by A. Aubry
What? How was that even possible? I got to the end of the bed as fast as I could, lifting Julianna’s chin to look at me again. She looked so doubtful of herself, so broken.
“What do you mean you’ve never been on top?”
A tear fell down her cheek, “Michael…he didn’t like me to be on top. He said he could see all my fat and it just turned him off.”
That son of a bitch. Just when I thought I had heard every fucking thing that that asshole said to this gorgeous girl in front of me, something worse came to light. I reached up and wiped away the trail that the tear had left on her cheek.
“Baby, he didn’t know what he was talking about. You are gorgeous, the most beautiful woman I have ever met. I love your body, every curve, every dip…I love you.”
Julianna wrapped her arms around my neck and pulled me close as she softly kissed my lips over and over. It almost felt as though she was thanking me for what I said, for being in love with her. I should’ve really been the one thanking her for loving me, for showing me that there was such a thing as honest to goodness love.
“I don’t know what to do if I’m on top…” She confessed quietly after our lips parted, her fingers running through my hair.
“I’ll guide you through it, if that would make you feel more comfortable,” I reached around and rubbed her back, hoping to bring her some sort of solace from her memories about Michael.
It wasn’t even just about bringing her solace, it was about creating these new and happy memories that Michael had shit all over with her. He told her that she was fat and ugly when she was on top. Well, I was going to prove him wrong. She nodded at my offer and I quickly got back in my previous position before extending my hands out to Julianna. I watched as she got up on the bed on her knees, grabbed hold of my hands, and followed my lead as I slowly led her up my body until she straddled me. This was familiar territory for her, at least when she was clothed it was.
We were chest to chest and I could tell that she was nervous. It radiated off of her almost as much as the first time we ever had sex. I grabbed onto my cock with one hand and stroked it a few times to make sure it was nice and hard for her, before slowly pushing the tip in. She was already very wet, even after having such a raw, emotional moment.
“Now all you have to do, is lower yourself onto me,” I whispered close to her ear.
She put an arm around my neck and slowly lowered herself down onto my cock. The pace was excruciating, any slower and I would have come right there. Julianna still had a pretty tight pussy, so any amount of stroking would get me off easily. Her ass finally rested against my upper thighs and I could feel how deep my cock was buried in her.
“Am I done going down?” She looked at me, completely serious.
I couldn’t help but chuckle, “Yes baby, I’m all the way in.”
“Are you lying because I feel like I’ve been lowering myself onto you for hours.”
I pressed a soft kiss to her lips. Man, I loved this girl, “I am one hundred percent sure that you have my entire cock in you.”
She pursed her lips as she took in what I said. Her eyes were wide as she felt me pushed as far as I could go into her. I leaned my forehead against hers as I watched her closely. My hands traced up and down her sides. Julianna lifted herself up a little before relaxing back down onto my lap and I gasped, forcing my orgasm away.
“That’s it baby,” I strained to say, “Now, I’m going to help you move. Whenever you feel comfortable, you can take over.”
I knew she was thinking some sassy remark, she was my sassy girlfriend after all.
My hands caressed her hips and I could tell she was holding her breath. I silently told her to breathe and she listened as she took a deep breath in her nose and slowly let it out. Perfect. I moved my hands to her ass, because why wouldn’t you find an excuse to grab your girlfriend’s ass? I helped her move up to where she was kneeling slightly again and let her fall back down onto my awaiting cock. The more I helped her move, the more comfortable I could tell she was feeling. A quiet moan escaped her lips as she held her chest close against me, her arm still around my neck. She was liking this.
“I think I’m ready.” Her soft voice said to me as her hands ended up on my chest, putting a slight pressure against me.
I laid back against the pillows and put my hands on her hips in case she needed more guidance later on, “Take it away, baby.”
I heard her take another breath and soon she was leaning forward over me, her hands resting on opposite sides of my head. Holy fuck, did that shift feel amazing. Her eyes were wide when I opened mine back up and she looked worried. Oh, shit…she thought that was a painful groan that I let out. It was anything but. I lightly squeezed her hips in my hands to tell her that it was a good sound.
She made the most adorable faces as she focused hard on what she was doing, her muscles soon relaxing as she picked up her pace. I watched as her breasts bounced as she rode me, all I wanted to do was kiss and grope them, but that would be in due time. This was a first for her again, she needed to know that she had full control over me, my body, and our releases. So, I settled on kissing her lips as I leaned up and poured as much passion into our kiss as I could. Every moan that came out of my mouth was stopped at her lips, and the same went for hers with mine. Neither one of us could bring it upon ourselves to end the kiss.
My orgasm was right there on the edge, waiting for Julianna to reach hers first. The second that her pussy grabbed onto my cock as her orgasm finally plowed through her, she stopped moving. Oh, baby, that won’t do. I lifted her up and thrusted hard and deep into her a few times before I emptied every ounce of cum that I had. Julianna fell forward, her head landing on my chest as we both panted hard, yet another blissful moment for each of us. My arms came around and held her tight against me, my lips pressing into the top of her head after I finally came down from that high.
“I’m not crushing you, am I?” Julianna questioned softly.
She really had to stop thinking that she weighed as much as an elephant.
“No, Julianna. You aren’t crushing me. I’m going to kill that Michael guy for ever making you feel this way about yourself.”
She lifted her head from my chest and gazed into my eyes, “He never said anything I didn’t already know, Finn. I grew up being bullied about my weight and how I looked.”
All of a sudden all I could picture was Julianna being bullied in school. Her self-esteem already crumbling until one day she meets Michael, who only proceeds to make her feel worse about herself until her self-image was broken and shattered on the floor.
I brought her face into my hands, she needed to focus on what I was going to say, “You are beautiful. Don’t let anybody tell you otherwise.”
She made my hands release her face as she sat up and pursed her lips hard, “You won’t think that when I tell you something about us having sex right now…”
What was wrong with the sex? I thought it was pretty damn perfect.
“Why?” I narrowed my eyes slightly.
She bit her bottom lip and moved her eyes down my body, “We forgot to use a condom.”
No. Fucking. Way.
“Fuck!” I yelled and sat up, grabbing a little too hard onto Julianna’s hips.
This couldn’t be fucking happening. I always used a condom and I mean always. I had one in my fucking jeans pocket because I was hoping Julianna would be feeling better and I would get lucky. How the hell would I explain this to my mother if she got pregnant? She would fucking disown me. The one god damn promise I made to myself was marriage first then babies, I didn’t want my children to grow up how me, Cooper, and Ashton did. Abandoned by one parent at a young age, no child should have to go through that.
“Finn, calm down,” I could barely hear Julianna’s voice in my rage at myself, “I’m on the pill, that’s one of the medications I take every night. We still used protection…just protection you didn’t ask about.”
Her fingers brushed throu
gh my hair and my heart started to race just a little less. Breathe, Finn, she is on the pill…she can’t get pregnant. You weren’t going to be breaking your promise anytime soon. I finally looked into her eyes as my breathing and heart rate returned to normal.
“Do you not want kids or something? Is that why you just freaked out?”
She sounded hurt at the thought of the possibility of me not wanting kids. I wanted kids, loads of them, I just wanted them when the time was right, and I was married. My partner had to be in it one hundred and ten percent. Bile rose slightly in my throat as I recalled the moment when I woke up and found out that Natalie tried to trap me in our relationship by getting me so drunk at the bar with our friends that when I gave her the condom to put on me before sex, she didn’t do that. She had been cheating on me and I hadn’t even known. But she knew if she got herself pregnant by me, I wouldn’t abandon my child the way my father abandoned me.
I shook my head, ridding myself of those horrible memories, “I do want children. But I want to be married when I have them. I need to know that my partner will be in it for the long haul. After my dad abandoned my mother with me and my brothers, I vowed that when I have kids, they would be with someone who won’t ever leave me. Who won’t put our children through that pain.”
“Oh baby, that is the most beautiful thing I have ever heard,” Julianna replied, bringing me into her arms and holding me close.
I wrapped my arms around her, hugging her tight against me as I buried my face in her neck. She had one of the most comforting and calming smells and I didn’t know how she did it. For a moment, I found myself thinking that if Julianna got pregnant and it was an accident, she wouldn’t abandon a child. She had been through the same pain that I went through. Her biological father abandoned her pregnant mother, telling her to get an abortion, only to pop back up when she was five years old. Then he abandoned her all over again later on.
“Finn…is there something else you aren’t telling me?” She questioned.
I pulled back and bit my lip. This was some dark shit we were going to get into. I never told anybody this story, not even Cooper and Ashton, and they were my brothers.
“Honey, you can tell me anything. You know that, right?” She ran the back of her fingers along my cheek, yet another comforting tactic that always worked on me.
I tried to calm myself with a breath, telling myself that I could just say it was nothing. But then I found myself nodding and beginning to speak.
“Around the time that Natalie started cheating on me, we got drunk when we were out with friends. When we got home, we started going at it which we shouldn’t have been doing when we were that drunk, or at least, when I was that drunk. Natalie had sobered up mostly by the time we got home. I swore I grabbed a condom out of the drawer, the same way I always did the two years we were together and handed it off to her. When I woke up the next morning with a pounding headache, the condom was laying on the bed, still in its wrapper…unopened.”
That day still fucking haunted me, and it was several months ago.
“I knew we had sex, even though I was drunk, I wasn’t that drunk to not know what it was like to fuck somebody. When Natalie woke up, I held the condom up and asked her why the fuck it wasn’t opened. She claimed she was drunk and thought she had put it on me. Natalie had a certain tick when she lied, her eyes would shift from side to side as if she was looking for something to focus on, someone to tell her what to say. She did that exact thing when she answered my question. Because she was cheating on me, she tried to trap me into staying with her, Julianna. Natalie knew that the second I found out about her and her guy on the side, it would be over.”
I remember being so pissed off at Natalie that day that I told her to get the fuck out of my apartment. I didn’t talk to her for days because she knew my mother’s rule, she knew how much I didn’t want to have a baby before marriage. It wasn’t about my career, it was about how I felt and how my mother would look at me if I ever accidently knocked up a chick.
“Did she get pregnant?” Julianna whispered.
I quietly chuckled to myself, thank god I could laugh a little about it now, “No, a few weeks later I made sure I took her to the doctor for a full-on blood test to see if she was because she was claiming she wasn’t feeling well. The test came back negative. Two weeks after that, I caught her and her friend Matt fucking in her bed when I surprised her by leaving practice early. A week later, I met you.”
Julianna kissed me softly, “I would never try to trap you like that. I want you to be with me because you want to be with me, not because you have to be.”
I looked into her eyes, wanting her to know that I believed her, “I know you wouldn’t do that to me. I guess I just got so caught up in the moment after you gave me that blowjob, then the revelations about how you had never been on top of a guy before…I was distracted just as much as you were. But I do want to be with you, more than anything in the world…because I love you.”
“I love you, too.” She gave me my favorite shy smile, “Will you stay with me tonight?”
Rolling over so that I laid down on top of her, I kissed her lips hard, “I thought you’d never ask.”
She giggled as I kissed her neck and thrust into her once, “Finn, baby, what about the condom?”
“We’ve already figured out that it’s a moot point since we just had sex without a condom. Besides, I love the way you feel around my cock without one,” I bit down on her shoulder, giving another thrust, making it a little harder.
“Fuck me,” Julianna groaned.
“Is that a request or a demand?” I teased.
“Demand. Do it. Now.”
Holy fuck, whatever you say.
Chapter Six
The last week and a half had been the best week and a half of my entire fucking life. Not only was practice going well and our preseason was ready to kick off tomorrow in South Carolina, but Julianna and I were doing about a million times better than I ever thought I could be with someone. After our revelations on that Sunday a week and a half ago, Julianna had started to really believe that she was as gorgeous as she was. She also had determined that she loved to be on top, even demanding me to suck and kiss her breasts while she did it after I did that for the first time three days later. I had learned very quickly that while Julianna was very sassy, she could be demanding, and it was very hot.
There was a major downfall to the fact that preseason was starting, and that downfall was that I would be spending nearly a week in South Carolina. That meant a week away from my beautiful girlfriend whom I had grown accustomed to waking up to every day. Memories of this morning and our escapade of sex were going to be the only thing to get me through this next week, especially because we were leaving for the airport straight after practice.
“Finn, I have to check in on work,” Julianna giggled as she reached off her bed for the awaiting laptop on the floor.
“I thought you took the morning off for me,” I kissed the back of her shoulder.
She looked over her shoulder and smiled, “No, I’m telecommuting this morning until I go into the office. That means I have to check in.”
I pouted playfully and was rewarded with a quick kiss.
Julianna opened her laptop and waited for it to load her emails. Feeling mischievous, I innocently put my hand on her hip. When she didn’t try to push my hand off, I slowly slid it down to her stomach, making a quick right until my fingers grazed over her clit. She gasped, a groan following right after.
I pressed my lips against her ear, “You know what they say about all work and no play…”
My finger made small quick circles around her clit before moving a few inches down and sinking into her. Fuck, she was so wet already and we had just had sex.
“We’ve been playing all morning,” she moaned and pushed her ass back against me.
“And we are going to be missing out on a week of play while I’m gone, so time to get to it right now,” I grinned, sinking ano
ther finger into her.
She looked over her shoulder at me again as another moan escaped, a little louder now, “We can play…if I get to be on top this time.”
I winked, “Nobody is stopping you, baby.”
Her laptop slammed shut so quickly I almost thought she had broken it, “Fuck work, let’s play.”
Damn, I almost just came.
“Earth to Finn,” Bo waved his hand in front of my face.
I shook my head, praying to god I didn’t have a hard on midfield. Taking a quick glance downward, it looked like I was in the clear for now, “Yeah, sorry.”
“She must be a pretty good lay if you keep zoning out like that,” Bo laughed as we got down onto the field and stretched.
“What are you talking about?” I laughed.
Shit, I shouldn’t have done that.
“It’s all over his face!” Drake yelled as he pointed at me.
I held up my hands in surrender, “Okay, so what if I got laid this morning?”
“That’s some good sex you’ve got to be having,” Jordan teased as he pushed me mid-stretch.
The whole team started to heckle me until Coach Thompson told them to knock it off. Bo promised he’d follow bro code and not say anything about how he knew about mine and Julianna’s sex life. Thank god for the bro code. We got our asses in gear and after a few warmups, we started running plays. It felt nice to be outside to play, the weather was going to hit almost fifty degrees and since we played our games outside, it was nice to get the practice of actually playing outside.
I was running our most recent play that coach had told us to try out. Dribbling the ball, I dodged a few of our defensive players before passing the ball off to Simon who sunk it into the net. We high-fived and I put my hands on my hips.
“Yo, McAllister. You got a visitor,” Bo’s voice rang out from the sidelines.
Visitor? How could I have a visitor?
I turned around and caught a glimpse of Julianna standing next to Bo. Her black skirt blew gently in the wind and her gray dress shirt hugged her body deliciously. I grinned and ran towards where they stood before wrapping my arms around Julianna and spinning her around. This was the best surprise that I could’ve ever asked for. None of my other girlfriends even knew where the hell I practiced, I brought it up one time to Julianna and she shows up to surprise me. I set her down and kissed her soundly on the lips.