No Where to Run (The Story of Alexis Rose)

by Raven K. Asher

  “Hunter, there is nothing to fix, I don’t want this anymore and if you both really wanted me back, then why isn’t Lucca here with you?”

  “Shit Lex, he’s all torn up about you leaving. He thinks it’s his entire fault and that you hate him. He’s too scared to confront you.”

  I bow my head. “I’m sorry Hunter but I’m not staying here.” Tears fill my eyes.

  “She doesn’t want to lose anyone else she loves. That’s why she’s with me she knows she’ll never love me so it won’t matter to her as much when I die.” States, Jax. He stands and walks over to Hunter. He lays his hand on his shoulder. “It’s best if you don’t push her. She will come back to you guys, in time. I’ll keep her safe till then. I can promise you that.” I sob silently as Jax speaks.

  Hunter looks to me with tears in his own eyes. “Please Lex I love you, don’t make me walk away.” He begs, letting his tears fall. It breaks my heart so I hide my face. “Damn it Alexis look me in the eyes and tell me to walk away.” He demands.

  “Hunter, dude your doing more damage than good. Go, now. Let me talk to her for a bit. Then I’ll come up and talk to you in a few. Ok?”

  I feel Hunters gaze on me for a few moments before the door slams shut. Jax sighs. “Shit.” He walks back to the bed and lays back. I look down to him. “Babe, you’re going to have to talk to him about this. I know it’s hard but at least say goodbye to them, just in case you don’t come back or god forbid something happens to them. You’ll regret it if you don’t.”

  “Your right, I do need to say goodbye. I just hate how much my heart is breaking. Maybe I should stay. I don’t know what to do.” I wipe away my tears.

  “No matter what you do it’s not going to be easy, just do what your gut tells you.” He brushes my hair behind my ear and I lean into his hand. Shit, I’m already falling for him too.

  “What would you do if I did stay here? Would you still leave?”

  “I don’t know, this is a pretty cool place but I do like the road, the freedom it brings. I don’t know what I would do honestly.”

  I nod. “I should get dressed.” I don’t move. He looks at me and laughs.

  “You could just stay in bed with me all day.” He leans up on his elbow and looks down at me biting his tongue ring between his lips. “I bet I could take away all your pain for the day.” I smile at him. I would love to spend the day with him in bed.

  “I can’t Jax you know I’ve got to go talk to them.” I lean up and give him a quick kiss. “Will you come with me to talk to them? I don’t want to be alone with them.” He nods and lays back.

  “Yeah, I’ll come with you, but I won’t talk for you, you have to do that on your own. Deal?”

  “Deal.” I get up and let the blanket slip off my body. I let out a squeal when he pinches my butt and quickly get dressed.

  Just as I am sliding my boots on, Ryder storms through the door. “We have got a big problem, Jax. Striker and Ax are out of control. They want to kill everyone here and take over this place. I don’t know how we are going to stop them. I can’t keep this shit up. They kill everyone we come across.”

  “I know, Ryder. I’ll come up with some idea. Go keep an eye on them. Rebel and I will come up with a plan.”

  Ryder looks to me and I nod. “I’ve got an idea. I just need to talk to Lucca and Hunter.” Jax nods and Ryder leaves.

  I look to Jax. “Let’s go. I don’t want to leave this problem alone too long.”

  “We are going to have to kill them, you know that right?” Jax looks at me with a frown.

  “Yes, I know that, I’ll do anything to protect those I care about.” Jax nods. We both head up the ladder and out the barn to the house.

  “Do you have any idea where they are?” Jax asks as we walk through the kitchen.

  “Yeah, I know exactly where they will be.” I jog up the steps and Jax follows. I stop at the door to the master bedroom when I hear voices coming from the other side.

  “Damn it Hunter, we can’t lose her.”

  “I know Lucca but there isn’t much I can do. She has her mind set and you know better than anyone how stubborn she is.”

  “Is she really sleeping with him?”

  “Yeah, I’m afraid so, but he doesn’t seem like that bad of a guy. The little I did talk to him he seemed concerned about her.”

  “Damn it, I don’t know what to do. I love her so damn much. I swear I’ll lose it if she leaves us.”

  “Go in already. I don’t think you should eavesdrop on them anymore, babe.” I jump as Jax places his hand on my shoulder. He knocks on the door and we hear heavy footsteps before it opens. Lucca’s face appears in front of me, and he’s got one hell of a black eye. I freeze up, Jax gives me a nudge and I stumble forward.

  “I need to talk to you and Hunter, Lucca.” He looks to Jax and nods holding the door open for us to enter. Hunter stands and studies my face.

  “What’s wrong, sweetheart?” He whispers to me. Lucca stands beside him.

  “Well first off we have a problem we need your help with.” I glance to Jax and he mouths for me to go on. I sigh and continue. “It’s your brother, Hunter. He wants to kill everyone here and take over the farm. We can’t let him do that.” He nods.

  “I had a feeling he would become a problem. Don’t worry about him I’ll take care of it, sweetheart.”

  “Hunter, we should work together on this.” I state sternly. Again he shakes his head.

  “No, I said I will take care of it and I will.” He states with anger.

  “Fine, I just hope you know what you’re doing.” I back up to leave, but Jax grabs a hold of my waist, to stop me before I can get too far. Damn it I just want to get away.

  “Anything else Lexi, I don’t have all day to waste?” Hunter spats out.

  “Well, I was going to say that I was sorry for running away from you, but it seems that you don’t want to talk to me so I’ll be on my way.” I turn to leave but Jax blocks the door. “Damn it Jax, just let me out. They don’t give a shit if I leave or not.”

  “Turn around Lex, then tell me they don’t care.” He points behind me. I’m afraid to look but I do anyway. Both Hunter and Lucca look completely heartbroken.

  “I’m sorry sweetheart, I don’t want you to leave, and I never did. I promised you that I’d never leave your side, it’s killing me that you’re running away from us.” Hunter moves towards me slowly. “Please, let’s just talk this all through, at least help us understand why you feel you need to leave.”

  “Please pumpkin’, just talk to us. I know it’s been hard losing everyone we have lost recently, but you’re not the only one going through this. Kale isn’t doing so well either. He needs you.” I had completely forgotten about Kale. Poor Kale I can only imagine the hell he is going through and I just left him all alone.

  I turn to Jax. “If we take care of the problem with Striker do you think we could stay a few more days?”

  “Yeah, we can stay for a bit if you want to babe, I don’t think Ryder would care.” I turn back to Hunter and Lucca and I can see the relief in their eyes that I might stay a little while longer.

  “Hunter, I don’t want you to take on your brother alone.”

  “I’ll help him babe, I know Striker and he won’t be easy to take down.” Jax comes to stand beside me.

  Suddenly the door slams open and Striker and Ax walk in with guns drawn at us. Shit. “So your planning on getting rid of me huh, little girlie?”

  “Well, I was planning on it but I guess you busted me.” I turn to face him and I mentally rack my brain trying to come up with a quick idea of how to get rid of him without getting myself or anyone else shot.

  Striker turns his anger to Jax. “You got a piece of ass and now you’re going to turn on me too, such a fucking waste. I should have killed you and your brother when I first found you two. I knew you’d turn on me I just never thought you’d turn on me for a girlie like her.” He spits on the floor and aims his gun at Jax.
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  Lucca and Hunter step up next to me. Ax laughs out. “Damn girl, you weren’t lying when you said you had two boys. You must have one fine ass to have these three fighting for you. I guess I’ll find out after we kill them first.”

  I glare at Striker and Ax. I want them both gone for good. I feel Lucca slip a hunting knife into the back of my jeans. Ah, now I have a plan.

  “Who says you have to wait to find out. I don’t really care about these fools, how’s about you and me go to the next room while Striker takes care of them for us?” I walk up to him and grind myself against him provocatively. I hold back the vomit coming up and smile seductively at him. He looks to Striker.

  “Can I, boss?” He begs.

  “Fine, whatever Ax, just make it quick then you can help me with these idiots.” Ax grabs my arm and I glance back to the three men. Jax steps forward but Striker aims his gun to his head. “I’ll kill you right now if you make one more move, Jax.”

  I walk out the door and into the next room with Ax. He quickly starts to unbuckle his pants. As he turns his back to me I grab out the knife. I walk towards him and when he sets down his gun on the bed and turns back to me I plunge it into his heart. He gasps and looks to me with shock.

  “I didn’t think you had it in you to kill, girl.” He falls to his knees and I twist the knife to the side. He gasps again. I pull the knife out and he falls to the floor dead. I stare down at the bloody knife in my hand. I can’t believe I just killed him, but it felt good. I smile to myself. A few moments go by before I hear Striker pound his fist on the wall from the other side.

  “Damn it Ax, you better hurry your ass up.” He yells.

  I grin and whisper. “You’re next, asshole.” I wipe the blood off the knife on my jeans and walk quietly out of the room. I take a deep breath before storming through the door. Hunter, Lucca and Jax are all on their knees with their hands above their heads. I rush up to Striker and bring up the knife. He turns to me suddenly and I plunge the knife into his chest. I twist it to the side and he curses. I hear a gunshot as I pull out my knife and watch as he falls dead to the floor.

  Pain washes through my body and I drop the knife and fall to my knees clutching my stomach. He shot me? I look down to the blood coating my hands.

  I look up as Jax scrambles over to me. His mouth is moving but I can’t hear anything he’s saying. I look over to Lucca and Hunter their faces are filled with horror. Jax wraps his hands around mine and pushes on my stomach causing me to cry out from the pain.

  “Damn it baby, don’t you dare die on me.” I hear Jax whisper in my ear.

  “I won’t leave you, Jax.” I whisper back and he smiles down at me sadly. I close my eyes for a few moments and swallow back my tears. I open my eyes and see tears silently streaming down his face. I cup my bloody hand to his cheek and smile. “It doesn’t hurt so much anymore, Jax. I’ll be ok.” A sob escapes him. Then everything goes black, I feel as if I’m falling but I never hit bottom, then suddenly I don’t feel anything anymore.

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  “Is she going to make it, Ruby?” I hear voices but they seem like they are coming from a far distance. I try to speak but nothing comes out. My entire body feels numb.

  “I did the best I can. It’s all up to her now.” The voice pauses. “You boys may want to prepare for the worst. If she doesn’t wake up soon, she’s going to need more help than what I can give her.”

  “Thanks, Ruby.” The other voice says quietly. The voices fade and I feel myself falling again.

  Chapter 17

  Day 49

  “Damn it, we have to do something it’s been two weeks and she hasn’t gotten any better.”

  “You both are acting as if she’s already dead.” I hear the voices yelling nearby but I still can’t respond in any way.

  “I haven’t given up hope on her yet but what can we really do?” Another voice says sadly.

  “We have to let her go. I don’t want to but I really feel it’s time to just let her go. She’s better off not living in this world anyway.” The voices fade again. I feel so alone without the voices. I want to scream and beg for them to come back.

  It feels like just moments before a voice whispers into my ear.

  “Babe, I need you to let me know your still in there. I hope you can hear me.” It’s Jax and his voice soothes me. I feel so much better knowing I’m not alone. I try to open my eyes to let him know I’m there, I try everything but nothing seems to work.

  “I love you my Rebel girl. Please, just.......come back to me.” Jax begs. I listen as he begins to cry. I want to hold him to make it all better. I feel his hand slide into mine. Wait I felt that? I try to squeeze his hand but nothing happens.

  “Maybe Hunter and Lucca are right. It’s not fair to leave you like this. Maybe it is time to let you go.” Jax sobs. I hear a door shut and footsteps getting closer.

  “Has she responded at all?” I recognize the voice as Hunters. Jax must answer him without words because he continues talking. “I really wish she would just open her eyes. I miss seeing her smile.”

  “I really miss her, too. I don’t want to let her go. If she would just give me a sign any sign to know she’s still with us......” I try again to squeeze his hand I feel one of my fingers bend ever so slightly and I give myself a mental pat on the back. I try it over and over. Finally I feel his hand tighten on mine.

  “Holy shit, babe, can you hear me?” He almost yells. “She just moved her finger in my hand.” He pauses. “Move your finger again if you can hear me, babe.” I move my finger again and I feel him lift my hand to his lips.

  “Hunter, she can hear us.” Jax yells excitedly. I feel his hand leave mine and a much cooler one takes its place. It must be Hunters.

  “Sweetheart, God I miss you.” I move my finger again and he squeezes my hand. I can feel his joy. “Thank god, sweetheart I really thought we lost you.” His hand slips from mine and I feel Jax’s slip back in its place. “I have to find Lucca. Try to keep her responding to you.” His footsteps fade away quickly.

  “Can you move your finger once for no and twice for yes, babe?” Jax asks so I move my finger once.” He laughs out. “Smartass, I miss you.” I move my finger twice.

  “Have you been able to hear everything we’ve said to you?” I move my finger once for no. I don’t know if they were around for the times I blacked out.

  “Did you hear me when I told you I loved you?” I move my finger twice. He sighs and squeezes my hand before asking his next question. “You’re not going to leave me now are you?” I move my finger once, and I hear his sigh of relief.

  “I really wish you could open your eyes.” He sighs, I answer but moving my finger once letting him knows that I can’t. “Ruby says that you need more help than what she can give you, but I have no idea how to get you help other than taking you to a military base. That in itself is dangerous. I hate to ask you this but would you rather us let you go?” I take a few moments before answering no, I want to fight, and I want to wake up. I’m not ready to die.

  “Do you want me to take you to a place where they can help you?” I answer yes quickly. “I was hoping you’d say that. I think it’s going to be just you and me sneaking out of here to find help. Lucca has given up on you and well......Hunter......he just hasn’t been himself. He blames himself for all of this.” I start to feel myself fading again and I try my damnedest to open my eyes. A sliver of bright light floods in my eyes, I see Jax’s shadow block the light. “That’s my girl let me see those beautiful eyes.” I try harder to focus on him and his image becomes clearer. He smiles down at me and his hand strokes the side of my face. Tears are silently streaming down his face.

  “God, I’ve missed those beautiful eyes. I’m going to get you help babe, no matter what it takes. Are you ok with that?” I answer yes quickly and my eyes blur. I can’t hold on much longer, I feel completely drained. “Do you want me to tell Hunter and Lucca my plans?” I answer no and my eyes close as I fade away.

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  I wake up lying on a beach, with the sun shining down brightly on my warm skin. The ocean wave’s crash in the background, Irun my fingers through the sand slowly. I look around at my surroundings but all I can see for miles is sand and ocean. I stand and walk to the edge of the water. It washes over my feet in soft cool waves. I smile and walk along in the water down the beach.

  “Lexi!” I hear someone shouting my name. I look forward and see no one so I turn around and what I see nearly stops my heart. Walking down the beach is Duncan, my mother and father hand in hand. All of them are wearing white flowing shirts and loose pants. They are all smiling at me. I run to them and jump into Duncan’s open arms. He spins me around then places me back on my feet but I refuse to let him go. I know this can’t be real. It must be a dream.

  “I’ve missed you so much, Duncan.” I look up into his eyes.

  “I know you have Lex, but I’m always with you.” He places his hand over my heart. “I’ll always be in your heart, sister bear.”

  I look over to my parents and smile. They look so much happier to be with each other again. I break away from Duncan and throw my arms around my mom and dad. “I’m so sorry daddy, I miss you so much.” I pull back and look to his smiling face. He pulls me in close.

  “I miss you too, pumpkin’.” He pulls back and looks me over. “You have nothing to be sorry about, pumpkin’. That accident was just my time to go.” Then he adds. “I’m so proud of the woman you have become, pumpkin’.”

  My mother steps up next to him and clears her throat. I turn my face toward her and she smiles sadly. “I’m sorry I was so horrible to you, sweetheart. Nothing I can say will take back the hurtful things I’ve done, but I hope you will learn to forgive me one day. I always loved you, I still do.” I nod.

  “I do forgive you mom, I love you too, I always knew that somewhere deep inside you loved me, too.” I glance around at my family and feel whole again. “Where are we?”