The Forever Series
Come Back to Me
2017 © Trilina Pucci LLC
Forever With Me
2018 © Trilina Pucci LLC
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This is a work of fiction. Names, characters, places, and incidents are the product of the author’s imagination or are used fictitiously. Any resemblance to actual persons, living or dead, events, or locales is entirely coincidental.
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Table of Contents
Title Page
Copyright
Come Back to Me
Prologue
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen
Chapter Sixteen
Chapter Seventeen
Chapter Eighteen
Chapter Nineteen
Chapter Twenty
Acknowledgments
Forever With Me
Epigraph
Chapter One
Chapter Two
Chapter Three
Chapter Four
Chapter Five
Chapter Six
Chapter Seven
Chapter Eight
Chapter Nine
Chapter Ten
Chapter Eleven
Chapter Twelve
Chapter Thirteen
Chapter Fourteen
Chapter Fifteen
Chapter Sixteen
Chapter Seventeen
Chapter Eighteen
Chapter Nineteen
Chapter Twenty
Chapter Twenty-One
Chapter Twenty-Two
Chapter Twenty-Three
Epilogue
Acknowledgments
Other Books
About the Author
I cried today, for a million reasons and for no reason. I feel an overwhelming sadness and anger that won’t go away. It never really goes away, perpetually trapped underneath a veil of humor and a bubbly facade.
I just want to sleep for hours, days, weeks. I need for everything in my head to stop spinning so I can start living my life again or pretend to in a more convincing way.
I always feel disconnected, alone, like I’m not truly present or actually taking part of the situations unfolding around me. I know it’s happening around me, to me, but it’s like I’m an unaffected bystander viewing the carnage of my existence and occasionally feeling sorry for the heroine.
Is that what I am? A heroine? I know I want to live, so that’s one silver lining in this mess, but I can’t help sensing something else, something more… this can’t be it. Where I am now cannot be where I truly belong. It is simply where I keep finding myself since everything fell apart last year, the place where I’m waiting for my whole life to start.
My head is filled with a thousand thoughts. I need some fresh air. I need to walk. No, run. I change into my running clothes, throw on my sneakers and pull my hair back into a familiar ponytail. I’ve never been all that creative when it comes to my appearance. My hair is long, chocolate colored, with a natural wave to it that gives it a sexy bed-head look - or at least that’s what my roommate and best friend always tells me. In fact, she’s usually the one telling me how lucky I am to look the way I do, but frankly I’ve always considered myself plain. Cute enough, but ordinary. Not anything special.
I’ve been seeing a guy from my psych class and this morning I saw him leaving the apartment downstairs. Of all the nerve, cheating on me in my own building. The rub is that I don’t even care about him. I agreed to date him only to attempt at feeling normal. Now I’m offended that he’s gone and shit all over our fake relationship, so I’ll have to find a new, warm body to pretend with. I stop for a minute, letting the ‘crazy’ of that thought sink in. Sooner or later I’ll need to have a session about this, but right now, I just need to run.
The minute I hit the streets, I feel better. The faster I run, the faster I shed the frustration from earlier, and the stronger my resolve grows to never entertain another dick again. Being outside in the city makes me feel alive, like I can feel the urban vibrations, energized by its hum. I thrive on it, feed on it, I love this feeling. I manage to work up a good sweat but when I glance at my watch, I see I’m going to be late for dinner with my girls if I don’t hustle back to get showered.
I usually stick to the open areas. I like zig-zagging around people, it adds excitement to the run, but today I cut down a side street that opens to my block.
I feel it before I see it. The stinging sensation takes over my body and my vision blurs. It’s like everything is moving in slow motion and I can feel myself lose control of my body as it falls to the hard, cold ground. I hear muffled voices around me, someone tugging at my arms. It takes what feels like forever to regain any shred of consciousness and when I open my eyes, my head begins throbbing. Have I been hit with a shovel? My eyes are still blurry and sweat runs down my face. As I wipe it away I see blood, a lot of it. Is that my blood?
Shit! I HAVE been hit in the head.
I reach for the running bag I wear around my waist and realize it’s gone, along with my watch, and jewelry. As if to add insult to injury, so are my shoes… Assholes! I manage to rise to my feet, only to swoon and sit back down again. As I sit there holding my head, here come two headlights, shining right on me. The car screeches to a halt, or maybe that’s me, screaming. I can’t be sure. The driver comes out of nowhere asking me questions while trying to push something onto my head. Someone else gets out of the car and yells to the driver, who answers hurriedly while keeping pressure on my head.
I see the passenger’s face when he steps out of the rear car door. There’s something about his face.
“Three days! Three days! Why hasn’t she woken up? You seemed to be paid a lot of money to not know anything at all!” It takes no effort to recognize the hysteria in my mother’s voice. She’s usually hysterical about something or another, but when it comes to me, who can blame her. It’s only been a year since I tried to swallow a bottle of pills. I wanted the memories to go away, the feeling of his breath on my neck and his vile threats to leave my mind. I’ve caused her so much anguish already, so much pain, and I am filled with regret for that. Now here I am, in trouble again. My mother loves me. Because of that I’m determined to get myself right.
“Calm yourself, Grace. It won’t do Mia any good if you are admitted to the hospital too.”
Richard holds my mother tight and tries to comfort her. He’s an ideal third husband - attentive, caring, and very, very wealthy. My mother met Richard while married to her second husband, the cheater, which was a much better option than her first husband, the beater. Richard was the attorney who handled her divorce. Not the most romantic meet-cute, but a perfect match for her; someone who’s aware of all her demons and has his eyes wide open. I guess that’s the best definition of true love, if that actually exists.
I open my eyes to take in the scene unfolding in front of me - my mother’s hands waving frantically about. Richard trying to calm her and what appears to be a doctor looking fairly exasperated. “Mom,” I sa
y, feeling the rasp in my throat from not speaking for who knows how long.
“Mom, I’m awake. Stop yelling at the doctor.”
“Oh my God, she’s awake. You’re awake! My precious girl! Oh, Mia!” She sobs these words while rushing to my bed.
“Ugh, mom… sore!”
“Oh baby, I’m sorry.” She quickly releases her grip and gently takes my hand. Her tears and my confusion are interrupted by the man in the pristine white coat.
“Miss West, you’ve experienced an acute head trauma. There was some swelling, but we were able to stop the bleeding and repair the damage. Internally, everything checks out okay and your scans show all the swelling in your brain has gone down. You are very lucky to be sitting here with just a few stitches.
As he says this, I instinctively run my hand over the bandage positioned directly above my left eyebrow, wincing in pain.
“How do you feel, dearest?” Richard asks.
“Groggy and confused. What happened? The last thing I remember is deciding to take a shortcut back home.”
“The police believe you were mugged. You were hit in the head with a lead pipe, of all things. I swear, Mia, I do not understand why you don’t move into a nicer neighborhood instead of living among animals.”
Here we go… “Mom, can we discuss the ways in which I disappoint you later? Right now I’d like to focus on my head wound and figure out how I got here.” My tone is a bit more clipped than I wanted, but I get tired of the same conversation over and over. I know I’ve put her through hell this last year and she just wants to protect me, but completely taking over every aspect of my life isn’t acceptable. I need to maintain some form of independence from my family’s money. Despite the benefit of affluence behind me, I’ve always been independent, even from a young age.
My father died when I was ten, but even before he passed I never really had a relationship with him.
My parents enjoyed a privileged lifestyle, developed for and indulged by the ultra-wealthy. Despite creature comforts and the means to purchase distractions, they lived separate lives and only came together when the occasion called for them to step out as a couple; at galas and social events. Before he left, I remember him being a bastard. The kind of man who drank in private and liked to take the disappointments of his day out on his wife. Mom kept her polish through all the turmoil. She was always proud that nobody seen her bruises. I never understood that. What good is hiding them if you can still feel them?
“Mia, I’m sorry, love. I just want to keep you safe. You are my baby after all.” Her look reminds me that she means well and I soften to her.
“I know, mom, I know. I’m just freaked out that I don’t remember being brought to the hospital.” I force a smile, even though it hurts like hell to move my face.
“We will keep you overnight for observation, Mia, but if all checks out, I’ll be happy to release you tomorrow.” The doctor’s caring eyes smile with sincerity.
“Any memory loss is a result of the head trauma. Typically some memories are retrieved, but you may never recall the event itself.”
“Thank you, Dr. Singh,” Richard and my mother nod in unison.
“Let’s keep this visit brief and allow Mia to rest. If you need anything, please let the nurses know.” With that, the doctor leaves and Richard follows him into the hall, I assume to discuss any particulars he doesn’t want my mother and I to hear. This momentarily irritates me, making me feel like a child, but I brush it off because frankly, I’m in no shape for a battle about overbearing parenting. I look at my mother who hasn’t stopped holding my hand, and I’m happy she is here.
Suddenly, the thought strikes me, “Mom, how did you know I was in the hospital? If I was mugged and all my belongings were stolen, how did anyone know who I was?”
The immediate anguish on her face makes me bristle.
“It was the ER doctor who recognized you. When they brought you in, the doctor recognized you from… well, uh, from your accident last year.” Before I can utter a reaction, she continues with, “But let’s not think about the past. I’m just so grateful that I have you back, safe and sound.”
It’s all I can do to focus on my breathing and avoid a full-scale panic attack. Every time I think about that night, the demons still follow me. It’s been all I can do; to try and forget. I want to forget it more than anything, but the irony of my past invading my present is threatening to fuck up my future.
With a measured breath, I respond with, “Me too, Mom. I just wish I could remember. How did I get here? Who brought me to the hospital?” No matter how hard I try, I can’t remember.
Then, for the briefest moment, a face flashes in my mind, vanishing as fast as it’d come.
I know that face. It’s his face. But who is he?
I can’t hold onto the memory long enough. I don’t know who he is, but I know he saved my life.
It’s good to be home, even with my crazy, overbearing mother calling to check on me every five minutes and my BFF and roommate, Alex, peeking her head into my room every five seconds. “I’m fine, Alex. You can stop stalking me now.” My lips curl into a small smile.
I can’t ever get mad at Alex. She’s always there for me, loyal to a fault - the kind of friend who would help me move a dead body and never tell a soul. I love her fiercely and she knows it. She’s just as unruly and outrageous as her red curly hair, but that’s part of her charm.
“Sorry for hovering, but I can’t believe I wasn’t here. You could have died!”
“I didn’t.”
“Stop being placating. You could have and I would be friendless and alone.”
“Well as long as we’re making this about you, how was your trip?” I use her dramatics as an opportunity to change the subject.
“Eh, not really worth the money. It was all goofy family reunion stuff. A bunch of my redneck cousins wearing camo, asking me why I want to live around so many Yankees in New York City.” She rolls her eyes and makes her way through the doorway, plopping on the floor of my room.
“What are we watching tonight? Pretty Woman? Jersey Girl? Or another equally anti-feminist Cinderella story?”
I laugh and roll my eyes. You have to love a girl who recognizes the hypocrisy and goes full-steam ahead anyway!
“I was thinking more along the lines of Die Hard, or Lethal Weapon. Ya know, something that requires zero thought process.” Alex smiles and pushes to her feet to switch out the DVD’s.
It’s a gift to have a friendship that is uncomplicated. Alex understands me.
Eighteen months ago, when everything happened, she helped me cling to my sanity. I’ll always love her for that. She never threw my crazy in my face and most important, she never judged me. I couldn’t have invented a better friend if I tried. That’s what history with someone does, it makes them more than a friend. Alex is my sister.
“Hey!” I called from my room. “What’s taking so long? If you don’t hurry I’ll be forced to come out in these disgusting pajamas and risk my health for that movie!”
No answer.
“Seriously, what’s the hold-up, Alex?” I start to slowly move my legs off the side of the bed and stand, letting myself acclimate to the position. Pain is an immediate reminder of how bruised and inflamed my limbs and head are. I want to sit back down, but an uneasy feeling is growing. Why isn’t she answering me?
Of course I’m being paranoid, overreacting due to what I’ve been through. Whatever that is… I still can’t remember. As for Alex, it’s not as if she’s fallen and hit her head on the other side of the door, although the thought forces me to move forward. This mugging has affected me more than I realized.
When I reach the door, I grab the handle just as it begins to turn with force. Startled, I jump back, pain gripping my body.
“What the hell, Mia! Get back in bed.” Alex looks at me as if I’m nuts. “Why are you up? The doctor said to stay off your feet for a few days.”
“I know, but I got freaked out when you d
idn’t answer. I was calling and you didn’t say anything.” I try to hide my shaking hands, but I know Alex can see right through me.
“No worries, babe. If I wander into an alley, feel free to worry then.” She gives a wink and walks past me to start the movie.
Before I know it, the movie ends. Alex is passed out and I’m hungry. An appetite makes me happy, that means my body is healing. I hate being sick - injured - same difference. I sit up slowly, mostly from the pain and also, because I want to avoid waking Alex. I head toward my door, bumping into my desk chair. Dammit! That hurt, but I can’t turn on the light or I’ll wake her. When I reach the door, that same uneasy feeling begins creeping up my spine, making the hairs on my arm stand straight up. I brush it off, knowing that I’m still shaken from being beaten and robbed. I stand looking down at the fuzzy shadow that’s my hand. I’m a bit dizzy and my eyes haven’t adjusted to the dark yet.
As I open the bedroom door, my heart begins to race and my breathing becomes fast and rigid. Everything in my body is at full alert, screaming at me to shut the door and lock it. Damn this, I will not become some crazy old lady confined to one room because I’m too scared to walk to my own kitchen. I open the door with purpose, even though nobody is there to witness my show of courage. The room is empty, dark and silent. I take a steady breath and step through the doorway.
I’m only half-way through the living room when I see it, ever so slight, barely noticeable. The curtains in the dining room move.
I’m frozen to my spot. My mind rushes through a thousand thoughts. How fast can I get back to the bedroom? Can I scream loud enough for the neighbors to hear? Is it just my imagination? I’m brought back to the present by the sound of the window behind the curtains closing.
I scream.
The first thing I see is Alex running at me and I realize I’m running back toward her and the bedroom. We’re both screaming at each other, but somehow she understands that she needs to go the same way, retreating to safety. We both make it back to the bedroom and I scramble for my cell, remembering it’s dead. I’m suddenly thankful that my mom convinced me to keep a landline. Just in case.
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