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by C. E. Murphy


  A bower of trees arched over a single-track path, white flowers all but glowing under a source of light I couldn't pinpoint. The path was smooth, as if it had been often walked on. I tumbled from flight to run along it, great huge strides so I felt I was still flying. There was a presence in front of me, somewhere buried in the depths of the earth. It carried its own weight, its own gravity well, drawing me toward it. I careened around a corner, pretending I was driving Petite, and came up against a cave, its mouth blocked off with boulders.

  The presence beyond the cave mouth had a genial feeling to it, as if it were amused at my audacity and youth.

  I hated feeling like people were laughing at me. I glowered at the boulders and reached for the smallest stone I could find, trying to wriggle it out of its lodged position in the ranks of larger stones.

  A vise clamp fastened itself around my wrist, hauled me back, and did something that put my feet over my head and my head against the ground. I lay on my face with a mouthful of dirt, not entirely sure how I'd gotten there but pretty certain that any moment now I was going to start to hurt.

  "And what is it," a woman's voice above me asked, "that you think you're doing, Siobhán Walkingstick?" The lilt of Ireland was strong in her voice, almost masking the sarcasm with which the question was delivered.

  I was pretty sure she didn't want an answer. I had comparatively little experience with mothers, but the tone suggested to me that she knew perfectly well what I was doing, and that the real question was why was I doing something she obviously regarded as unbelievably stupid.

  The physical pain I was expecting didn't seem to be coming, so I rolled onto my back and stared up at her. She looked remarkably tall from this vantage, and somewhat bustier than I thought of her as being. She also wore an expression of exasperation that was both more vivid than any expression I could remember seeing on her in life, and which, although strictly speaking was entirely new to me, I had felt on my own face any number of times. Distress settled over me. It didn't seem fair that I was turning into my mother when I'd barely even known the woman.

  Eventually one of the numerous things crowding my mind and vying to be said won out: "I asked you not to call me that." It seemed, even at the moment, an awfully calm response to the appearance of a woman I believed to be dead.

  I was treated to a second new expression: dismay, which was wiped out almost instantly by the thoughtful, examining gaze that was all I'd really ever seen of her. "Very well, then. Joanne." Her tone spoke volumes about what she thought of my Anglicized name, but I was almost entirely overwhelmed with not caring. I got to my feet somewhat stiffly, although I suspected any injuries I'd sustained were in my own mind.

  Of course they were. That's what happens when you travel on the astral plane. Moving on, then. I looked back to the wall of rocks, eyeing the one I'd initially grabbed. "Joanne," my mother said in a remarkably good "don't you dare test my patience one more time, young lady" voice. I dropped my hand and turned to face her, making a point of looking around rather dramatically.

  "I'm sorry," I said. "Did you think you had something to say to me that I might listen to? Is there some burning reason that I should pay attention to, I don't know, what are you, a banshee or something? You're dead, Mother. We didn't much like each other when you weren't dead. Why don't we just leave it at that and you can go do whatever it is dead people do? I'm busy."

  "Busy."

  "Yes." I went to work on my rock again, tugging it a few millimeters out of the wall. She clamped her hand around my wrist again. Her fingers were tremendously cold, not just like the dead, but as if she was emitting cold the way a living body emits heat.

  "You don't understand what you're doing, Joanne." I hated the warm lilt of her voice, a low alto that I wanted to instinctively trust. I couldn't possibly have recognized it. She'd abandoned me with my father when I was three months old, but from the moment she'd called me, seven months ago, I'd fought against wanting to curl up in the warmth and safety of that voice and letting myself forget about the world.

  "Like you could possibly know what I'm doing. I don't even know what you're doing here. Go away." I yanked my wrist, trying to escape her grasp. I failed in that, but I did manage to loosen the rock I held. The entire wall shifted ominously, deep scrapes of stone bumping down a few inches against one another. My mother hissed, a sound like an angry cat, then lifted her voice in a high keen that made me jerk away again, this time succeeding and clamping my hands over my ears.

  "You will not pass this barrier, Siobhán Walkingstick." Her voice thundered inside my head, making me equal parts angry and dizzy. I set my teeth together and stomped forward, grabbing my stone again.

  They always say, "I never knew what hit me." Technically, I knew what hit me: it was my mother. Beyond that, I really don't know what happened, except one second I had the stone in my hands and the next I was about forty feet away, lying on my back in the dirt, and she was standing over me like one of God's avenging angels in a blouse and long skirt. My lip was bleeding. I lifted the back of my hand to it, staring up at her. She crouched, putting a hand on my shoulder. It seemed to carry the weight of the world behind it, as profoundly heavy as the draw that had pulled me toward the cave mouth in the first place.

  "You are not yet ready to face what lies beyond that wall, daughter. I haven't much time to act, and less time still to tell you about it. Get yourself home. I've no energy for wasting on sullen little girls who refuse to listen to their mothers."

  Her will hit me like a wall itself, reaching right for the core of energy inside me as if it was her own. She shoved me into the earth with the hand on my shoulder, using my own stored power as her focus point.

  I popped out the other side and into my body so hard I fell over backward. Gary stopped drumming and jumped to his feet while I stared at the ceiling and tried to determine if all my parts were where I thought they should be. They were. After a few seconds I said, "Ow," and thought I'd leave it at that.

  There was no part of me that didn't hurt. It wasn't the god-awful pain of having a sword driven through me, but I ached, like someone had…well, shoved me through solid ground. I said, "Ow," again, for good measure, and pushed myself up slowly. Gary hovered over me, nervous but kind enough not to ask.

  "What the hell happened?"

  All right, kind enough not to ask for a few seconds, at least. I shook my head, exhaustion sweeping over me without warning. The bubble of energy inside me that I spent so much time trying to ignore was depleted again. I felt like I'd been depending on it without knowing about it. "I need food."

  I got up, largely to see if I could, and wobbled to the kitchen door. When I'd reached the frame without mishap, I turned my head to answer Gary's question. "I don't think my mother is as dead as I thought she was."

  * * *

  I refused to say anything else until I'd eaten. Gary finally stopped asking, "Zombie? Vampire? Wraith?" and ate his own dinner, watching me with the eagerness of a kid at Christmastime. I swear, anybody on the planet—except possibly Morrison—would have been better suited to my insane new world than I was. Billy had already lived with something like it his whole life. Gary thought it was cool. I wanted it to all go away so I could sleep in peace at night, and work on Petite by day.

  "There's something out there," I finally said. Gary gave an evocative snort that made me aim a kick at him under the table. To both our surprise, it connected, and he yelped, looking injured.

  "Sorry. I mean, something that wants me to go check it out. My mother was standing sentinel over it tonight. She wasn't there last time."

  "Last time?"

  "I saw it in January. Look, that doesn't matter. She kicked my ass."

  Gary put a bite of spaghetti—the closest thing I had in the freezer to chicken fettuccine—in his mouth to hide a smirk. I drew my foot back for another kick, then remembered I'd managed to hit him once already and felt guilty. He looked smug, making me annoyed for feeling guilty, so I swung at him again.
I missed. "So obviously," I said through gritted teeth, "she thinks whatever's behind door number one is dangerous."

  "Then you should stay away from it," Gary said wisely.

  "I don't even know what it is!"

  "Mothers are always right. Don't you know that?" He wrinkled his eyes into nonexistence as I scowled at him. "Right. I forgot. Sorry." He paused. "Mothers are always right. You don't wanna find out what's behind that door."

  "Gary!"

  He lifted his hands defensively. "I'm just sayin'."

  "Well, dammit, I want to know what's back there." I hesitated. "She said I wasn't ready for it."

  Gary's bushy eyebrows rose. "If you'll excuse me for coppin' a phrase from today, duh. You really think you're ready for the monster in the closet?"

  "No, but I'd like to know what it is! Knowledge is half the battle, or something."

  "Look." Gary pointed his fork at me. "What'd you go in there looking for?"

  I shrugged, uncomfortable. "I don't know. Nothing specific."

  "Okay. There's your problem. You got no focus. You need to go in there and talk to somebody who knows what's going on. Your buddy the coyote."

  "Coyote never gives me a straight answer." I sounded just like the sullen kid my mother had accused me of being.

  "Yeah, that's kinda what the whole trickster thing is all about, Jo."

  I flung my hands in the air. "Why do you know that? Why does everybody on the whole planet know this stuff that I don't? Why didn't somebody else get this stupid talent? You can have it. You'd be a lot better at it than I am!"

  Gary huffed. "Probably."

  My rant cut off as my jaw dropped. Gary's gray eyes sparked good humor with a steely undercut. "You done?"

  "Uh." I cleared my throat. "Um. Yes. Thank you."

  "You got something special, kid. You're gonna have to learn to suck it up and live with it, or walk away. Right now there's some dead ladies out there that maybe you can help, if you stop your whining and bitching and get on with it. Are you gonna do that, or what?"

  "Okay." I sounded very small and pathetic. And embarrassed.

  "Arright." Gary got up, his plastic spaghetti dish in one hand. "Let's go try this again, then." He stalked into the living room, leaving his muttered, "Jeez. Dames," lingering on the air.

  * * *

  It took longer to go under this time, in part because of chagrin and in part because of the microwaved fried chicken that settled in my tummy and made me more aware of my body than was helpful. After several minutes of drumming, though, I suddenly fell backward into my body and found myself scrambling down a thin tunnel, in search of an internal garden that somehow reflected the state of my soul.

  There was a fundamental difference between going there and going…other places…that I went. It struck me that it might really be helpful to get a grasp of the different levels of reality that I seemed to be able to access. Being able to name them, for example, could be useful. It might make me sound—or at least feel—like less of an idiot.

  Whether I had a name for it or not, the journey to my garden felt distinctly internal, whereas moving to the astral plane seemed to involve leaving my body in some kind of upward fashion. I scuttled through little tunnels, feeling myself drawing closer to the center of me, until the light turned gray around me and I popped out of a mouse-sized hole in one of the walls surrounding my garden. I looked back and the hole was gone, sealed up safely by my meager mental defenses.

  The garden itself was—well, it wasn't quite dead, which was something. It was functional, not beautiful, with straight pathways in geometric patterns and grass cropped so short I could see dirt between individual blades. A small pond with its own waterfall bubbled at one end of the garden, more agitated than I remembered it being. I took a couple of deep breaths to see if it would calm the pond, but it didn't seem to help.

  "The problem's deeper than your breathing, Joanne."

  "I don't have any problems!" There I went again with the juvenile-response syndrome. I waited a few seconds, trying not to blush, then looked for the speaker, who lolled on a concrete bench, his tongue hanging out. I tried very, very hard to modulate my voice into politeness as I said, "Hello, Coyote."

  He rolled to a sitting position and shook himself all over, golden eyes bright as he cocked his head at me. "If you don't have any problems, what are you doing shouting for me?"

  "I—" I took a deep breath and stood up straighter. "I need some, um, help. Guidance!" I latched on to the word, feeling rather proud of myself. "Please," I added hastily. "If you could." Nice Mr. Coyote Man, I thought but didn't say. I didn't have to: he snapped his teeth at me like I was an annoying fly.

  "I heard that."

  My shoulders sagged. Coyote could hear anything I thought, while I heard nothing of what he thought. Sometimes I thought that meant I'd made him up. Other times I was equally certain it meant I hadn't.

  "You did not make me up," Coyote said.

  "No," I muttered. "You'd be cuter and less annoying if I had."

  He grinned a coyote grin at me and stretched, long and lazy. When he was done stretching, he wasn't a brown and gold beast any longer. Instead an Indian man sat there, his skin as red as bricks and his hair blue-black and long and falling to his hips. He wore jeans and was barefoot, looking incredibly comfortable in his own skin. Only the eyes were the same, bright gold and full of mirth. "Is this better?"

  It was certainly cuter. He laughed even though I hadn't spoken out loud, and stood up to go drag a hand through the bubbling pool at the end of my garden. "What do you need, Jo?"

  "There've been some murders. And…my mother is alive. Or something. I—can you help me find her?"

  He lifted his head in a swift motion, more like a coyote than a man. "Your mother?"

  "Is up there in the astral realm or whatever it is, bossing me around."

  "Wow."

  I was practically certain spirit guides were not supposed to say wow. "Cause you know so much about spirit guides," he said. "I'll see if I can—"

  "You won't be needing to, lad."

  "Jesus Christ!" I whipped around, unbalancing myself with the motion, to find my mother standing directly in front of the mouse hole that I could've sworn closed up when I arrived. She ignored me momentarily, focused on Coyote.

  "Sheila MacNamarra," she said to him. "A pleasure, and aren't you the handsome one. Joanne's a lucky girl."

  My dead mother was matchmaking me with a dog. Great.

  "I'm not a dog."

  "I'm hardly matchmaking, Joanne. You opened up the conduit. I'm just here to say hello."

  I set my teeth together and waited a few seconds before I trusted my voice. "Hello, Mother." I waited a few more seconds before it burst out of me: "What the hell are you doing alive?"

  A trace of surprise and injury darkened her eyes. "I'm not alive, Joanne. You saw me die."

  "Then what are you doing here? Besides kicking my ass back into my body, which hurt, thankyouverymuch."

  "Not nearly so much as facing down that enemy would have hurt. Joanne—" Sheila made a small and elegant gesture, bringing her hands in toward her heart, as if collecting sorrow there. "There's very little time, and a great deal to tell you. I'd hoped we could talk before, but you weren't ready—"

  "Before what?"

  "Before I died," Sheila said, nonplussed. "That was why I asked you to come, of course. I never dreamed you'd be so closed off. If you'd been ready, I could have explained so much."

  "Ready for what?" I felt very small and young suddenly, a feeling that was reflected in the garden: it grew around me dramatically, until Coyote and my mother both towered over me, and even the sparse blades of grass seemed much larger in comparison to my own height.

  My mother cast a glance at Coyote that clearly said she despaired of me, but she brought her attention back to me in an instant. "To accept your heritage, at least on my side. What you've got to face. You're still not ready to hear it, but the moon is changing and I'm out
of time. Siobhán, listen to me. I'm a gwyld, a—"

  "Shaman," I interrupted dully. I'd heard the word before, only directed at me, not my mother. "Some kind of druidic version of a shaman. You came back from the dead to tell me that? Like it could possibly matter? Like I could care?" I was not, I knew, being fair. Part of me did care. Part of me cared so much it hurt to breathe, and that was the part that lashed out at her. It was perversely like finding out there was a Santa after all.

  Frustration creased her forehead. "I left the mortal world to protect you, Siobhán. I've known since before you were born what you might be, what it was you'd have to face. But you were so unprepared I saw no other choice. You needed protecting."

  "What," I said, "if you strike me down I'll become more powerful than you can ever imagine? Is that your gig?"

  Complete incomprehension flitted across her expression. I set my teeth together, about to lash out again, but a shriek of wind erupted, sounding in my ears but going unfelt against my skin. My gaze went to the sky even as a shadow, dark and red, fell across my vision again. A full moon hung above me, one that hadn't been shining on my garden moments before. One with blood spilling down its face, and with a piece of darkness falling from it like a scythe. A deep sense of malignancy boiled up inside me, as if a thing of hatred was being born. Cold, raging hands seemed to clench around my heart, and I listened frantically for the rhythmic drumbeat that would let me know I was still alive.

  My mother let go an inhuman screech, like a car braking too hard, and flung herself at the sky. Her hair spread out like raven's wings, blocking my view of the bloody moon. The slice of night that had fallen from it was enveloped by the black spiderweb of her hair. I heard another yowl, as gut-wrenching as the earlier ones, and the barbs that had knotted in my heart loosened.

  A small, furry bundle of bone crashed into my chest, knocking my heart into pounding again as sweat stood out on my body in cold terror. Coyote stood over me for a moment or two, his golden gaze fixed on mine before he brought his head down to smash it against mine with tremendous force.

 

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