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by Brooks Haxton


  After the blade dropped, and the eyelids twitched,

  the spasms tugging at the lips went calm,

  and when I called out to the head, “Languille!”

  the eyelids lifted up, this time, I swear,

  in a distinctly normal movement, slow,

  as if awakening, or torn from thought.

  With pupils focusing themselves, the eyes

  looked sharp, not like a dying man’s, not vague,

  and when the lids went shut, I called again,

  “Languille!” and again, without a twitch,

  they lifted, and the eyes looked into mine.

  To the Water Bear

  Kleiner Wasserbär, observed by Pastor Johann Goeze, Quedlinburg, December 10, 1772

  Jesus in his little boat said to the crowd

  on the bank at Galilee

  that the mustard seed, the smallest of all seeds,

  is to the full-grown tree

  as our mere inkling of the kingdom of heaven is

  to the kingdom itself.

  Maybe the mustard seed is not the smallest

  of all seeds and does not really grow

  into a tree. The point was not to measure

  seeds, or where we go after we die. The point

  was reckoning beyond measure.

  You, of course, were small,

  much smaller than the mustard seed.

  Yet to the German pastor who first saw you

  move as if in slow-mo underwater,

  under the microscope, you looked

  enormous, eight stout legs, he called them feet,

  with claws like those of a brown bear:

  water bear, he called you…little water bear.

  Your mouth was something else,

  a nozzle for a telescoping vacuum

  set with teeth. It struck, and drew the prey

  back onto the twin blades inside for the kill.

  Gentlemen in those days used

  the hunting rifle, which was the latest thing,

  to slaughter every bear in every patch of woods

  in their whole country, so that the first

  brown bear at large in Germany

  since Bismarck came of age was famous

  just ten years ago. Bruno,

  they called him. From the Italian Alps

  he walked for weeks through Austria

  into the borderland where Germans shot

  their last wild bear in eighteen thirty-five.

  He celebrated this return by killing

  thirty sheep, assorted goats, chickens,

  rabbits, and one little girl’s pet guinea pig,

  which he finished chewing

  on the front stoop of the Polizei.

  Tourists at the local inns, grown fearful

  that he might kill some of them, soon

  had him shot, stuffed, and set up on display

  nearby in their Museum of Mankind and Nature.

  Living, you would not have recognized

  your likeness in the body of your cousin

  Bruno. You lacked optics in your eye spots

  and your brain had too few cells. In death,

  however, limitations of the living fall away,

  or that, at least, would seem to be the premise

  of my speaking to you in this poem.

  You water bears, unlike your cousins,

  thrive in Germany, and everywhere,

  from lichens on Antarctic mountainsides

  and moss along the Nile down

  into the silt bed of the Coral Sea.

  You can withstand extremes of heat

  and cold. Irradiated, poisoned,

  under crushing depths of pressure, or sent

  floating into the void of outer space, you live.

  Though dried-out, crumpled in a heap like duck cloth,

  still, when watered, you can twitch, and come to life.

  Your species has survived five hundred million years.

  Just after the German, an Italian cleric

  with a microscope gave you the name

  from Latin tardigrade, slow stepper,

  like what Beowulf calls the monster

  Grendel: mearcstapa, boundary

  stepper. That’s you too. It’s Bruno,

  me, and every living thing, all teetering

  along the edge. And look! I like the way

  you move out here. To my mind, you

  surpass the kingdom of heaven: you exist.

  The Nationality of Neptune

  The planet seafaring people call

  Poseidon in the Cyclades,

  speakers of one local tongue

  in Veracruz call Tlaloc,

  after their god of bodies

  of water, storms, fertility,

  and of the realm of the dead.

  To delight Tlaloc Aztecs

  used to dress the children

  of captives and of the chosen

  nobles in colorful paper smocks,

  with feathers and shells.

  On ceremonial mountaintops

  and in caves, high priests

  with obsidian knife blades

  opened the children to remove

  their living hearts. Their screams

  and tears, some said, brought down

  the blessing of rain. Others

  chosen of that god they buried

  with foreheads painted blue and seeds

  placed on their faces. The planet

  Tlaloc is not visible to the naked eye.

  The Arctic Vortex at Snooks Pond, 2014

  The warmest groundwater seeping into the marsh

  before it froze for the first time smoked, and ice flowers

  formed in the smoke. Ice petals radiated from low twigs.

  Ice feathers hung from the willow trunk reflected.

  Spurs took shape on the black sheen just now frozen.

  Farther out on the pond, in the deep snow, powder

  sifted into cracks where the old ice was contracting

  with a chirp like sonar. Cracks in the snow gaped, wide

  as an old man’s knuckle, crisscross, so that the pond

  was a white mosaic, each tile big as a dance floor.

  Tracks from a fox, and from deer and rabbits, marked

  the dance steps. A man at the sight of the cracked ice,

  though he knew better, felt as if he might fall through.

  But the clear ice under the cracks held. It was like him.

  Apologies to the Dead

  1. To Ruth Stein Blum

  1866–1929

  Passenger pigeons came

  rivering endlessly

  into your childhood,

  and when you were grown

  the last one, Martha,

  lived on display

  at the Cincinnati Zoo.

  She was brown and buff

  and dull gray, only her eyes

  bright orange, each

  with a pale blue ring.

  2. To Mary DeFrance

  1848–1902

  The census before the War has you, age fifteen,

  living with a physician, thirty-five. At Shiloh

  he was a surgeon with the Fourth Infantry

  from Louisiana. The Union advanced,

  and you fled home for Vicksburg

  where the Fourth Infantry fought again.

  When the smell of the rotting dead

  and screams from the cracked throats

  of the
wounded forced both sides

  to call a three-hour truce, boys

  about to kill each other talked

  and traded in a calm between-time

  while they tended their friends.

  You must have been waiting then

  in one of the dirt caves under the bluff,

  where people went with carpets, tables,

  chairs, and beds, to weather the shelling

  from Admiral Porter’s boats. Your new

  husband, George Fontaine, was one of the boys

  who surrendered. Later, the two of you opened

  a dry-goods store in Floyd. Near there

  the surgeon, who must have been your father,

  murdered an immigrant in cold blood.

  3. To Dr. Walter L. DeFrance

  1822–?

  When the Lord God bird still nested in the swamp,

  at three in the afternoon, there was a warm rain.

  It was Monday, the first of July, eighteen

  sixty-seven. A knock came at the front door.

  Herman Stein, my great-great-grandfather,

  answered, and you, whose name was never

  mentioned in this story, witnessed by his wife

  and three small children, drew a pistol…

  you, as a gentleman, having taken offense

  when billed for your delinquent debt by a Jew.

  My father, Kenneth, told me the story told him

  by his grandmother, Ruth, who was there

  as a toddler when her father died. You,

  she said, having shot him in cold blood, went

  unpunished, never charged with a crime.

  Lately, however, I find that you did not

  shoot my kinsman in cold blood.

  Newspapers report: it was a stabbing.

  The Times-Picayune includes with other

  news from the region one short paragraph

  on the murder. This comes after a farmer’s

  complaint that steady rains have made grass

  grow up over his cotton. In the mud, he says,

  the freedmen cannot plow. The next paragraph

  reports the murder, noting that any one

  of the nine stab wounds would have been fatal.

  Another farmer says that his corn is healthy,

  but that worms may yet develop. In The Daily

  Memphis Avalanche a quote from The Carroll

  Record states that you were “legally arrested”;

  but, “to the surprise and disappointment of all,”

  you made your escape.

  That night would have been

  cloudy with no moon. In the unusual darkness,

  it would seem, you found that you could evade

  your captors. Something of this kind kept happening

  in Louisiana. Of white men who had committed

  that year more than two hundred illegal shootings,

  stabbings, hangings, whippings, and beatings

  of the legally free, not one was charged with a crime.

  The newspapers’ mention of legal arrest in this case

  makes it appear that stabbing a Jew nine times

  at his home in front of his wife and children might

  be thought unacceptable.

  No further record exists

  of you as Dr. DeFrance, except your expulsion

  the following year from the Masonic Lodge.

  The census from eighteen fifty listed you

  as a farmer, head of household, Laura, your wife,

  baby Ada, and Mary, then two years of age.

  This was in Mississippi. In Louisiana,

  as Doctor DeFrance, you were three years younger

  than the farmer would be, and lived alone

  with Mary, three years older than the farmer’s child.

  Why would someone have made the two of you

  on record six years closer in age, and how

  might this bear on the savagery of the murder?

  Who invented the story about the bill and the handgun?

  What rage, Walter, drove you there,

  to the front door, out of your mind, with a knife?

  4. To Mary Terrell Howard Sessions Defrance

  1775–1833

  You must have been one

  of the orphans and foundlings

  shipped from Europe to be the wives

  of men in the colonial South.

  After the Revolutionary War,

  according to family records, you

  at the age of eight gave birth.

  Maybe the records are mistaken.

  But by the time there was a Bill

  of Rights, you had four boys:

  Asa, Robert, James, and Frederick.

  And you were sixteen. Then your husband,

  at the age of thirty-three, seems

  to have turned his attention

  elsewhere, fathering twins

  by another girl, whose name

  and age I cannot find.

  After your first four boys

  were grown, you became

  at forty-one the wife

  of another man to whom

  you bore three sons,

  Parke, Walter, and Charles,

  you for the last of these past fifty.

  Your one girl seems to have died

  as a child. You died

  when you were fifty-eight.

  You were twelve years

  dead when Walter named

  his first girl Mary after you.

  Walter then, in middle age,

  stabbed my kinsman

  Herman Stein nine times.

  I cannot tell you why,

  in front of a man’s wife

  and three children, your boy

  Walter would stab and stab

  and stab the man, nine times…

  I cannot say what good

  your Walter may have done

  with his surgical knife

  at Shiloh or at Vicksburg,

  in the worst of the battles

  where he served…

  nor what harm he did

  before the War, to his wife

  who left him, or to his children,

  your grandchildren,

  Ada and Mary…Mary,

  whom he gave your name…

  Flower Medley

  after lines by Hayden Carruth, 1921–2008

  Before the spasms tore his heart,

  before the doctors tethered him

  with oxygen, and blinded him, he breathed,

  out walking with good friends, a raft

  of hyacinth in Brooklyn, and the white bloom

  of the blue plum broke. Daylilies came back

  in summer with orange tongues of flame.

  The sour cherry four years dead

  bloomed one morning in October,

  and a red hibiscus dropped onto the floor.

  Because he put these into poems,

  the old geranium still holds ten blossoms.

  The moth he called Catocala, or hidden beauty,

  frets, and beats the screen. For love

  he named them, not just moths, or flowers:

  stones, and animals, musicians by the score.

  Today the purple shoots of hellebore

  have broken through the frozen dirt.

  Doctors, he reminded me, once brewed

  from hellebore a cure for madness—

  he loo
ked up—and it was deadly.

  I loved Hayden when he laughed.

  Eclipse

  August 28, 2007

  While the Moon sank into a reef of clouds,

  the shadow I had come to see slid down

  past craters formed a billion years before

  life formed on Earth.

  My father at eighty

  lost three quarts of blood inside his gut

  and buckled in my arms, so that we both

  fell at his bedside. On the floor he told me,

  eyes relaxing, quiet, No, he would be fine,

  please, not to call the ambulance.

  From him

  when I was twelve I learned to watch the Moon

  with his refractor scope, imagining

  the surface as a texture human hands

  could touch. Now he was gone, and I stood

  in a field alone among half-moonlit rocks.

  After my mother’s sweetheart died in the War,

  my father, who had been her college friend,

  thought they might make a life. Third

  to form in my mother’s womb,

  on the third day I was a mulberry of cells

  suspended in the dark inside her.

  In a book of myths she gave me as a child

  the god of the Moon in Egypt is a scribe

  delivering his wisdom to the dead.

  Now one crow flapped though shelves of mist

  into the floodlit aura of a mall

  beyond the woods, and half in shadow,

  half in clouds, the Moon kept sinking.

  The Morning Star in Babylon, the book

  said, was a goddess toward whom women

  cried in childbirth, one who turned

  toward men by dawn the cryptic sexual look

  in light of which the brave supposedly seek war.

  My parents’ love misled them into betrayal

  and confusion. When my father turned

  for comfort toward young men, the way

  my mother did for years with women,

  she divorced him. I was confused less

  by their pain than by the numbing in myself.

  Later in middle age my wife tried cursing me

  to ask for love, and I withdrew. At my feet,

  at the edge of a field now, rocks no longer moonlit

  tilted toward the Morning Star in the east.

 

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