by Sue Grafton
“I don’t get it,” I said. I focused on Mark, making sure I didn’t telegraph Duffy’s presence with my eyes.
“Get what?” Mark was distracted. He tried to keep his eyes pinned on me while he held the gun and cassette in one hand and unraveled the tape with the other, pulling off the reel. Loops of thin, shiny ribbon were tangled in his fingers, trailing to the floor in places.
“I don’t understand what you’re so worried about. There’s nothing on there that would incriminate you.”
“I can’t be sure what Laddie said before I showed.”
“She was the soul of discretion,” I said dryly.
Mark smiled in spite of himself. “What a champ.”
“Why’d you kill Benny?”
“To get him off my back. What’d you think?”
“Because he knew you killed Duncan?”
“Because he saw me do it.”
“Just like that?”
“Just like that. Call it a flash of inspiration. Six of us were loaded with the body bags. Duncan was pissing and moaning, but I could tell he wasn’t hurt bad. Fuckin’ baby. Before we could lift off, the medic was killed by machine-gun fire. Benny seemed to be out of it. I’d been shot in the leg, and I’d taken a load of shrapnel in my back and side. Up we went. I remember the chopper shuddering, and I didn’t think we’d make it under all the small arms fire. The minute we were airborne, I crawled over to Duncan, stripped him of his ID, ripped the tags off his neck, and tossed ’em aside. All the time the chopper lurched and vibrated like a crazy man was shaking it back and forth. Duncan lay there looking at me, but I don’t think he fully understood what I was doing until I hoisted him out. Benny saw me, the shit. He pretended he’d passed out, but he saw the whole deal. By then, I was light-headed and rolled over on my side, sick with sweat. That’s when Benny took the tags and hid ’em … .”
“I take it he pressed you too hard.”
“Hey, I did what I could for him. In the end, I killed him as much for being dumb as trying to screw me over when he should have left well enough alone.”
“And Mickey?”
“Let’s cut the chitchat and get on with this.” He snapped his fingers, pointing to the bag.
“I don’t have a gun.”
“It’s Duncan’s tags I want.”
“I left the stuff sitting on the orange crate. Duffy must have taken it.”
Mark snapped his fingers, gesturing for me to hand him the bag.
“I lied about the snapshot.”
“GIVE ME THE FUCKIN’ BAG!”
I passed him my shoulder bag and watched while he searched. His holding the gun necessitated working with the bag clamped against his chest. This made it tricky to inspect the interior while he kept an eye on me. Impatiently, he tipped the bag upside down, dumping out the contents. Somewhere nearby, I heard the low rumble of heavy equipment and I found myself praying, Please, please, please.
Mark heard it too. He tossed the bag to one side and motioned with the gun, indicating I should leave before him. I was suddenly afraid. While we talked, while we stood face-to-face, I didn’t believe he’d kill me because I didn’t think he’d have the nerve. My own fate had seemed curiously out of my hands. What mattered at that point was knowing the truth, finding out what had happened to Duncan and Benny and Mick. Now the act of turning my back was almost more than I could bear.
I moved toward the door. I could hear the deep growl of a diesel motor, some piece of machinery picking up speed as it advanced. My skin felt radiant. Anxiety snaked through my gut like summer lightning. I yearned to see what Mark was doing. I wondered if the gun was pointed at my back, wondered if he was, even then, in the process of releasing the safety, tightening his index finger on the trigger, speeding me to my death. Most of all, I wondered if the bullet would hit me before I heard the sound of the shot.
I heard the crack of sudden impact and glanced back, watching with astonishment as the shed wall blew in, boards splintering on contact as the tractor plowed through. Duffy’s cot was crushed under the rolling track, which seemed to have the weight and destructive power of a moving tank. The front-mounted bucket banged into the space heater and sent it flying in my direction. I ducked my head, but the heater caught me in the back with an impetus that knocked me to my knees. As I scrambled to my feet, I looked over my shoulder. The entire rear wall of the shed had been demolished.
Duffy threw the tractor in reverse and backed out of the flattened structure, doing a three-point turn. I ran, emerging from the shed in time to see Mark jump into the BMW and jam the key in the ignition. The engine ground ineffectually, but never coughed to life. Duffy, in the tractor, bore down on the vehicle. From the grin on his face, I had to guess he’d disabled the engine. Mark took aim and fired at Duffy, perched high in the tractor cab. I was caught between the two men, and I paused, mesmerized by the violence unfolding. My heart burned in my chest and the urge to run was almost overpowering. I could see that Mark was corralled in the cul-de-sac formed by the wreckage of the shed, a row of crated trees, and the tractor, which was picking up speed again as Duffy accelerated. I was blocking his only avenue of escape.
Mark started running in my direction, apparently hoping to blow by me in his bid for freedom. He fired at Duffy again and the bullet zinged off the cab with a musical note. Duffy worked the lever that controlled the lift arm as the tractor bore down on him. I started running at Mark. He veered off at the last minute, reversing himself. He jumped up on one of the crates, hoping to crash through the trees to the aisle just behind. I caught him midair and shoved him. He bungled the leap, toppled backward, and fell on me. We went down in a heap. As he scuttled to his feet, I reached out and snagged his ankle, holding on for dear life. He staggered, half-dragging me into Duffy’s path. Duffy stomped on the accelerator. I released Mark and rolled sideways. The tractor lurched forward, diesel engine rumbling, the bucket lever screeching as Duffy maneuvered it. Mark pivoted, trying to launch himself in the opposite direction, but Duffy bore down on him, the bucket extended like a cradle. Mark turned to face the tractor, gauging its momentum in hopes of dodging its mass. He fired another round, but it clanged harmlessly off the bucket. He’d badly misjudged Duffy’s skill. The metal lip banged into Mark’s chest with an impact that nearly lifted him off his feet, driving him back against the side wall of the shed. For a moment, he hung there, pinned between the bucket and the wall. He struggled, his weight pulling him down until the lip of the bucket rested squarely against his throat. Duffy looked over at me, and I could see his expression soften. He propelled the tractor forward, and Mark’s neatly severed head thumped into the bucket like a cantaloupe.
It wasn’t quite Plan B, but it would have to do.
Epilogue
The bust at the Honky-Tonk didn’t come down for another six months. A federal grand jury returned a fifteen-count indictment against Tim Littenberg and a twelve-count indictment against Scott Shackelford for manufacturing counterfeit credit cards, which carries a minimum five-year prison term and a $250,000 fine for each conviction. Both are currently free on bail. Carlin Duffy was arrested and charged with voluntary manslaughter and he’s awaiting trial in the Santa Teresa County jail, with its volleyball, indoor tawlits, and color television sets.
Mickey died on June 1. Later, I sold his handguns, pooling the proceeds with the cash and gold coins I’d lifted from his apartment. Mickey’d never bothered to change his will and since I was named sole beneficiary, his estate (including some pension monies he’d tucked in a separate account, plus $50,000 in life insurance) came to me. Probably out of guilt, Pete Shackelford made good on the ten grand Tim Littenberg owed Mickey, so that in the end, there was quite a substantial sum that I turned over to the Santa Teresa Police Department to use as they saw fit. If he’d survived, I suspect Mickey would have been one of those miserly eccentrics who live like paupers and leave millions to charity.
As it happened, I sat with him, my gaze fixed on the monitor above his bed
. I watched the staggered line of his beating heart, strong and steady, though his color began to fade and his breathing became more labored as the days went by. I touched his face, feeling the cool flesh that would never be warm again. After the rapture of love comes the wreckage, at least in my experience. I thought of all the things he’d taught me, the things we’d been to each other during that brief marriage. My life was the richer for his having been part of it. Whatever his flaws, whatever his failings, his redemption was something he’d earned in the end. I laid my cheek against his hand and breathed with him until the last breath. “You done good, kid,” I whispered, when he was still at last.
Respectfully submitted,
Kinsey Millhone
To the reader,
Just a brief note to clarify the time frame for these “alphabet” novels. For those of you confused about what appear to be errors in my calculation of ages and dates, please be aware that “A” Is for Alibi takes place in May of 1982, “B” Is for Burglar in June of 1982, “C” Is for Corpse in August of 1982, and so forth. Since the books are sequential, Ms. Millhone is caught up in a time warp and is currently living and working in the year 1986, without access to cell phones, the Internet, or other high-tech equipment used by modern-day private investigators. She relies instead on persistence, imagination, and ingenuity: the stock-in-trade of the traditional gumshoe throughout hard-boiled history. As her biographer, I generally avoid mention of topical issues and date-related events. You’ll find few, if any, references to current movies, fads, fashions, or politics. This book is an exception in that events connect back to the Vietnam War, which ended in 1975, eleven years before the incidents described herein. Given narrative requirements, I populate historical actions with fictional characters and project wholly invented persons into academic institutions and political arenas, in which their “real-life” counterparts will doubtless dispute their presence. In my view, the delight of fiction is its enhancement of the facts and its embellishment of reality. Aside from that—as my father used to say—“I know it’s true because I made it up myself.”
Respectfully submitted,
Sue Grafton
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ALSO BY SUE GRAFTON
Kinsey Millhone mysteries
“A” Is for Alibi
“B” Is for Burglar
“C” Is for Corpse
“D” Is for Deadbeat
“E” Is for Evidence
“F” Is for Fugitive
“G” Is for Gumshoe
“H” Is for Homicide
“I” Is for Innocent
“J” Is for Judgment
“K” Is for Killer
“L” Is for Lawless
“M” Is for Malice
“N” Is for Noose
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