The Man I Can't Have (Ward #1) (Ward Duet)

by Shanora Williams

  “You must think I’m an idiot!” he snarls, that familiar, angry vein popping up on his forehead. “Did you think I wouldn’t find out? You haven’t fucked me in days, but you’re more than happy to sneak off and fuck him?”

  “Kyle, I—” I still can’t speak. He’s squeezing harder, and I claw at his hand even more.

  He sniffs the air, then flares his nostrils. His eyes are like pits of fire. I’ve seen him angry, but not like this. “You smell like him. You’re fucking disgusting.” He finally releases my throat, and I suck in a breath, collapsing to my knees. Callie is whining and cowering at my side now. “You better end whatever the hell it is you have going on with him, or I swear you will regret it, Gabs,” he growls through clenched teeth.

  “Kyle, I swear, I didn’t mean for it to happen!”

  “But it did!” He barks back. “I saw the way he looked at you every time he was around! And you know what’s worse? I found his fucking business card under the table that morning I got home early—the night you were sleeping on the couch, which you never fucking do! You told me you hated that couch! He must’ve worn you out, huh? At first, I thought, surely my wife isn’t stupid enough to bring another man into my house while I’m away. I figured maybe the card was just a coincidence, considering the fact that he had been working on our yard recently, but then you disappear for days behind my back! And to top it off, I see the neighbor with your fucking dog! Did you think I wouldn’t find that unusual? You were good at hiding it for a while, but then I saw the emails. Ohh, the emails, Gabs. I was in total shock when I saw those.” He crouches down, grabbing my face between his fingers way too roughly.

  “Stop!” I beg. “Please, stop! It’s over!”

  “Of course it’s over! You knew I wouldn’t tolerate this shit! You can’t have him—you can’t have anyone but me!” He releases my face and looks down at me as I sob. For a while he just watches me, looking down as if I’m the dirt on the bottom of his shoe.

  But then he does something that I don’t see coming, not even from a mile away.

  He kicks me.

  Right in the face.

  Kicks me.

  I gasp and crumple over from the blow, and my tears come to a sudden halt. I’m dazed, unable to grasp what just happened.

  “You’re fucking worthless, Gabby,” he spits out as he grabs a fistful of my hair, and blood slithers down my throat as I pull in air to scream. “Your father was wrong about you. You’re no trophy. You’re garbage.”

  He releases me, and blood pours from my nose and mouth, but all I can see are black spots. I hear his voice taunting me, yelling about how he has given me everything, and I’ve betrayed him. He’s right, I have, but it’s for this very reason that I did it.

  I knew he would hit me again. I knew that his grabbing and bruising on my arms and upper thighs would turn into something so much worse. He’s always been good at hurting me in places I could hide behind long-sleeved shirts and sweatpants.

  I knew he could get aggressive when we were out, making sure I was always at his side, keeping me close so I couldn’t socialize too much with anyone else—including my friends—but I always thought it was cute and that he couldn’t handle being away from me for too long. I felt like his air.

  Little did I know, his intentions weren’t pure. All along, he considered me his. In his fucked up mind, he literally thinks he owns me and, unfortunately, I didn’t figure that out until it was too late.

  Kyle was the first man I took seriously.

  He was my all. I loved him to the core. I knew he could take care of me and my family, but as soon as we got married, he’d changed. Everything changed…or maybe I just hadn’t paid attention to the signs.

  You only see what’s on the surface, and so does Marcel. Throughout, it may have seemed like I was the unfaithful wife—the ungrateful woman who couldn’t appreciate the good surrounding her—but when you live in fear and under so much scrutiny, waiting for the day your husband decides to crack open a bottle of liquor, flip his switch, and dehumanize you, how can you appreciate such beauty?

  Many times, since the first time he laid his hands on me, I’ve wanted to back out of this marriage—and maybe that feeling is why I migrated to Marcel in the first place—but unfortunately, I can’t. Why? Because I have no doubt in my mind that Kyle would do something drastic to harm me. He’s stated it many, many times before. In fact, I have no doubt that if it came down to it, he would kill me.

  What I did was wrong, yes, but what Kyle does to me is pure evil. Of course, I decided to be selfish for once in my life and get a taste of what a real man could treat me like—a good man. But when I got that taste of him, it became impossible to stay away. How could I, when being a part of something with Marcel is so much better than what I have right now?

  With Marcel it’s real and positive and healthy. He isn’t the man I can’t have. He’s the man I’ve always needed.

  Kyle? He’s the one I should have stayed away from.

  Kyle’s yelling becomes a dull hum. Callie is still barking, and he’s shouting at her, telling her to shut the hell up.

  I can’t fight anymore.

  I’m losing this battle.

  The dark spots blurring my vision double in size. Breathing turns into wheezing. My fingers are damp with my own blood.

  Before I slip into darkness, and allow it to become my safe place, I hear one name spill from my lips.

  It’s the only name I need in order to get through this—the kind of name that makes me feel protected, even when he’s not around.

  “Marcellus.”

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  Table of Contents

  Title Page

  Contents

  Untitled

  Copyright

  Dedication

  PROLOGUE

  ONE

  TWO

  THREE

  FOUR

  FIVE

  SIX

  SEVEN

  EIGHT

  NINE

  TEN

  ELEVEN

  TWELVE

  THIRTEEN

  FOURTEEN

  FIFTEEN

  SIXTEEN

  SEVENTEEN

  EIGHTEEN

  NINETEEN

  TWENTY

  TWENTY-ONE

  TWENTY-TWO

  TWENTY-THREE

  TWENTY FOUR

  TWENTY-FIVE

  TWENTY-SIX

  TWENTY SEVEN

  TWENTY EIGHT

  TWENTY-NINE

  THIRTY

  THIRTY-ONE

  THIRTY-TWO

  THIRTY-THREE

  THIRTY-FOUR

  THIRTY-FIVE

  THIRTY-SIX

  THIRTY-SEVEN

  THIRTY-EIGHT

  THIRTY-NINE

  FORTY

  FORTY-ONE

  FORTY-TWO

  FORTY-THREE

  FORTY-FOUR

  FORTY-FIVE

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