by Lauren Wood
“What is the matter Jeanine?”
She pulled away from me and told me that she didn't really know.
“It is just too much for me Craig. You know, you and me, being here, just all the anticipation finally coming down to this one moment, it's just too much. It just hit me all of a sudden and I'm afraid of what happens next.”
“Jeanine, we both know that you're not a virgin. So, what do you have to worry about? “
She didn't answer me. She was so bothered by the question that I didn’t ask anymore. It was like so many times on the phone when she had pushed back. I was just going to have to give Jeanine a little bit of time, and I knew that she was going to come around.
“We don't have to go out right now if you don't want to. Since Lisbeth will have things ready for us when we come in, if it's five minutes or five hours, it will be waiting for us. We can take all the time that you need Jeanine. There is no rush.”
Jeanine smiled and pulled me towards the swing on the porch. It certainly wasn't the first place at home that I wanted to go with Jeanine, but I was in it for the long haul down. Even if it didn't go down like I thought it would in my head, I knew what the end result was going to be, even if it took a little longer to get there. I had patience if nothing else. I had learned a long time ago that if a person was just a little patient, then they would usually get what they wanted. I was just going to have to wait her out. It wouldn’t be the first time and every time I did, it was worth it. I was sure that it would be the same thing this time around too.
Chapter 36
Jeanine
I don't know what came over me, but it was hard for me to even look him in the eye right now. We were sitting on the swing, my legs slightly moving a little bit to rock it back and forth and I kept looking over at Craig. I was still trying to get it through my head that he was actually here and that I had actually went thousands of miles to see him. It didn't seem like something that I would ever do and I was scared about what's going to happen next.
Craig was right to say that I wasn't a virgin. I was almost twenty-eight years old and of course I had been with other men. I hadn't had that many boyfriends, to be fair, but I wasn't completely out of touch with what happened. I know what he wanted, it was the same thing that I wanted, but at the same time I was afraid of what was going to happen once he touched me and we were all alone. When I couldn’t stop what happened next.
Once he put his hands on me and pulled me to him, whispering the things that he said to me on the phone, I was never going to be able to come back from that. I had already fallen so hard for him, and I knew that this night was going to be the nail in the coffin and for some reason that scared the crap out of me.
He put his arm around me and pulled me closer. It was like he knew that I needed some reassurances and I was more than happy to put my head on his shoulder. It was something that I had thought about for a long time, and I was finally able to do it.
“I can see that you're not shaking as much Jeanine. I'm going to take that as a good sign.”
“You know that I want to be here. I wouldn't have come all this way if I didn't want to see you, but you just get me so nervous. Used to get me this way on the phone and being right here next to you has just put my senses into overdrive. I have a feeling that you're not too upset about that. You like to get me this way I suspect.”
Craig snickered a little bit and I knew that I was right on target. It had become rather clear once our relationship had gone to the next level on the phone, when we started talking about things like sex instead of hopes and dreams, that he loved to get me all riled up. When it started getting dirty, I knew that he took a little bit of enjoyment from driving me crazy. I could hear it in his voice and in the tone of the words that he said, but now I could see it on his face. He really enjoyed it, probably too much.
“Well. I did want to get you thinking about how we were going to spend the night together. It is the only thing that makes sense to me and I know that it is what is supposed to happen. But if you want to sit out here for a little bit longer, hell if you want to sit out here all night, I'm still going to be here when you're ready. It’s meant to be with us Jeanine and I can wait. You are certainly worth the wait.”
For some reason that was all I wanted to hear. I was suddenly no longer upset about anything because I didn’t feel pressure. It was all going to work out just fine. I was so worried about everything that I had forgotten that I was sitting next to my friend. He wasn’t just some guy. I felt like I knew a lot about him and I was sure that there was a good reason for the way things were going.
I was being silly. I kept telling myself that, but it didn’t stop the way I shook when I was next to him. It had subsided enough that I was able to hold it in better and he didn’t notice. I was still worried about what was going to happen next, but I was here to take a chance. I hadn’t come all of this way to be afraid. I was going to take a giant leap forward because I was sure that it was going to be worth it in the end. I was just so sure of it. I really was.
Instead of letting all of it get to me and stay in my head, I leaned forward to kiss him. Here I was worried about everything and there was no need for that. All I was supposed to do was figure this out and I knew that I wasn’t going to be able to do it when my mind was turning so quickly. I knew that there was something inside of me that was dying to get his hands on me. It had been a long time since we’d first talked about me coming. Now I was here, he was in front of me and I didn’t want to wait any longer.
Craig didn’t say anything, but he didn’t need to. I could tell for hours that he was desiring me. I knew from the conversations we’d had and the way we had played with each other that we were both turned on, but he had been sporting a woody for quite a while now and there was nothing else I could do but stare at it.
When he moved closer and kissed me again, my eyes were pulled away from looking, but that didn’t stop anything. I could still see the hard knot in my mind, no matter if my eyes were closed or not. I was suddenly far less concerned about anything else but that.
I should have known that I was going to drive myself mad. I had built it up and now I was melting against him and I no longer wanted to be out on the porch, in town. What I wanted to do with him was going to be better if we were inside somewhere. I wanted it to be just me and him. Tonight, felt special, really special. I wouldn’t tell Craig, but I did feel different.
“Let’s go inside Craig. I don’t think we should give your neighbors a show.”
He chuckled before he agreed, “If that is what you think is best.”
“It is. After being in a church thirty minutes ago, it just seems like the thing to do.”
“Whatever we do now will be sanctioned by the Almighty.”
That was a strange thing to say, but that was just how he was. He was always saying little things like that and I couldn’t help but think that it was a communication thing. Many places had different saying and such, but again, I wondered what that meant. I was going to ask him, but Craig was pulling on my arm to get me up and I could tell that he was sick of waiting.
It didn’t take long for us to get inside the house and again, I was looking around me. It was not at all what I had thought and since Craig was such a simple guy, I didn’t expect the opulence that I found in his home. The man was a walking contradiction. I wasn’t sure what to think about it all, but I knew that there was something new to learn every time we talked. Now it was all so much more, and I was finding it hard to cope.
“ Jeanine. I will give you a tour of the place later.”
“You have a very beautiful home Craig.”
“That's good to hear and all, but you have a very nice ass. I want to finally see it. You have been teasing me on the phone for all this time, and I'm ready to see it all. All I have is little tidbits in my mind of what you look like and I want to see the masterpiece underneath those clothes in full.
If nothing else, Craig certainly did have a way with w
ords. He had a way of making me feel so beautiful and like I was the most beautiful woman in the world. It was certainly not a feeling that I wanted to stop, because I never felt that way before. I had always felt average to everyone else. There was always a woman that was blonder, skinnier, and that had bigger boobs than me. I'd always been the second choice when it came to going out to a club because my friend was always prettier.
With Craig though, I felt like he only had eyes for me and when he extended his hand and asked me if I was coming with him, I took it and we climbed the stairs together. This is worth what we have both been waiting for so long, and it was finally time for it to happen. I couldn't believe it, but at the same time I had prepared myself for this moment for so long that it was almost unreal.
Chapter 37
Craig
I could tell that she was still not sure, but I knew that I was going to get my way. I always did. While she was still shaking a little bit when we were outside, the way she had surrendered in the kiss was all that I needed to know. She was my wife, whether she knew or not. Jeanine had been running since we talked on the phone for the first time, but now I had caught her.
We got up to my bedroom and I turned the light on low. It was too dark in here when we came in and I wanted some light to see what I was doing. There was nothing more on my mind than the fact that she was finally here. We were finally hitched, and she was finally mine. There was no denying it now, no changing our minds and for the first time in a long time, I was looking forward to the night. Since we started talking on the phone, there’d been far too many nights that I couldn't get to sleep because I was thinking about Jeanine.
She started to pull her shirt over her head and I stopped her. I wanted this to last for long as I could manage, with anticipation building at a faster clip than ever before. I wasn't so stressed out about it now because I knew that she was here. I knew that she wasn't going anywhere, and I knew that she was mine. That seemed to take care of all of this stress that I had about it.
“Let me Jeanine. I want to unwrap you like a Christmas present, because that's what you feel like. I feel like this is Christmas morning and you’re the gift I have been asking for all year.”
That smile of hers was devastating and every time she gave it to me, I fell a little bit more for her. There was nothing in the world I wanted more, then to feel her body against my own. But I wanted this to be right. And she did remind me a Christmas present, because she was a present that I wanted to open more than any other one that I had ever had in my life. Her clothes were the wrapping and I didn’t want to rip it off without thought. I wanted to do it slowly, make it all perfect.
Jeanine's lips were close when I pulled the shirt over her head and my face was so close to her. I liked that she was all wrapped up and ready to go, it would help later. I don't know how long I was going to be able to get myself together. When I started to look at the body of my wife in full for the first time, it was impossible to not see every beautiful inch of her.
“You are far lovelier than I thought you would be Jeanine. Everything about you is perfect and seeing it all together, makes me realize that you’re a real work of art. How did I get so lucky?”
Her skin was rather light, and it made it extra fun when she started to blush because she turned such a bright color of red. I had never seen a person get that red, especially with the area I was in. Everyone here was rather dark skinned, so you couldn't really tell. With Jeanine, I could tell right away that I was making her blush, and I really liked that. I liked that she couldn’t keep things away from me.
“You don't have to say all those things now Craig, I'm here. You already had me at hello. I am already yours.”
It was an old movie that we had watched together on the phone and it made me smile a little bit more. Because in the midst of it all, me taking her clothes off and getting ready to be together for the first time, she was cracking jokes to try and defuse the situation. It was just how she was, and I found it the most adorable thing. I don't know why, but it was becoming harder and harder to keep this together.
When I got the rest of her clothes off, the rest of the picture came together, and I was amazed. I couldn't find a flaw, not anywhere and whether I wanted to or not, it was a first thing on my mind to look for. I kept telling myself that she had to be too good to be true, so I was looking for webbed feet or third nipple. Like I said, it was most likely wrong, but I couldn't help it. It was hard for me to imagine that I’d lucked out so well, just by making a call to a Pharma company. It didn’t make sense.
“I only say what I believe to be true Jeanine. I don’t know how I got so lucky to have a woman like you, but here you are. I still can’t believe you are here, perfect, naked and standing in front of me. You’re like a dream come true, you know, that right?”
With my words, I could tell that they made her uncomfortable. I didn’t understand why she saw herself so differently than I did, but I knew that it was most likely some guy that had gotten into her head and messed with it. It really was a shame, because Jeanine was beautiful. Everyone that had passed us, had looked her up and down. She hadn’t notice it, but I did. How did a woman that was so gorgeous, not know it? It just didn’t make sense to me. And it was something that I was going to make sure was changed.
“Lay back on the bed Jeanine. I want to get a good look at you.”
She was already nervous and trying to cover her body up a little bit. It wasn’t doing her any good, but I knew that if she would give me a little time, I would take it all out of her head. All she had to do was give me a moment.
Jeanine had a whimpering look on her face and the nerves were back, I could tell. I touched her face and upturned it to kiss me. “It’s going to be fine Jeanine. I want to see all of you and then lick every inch. I can’t do that with you standing here, covering all the good bits up.”
She was finding it hard to meet my gaze. I pulled her hands down and set it against my chest. “Do you feel that?”
“What?”
“My heart. Do you feel how fast it is going?”
She pressed her hand a little harder on my chest and it made the barest grin cross her face.
“Yes. It is going fast.”
“That’s because I want you so badly. Everything that I have seen was perfect. You are perfect and don’t ever think any differently. This is how it is supposed to be. We are supposed to be together, you with me and this is the moment that all of those months come together. I told you what I was going to do to your body Jeanine. Do you not want that anymore?”
“No, I do. I really do. I am already wet thinking about. You know what you do to me.”
“Yes, and you know that I’m going to get my way Jeanine. Lay back and let me get a look at you.”
She whimpered a little under her breath, but I knew that it was because she was well aware of the truth in my statement. I always got what I wanted, because she let me. It was just that simple. I didn’t see that changing anytime soon. I certainly wasn’t going to let that happen. Not now that she was mine. There was no way.
After Jeanine looked at me for another minute, she moved back towards the bed. We both knew she was going to, but I’d known for a while that waiting her out worked well. She was waiting for me to tell her that she didn’t have to, but I wasn’t going to. I knew how to get my way in the end.
When she sat back, I started to take my clothes off and just like that, she wasn’t worried about laying down or her lack of clothes. All she was worried about now was the hard cock that came into view. Of all the things she had showed me through the months, I really hadn’t shown her much. She wanted to hear my voice, that got her off, but she never asked for pictures.
I could tell by the widened eyes that she wasn’t expecting me to have so much to work with and the smile on her face increased, even as there was something akin to fear in her eyes. It was obvious all of a sudden that she wasn’t sure now. Maybe I should have alluded.
“Are you alright?
”
Jeanine pulled her gaze away and shook her head that she was. I knew that she wasn’t. But I was naked now and I was going to have to take her mind off of more than just the nerves she came with. I think I brought more to her and I wasn’t sure what to do now. While I loved the innocence that she portrayed, I wanted her to chill out so that we could enjoy it. She was looking at me now like I was the devil.
“Tell me what is a matter Jeanine. You know that you’re not a very good liar.”
She giggled and then finally met my gaze.
“It’s just, um, bigger than I expected.”
“Would you rather it be small?”
“No, but some of the things you talked about doing with that thing, may not work.”
“Don’t worry Jeanine, I will make sure it fits everywhere that I promised.”
I saw her gulp as I climbed onto the bed. I really needed to tone it down. She was getting freaked out and I wasn’t helping my cause.
“You trust me, don’t you?”
“Of course.”
“Then it will be fine, right?”
Jeanine agreed, but her eyes told a different story. It looked like she didn’t think anything was going to be fine. It appeared my saucy girl was getting anxious now that it was time to do what we talked about.
Chapter 38
Jeanine
For something that I had waited on for so long, I was starting to think that things weren’t going to go as planned. It was becoming clear to me that I had possibly bit off more than I could chew, and I wasn’t sure how it was all going to turn out. I was feeling rather bothered all of a sudden.
It didn’t take long for that anxiety to leave me though. A few kisses on my lips and then my neck, I wasn’t thinking about the what-ifs anymore. All I could get through in my mind was how good it was going to feel when he was inside of me and how good he felt at the moment.