Chapter Twenty-four
“His sister, Maura, is quite charming,” Vanessa was saying as she put away the green thread and took up the red for the sampler she was working on. “I think you’ll like her. She’s about your age, I would say, and just dying to see those Harper’s Bazaar fashion journals we collected while in New York. Did I mention that’s where they’re from originally? They even know Charles, or at least they’ve heard of the Abingtons.”
“Are you sure Robbie is all right?”
Vanessa didn’t raise her head, but her eyes shot up, and her brows met suspiciously over the middle of them. That question had already been asked and answered—twice.
“Actually, the chit’s rather brassy, not at all as polished as her brother.”
“That’s nice.”
The countess dropped the sampler in her lap with an exasperated sigh. “Have you heard a single word I’ve said? Jocelyn? You-hoo, Joc-cel-lyn?” she singsonged.
Jocelyn turned slightly from the window where she had been standing for the last hour. “Did you say something, Vana?”
With forced calm, the countess replied, “I’ve been telling you about the Drydens.”
“Who?”
“Jocelyn Fleming! You are supposed to be radiant today, not absent-minded. Whatever is the matter with you?”
Jocelyn glanced back out the window, ignoring the censure but not the question. Indeed, what was wrong with her? Why couldn’t she stop thinking about last night or wondering where Colt was today? Again he couldn’t be found. He had been waiting for Robbie’s replacement early this morning, or so she had been told, so obviously he had kept watch over her for the rest of the night himself. But in her room or out in the hall?
She had awakened to find the room empty, two long black hairs on the pillow next to hers the only sign that Colt had been there. Well, actually there was one other indication. The smears of dried blood on her upper thighs. But when had he left her? And why had he gone without saying anything?
Vanessa had arrived bright and early and full of worry, after seeing the two apprehended thieves dragged off to the local authorities. She had demanded every detail about Jocelyn’s little adventure out the window, as well as what had happened afterward. She had also been vastly relieved to know their planned seduction had come about after all.
“So there’s no need to go on to this Wyoming place, is there, or to retain Mr. Thunder’s services any longer?”
When Jocelyn had heard that, she had felt strangely bereft and insisted Colt’s services were most definitely still in need, if for no other reason than to keep her safe. She pointed out how many times he had already come to her rescue. She pointed out his ability in keeping Longnose from discovering their new direction. And if that wasn’t enough, she had announced that Wyoming was where she had decided to locate her stud farm.
Wisely, Vanessa hadn’t said any more, though Jocelyn had felt her disapproval at the time and still did. She even understood it, knowing Vanessa was worried that she might form an attachment for Colt that was utterly unsuitable.
“First lovers are inevitably special,” Vanessa had told her months ago when they had originally decided she needed one. “But the thing to remember is that they are only the first, that you mustn’t mistake a simple, healthy attraction for love.”
Remembering those words now, Jocelyn tried to examine what she was feeling, but all she could come up with was confusion, anxiety over her next encounter with Colt, and
most of all, a lingering amazement that lovemaking was much, much more deeply satisfying than she had imagined it would be.
Glancing back over her shoulder, she revealed some of those feelings to her friend. “I’m sorry, Vana. It’s just that it was…it was…”
“I know,” Vanessa cut in with a snort. “It was so blissful you haven’t the proper words to describe it.”
“Well, it was,” Jocelyn said defensively.
“Then we owe our surly guide our everlasting gratitude, don’t we?” Vanessa returned in her most acerbic tone. “Especially when it could have been quite the opposite with someone of his unpredictable temperament, and still could be if you are foolish enough to court his attentions again.” Then her voice softened, exposing her very real concern. “What you experienced, my dear, can be had with any man. But it would be preferable, as well as safer, as well as less worrisome to me, if you experienced it with a lover you can trust not to erupt into violence at any given moment. I suggest you find another man to prove that, and quickly, before you make this one into something he isn’t.”
Jocelyn usually heeded Vanessa’s advice, but in this case it wasn’t necessary. She had needed a lover for only one purpose, and that purpose was accomplished. She didn’t need to take another man to her bed, nor even Colt again. Vanessa was getting worked up over nothing. But it wouldn’t do to say so. She wouldn’t believe it.
“You were saying something about the Bradens?” Jocelyn said pleasantly, but pointedly.
“The Drydens,” Vanessa corrected, taking the hint to drop the subject for now. “I told you I met them this morning in the lobby. A very interesting pair of siblings. You could say they are impoverished gentry of the American variety. I swear the run of bad luck they’ve had since their parents died makes us fortunate we’ve only got an assassin on our trail.”
“That’s not funny, Vana.”
“No, I suppose not, but I did feel sorry for them.”
“They told you their life story while standing about in the lobby?”
“We were sitting, actually, and it was a very shortened version, I’m sure. A few bad investments and the family funds were gone, that sort of thing. They decided to take what little was left and come west to start anew. I believe Miles mentioned something about buying a ranch.”
“Miles? Mr. Dryden, I assume you mean? He’s Miles after only one meeting, yet you continue to call Colt Mr. Thunder?”
“Don’t change the subject, dear,” Vanessa replied, undaunted. “As I was saying, their luck turned from bad to worse when they reached New Mexico. The stagecoach they were traveling in was robbed by some highwaymen—outlaws, I believe they call them here—and one passenger was killed. Then that very same day, in the same coach, mind you, they were set upon by Indians. They would have both been scalped—”
“Scalped?”
“Something unpleasant Indians do to you, I gather, but the cavalry came along—they had been chasing that particular group of raiders—and saved them. At any rate, they’ve understandably had a change of heart about settling in this part of the country, but they’ve frankly been too apprehensive about riding the coaches again and so in effect have stranded themselves here. Naturally, I felt compelled to offer them our escort.”
“Do you think that’s wise? I mean, what do you really know about these people except what they’ve told you? The brother could be—”
“I’ll have you know I have not become dotty in my old age yet,” Vanessa interrupted indignantly. “Sir Parker has checked their story and confirmed it. They have been living in this very hotel for the past three months. And Miles Dryden has a sister, my dear, a sister. If our Mr. Longnose has one, he wouldn’t be carting her about with him, now, would he?”
“I didn’t mean to imply that he might be Longnose, only that he could have been hired…oh, never mind.” Then, with sudden suspicion: “He wouldn’t happen to be handsome, would he?”
“Now don’t look at me like that. So he is rather striking in appearance. That doesn’t mean I hoped he would take your mind off your half-breed if I invited them along.”
“No, of course not,” Jocelyn replied with annoyance, for Vanessa’s motive was obviously just that.
She was no better at dissembling than Jocelyn was, at least not with Jocelyn. It was time to tell her how unnecessary these machinations were and hope she would believe it.
“I do not intend to allow a repetition of last night, Vana.”
“Does he know that?”
“He was practically raped—”
“What?”
Jocelyn waved a hand dismissively. “The principle was the same. He had to be forced, didn’t he? Seduced? Made to lose control so his baser instincts would take over and he would be powerless to resist? You seem to forget he didn’t want anything to do with me, that I did the pursuing, not him. So he isn’t likely to want a repetition of last night either, Vana. In fact, I’d be terribly surprised if he isn’t furious today, and determined never to put himself in such a position again.”
“Attitudes change once the die is cast, my dear. Once the sin is committed, a person tends to overindulge before he’s ready to repent.”
“I doubt that would apply in Colt’s case. Besides, I’ve already said that I have no intention of letting it happen again. My problem has been solved. I have no further need of a lover.”
So says a woman who has been thoroughly satisfied only hours past, Vanessa thought. But she didn’t point out that Jocelyn’s “need” would eventually be of a different nature, that once tasting the pleasures of the flesh, the body tended to demand more of the same.
She said instead, “If that one wants you again, my dear, I don’t think you’ll have much choice in the matter.”
That prediction caused a tiny thrill in the pit of Jocelyn’s stomach, but she staunchly ignored it. “Then I’ll just have to make sure I’m never alone with him again. So you can stop worrying—”
“Madame!” Babette interrupted just then, so excited she entered the room without knocking first. “Alonzo, he insists I should tell you Monsieur Thunder is about to have the western duel in the street. He says you would want to know this.”
“To have the what?”
Vanessa made a tsking sound. “I believe she is referring to what that milliner in Tombstone called a showdown, my dear. Remember we witnessed…Jocelyn, don’t you dare!” But the duchess had already run out of the room.
Chapter Twenty-five
Standing at the long bar, Colt finished off the whiskey in his glass and slowly poured another from the bottle he’d yanked away from the barkeep earlier. This being the third saloon he’d entered since he left the hotel that morning, by rights he should be drunk already. But he wasn’t. His gut was too full of anger to let the whisky do its stuff.
Looking for a fight also tended to keep a man sober, and he couldn’t deny he’d been looking. When the first two saloons had turned up nothing worse than dirty looks, he’d tried this one—and hit the jackpot. Only it wasn’t the jackpot he wanted. He’d needed a punching bag for his anger, not an invite to let some lead fly. It was just his luck that the only one to object to his presence with any degree of vocal belligerence was a young man who considered himself a fast draw. Whether he was or not, Colt had little doubt he could take him. It was the quiet ones you needed to worry about, not the show-offs.
It’d be over with already if the barkeep hadn’t insisted, with a shotgun to make his point, that they take themselves outside to settle their differences. Colt claimed he’d finish his drink first. Riley, as his friends called him, was magnanimous once his challenge was accepted, and went outside to wait.
The kid was a so-called professional. Still wet behind the ears, but already a gun for hire. He worked for a local mine owner who’d been having some trouble with claim-jumpers. In the six months since he’d come to town, he’d already killed two men, pistol-whipped a few more, and forced all others to give him a wide berth. Story was, the mine
owner didn’t know how to get rid of him now that he was no longer needed.
Colt surmised that much from the bits and pieces of hushed conversation going on behind him. He also heard a number of disparaging remarks about himself, but nothing he hadn’t heard before. He’d been called every foul, dirty name there was, so he had to be in a damned ornery mood to take exception to insults that were second nature to the white man when an Indian was around.
It was what he’d been looking for today, those insults. His mood was certainly ornery enough. But folks this far south didn’t know what to make of him. They took him for a half-breed, but they’d never seen one so tall, or mean-looking, or with a Colt Peacemaker riding his hip. Things like that tended to make a man think twice before opening his mouth—unless he was a young kid with delusions of omnipotence who’d let a few lucky draws go to his head.
Colt had kept his antagonist waiting about ten minutes now, which was why the customers remaining in the saloon were gradually becoming less wary of him. Riley’s shouted “What’re ya waitin’ on, breed? Or has that red skin o’ yourn turned yeller?” had drawn a few snickers from the room, but outright guffaws from the kid’s two sidekicks, a couple of cowboys who had been egging him on from the beginning, and both had followed him outside.
Colt’s eyes met those of the barkeep’s. The man was slowly wiping a glass with a dirty rag. There was contempt in his red-rimmed eyes, mixed with a good deal of sneering pleasure, making his sentiments only too clear. He figured the taunt was true, that Colt would likely be begging for the direction of the back door as soon as he got up the nerve. He figured a half-breed wouldn’t have the guts to face a man down, that it wouldn’t be his style. Back-stabbing and ambushing were all a breed was good for.
So let him think it. What the hell did Colt care what a barkeep thought, or any of them for that matter? They were all waiting to see him gunned down, hoping to see it. The loudmouthed Riley might be feared and despised in this town, but today he would be applauded if he managed to take down a presumptuous breed.
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