by Gregg Olsen
“You win. I’m coming,” Hayley acquiesced as they crept up the uncarpeted wooden risers, careful not to make much noise. Old houses like that one did a fine job in the noise department all on their own. Downstairs, they could hear Katelyn’s grandmother complaining about something. A harsh, mean voice always travels like a slingshot.
Katelyn’s door was ajar. Taylor didn’t remark on it, but she noticed a faint black rectangle, an indicator of old adhesive residue on the door. She remembered how they’d made nameplates after touring a signage shop in Daisies. Katelyn’s, she remembered, was the standard issue of any preteen—KATIE’S ROOM: BOY-FREE ZONE!
Things had changed big-time since then.
They went inside, and Taylor closed the door behind them.
“What are we doing in here, anyway?” Hayley asked.
“Not sure,” Taylor said. “Why do you need a reason for everything? Reason is something people say to make sense of things that don’t make sense.”
“Okay,” Hayley said, with a slight smile, “now that doesn’t make any sense.”
Taylor didn’t care. “Bite yourself,” she said.
The posters and color scheme had changed dramatically since they’d last stepped foot in Katelyn’s bedroom. Previously, Katelyn had surrounded herself with bright walls, purple bedding and pictures of horses and orcas plastered everywhere. All of that was gone. The walls had been painted a dark, foreboding gray—a rebellion from Port Gamble’s newly enforced white interior décor edict for its historic homes. Katelyn’s animal posters had been replaced with images of wan, sad girls and ripped guys with Abercrombie abs. They were hot, hard and probably without a single brainwave firing inside their bleached, tousled heads. Hayley and Taylor didn’t have any qualms about the way those guys looked, but like most girls in Kitsap County, they’d never seen one in the flesh.
Okay, maybe one. But Colton James wasn’t blond.
Without saying a word, they walked toward the bathroom.
Taylor knelt down next to the tub. It was a big old clawfoot, the exact same vintage as the tub in their house. It had not been re-enameled like the Ryans’, however. The surface of Katelyn’s was more cream than white, pitted in spots that made it appear dirty. Taylor could imagine Mrs. Berkley telling her daughter to “use some damn elbow grease!” when she told her to clean it.
Or was she imagining it? Sometimes she didn’t know where her thoughts came from. Other times, however, Taylor was absolutely sure they came from a source outside of herself.
Hayley left her sister alone. She was drawn toward a small desk next to Katelyn’s unmade bed. A lamp with a breaching orca as its base, some black markers, and a couple of small, framed photos caught her eye, but she dismissed all of that. Even though those items had a definite personal connection with their dead friend, they didn’t beckon for her to touch them. Her fingertips were hot, moist. There was a feeling in her stomach, knotted like a bag of jump ropes, that made her feel queasy—not throwing-up sick, but the kind of feeling that comes just before the onset of the flu. She was a little light-headed too. Her heartbeat pushed inside her rib cage.
This wasn’t the first time she’d experienced being drawn to an object. Neither twin could explain the sensation or the visions that sometimes came afterward. They had little control over it.
It was Katelyn’s laptop that had lured Hayley to come closer. She drew a deep, calming breath and touched the keyboard. Nothing. She closed her eyes and ran her fingers over the screen like a blind girl might do with a book in Braille. She could feel her heart rate surge a little more. It was a peculiar feeling that had more to do with fear than excitement.
Something. She felt something. She imagined the folds of her brain tightening around something.
Taylor put her hand on her sister’s shoulder, and Hayley spun around.
“Holy crap, Tay! I hate it when you do that.”
“Then keep your eyes open. Time to get out of here.”
Hayley shook her head and felt the keyboard once more. “I’m almost there. I need just a second more.”
“Now!” Taylor said without any ambivalence in her voice.
Hayley pushed back at her sister. She didn’t want to leave. Not just then. “We can’t leave yet. I’m not ready.”
“You don’t get it, Hayley,” Taylor said, her voice rising louder; loud enough to drive the point without alerting the odd cadre of mourners downstairs. “We’re not wanted here.”
Hayley had thought the same thing, especially about Katelyn’s grandmother, but she needed more time.
“This is where Katelyn was murdered,” she said.
Taylor’s eyes widened. “Murdered?”
“That’s the feeling I’m getting. You try it.”
As Taylor nodded and braced herself, the bedroom door swung open. Both girls screamed.
“Who said you two could come up here?”
It was Katelyn’s mom, wobbling in the doorway.
“Sorry,” Taylor said, unconsciously inching back, away from her. “We just wanted to—”
Hayley interrupted her sister. “To be close to Katelyn.”
Sandra Berkley looked over at the laptop, which was still open and emitting the telltale glow that it was in use.
“Were you trying to read her private journal?” Sandra’s eyes were rheumy, and it was obvious that it was more than the effects of a mixed drink that had brought her to tears that day.
Taylor snapped the lid shut. “No. No. Not at all. We didn’t even, um, know she had a journal.”
Hayley nodded briskly. “We had no idea Katelyn wrote anything down,” she said.
Sandra walked over to the window and looked out across the yard to the Larsens’ place. Her eyes lingered for a moment before she turned around to face the girls.
“Oh,” she said, as if searching for the words. “It was stupid, really. The ramblings of a silly girl, I guess. I never read it.”
It was an odd way to refer to a dead daughter. A silly girl.
Hayley couldn’t take it.
“Katelyn wasn’t that silly, Mrs. Berkley,” she said. “On the contrary, she was a sad girl. I think we all know that.”
Wow. Taylor couldn’t believe her sister said that. Quiet and sometimes a little reserved, Hayley usually kept things much closer to the vest.
“We’re leaving now,” Hayley said, and the pair brushed right past the surprised woman. They hurried down the steps, no longer trying to tread lightly. Everyone in the living room looked up, but the girls didn’t say a word to any of them.
“You sure told her off,” Taylor said proudly as they went outside.
Hayley allowed the flicker of a smile. “Yes, well, we just had to get out of there, didn’t we?”
Taylor nodded.
“I really don’t believe that Katelyn’s death was just an accident. There’s more to it,” Hayley said, though she didn’t have to say it out loud.
Taylor didn’t need to reply either, but she did. “I know. Felt it the night she died.”
“Tay,” Hayley said as she glanced at her sister’s bare neck, “I think you might have forgotten your scarf.”
Taylor smiled. “Like hell I did. That’s our excuse to go back. It may be the ugliest rag in Port Gamble, but it’s getting us back into that house.”
As they walked through the alleyway toward home, neither Taylor nor Hayley were aware that a pair of eyes was riveted to their every move. Studying them. Wondering from a dark place just what the twins’ rekindled relationship with the dead girl’s family was all about.
Chapter Eleven
Kingston High was one of those schools built with a tip of the architectural hat to its location. That was usually the intention of school district review boards, but it rarely worked as well as it did in Kingston. Just eight miles from Port Gamble, Kingston was a rolling rural landscape dotted with subdivisions and family farms that dipped at its very eastern edge to Puget Sound. The front entryway of the school was reached by
crossing a footbridge over a shallow ravine of sword ferns, cedars, and winter-bronze cattail stalks.
By the time Hayley and Taylor graduated from the middle school just down the road, Kingston High was only four years old. Classrooms were segregated into pods, each known by the dominating color of its paint scheme. Rough-hewn cedar planks artfully lined portions of the interior corridors, and wide expanses of pebbly finished polished concrete swirled in browns and greens like a Northwest stream. In the mornings, the espresso stand adjacent to the student store, the Treasure Trove, did Starbucks-style business, sending a geyser of steaming milk into the air as it caffeinated one teenager after the next. Even those who didn’t need coffee got in line—like Beth Lee, who never arrived at school without a Rockstar drink in her purse and a triple tall latte from Gamble Bay Coffee. She’d pay a visit to the student-run coffee stand after lunch for her always-needed midday pick-me-up.
Each pod featured its own teacher’s resource room, with their cubicles all crammed with the things they didn’t want to take home. Some teachers put up baby pictures of their children. Students who saw them often remarked how surprising it was that one teacher or another had found someone to have a child with.
“Did you see that photo? The kid looks completely normal. Almost cute,” one girl, a willowy redhead in overalls, said as she made her rounds, dropping off the latest Buccaneer Broadcast, the school newsletter.
“Yeah,” said her friend, a pudgy junior wearing tights, short-shorts, black patent leather ankle boots, and an inch of mascara on each clumped-up eyelid. “I was hoping she couldn’t have kids. You know, for the kid’s sake.”
“Totally,” Redhead said.
Most of the congregating among students was done in the common area between the classrooms in any given pod. Along one wall were lockers of varying sizes—larger for those who were lacrosse team members and had unwieldy pads, sticks, and gear; smaller for those who didn’t have anything they needed to store but wanted a place to linger.
It was far from status quo the first day back from winter break. Katelyn’s death gave the school guidance counselors the opportunity to go into grief-counseling mode. And while they were genuinely sorry to lose a student, it sure changed up the onslaught of “I could be pregnant” or “school is too hard and I want to drop out” sessions that tended to bunch up after the holidays.
The day back from a break marked by a teen’s death meant a seemingly endless train of sobbing girls into the counselors’ offices.
Most started the preamble to their crying jags with the same words: “I’m so upset about this. It isn’t fair. She’s the same age as me.”
Hayley, Taylor and Beth didn’t give voice to the same concerns as others. They were sick about what happened and felt they had a genuine connection with the dead girl. Their friendship with Katelyn might have evaporated since middle school, but they still felt a keen loss.
“I hated a lot about her,” Beth said in the commons. “She had no style. She wasn’t exactly fun anymore. Still, who knows, maybe she’d have turned into someone cool if she hadn’t died.”
“There was something always a little sad about her,” Hayley said. “I feel like we all kind of dropped her when maybe we shouldn’t have.”
Taylor agreed with her sister. “I know I did.”
Beth scowled and rummaged around in her purse for some lip gloss. It had been five minutes since her last application. “You two are such goody-goodies. She didn’t want to be friends with us. She was too wrapped up in being Katelyn of the Starla & Katelyn Show. Didn’t that get canceled after one season?”
“More like fifteen,” said Taylor, not even trying to be ironic.
A junior the trio barely knew came up just then. “Sorry about your friend,” she said.
All glossed, Beth answered, “We’re devastated. We can’t talk about it.”
“Take care,” the girl said. “Sorry.”
Beth looked at Hayley and Taylor. “Did I seem devastated?” she asked. “Just a little?”
“Just a little,” Taylor said as the three went off to class.
Later that morning, the Treasure Trove espresso stand put up a small sign asking for donations for Katelyn’s family. The school principal, a petite woman with dangerous nail-gun heels, kindly told them it wasn’t an altogether good idea.
“But we wanted to help,” said the kid foaming the milk.
“Yeah,” said the girl pulling the espresso shots. “She was a soy drinker, totally organic. You have to respect that.”
“Yes,” the principal argued, “but the manner of her death…” She attempted to choose her words carefully. “Katelyn died of, because of…” she said, looking at the big Italian espresso machine.
“Oh,” said the foamer. “I get what you’re putting down.”
The shot girl apparently didn’t. “Huh?”
“An espresso machine killed Katelyn,” the foamer said. “She was electrocuted in the tub.”
Finally, the look of awareness came to the student’s face. A light switched on. The coffee girl got it.
“Yeah,” she said, quickly pulling down the sign. “We shouldn’t collect money.”
The principal gave the pair a quick nod and walked away over the shiny polished surface to her office at the front of the school. She looked through the windows of the first pod’s reception area. A small group of girls, some who might not even have known Katelyn but who got caught up in the sad drama of a dead girl, had amassed.
Taylor Ryan was one of those girls, waiting to talk with the grief counselor. She understood that Katelyn’s death was a tragedy and there was no bringing her back, but the pain of it was a knife point to her heart.
She wanted to tell someone that she could feel Katelyn’s presence all around her. She felt that whatever had happened to Katelyn in that bathtub had the hand of another person in it somehow.
She just didn’t want her sister or Beth to see her there.
Later that afternoon, Hayley and Taylor slowed as they walked in the vicinity of Katelyn’s locker. A few members of the Buccaneers’ cheer team congregated nearby, chatting about their holiday. Tiffany, a senior, had a tan and was bragging about her “awesome” Hawaiian vacation and the hot swimsuit that she bought in a boutique in Maui. When the twins approached, she smiled.
“She was a friend of yours. Sorry,” she said.
“She was a friend. She wasn’t a really close one, but thanks,” Hayley said.
As the cheer squad moved aside, they revealed the beginnings of a makeshift memorial. A few grocery-store bouquets past their pull dates were slumped on the gray linoleum floor. Someone had taken a photo from Katelyn’s Instagram profile, blown it up and written in very careful print:
RIP, KATIE!
The fact that they’d used an exclamation point was odd, but most of the kids in school couldn’t punctuate anything properly, so it probably wasn’t meant to signify that Katelyn’s resting in peace was something exuberant. Hayley thought it could have been worse.
Yay! Katie’s on permanent break!
Have a fun time in heaven!
You go (dead) girl!
Hayley stopped her train of thought as the buzzing of the other girls abruptly ceased. Starla Larsen, wearing black pants and a black cashmere sweater, joined the group in front of Katelyn’s locker.
“Sorry about Katie,” Taylor said. She resisted the urge to actually give Starla a hug because in that moment it just didn’t seem right.
“Yeah, we both are,” said Hayley, who didn’t hug Starla either.
Starla, for the first time in recent memory, looked terrible. Terrible for her would have been pretty good for a lot of other girls. Starla Terrible was quite noticeable, nevertheless. Her skin was pale—in fact, very pale, especially next to the ultra-tanned senior, Tiff.
“It was a big shock,” she said, making a sniffling sound, although it didn’t appear that she had any need for a tissue. Though she had first-class designer bags under her ey
es, it was pretty clear she hadn’t been crying. “We weren’t as close as we once were, but I loved her very, very much.”
Tan Tiff put her arms around Starla. “Let’s go somewhere we can talk and grieve,” she said to the others hanging around Starla. “I want to show Baby Girl the photos from my trip too.”
“Thanks, Hayley, Taylor,” Starla said, disappearing down the hallway.
Hayley turned to her sister. “Is it just me or what? Starla had dropped Katie. Those two haven’t spoken for months, and she’s saying she loved her?”
“Guilt, maybe?” Taylor suggested.
Hayley thought for a moment. “It could be guilt, or maybe it’s revisionist history.”
“Dunno,” Taylor said. “She looked tired for sure, but sad? Not so much.”
“She didn’t look sad at all,” Hayley agreed. “She doesn’t seem one bit upset, and what’s this ‘Baby Girl’ crap?”
“Cheer talk,” Taylor said, inserting her finger in her mouth, the universal sign for puking. “Worse than the twin talk we made up when we were little.”
Hayley laughed and the girls blended into the mass of Axe-drenched boys and makeup-laden girls moving like a single living organism into the doorways of classrooms.
“Please remind me never to go to another pep rally,” Hayley said.
“Gotcha.” Taylor slipped into her life science class, and her sister went on to English.
Both were wondering the same thing: What was up with Starla?
The winter afternoon sky turned into dusk as Taylor trailed her sister down the stairs from their bedrooms. Hayley had just run home to grab a textbook.
“Off to hang out with Colton again?” Taylor asked. Her tone was unmistakable. The little lilt on the last word turned the question into a snipping judgment.
Hayley turned to and stared. She did not have a smile on her face. In fact, she could not conceal her brewing anger. That first day back at school, Hayley had spent every minute between and after class with her boyfriend. And Taylor took every opportunity to complain about it. The incessant questioning about Colton had become more than an irritant.