“Okay, I want this lesson to be over now.”
“But, you were the one who—”
“Over!”
“Right so.” He ducked his head, hiding a grin as he shrugged a backpack from his shoulders. After pulling out a thermos and several plastic containers, he removed a small lantern clipped to the side of the pack. Turning it on, he placed it on the rock between them.
“What’s all this?” Kate peered down at the display.
“Candlelight supper, courtesy of Chef Abigail. It’s a long walk down and it’s already dark, so we might as well eat first.”
“My God, you’re a genius.” She leaned over to reward him with a kiss, running her fingers through his tousled black hair. “It was worth it, just for this.”
“Well, let’s see if you still think so by the time we get home.”
He had a point. Table Rock, far from the highest mountain peak in Vermont, was not a difficult hike in daylight, but it was a precarious descent in the dark, even when wearing headlamps, and after reaching the parking lot they still had an hour’s drive ahead of them. It was after nine o’clock when Conor turned the truck onto the driveway of the Rembrandt Inn.
Since purchasing the property six years earlier Kate had continued the tradition of closing the hotel for the months of March and April—the state’s least photogenic period in the calendar year and a dormant time for tourism. Famous for playing cruel tricks with its weather patterns, Vermont served as a sort of proving ground in early spring in a way that even the heartiest natives found challenging. As a transplant from New York Kate had experienced her share of soul-testing moments, but she’d learned to cope and to appreciate anything that helped remind her why she’d fallen in love with the place. Like right now, for example. With a pale moon hanging in the sky over its roof and the porch light shining, the inn looked particularly charming as they pulled up in front of it.
Her legs sore and her back stiffening, Kate gathered her strength before sliding from the passenger seat while Conor stood holding the door for her, his face unreadable. He could be good at that trick—projecting a blank slate without visible effort. She’d first seen that polite, impenetrable mask when he showed up on an April evening almost a year ago, an emigrant Irishman burdened with a stash of secrets he was determined to keep hidden.
He’d arrived with an unconventional résumé—a farmer who’d stopped farming, a professional violinist who’d stopped playing. Once settled under her roof he’d begun applying himself to both again, and before the end of that year Kate had poked her way through all his cautious evasions and given up secrets of her own—and they’d discovered others together that neither could have imagined.
They’d suffered and healed together during that time as well, and now Conor’s opaque facades were less effective with her. He couldn’t often fool her—he didn’t often try—but tonight Kate knew he was trying to hide his distress. His mission for the evening had been to stalk and terrify her. He’d done it well and had banged her up in the process, but any heartfelt apologies would defeat the ostensible purpose of the exercise—to prepare her for more of the same—as well as his unacknowledged objective, which was to put her off the project altogether.
Prodded by rebellious instinct, Kate shook off her weariness. She reached into the bed of the truck to lift the heavy backpack, but this effort to prove her resilience was too much for Conor. She wasn’t surprised when he stepped forward to take it from her.
“Hot shower?” he said, casually throwing the pack over his shoulder.
She gave his hand a squeeze. “I like the way you think.”
Conor knew it was coming; he could see it in the set of her chin. An argument was on the way, and twenty minutes together in her spacious, walk-in shower had postponed, but not preempted, it. While toweling off, he watched Kate with guarded suspicion.
Wrapped in a blue silk robe, she stood at the bathroom sink staring at her reflection and shedding water from her toothbrush with rhythmic taps against the porcelain. A “fate motif” worthy of Beethoven. It sent him scuttering into the adjoining bedroom in search of escape, but he’d mistimed the strike. She waited until they were lying in bed together, her head on his shoulder, one hand trailing over his chest.
Very clever, he thought. Attack when I’m most vulnerable.
It wasn’t hard to put him off-balance in this room anyway. He’d been occupying the master suite for a while now, but during his first six months at the inn he’d stayed in a guest room down the hall. He occasionally felt nostalgic for its more modest proportions.
Not that Kate’s room wasn’t comfortable. Despite its size it was warm and intimate, its best feature an expanse of floor-to-ceiling windows offering a view of the pasture sloping down from the inn and the outline of Lake Rembrandt in the distance. Opposite the windows hung a set of three small canvases, miniatures of the landscape surrounding his farm in Ireland. Kate had painted them during their stay the previous fall, the result of an artistic rebirth after many years of creative paralysis. She’d unveiled them as a gift, saying it was to help him feel more at home in the space they now shared. It was exactly the right touch, helping to remind Conor that some things from his past life remained intact.
Kate’s hand slid away and he pulled his attention back to her, steeling himself.
“I know you don’t want me to do this, but you need to get on board. I think it’s important for me to go through with it,” she said.
“Why?” Conor kept his tone neutral, wary of aggravating her, but when she lifted her head, her eyes were sleepy and reassuring.
“It isn’t because I want to do what you do. I’m not planning to be Frank Murdoch’s latest unconventional recruit, but he’s offered to have me trained as if I were, and if I don’t accept it I might not get another chance. I can’t always go with you, I know that; but at least you won’t have to hide what you’re doing from me. It wouldn’t be good for either of us. Besides, if he knows I might be around, Frank may assign the dangerous jobs to someone else.”
Conor gave a derisive snort. “You put entirely too much trust in him. Frank Murdoch will do as he pleases. He’s an MI6 officer.”
“So are you,” Kate said softly.
“Non-official cover agent,” he insisted. He was an Irishman, contracted to work for the British Secret Intelligence Service. It was important to keep the boundaries clear.
“I stand corrected. Anyway, that’s one reason. The other involves something I don’t think you’ve given much consideration—that I might not be any safer at home. The last six months are proof enough of that, and you won’t always be around to protect me. I suppose you’d want to surround me with bodyguards and high-tech security, but I can’t live like that. I need to learn how to protect myself.”
Conor had actually given a great deal of consideration to the issue of Kate’s safety, but she was correct in thinking most of it involved armed men and surveillance cameras. A recent threat to her life had been eliminated decisively, but given her unique background there was no guarantee it would be the last. The skills he’d learned at the Fort Monckton training site during his own MI6 initiation had served him well, and the modified program Frank suggested for Kate would likely do the same.
Conor couldn’t argue with the logic of giving her the tools to defend herself. It was the idea of her ever needing to use them that terrified him. But maybe his fear was a sort of poetic justice. This debate—which he was losing and probably deserved to—wouldn’t even be happening if he’d left Frank’s bargain on the table and walked away.
Even now, he wasn’t sure why he’d decided to remain an undercover agent. Was it because the offer came linked with a chance to rebuild his musical career? Or was it because he couldn’t resist the adrenaline rush of performance, the compulsion for total mastery of everything he was good at?
The compulsive instinct felt closer to a truth he wanted to shield from Kate, but for months she’d lobbied him for inclusion in the covert s
ide of his life. Although he didn’t entirely understand her motivation, his resistance was crumbling. The Prague assignment might be dangerous—as usual, Frank was being coy about the details, including a departure date—but if Conor was being honest, he didn’t want her to stay home either. His mission included an opportunity to play in front of an audience again, to step onto a concert stage, tuck the violin beneath his chin, and fill the hall with sound. The prospect generated a certain amount of panic, but his anticipation was stronger and he couldn’t imagine experiencing something so momentous without her.
Kate propped herself on one hand to look at him and Conor moved restlessly on his back, preparing for the coup de grâce. Meeting the gaze of her expressive blue eyes always spelled defeat, partly because she employed the tactic without realizing it. She had no idea how magnificent she was, how beautiful, in a mood of earnest determination.
She hooked a finger under his jaw and turned his head to face her. “We can’t stay on opposite sides on this. Please. I need you to trust me. I need your support.”
“I do. You have it. I promise.” Conor sighed. “Ah, Kate. You’re going to be good at this, you know.”
“Really? I’m not so sure. I made a fool of myself tonight.”
“No, you didn’t. Far from it.” He sat up, giving her a kiss, and drew her down with him as he lay back. “You did well. Sorry for not saying so earlier. I did lose you for a while when it got dark.” Conor still remembered the anxiety he’d felt when he realized he’d lost track of her. “You melted away from me like a ghost. It was a bit unnerving. I didn’t think you were paying attention when I told you how to do that.”
“I’m always paying attention to you.”
She snuggled against him and a minute later was asleep—he could tell by the weight of her arm stretched across his stomach. In slumber, the laws of gravity seemed to double for Kate. She slept hard, and woke with a slow, seductive drowsiness, while he tended to bolt awake as though touched by a live current.
She also slept silently, which sometimes alarmed him. To ease his anxiety, he liked to have a hand resting on her somewhere, just as he did now, his palm flat against the warmth of her back. Once he felt the rise and fall of her breathing, he let his fingers wander through the dark copper curls of her hair, still damp from the shower. With his lips against her forehead, he whispered a promise:
“I’m always on your side. From this day forward, for better or worse …”
Noiselessly, she slept on, which was probably just as well. She wasn’t ready to hear those lines yet, but he was.
2
The next day Conor rose before dawn—as he did every day—and headed across the road to the dairy barn and the herd of eighteen cows he’d been managing for almost a year now. After the milking and a quick clean-up, he spent the rest of the morning splitting logs at a neighbor’s sugar house. His family had farmed in Ireland for generations, so managing Kate’s modest operation held few surprises, but the workings of a traditional Vermont “sugarbush” farm was a whole new world. He was enjoying his education in maple syrup production, as well as the wisdom and raucous humor exchanged with neighbors around the smoking evaporator.
Back at the inn after three hours of stoking the fires, he stopped to check the iron mailbox on the front porch. It was a vintage model in keeping with the overall theme of the inn, but Conor hadn’t purchased it for decorative effect. He’d just been looking for something that locked and was easy to bolt to the wall. In compliance with instructions from afar, collecting the mail had become a restricted task.
Today, the box was filled to capacity, mostly with résumés for a recently advertised job opening at the inn. Once the post was filled, a management transition that had been underway for several months would be complete.
After years of being unable to make any art at all, Kate was brimming with ideas and energy, and anxious to spend more time in her studio. She had a vocation to explore, but she also had an inn to run and a finite number of hours in the day, so something had to give. Several long conversations with Conor between the Christmas and New Year holidays led to further discussions with the inn’s chef, Abigail Perini, and her husband Dominic who managed the restaurant, and at the end of February Kate had formally appointed Dominic to be the Rembrandt Inn’s general manager.
This meant the inn was in the market for a new dining room manager, and the single advertisement posted several weeks earlier was still producing an impressive response. Shuffling through the letters, Conor was wondering why no one had thought to ask the candidates to send their résumés by email when he suddenly stopped halfway through the pile. It was a plain white envelope, like all the others, but addressed to him, and the return address in the corner was as expected.
“Madison, Wisconsin,” he read aloud. Resisting the temptation to open it on the spot, he pulled the remaining flyers and magazines from the box and headed inside.
In the hall he circled around the reception desk to Kate’s office behind it, which was even more cluttered than usual. She’d promised to put everything in order before turning the office over to Dominic. Conor, who had a natural instinct for making things tidy, thought her progress seemed painfully slow. She was on the phone when he came in, so he loitered for a minute, surveying the chaos and casting an eye on an enormous package from New York sitting on the desk. When it looked as though the call would go on for a while, he tucked the envelope in his back pocket and carried the rest of the mail into the kitchen.
“The post is here.” He dropped the pile onto the prep counter in front of the inn’s stout rosy-cheeked chef.
Abigail wiped her hands down her apron and reached across the counter. “I’ll take it.”
“Not so fast now. I’m not sure they’re all for you. Some of them might be for Dominic.” Conor scooped up the bundle before she could grab it. No one—least of all her husband—was under the illusion that his new job was anything other than a shared position with his wife, but Conor couldn’t resist teasing her.
As Kate had once explained, Chef Abigail Perini “came with the place” when she bought it and had soon become more like a family member than an employee, although an obstreperous one. Abigail hectored and fussed over those she loved, and Conor had been a target for this kind of attention from the day he’d arrived. He countered it as any good Irishman would—with a combination of mischief and flirtatious charm.
“Uh-huh, yep.” He flipped through the envelopes again. “It seems most of these are résumés addressed to Dominic. What’s he got against email, I wonder? I should probably pop them into his mail tray.”
“You just pop them right over here.” Abigail flapped a hand at him. “If they came by email I’d never see them.”
Conor grinned, sliding the mail across the counter. “I was under the impression your husband was in charge of staffing now.”
“He is, officially.” She was smiling as well. “I’m his secretary.”
“Oh, I see. You’re a great help to him. Dom must be grateful.”
“He doesn’t complain.”
“No, I don’t suppose he would.” Conor sniffed the air. Something both vinegary and sweet was wafting from a pot bubbling on the stove.
Although the inn was closed, Abigail was in the kitchen almost every day, experimenting with menus, supervising Dominic, and ensuring to her own satisfaction that Kate and Conor didn’t starve during the off-season. By their own admission both were hopeless in the kitchen, so the arrangement made everyone happy.
“What have we got on the menu?” he asked. “Smells good.”
“Potato dumplings, pickled cabbage and roast pork. In brown gravy.” Abigail headed for the stove. “Traditional Bohemian cuisine. You might as well get used to it.” She assembled the meal without her usual attention to detail and thumped the plate on the counter in front of him, as if daring him to eat it.
Undaunted, Conor picked up a fork. “Meat, potato, and cabbage. I feel right at home.”
Al
though he’d managed to keep the scarier aspects of his personal history from becoming common knowledge, Abigail was one of the few people who knew that the town of Hartsboro Bend harbored an undercover operative. She’d heard about the upcoming mission to Prague, and of the plan to have Kate trained in the basics of espionage, and she was not happy about it.
He ate his dinner under her challenging stare and meekly offered up the empty plate when he’d finished. “Better than home, actually.”
Abigail relented, smiling. “I doctored it a little.”
He laughed, but then his smile faded. “Abigail, I hope you realize I don’t like this any more than you do, but she’s determined to go through with it. It’s not for me to tell her she can’t.”
“I know that, honey.” She took the plate from him, giving his cheek an affectionate pat. “Kate’s not the only one I worry about though. Where is she anyway? I made enough of this to punish her too.”
“In her office. There was a bloody great box from the Zimmer House fellow in New York, so she’s neck-deep in the paperwork I suppose.” Conor pushed up from the counter. “I’m off, myself. I need to get in a few hours with the fiddle.”
“Well, send her in here.” Abigail frowned into the pot on the stove and gave it a stir. “I’ve got all this cabbage, and I know Dom will never eat it.”
During the summer, Conor had practiced at least three hours a day in an empty shed next to the dairy barn, but in the freezing weather it was no place for a violin, particularly an 1830 Pressenda worth a small fortune, and it was no place for him either, as Kate had noted. For both of them, the previous fall had been full of unwanted excitement. He had the long scar of a gunshot wound along his side as a memento from one of its unexpected events. At the same time as the bullet had been grazing his ribs he’d been hit with pneumonia for the second time in a year. As with the previous bout—which had come with its own complicating factors—he’d barely survived, so for the sake of his lungs and his instrument he’d used his former bedroom as a winter practice space.
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