There was a very large lawn sloping down from the main building, with some benches facing it. The lawn ended in trees, and beyond them I could see the mountains on the other side of the river. There were a few people sitting on some of the benches, and others strolling around, or just standing—patients, I guess, or people who worked there, or visitors like me. I picked a bench and was enjoying the view when I became aware of someone standing behind me.
It was a girl about my age, but short and tiny with biggish hands and feet. She was looking over the top of the bench at the mountains in the distance, but it didn't seem that she was seeing them. I was pretty sure she was blind for a minute or two until she shifted her gaze and looked directly at me with strange blue eyes that seemed to shimmer.
"My ancestral home is over there," she said. I couldn't tell for sure if she was talking to me or to herself.
"In those mountains?" I asked.
"Yes. I come from there," she said. "Anyway, my family came from there. And you come from another plane of existence."
"I do!" I said. "You are the first person who knew that."
"I notice lots of things other people don't," she said. "I'm intelligent."
"Is that why you're here? Did they make you come to this hospital because you notice things other people don't?"
"No. I'm actually nuts," she said. "They put me here hoping to cure me of it."
"And are they doing you any good?" I asked.
"Not really. I'm hoping it goes away by itself. My name is Molly."
"I'm Big Audrey," I said.
"By the way, I like the whiskers," Molly said.
"Everybody does," I said.
"I notice you're not a patient," she said. "You don't look miserable enough."
"I'm here to visit someone. Do you know Professor Tag?"
"Oh, he is practically my favorite person here," Molly said. "Do you miss your parents very much?"
"I don't even remember my parents. They went away when I was very small. My uncle raised me."
"Yes, but do you miss them a lot?" Molly asked.
Something I had noticed talking to the loonies who come down to Main Street is that very often when crazy people are not actively being crazy, they are less crazy than regular people who are a little bit crazy at all times. When Molly asked me if I missed my parents a lot, I realized that I did miss them—even though I couldn't remember them. I had been missing them all my life. It surprised me that I had never figured this out before, and it hit me kind of hard.
"Yes, I do," I said to Molly. "Thanks for asking."
All kinds of thoughts were running through my brain. I must have noticed it before, but it struck me just at that moment that Uncle Father Palabra had never told me much about my parents. All he ever told me was that they went away when I was very small. I must have asked him questions about them, but I couldn't remember him giving any answers. After a while, I must have just stopped asking. And also, just at that moment, it struck me that feeling I didn't fit in where I was, and wanting to see other places and other planes of existence, probably had something to do with my mother and father not being there. And all this stuff had been tucked away in my head, and I never thought about it until this loony girl had asked me if I missed them—and why did she assume they were not with me and were to be missed? She must have read my mind, my subconscious mind.
"There's a big house not far from here, a mansion actually, and the people who live there swing from trapezes with chimpanzeeses."
At first I thought Molly had simply changed the subject and was telling me something factual, and then I realized that her craziness must have just cut in.
"Um, that's interesting," I said.
"We ought to go there sometime," she said. "It would be interesting to see."
Professor Tag appeared from around the corner of the building. He was wearing a woman's dress, sort of—it looked like he had made it out of a big window curtain. He had made a wig out of what looked like the business end of a mop, and he was singing an old song called "Someone Left a Biscuit on the Landing."
"Ah, Audrey! You came to visit me! And I see you have met Molly, a wonderful girl."
"Hello, Professor," I said. "Yes, I came to see you."
"Thank you," Professor Tag said. "As God is my witness, I'll never be hungry again."
"I didn't realize you'd been hungry," I said.
"It's a line from a movie," the professor said. "Scarlett O'Hara says it in Gone With the Wind."
"Does he think he's Scarlett O'Hara? Does he think he's a lady?" I asked Molly.
"It's possible," Molly said. "He thinks he's people."
"Come, ladies. Let us sit on this bench and tell sad stories of the death of kings. And no, I do not think I am Scarlett O'Hara. It's a joke, because Scarlett O'Hara made a dress from window curtains, and my dress is made of window curtains."
"And is there any particular reason you are wearing a dress?" I asked. "Not that it isn't a very nice one."
"Thank you," Professor Tag said. "Allow me to introduce myself, or anyway, the person I think I am. I am Sir Edward Hyde, Third Earl of Clarendon, also known as Viscount Cornbury. I am the governor of this colony, and the town of Hyde Park, just to the north of here, is named after me."
Professor Tag said this in such a high-toned way that I felt the only appropriate thing to do was stand up and curtsy to him. Molly did the same.
"And the dress is because ... why?" I asked.
"Oh, as Lord Cornbury it was my custom to dress up in women's clothing and go walking in the evening. Also, I liked to hide in the bushes and jump out at passersby and scare the spit out of them."
"This is good," I said to Molly. "Here's a loony imagining himself to be some other loony."
"You should have been here yesterday," Molly said. "He thought he was Lewis and Clark."
CHAPTER 4
Talking Crazy
"I hope I am not speaking out of turn," I said to Molly. "But you don't seem nearly as wacky as the professor here."
"Oh, he's about at the top of the tree—at least for patients allowed to walk around loose," Molly said. "We're all proud of him."
"Did you have the blueberry pancakes this morning, Molly dear?" Professor Tag asked. "They were extra scrumptious."
We were strolling around the grounds now, the three of us. Other patients and visitors were strolling too. I have to say, it was a pleasant and restful place, even if the buildings looked like the set for a scary movie and there was a fence with iron bars all around the property.
"I see the shuffleboard court is not in use," Professor Tag said. "If you like, I could check out the equipment and we could have a game."
We declined.
"This place is a little like a resort or a hotel," I said.
"That's the theory of it," Professor Tag said. "It's an old-fashioned idea, but as good as any, I suppose. The place itself is supposed to cure us. They provide pleasant and handsome accommodations ... that is, pleasant and handsome according to nineteenth-century ideas—that's when all these big insane asylums were built. They provide decent food, nice grounds to walk in, diversions and simple tasks for those who can do them, and people are supposed to get well."
"Does it work? Do people get well?" I asked.
"Some do, but they might have anyway. Incidentally, I don't know how late you were planning to stay, but there is an excellent film this evening, The Snake Pit. It's a wonderful comedy. I've seen it several times."
"What about you?" I asked Molly. "I mean, in what way are you crazy? I can see how the professor is—he's just a regular insane person."
"And one of the very best," Molly said.
"Thank you," the professor said.
"Credit where credit is due," Molly said.
"But you're not like him. Why are you on the inside?" I asked.
"Oh, it's because I notice things," Molly said.
"But before you said that wasn't why you're in here."
"I also
lie," Molly said. "No, that was a joke. What I mean to say is, in addition to noticing things anyone might notice, I also notice things going on in 18 people's heads."
"Like reading minds?"
"Yes, and I also read trees and rocks and things. I can read places. This place, the hospital, is very sad reading, I can tell you. Not everyone enjoys being crazy like the professor here."
"So, what am I thinking right now?" I asked Molly.
"You're wondering if I wasn't lying when I said that I lie," Molly said. "You're wondering if what I am saying is true and whether you can trust me."
"That's more or less right," I said.
"Is it more or is it less?"
"More."
"And, by the way, you can, if you want to."
"Can what?"
"Trust me."
"So what is the professor thinking?"
"He's thinking about how many cows could be put to graze on the hospital lawn."
"Forty-two!" the professor said. "I would suggest Guernseys. They're very nice cows."
"So they put you in here because you can read minds? Why would they do that if you really can?"
"Well, to begin with, they think I can't. They think I'm imagining it. And then there are the voices."
"Voices?"
"I hear 'em. It's one of the big signs that you're cuckoo."
"Are they real voices or voices because you're cuckoo?"
"They're in my head. They sound real to me, but that is what every voice-hearing loony thinks."
"Whose voices are these, and what are they saying?"
"No idea about who. And they seem to be talking to one another, not to me. It's like ... well, did you ever pick up the phone and hear another conversation faintly going on in the background?"
"I think so. Are you able to make out what they're saying?"
"Not usually. I have an idea they are not of this world."
"Like ghosts?"
"Maybe ghosts, or little men in flying saucers, or maybe they aren't there at all and I'm a nutcase. It's puzzling."
CHAPTER 5
Walkabout
While we talked we had been walking. Away from the big spooky castle of a main building and the big lawn, there were trees, streets, and houses, bungalows, little apartment houses, playgrounds, a little old-fashioned schoolhouse that appeared to be closed, a church. Some of the houses were for the people who worked at the old insane asylum and their families. It really was like a little town.
"When I was quite a small child, my father, Professor Tag, would take me to New York City of a Sunday."
"Your father was a professor too?"
"No, that was his first name. He worked for a commercial dairy in the town of Poughkeepsie. I am named after him, and I am also a professor, so my name and title is Professor Professor Tag. Anyway, in those days, men would sell things in the street. I remember a wonderful toy. It was a limber dancing man, with stretchy arms and legs made of accordion-pleated crepe paper, with a cardboard head, hands, and feet.
"The sidewalk sellers would make them dance amazingly, and they also—though I did not know or understand it—would conceal in their mouths a tiny device known as a ventrilo, with which they would make music and funny noises. Understand, I was very small, and didn't have any knowledge of mechanical things, and I was nearsighted and not yet fitted for glasses, so I never saw the thin black thread by which the dancing men were suspended, and was unable to figure out that a paper toy would not be able to dance by itself.
"I begged my father to buy me one of the amazing things, and as it only cost a few coins, he obliged me. I rode home with him, on the train to Poughkeepsie, in a state of high excitement. I was going to amaze my mother, my little siblings, and all of my friends with the magical toy.
"Naturally, when unwrapped, it was nothing but a cheap paper doll with a string attached. It did not dance, let alone make amusing noises. Had my father not been completely inept and ignorant of mechanics, he might have explained to me that it was the skill of the sidewalk salesman that made the doll perform, and perhaps together we might have made some kind of attempt to work it. But he was as baffled as I was and thought we had been cheated—that a useless copy of the dancing man had been fobbed off on us. He swore vengeance on the dishonest tradesman, and made me swear too that I would track him down to the ends of the earth and get my father's thirty-five cents back. And indeed, until I was twenty-one years of age, that was the central concern of my life."
"And?"
"That's all. I got over it."
"That's a very touching story, Professor."
"Thank you."
CHAPTER 6
Through the Gate
We had walked all the way to the back side of the grounds. There was an open gate, and a road beyond it.
"We've come to a gate," I said.
"So we have," Molly said.
"I mean, are you allowed to leave the premises?"
"I don't see anyone stopping us," the professor said.
"So, we can just ... leave?" I asked.
"Unless you're tired," the professor said. "As for me, I feel like walking more."
"Fine by me," I said.
"Let's go this way," Molly said.
"What you were saying before, about the voices and all that..."
"Yes?" Molly said. "Feel free to ask questions."
"Well, I do have one. You spotted me as a visitor from another existential plane. That is something that just about never happens. How do you know about such things?"
"Well, it's my belief that things are very different from what they seem. For example, space ... space may not be an illusion—or it may—but it is very much easier to get around than is commonly supposed. I think it's possible to get from here to there in a snap."
"I came from my plane of existence to Los Angeles on a bus," I said. "It took under two hours."
"Doesn't surprise me," Molly said. "I have also worked out that people are immortal, or comparatively immortal, so at different times one carries on one's life in various forms and in various places."
"The Hindus believe this," the professor said.
"Then I agree with them," Molly said. "And, I believe there is a finite number of persons—this includes the animating principle of whales, bunny rabbits, microbes, and eggplants. So it's interchangeable parts, and everybody gets to play all the roles, given enough time—which may or may not be an illusion, but anyway works quite differently from the way most people think it does. And given enough time, you will meet everybody—at least everybody you're supposed to meet ... and then ... meet them again."
"Very sound reasoning," the professor said. "You should come and teach in my college."
"Wouldn't I have to graduate first?" Molly asked.
"Yes. They have all these silly rules," the professor said.
I was having a hard time remembering that I was taking a walk with two officially crazy people. From my limited experience passing between planes of existence, the things they were talking about didn't sound particularly insane—on the other hand, the professor was wearing a dress made out of curtains from some room in the mental hospital and had spent a good part of his life seeking vengeance on some guy who had sold his father a toy that he thought didn't work, and earlier Molly had been telling me about a house where people swing from trapezes with chimpanzeeses.
"What are your views on interstellar travel and alien species?" the professor asked Molly.
"Well, given that there are untold billions of stars in the universe, stars like our sun, any of which might have planets, and some incredibly large number of those might have conditions conducive to life, I'm of the opinion it is a dead cert that we are not alone. Of course, it's hard to get all this stuff to behave in my head, because of being deranged, you know."
"You should read my book Are Flying Saucers from New Jersey?" the professor said.
"Are they?" I asked.
"Well, I thought they might be when I wrote it," the pr
ofessor said. "But now I think possibly not. But I am certain one of the main points where lots of them come together is the airspace above Poughkeepsie."
"I know I've seen plenty of them," Molly said.
"Oh, they're up there, all right," the professor said. "And the genius of it is, who would think of looking for them here? People all have the idea that if you want to see UFOs you have to go out in the western desert."
"I've never seen any flying saucers," I said.
"That's because you're always in that bookshop," the professor said. "And a flying saucer bookshop at that. But anyone who has lived here for any length of time has seen them. Here! I'll ask this passerby. You there! Yokel! Have you ever seen a flying saucer?"
A guy in overalls was walking along the road. "Who wants to know?" he asked.
"Just a seeker after truth," the professor said. "Now fess up. Have you noticed any lights in the sky?"
"Quite often, especially on Wednesdays," the guy said. "And I've seen them land behind the old stone barn."
"There you are! The voice of the people! Thank you, my good man."
"Escaping from the nut farm, are you?" the stranger asked.
"Just for the afternoon," the professor said. "The old stone barn, you say?"
"Just down the road," the local said. "Have a nice day!"
CHAPTER 7
The Old Stone Barn
The way we were going was down a road with tidy houses, trees, and yards on both sides. Like a lot of streets in Poughkeepsie, it had once been all farmland, and in some places we could see past the houses to cultivated fields. It was easy to see that the old stone barn was built before the houses—it looked hundreds of years old. And it was stone, and it was a barn, and it had a sign on it that read OLD STONE BARN, and another one that read COCA-COLA, and a blackboard on which was written "Apple Fritters."
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