by Anya Seton
“Ay, Nirac shall guide you, Lady Swynford,” he said, then turning to his sister laughed sharply. “Your commands, my sweet Isabel, plunge me back into the happy days of my childhood. In truth, you’ve changed but little, fair sister.”
“So I’m told,” said the lady nodding. “Lord Percy said but t’other day, I looked as young as twen - , as several years ago. By Saint Thomas, what’s that caterwauling?” She broke off to glare indignantly around the deck. A medley of voices had arisen from all parts of the ship. A confusion of sound at first, until led by the high clear tenor of the watch, it resolved itself into a solemn melody, a poignant chant carried by some forty male voices.
“It is the hymn of praise to the Virgin of the Sea,” said John. ” ‘Tis sung on every ship of all nations when port is safely reached - for see, here is Bordeaux.” He pointed to the white-walled town curving around its great crescent of river, and dominated by the high gilt spires of the cathedral.
Here is Bordeaux, echoed Katherine’s thought, and the words blended with the great swelling chorus of the Latin hymn the men sang: “Thanks to Thee, Blessed Virgin, for protection from danger, thanks to thy all abiding mercy which has saved us from the sea - -” She shivered in the violent sunlight, staring at the garish savage colours on the river-bank: the white and scarlet houses, the purple shadows, the brilliant yellows, crimsons, greens of vegetation shimmering in heat beneath a turquoise sky, and she thought with foreboding of how far away was the cool misty Northland, and all safe accustomed things. She fastened her attention on the city in front of her so that she might not turn again to look at him who stood behind her on the deck.
CHAPTER XIV
Hugh’s lodgings were two rooms over a wineshop in an alley behind the cathedral. Nirac duly guided Katherine through the town from the pier, while a small donkey laden with her two travelling chests ambled with them. She had managed to avoid the Duke entirely, even taking it upon herself to tell Nirac of the Duke’s permission and order Nirac to accompany her.
This order Nirac received with an enigmatic shrug and smile, “Comme vous voulez, ma belle dame” and she thought that the faithful, amusing little Gascon whom she had known so well in England had somehow changed here in his native land. She chided herself for thinking him suddenly sinister and secret, like the twilit town that turned blank walls to the street and hid its true life from passers-by.
It was not until they mounted the littered stone stairs above the wineshop that Katherine thought of the angry treatment Hugh had shown to Nirac long ago at Kettlethorpe and wondered if the Gascon still resented it, but then she thought that if he did it would not matter; stronger than any other thing in life for Nirac was his adoration of the Duke, and that feeling would check all others.
“Are you sure this is it?” she asked dubiously as they stood on a cramped landing and she knocked at a rough plank door. There was no sound from within.
“La cabaretiere said so, madame,” answered Nirac who had inquired from the shopkeeper.
Katherine knocked again, then pushed open the sagging door, calling, “Hugh.”
He lay on a rough narrow bed and had been dozing. The single shutter was closed against the heat, and in the dim light he blinked at his wife, who lit the doorway like a flame. Then he struggled to his elbow and said, uncertainly, “Is it really you, Katherine? But it’s early - Ellis left to fetch you but a short time ago - we heard the ship was sighted in the river. Who’s that behind you, is it Ellis?”
“No, Hugh,” she said gently, going to the bed and taking his hand, “it’s Nirac, the Duke’s messenger. I hurried straight to you and have missed Ellis.”
His hand clung to hers, it was hot and dry. His unshaven face was haggard between the matted wisps of his crinkled hair, and in his voice she had heard the querulous note of ill health. On a stool by the head of the bed there was a pile of torn linen strips, a bleeding basin and a small clay cup. Flies buzzed in the stuffy sour room, the dingy hempen sheet on which Hugh lay was wadded into lumps. She bent over and kissed him quickly on the cheek. “Ah, my dear, ‘tis well I’ve come to nurse you. The Duke said you were better, are you?” She glanced at the bandaged leg, which was propped on a straw pillow.
“For sure ‘e’s better!” cried Nirac heartily, coming forward to the bed and bowing. ” ‘Is Grace’s own leech ‘as cared for ‘im, an’ now ‘e ‘as the best medicine in the world!” He smiled at Katherine, his bright black eyes were merry and charming, and she wondered what had made them seem sinister before.
Hugh said, “Oh, it’s you, you meaching cockscomb. I’d forgot all about you.” His dull gaze wandered from the Gascon to Katherine. “Ay, I’m better, the wound’s near done festering. I’d be up now save for the griping in my bowels, it weakens me.”
“Alack!” she said, ” ‘tis the flux again? But ‘twill pass - you’ve got over it before.”
He nodded, “Ay.” He made effort to pull himself from the self-centred lethargy of his illness, yet in truth her beauty daunted him; and though he had much wanted her to come, now he felt the old discouragement and humiliation which always sought relief in anger.
“Now you are here,” he said crossly, “I trust you’re not too fine a lady to fetch us up some supper and wine from the woman’s kitchen down below. Or has the Duke’s appointment turned your head?”
Nirac made a faint hissing sound through his teeth, but she did not hear it as she answered, “I’m here to care for you, Hugh. Come, don’t speak to me like that,” she said smiling. “Don’t you long for news of home - of our children?”
“I leave now, madame,” said Nirac softly, and he added in swift French, “I wish you joy of your reunion.” He was gone before she could thank him for his long care of her on the journey.
Through the rest of the day Katherine tended her husband. She took off her fine green gown and put on a thin russet kersey which she wore for everyday at Kettlethorpe; in this she tidied and cleaned the two bare little rooms. She made Hugh’s bed, washed him and rebound his leg, hiding her revulsion at the look of his wound, which was puffed high with proud flesh and oozing a trickle of yellow pus. But Hugh said it had much improved, and Ellis, when he returned from his fruitless errand to the ship, also agreed.
Gradually Hugh grew gentler, as the first shock of strangeness wore away. They slipped back into the groove inevitably worn by their five years of marriage. After they had supped and were more at ease and glowing from the delicious Gascon wine, Ellis sat by the window with his back turned to them, tinkering with some buckle on his master’s gear, and Katherine curled up on the bed chattering of the babies - how lovely little Blanchette had grown and that she could sing three songs - here Hugh smiled proudly, seeming more interested than at the news that Tom could talk plainly and sit a horse alone and was near as big as his sister.
Katherine told many items of home news, particularly that the new flocks on the demesne farm were flourishing and that the Lincoln merchants, the Suttons, had been helpful with advice. She also told Hugh about the birth of Philippa’s baby, proudly adding that she had done most of the midwifery herself, with Parson’s Molly to assist. “But Philippa had an easy time - the babe popped into the world like a greased pig from a poke,” she laughed, “not like the struggle I had to birth Blanchette.”
“Ay, but you’re no more like your sister than Arab filly is to plough horse, my Katherine,” said Hugh gruffly, not looking at her but fumbling for her hand. He pulled her down so that her bright face rested against his coarse woolly beard: She held herself tight so as not to draw back, and thought of the three violent and unhappy nights in which he had once more claimed her during their last brief time together at Kettlethorpe when she came home from the Savoy and before he left to join Sir Robert Knolles.
Hugh thought of those nights too, and cursed the physical debility that once more unmanned him, knowing that without the vigour of drunken haste, a paralysing doubt would set in - and fear, and then he would hate her and the lovely bod
y which he well knew he had never truly possessed.
“I thought I had got you with child, before I left,” he said, releasing her suddenly.
She sat up with an imperceptible sigh of relief. “Nay,” she said lightly. “It didn’t happen, doubtless because ‘twas, the dark of the moon then. Hugh, tell me of the fighting you’ve been through, tell me how you got this” - she touched the bandaged leg. “Here I prate on of silly humdrum things at Kettlethorpe while you’ve done many a dangerous deed of arms.”
She led him on to talk of the one subject which he understood, where he felt himself always sure, and under her admiring questions he expanded, words came to him more easily, his scowl vanished, and when he started to describe a hand-to-hand encounter with a Poitevin knight, in which the latter had cravenly cried for mercy, he actually laughed.
It was thus that Brother William Appleton found them when he pushed the door open and padded in on his bare feet. “Deo gratias!” cried the Grey Friar, standing at the foot of the bed and surveying his patient with kindly surprise. “Here is betterment indeed! Truly a wife is God’s gift. Benedicite, my Lady Swynford.” He placed his hand on her head. “How was the voyage?” He dropped his sack of drugs and instruments on the floor and smiled at Katherine.
“We had a great storm and I was much afraid,” she said, hastening to pour the friar a cup of wine, “but our Blessed Lady and the saints vouchsafed a miracle and we were saved. It was a most wondrous and humbling thing.” Her voice trembled, and Brother William glanced at her keenly, thinking that though she seemed made for the pleasures of the flesh, there yet was a sense of spiritual striving about her, and a healthiness of mind and body which pleased him who spent so much of his time with the sick. “Ay, it is a humbling thing when Heaven’s mercy shields us from danger” - he nodded his long cadaverous head - “and we may be sure God sends us every chance for salvation - how do you find your husband?”
“Most grateful to you, Sir Friar, he says you saved his leg and maybe his life.”
“Well, well - I’ve some skill but ‘tis not all my doing. His stars were propitious.” As he spoke the-friar deftly unbound Hugh’s leg, and scooping a green ointment from a little pot plastered the wound. ” ‘Tis made of pounded watercress,” he explained to Katherine, who exclaimed at the colour. “A balm the wild Basques use in their mountains, and ignorant as they are - barely Christians - they know much of simples. I’ve healed many a wound on the Duke’s men-at-arms with this.”
“How soon do you think I can get about, Brother?” asked Hugh through clenched teeth as the friar probed and pulled back the proud flesh.
“You can hobble a bit now, since it seems your dysentery’s lessening. Did you take all the bowel-binder I left you?” He peered into the clay cup on the stool and shook his head. “Lady, you must see that he takes this each time before he eats. Camphorated poppy juice alone will heal the flux.”
“I’ll see that he takes it. Sir Friar,” she said smiling, and held the cup for him to fill it with a black mixture.
“We must have you strong and able to attend on the Duke’s wedding, Sir Hugh,” said Brother William, fishing a rusty lancet from the bottom of his sack and motioning to Katherine to hold the basin for the daily bleeding.
Hugh thrust out his pallid gnarled arm and said with a hint of pride, “Katherine has been appointed brideswoman to the marriage.”
“I know,” said the friar with a faint chuckle, “you’ve told me many times.” He had learned that and much more during the days of high fever that Hugh had suffered after he first came to Bordeaux, and in addition the friar had served as Hugh’s confessor. So there was little he did not know about this man and his groping, clumsy brain, his grossnesses and sulky angers, his inability to adjust himself to others, his superstitious fears, and yet with all this, his bitter, humiliating, pathetic love for this beautiful woman.
Poor souls, thought the friar, applying styptic and a wad of lint to the bleeding arm-cut. Yet, no doubt, they would rub along somehow, no worse off than many a man and wife, until finally all passions died, and age or philosophy would bring surcease.
“Have you seen the Infanta Costanza?” said Katherine very casually while pouring the blood from the little basin into a slop-jar. “Is she fair?”
“They say not,” answered the friar. “Remember, my Lord Duke desires her to be spoken of as the Queen of Castile - nay, I believe she is not fair.
He saw a strange little quiver pass over Katherine’s mobile face, and having much observant knowledge of women, thought it came from gratified vanity and was amused, for from this foible she had seemed quite free; but he said nothing more. He gave them blessing and departed to visit another of the Duke’s sick fighting men, his mind quite at ease about Hugh.
Katherine slept mat night on a straw mattress on the floor beside Hugh’s bed, and Ellis slept as usual on a pallet near the outer door. In the soft grey dawn, Katherine rose and dressed to go to early Mass before the great crowds would come later. She yearned for the blissful comfort of the act of communion, when the sweet body of Jesus should enter into her own body and strengthen her, and she hoped that in the cathedral she might find a shrine to St. Catherine too. She felt great need to kneel before her own particular saint and refresh the moment of transcendent gratitude she had felt on the ship.
Hugh grunted sleepily as she told him where she was going, and she saw that he had improved in the night, his fever was gone and he breathed quietly.
In her green and gold gown, to do honour to the festival, and a fine silk-hooded mantle, Katherine slipped downstairs past the wineshop into the cobbled street. It was hotter than it would ever be in England, but she gave thanks for the morning freshness and hurried to the cathedral, which was but a block away.
The great west doors of the cathedral were wide open, the organ tones vibrated through the still air, while a line of peasants and rustics filed into the church bearing herbs, roots and fruits for blessing at the Virgin’s shrine. Two mutilated beggars lolled on the cathedral step, and waving ulcerous stumps of legs and arms whined at Katherine, “Ayez pitie, belle dame, l’aumone, pour l’amour de Dieu-” She opened her purse and cast them silver pennies, then into the extended hat of a faceless leper she flung more of her silver, crossing herself as he mumbled “Grand merci” and shuffled away, shaking his warning clapper.
The hideous mutilations of the beggars and the leper had shaken her and before entering the cathedral she paused to collect herself. An ancient Bordelaise in high fluted cap and white apron was spreading baskets of flowers on the steps and Katherine walked over to her, at once assuaged by the lovely unfamiliar flowers - gaudy peonies, jasmine, fat red roses and huge lilies, all strangely shaped and more highly perfumed than any she had ever known.
As she leaned down to buy a bunch of jasmine, she noted vaguely that a tall pilgrim stood on the step a little way off, leaning on his staff. She finished her purchase; holding the jasmine against her cheek and sniffing delightedly, she turned again towards the cathedral. The pilgrim turned too and mounted the steps. He carried a scrip covered with cockleshells, and he was muffled to the mouth in a sackcloth, his large round hat pulled down low on his forehead so that little of his face showed. Katherine, assuming that it was one of those who were en route for St. James Compostela, gave him an indifferent glance. She walked into the cathedral porch, pausing to peer ahead into the dark nave and locate the candle-seller amongst all the booths and hurrying celebrants.
She felt an urgent hand on her arm and turned in astonishment to see that it was the pilgrim who had clutched her. He raised his head a little so that she might see his eyes and said, “Katrine! I must talk to you.”
“Sweet Jesu! My lord!” she cried, so astounded that she dropped the jasmine sprays all over the worn stone paving.
“Hush!” he said sternly. “Come with me, I know a place where we can talk.”
She bent over and picked up her jasmine, slowly, fighting for time to collect hersel
f and marshal her resistance.
“I command it,” he said, then with a swift change of tone, “nay - I beg you, I beseech you - Katrine.”
She bowed her head and began to walk, following him a few paces behind. They went down the steps, across the busy “Place” and up a street to a little inn, Auberge des Moulins. He took a key from his scrip, and unlocking a low door in the pink plaster wall, motioned her to enter. It was the small inn garden to which he had brought her. It was planted with a few flowers and many herbs and furnished with wine-stained trestle-tables and benches.
“We’ll not be disturbed here,” he said, flinging off his hat and loosening the sackcloth cloak, “I’ve bribed the aubergiste lavishly. My God, Katrine,” he added with a wry laugh, “look to what straits you’ve brought the ruler of Aquitaine - skulking in sackcloth, bribing frowsy scoundrels for a place of assignation - like a wenching sergeant - you should be proud of your enchantments!”
“What have you to say to me, my lord?” She leaned against the trestle-table because her knees shook, but her grey eyes were fixed on him steadily and their gaze held warning, yet she thought that, in the coarse brown sackcloth, he had never seemed so handsome or so princely.
“What have I to say to you?” He broke off, biting his lips. Since before Prime he had been waiting near the cathedral, knowing that she would come to Mass, and praying that she would be alone. Yet if that dolt of a squire Ellis de Thoresby had accompanied her, the meeting would still have been managed. Since the sight of her on the ship yesterday, she had obsessed him to a point beyond reason - almost beyond caution.
He turned on her suddenly, with violence. “I love you, Katrine. I want you, I desire you, but I love you. I feel that I cannot exist without you. That’s what I have to say to you.”