His name came immediately after Bernard Muir’s on her card, but he looked so weary that she denied any desire to dance and suggested they merely talk instead. He looked so relieved that she said, “You are wounded, sir?”
He grimaced. “A ball in my side—which wasn’t half so bad as the quacks poking around to find it. I’m now as weak as a kitten and as much use as dance partner as I am to my regiment.”
“On the contrary, you are a great deal of use to me,” she confided. “There are so many precise steps and figures to these dances that I can never remember what comes next.”
His eyes lit with appreciative laughter. “Perhaps we could waltz instead? I could just about manage a gentle one of those if you could spare me the time.”
“Actually, I am already promised for the waltz,” she said. If it had been to anyone but Lord Braithwaite, she would have abandoned them for the captain without remorse.
“Of course you are,” Captain Hanson said. “So, you are one of the Conways of Braithwaite? Do you live at the castle?”
“I am only visiting.” She hadn’t expected to feel uncomfortable telling those little lies to anyone. But on the other hand, she could hardly embarrass the Braithwaites by saying, Lord no, I am just a gypsy his lordship is using for a spot of revenge. I’ll be gone in a week. “The relationship is distant,” she added hastily. “But they have been most kind to me.”
“I’m not surprised.”
“Are you here alone, Captain?”
“With my brother and his wife, who believe drinking the Blackhaven waters will speed my convalescence.”
“I hope it does,” she said, searching his weary face. “I shall send you a tonic,” she decided. “Are you staying at the hotel?”
Captain Hanson blinked. “No, we have rooms on Marine Row, but I beg you will go to no trouble—”
“It will be no trouble. I like to be useful.”
They talked of various things, until, as the current dance came to a close, she looked up to discover Lord Braithwaite approaching them.
She smiled spontaneous. “My lord, this is Captain Hansen, who is taking the waters to convalesce. Sir, Lord Braithwaite. My cousin,” she added hastily.
Braithwaite offered his hand in his easy manner. “How do you do?”
Captain Hansen, looking faintly surprised, shook hands. “Are you the same Lord Brathwaite who made the speech in favor of peace?”
“I certainly made such a speech.” The earl searched the other man’s face. “You do not approve of peace?”
“Of course I do,” Hansen said with a hint of impatience, “but not at any price.”
“Why, then, we are in agreement.”
“I hope you’ll give me leave to be honest,” Hansen said stiffly.
“I would generally insist upon it.”
“Then I have to say I find your party’s attitude to the war in general and Wellington in particular, to be deplorable. To carp and criticize from the comfort of your own fireside—”
Braithwaite’s eyebrows rose. “My dear Captain, I have never criticized Wellington, either in the general or the particular. My speech against war concentrated solely on its effects upon the economy and the people of this country. I did not speak for my entire party, any more than other individuals within that party speak for me. Our common aims are broad.”
He spoke firmly, though not as haughtily as perhaps the captain’s attitude would have warranted.
“Follow the drum for a month,” Hanson invited. “And see if your aims remain the same.”
“And get under the feet of the soldiers going about their business?” Braithwaite said wryly. “I don’t think anyone would want that. Sir, no one in their right mind would deny the success or the sacrifices made on the Peninsula, but it is time to start planning ahead, for when the war is finally over. Lord Castlereagh himself has gone to Europe to consult with our allies. How long do you give Boney now to hang on?”
Dawn, who had braced herself to intervene in favor of a truce between them, closed her mouth and sat back with amused admiration. For Brathwaite, somehow, had diffused the situation on his own without giving any ground, and was now seeking the opinion of the professional soldier. By the time Braithwaite rose to escort her to the dance floor, he and the captain were on easy terms if not quite fast friends.
“Is that a politician’s trick?” she asked lightly, as they walked away.
“No, just a human one. He’s not the first soldier I’ve come across who feels abandoned and criticized by those who understand nothing of military life.”
“So, you find common ground until you are well-enough acquainted to discuss your differences?”
“Something like that,” he allowed.
She regarded him thoughtfully. “You are quite wise for your years, are you not?”
He swept her into his arms. “Not in all things.”
Dawn, when partnered by Mrs. Benedict or Maria, had found the waltz a simple but quite boring dance, especially when she could do little but follow her partner. In fact, she had preferred the man’s part where she could at least lead and liven it up a little, until Mrs. Benedict had told her off. None of it had prepared her for dancing with Lord Braithwaite.
Although he held her decorously, touching only her hand and her waist with a light, firm hold, his very nearness melted her. Following his lead was nothing like following Maria to the flat accompaniment of whoever was instructed to play the piano for the lesson. With him, the insistent rhythm and elating music swept her up, taught her the joy of the waltz and she smiled up at him with uninhibited pleasure.
His lips parted and his eyes warmed with that strange cloudiness she remembered only too well from their first encounter. “Don’t look at me like that,” he warned.
“Like what?”
He ignored her. “Do you want me to hold you too close and scandalize all the old tabbies? Spirit you off into one of those little alcoves always known to rakes and flirts?”
If he meant to scare her into more rigid behavior, he was wide of the mark. “If you like,” she replied candidly. “Although I like dancing with you.”
His lips quirked. “I like dancing with you, too.” For a long moment their gazes held, and Dawn glimpsed the passion he held so firmly in control. It thrilled through her with the intimacy of a caress.
His breath caught. “Are you enjoying your first ball?” he asked with a hint of desperation.
“Oh yes. I didn’t really expect to, but everything is so bright and beautiful and everyone I’ve spoken to is so friendly…” She gave a little shrug, as though she could thus throw off the knowledge that the friendliness came from her supposed connection to the castle family. That not one of these people would speak to her if she encountered them with her real family. Although some of the men might pursue her with a little less decorum. “It’s all a lie, though.”
“Not tonight,” he said gently. “Enjoy it.”
And while she was in his arms, she did. Neither the past nor the future mattered, only the present bliss of dancing with the man she fell deeper in love with every passing moment. If it was fantasy, it was too sweet to ignore.
When the dance finally ended, they happened to be at the edge of the dance floor. He released her at once, bowing over her hand. Was it just her imagination that made his eyes shine with tenderness? Before she could decide, a voice behind them said, “Well met, Braithwaite! What a surprise to find you rusticating up here on your ancestral acres.”
Only by an infinitesimal hesitation did Braithwaite betray discomfort. Dawn soon saw the reason. Julius Gardyn stood before them, almost as elegant as Braithwaite in his black coat and satin knee breeches. Gardyn, a good-looking man, had the added distinction of maturity and self-confidence, and Dawn was afraid, suddenly, that the earl would betray his dislike in some display of childish petulance or haughtiness.
But Braithwaite merely laid Dawn’s hand on his sleeve. “Gardyn. I can’t imagine why you are surprised. I’ve be
en here since before Christmas.”
Gardyn smiled. On the surface, it was a friendly smile, yet Dawn found it condescending. She didn’t believe it was a smile at all. “I hope it wasn’t our little spat that sent you scurrying home,” he drawled.
Braithwaite raised one eyebrow. “What spat? I don’t remember speaking to you since November. But where are my manners? Cousin, allow me to present Mr. Gardyn, from the lower house.”
Without releasing the earl’s arm, Dawn inclined her head. Gardyn glanced at her without much interest No doubt he was anxious to get on with his chief purpose of baiting Braithwaite. Preparing to bow to her, his eyes widened suddenly, and he paused, searching her face. And her hair.
She smiled.
“Miss…Conway,” Braithwaite said, with a faint but definite hesitation, “who is staying with us for a little.”
As Gardyn’s eyes found hers once more, she offered her hand, not because she wanted to but because she couldn’t help it. He took it, and finally made his bow.
“Delighted, Miss Conway.”
She barely heard the words, for in her mind, she had shrunk so that he loomed over her, a large man she didn’t like because his smile wasn’t real.
Then the world righted itself and the noise of the ballroom chatter rushed back.
I’ve met him before. I know him.
“Excuse me,” Braithwaite said with a casual nod, and she walked blindly away with him, clinging to his arm as though to the present world.
“What is it?” Braithwaite asked urgently.
The words almost spilled out. I know him. And I know the schoolroom at Haven Hall. Both may once have been part of my life…
Or part of someone else’s. He would never believe her. And so, she remained silent, unsure anymore what she wanted of this charade, of the earl.
“Nothing,” she managed. “I don’t believe I like him.” Pulling herself together, she glanced around to be sure they would not be overheard. “What do you think?
“That he noticed you,” Lord Braithwaite said with grim satisfaction. “And our fellow guests were accorded the vision of you standing side by side with him. It will be all over town tomorrow that you must be related in some way.”
“Well, you once said there is a connection between the Conways and the Gardyns,” she recalled.
“Yes, but not by blood. Some widow of a Conway in the last century took a Gardyn as her second husband. There was no issue from the marriage.”
“How do you know these things?” she asked, bewildered.
“I looked it up. It’s all in the family Bible as well as recorded for posterity in a document larger than the great hall. You should be prepared for questions the next time he speaks to you.”
It was why she was there. She should not have been hurt by his sudden change from attentive dance partner to business-like employer. But it seemed he could wound her all too easily.
Despite his excuse to Gardyn, Braithwaite seemed in no hurry to take her to Serena. Instead, they promenaded around the ballroom, nodding to acquaintances, until they came to a group of middle-aged and elderly matrons—most of whom fluttered like silly girls when the earl stopped to speak to them.
“Ah, my lord,” Miss Muir said happily. “And Miss Conway. How beautiful!”
Braithwaite exchanged a few words with her before turning to a frail, elderly lady in black lace who smiled at him with great sweetness.
“Mrs. Gardyn,” he said. “What a pleasure to see you back in Blackhaven.”
“Why, Lord Braithwaite, how very kind of you to remember me,” the old lady replied in a slightly wavery voice. “I feel I am almost home at last. How is the countess, your mama? Is she at the castle, too?”
“No, she is in Scotland with my sister Frances.”
Across the ballroom, Julius Gardyn was watching them while he conversed with a group of gentlemen. Dawn shivered, chilled as she had been that day in the street when she had seen him enter the hotel. There was something wrong about him.
Again, she dragged her wandering mind back to the present as the earl introduced her to Julius Gardyn’s mother.
“What beautiful hair,” the old lady said, gazing at her. “My husband’s hair was almost the same color. I expect that’s why you look familiar to me.” She peered a little closer.
Dawn tried to smile. Beside her, Lord Braithwaite observed.
“You must come and visit me once I’m settled,” Mrs. Gardyn said.
“You are staying at the hotel?” the earl asked.
“For now, just for now. We’re going to Haven Hall to live, very soon.”
Lord Braithwaite chatted to her for a minute more and then passed on.
Dawn, deep in thought, still held his arm. “Are they allowed to do that? Simply evict the Benedicts and move into the hall?”
Lord Braithwaite shrugged. “With the trust’s permission. I imagine, until Eleanor is legally declared dead, he would have to pay some kind of rent to the trust.”
“Considerably less than Colonel Benedict is paying, I expect.”
“Considerably,” he agreed. He glanced down at her with the quick smile that always made her heart turn over. “I have spoiled your evening, thrusting the Gardyns upon your notice.”
“Thrusting me on theirs,” she corrected. “And I believe that was our purpose.”
His arm tightened for a moment, squeezing her fingers. “I always have more than one purpose. And Serena is summoning you to dance with Mr. Fenner…”
*
Only as they were leaving, did she speak to Julius Gardyn again. She had dashed back into the ballroom to retrieve her silk shawl which she’d carelessly abandoned on her chair. Seizing it, Dawn turned and almost walked into Gardyn.
“Miss Conway,” he said amiably. Though his eyes were not amiable at all. They were cold and wintry like the man himself.
“Sir.”
“You are leaving,” he observed.
“Yes, the others are waiting for me in the foyer.”
“Allow me to escort you to them.”
There seemed no way to be rid of him without rudeness, so she merely inclined her head and tried to look grateful.
“So,” he said idly, “how exactly are you related to the Braithwaites?”
“By convoluted connections,” she replied. “But we prefer to say by friendship.”
“The best of all,” he murmured, when she offered no further details. Since he could hardly press her and remain polite, he conducted her the rest of the way to the door in silence. Opening it, he said, “You know, you remind me of someone.”
“Perhaps we met long ago,” she said, and held his gaze steadily.
“Perhaps. But the memory is more general. Almost as if you remind me of a type of lady, if you understand me. Like a fairytale princess or a blue stocking…or an actress.”
Her stomach jolted, but she kept the smile fixed to her lips and her eyes. “My dear sir, pray do not spread it around that I am a blue stocking or I shall be quite ruined. Thank you for your kind escort. Good night.”
“Good night, Miss Conway.”
They were in the carriage, dragging through the snow before she said abruptly, “He knows. He said I reminded him of an actress.”
“He’s just being rude and fishing for information,” Serena assured her. “Trying to set you off balance so that you admit something. Or clutching at straws. I think you’ve rattled him.”
“Oh, she has,” Lord Braithwaite said with satisfaction. “Either he knows more about Eleanor than he has ever let on or he is just afraid of some other family member getting in the way of his claim.”
Serena frowned. “Gervaise, he would not try to hurt her, would he? You do not truly think he harmed Eleanor in some way all those years ago?”
The earl’s gaze flew to Dawn. She didn’t care for the silence. Then he said, “No. He’s never shown much interest in her inheritance until now. Why would he have harmed her and waited fifteen years to take advantage? All t
he same, Dawn, it would be sensible to stop going out alone for now.”
Dawn gazed out of the window at the snow, which seemed to light up the darkness.
*
Julius Gardyn helped his mother into the chair beside the fireplace in her hotel bedroom. “I’ll send for your maid,” he promised, pouring out a measure of the draught that would help her sleep through the night.
“Thank you.” She took the glass from him, gazing for a moment at the amber liquid, which seemed to remind her of something. She frowned. “Who was the girl? Is she one of yours? Or your father’s?”
Julius shrugged. “Neither to my knowledge. Every girl with red hair does not possess Gardyn blood.”
“But it isn’t red, is it? It’s fair, with only a reddish glow. Most distinctive.”
“Well, more people possess it than Gardyns,” he said dryly. “Although I wouldn’t put it past Braithwaite to flaunt her just to annoy me.”
“You are unreasonable,” his mother said sternly. Then her face smoothed. “Julius,” she said pleadingly. “Why do you antagonize him? You could have been his friend, his mentor, and yet now he can hardly abide your company.”
“The feeling is mutual,” Julius retorted.
“But why? He is a most amiable young man.”
Julius flung away from her in quick irritation. “He’s only amiable because he’s had everything handed to him on a plate since birth. He is a callow, naïve, entitled whippersnapper.”
“And everything you wish you were,” his mother said wryly.
He glared at her.
“I would do anything for you, Julius,” she said and took a sip of her draught. “But I cannot change your family.”
“Nor do I wish you to,” he said at once. “I am proud to be a Gardyn. If I were not, I would not be trying so hard to settle us at Haven Hall.”
“Haven Hall,” she repeated in pleased accents. “And will I have more maids there?”
“As many as you like,” he said promptly. “And footmen. Rooms to be private and others to entertain.”
“I shall like that,” his mother said happily, finishing her draught as the maid came in.
“I know,” he said. “I know.”
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