And to know if he was really such a monster that his wife chose the life of a housekeeper rather than remain as his Countess.
‘Well...if you put it like that, I can tell you he was quick-tempered and free with his fists, too. Your mother had already left him by the time my parents wed, but my mother did know yours and she told me she didn’t blame Esther for running away, even though it created a huge scandal and most of society were unforgiving. Including my own father, I’m sorry to say.’ He shook his head. ‘Family loyalty, I suppose. I’ve even heard people say that a wife belongs to her husband and, if he has to beat her, then it’s her own fault and she should mend her ways.’
Anger stirred at the thought of anyone beating his mother and Adam clenched his fists on his knees. No wonder she had always been quick to stop any signs of temper in her son. He stared down at his clenched fists and forced them to relax. He might be quick to anger, but he had never come close to hitting anyone.
‘Did you know him? What did you make of him?’
‘We saw very little of him when I was young as my mother disliked him but, after her death, Father sold his commission and moved back to Kelridge. I was in the cavalry myself by then, but I would visit him there whenever I had leave and I got to know Uncle Gerald better.’ Tolly leaned forward, propping his forearms along his thighs. ‘I saw more than I wished to: maidservants with black eyes and bruised faces. Staff didn’t stay for long and the Place had fallen into disrepair, but my father gradually began to put things to rights.’ He looked round at Adam. ‘One of the estate men once told me your father used to make you drink brandy, as a punishment.’
‘Brandy? But... I was only two years old when we left.’
‘Quite.’ Tolly sighed again and sat up. ‘He wasn’t punishing you...it was to punish your mother, if she dared to stand up to him. I tell you, Coz...you were better off brought up as a housekeeper’s son than if your mother had stayed with that devil.’
Adam leaned his head back against the squabs and closed his eyes, regret coursing through him at his anger with Ma and that they did not part on better terms.
‘Did your mother not tell you anything about your father?’
‘Not a thing. She said she did not want to burden me with her view of my father. That I should discover the truth from people who knew him better than she did. She thought he might have changed in the years since she left.’
Tolly huffed a laugh. ‘No. he didn’t change. Your mother, though...she could have chosen to fill your head with poison about your father, but she has allowed you to make up your own mind. She sounds a fair-minded woman.’
‘She is. And she has been a good mother to me.’
And I miss her.
Adam felt even more guilty at his misjudgement. He had been too hasty to apportion blame...jumping to conclusions even though Ma had never given him cause to think her a vindictive woman who would keep father and son apart without good reason. That was a lesson he would do well to remember.
* * *
A few hours after leaving London, Adam recognised the turning that led to Fenton Hall, Kitty’s home, although the house could not be seen from the road, shielded as it was by a belt of trees.
Half an hour later, the carriage turned on to a quiet, leafy lane and slowed.
‘We are getting close now.’ Tolly pointed between the trees at a distant Palladian mansion standing proud on the crest of a rise.
As the carriage bowled along the driveway, Adam took in the healthy cattle and sheep grazing the lush pastures. He had a lot to learn about this way of life and he hoped it would prove easier to establish a rapport with the estate workers than with the household staff, most of whom had travelled back to Kelridge that morning to prepare for his arrival. When the house came into view, Adam’s first thought was how stark it looked...no wings to soften or extend the outline, just a solid block of a house with a central temple-like portico rising the height of the building. The severe lines were softened only by twin flights of steps rising to the entrance. It didn’t look much like a home, but the windows sparkled and the forecourt was neatly raked.
‘My uncle had done a good job in maintaining the house and park,’ Adam remarked to Tolly. ‘Everything looks in good repair.’
‘It is. Your father enjoyed the high life and failed to invest much in the estate before he fell ill but, when my father took over, he made sure any neglect was made good. The rents provide a healthy living. You are a fortunate man, Coz.’
There was no edge to his voice, but Adam still found it hard to credit that Tolly did not feel even a little cheated by his reappearance.
‘Are you certain you do not resent my turning up again, Tolly, when all this might have been yours one day?’
‘Not I. My mother left me funds so I am quite comfortable, and all without the responsibility of running an estate this size. You are welcome to it, Coz.’
Tolly’s comment was too breezily dismissive for Adam to believe him wholeheartedly but he kept his doubts to himself. If there were any bad feelings there, they would show themselves in time.
The carriage halted, and both men jumped down before the groom could let down the steps. Adam turned in a slow circle, taking everything in. He’d never felt more lonely and out of his depth in his life, and he was grateful Tolly had decided to accompany him.
‘Come on. Let’s find the old man and I’ll introduce you.’ Tolly bounded up the left-hand flight of steps to the door, which remained closed. He paused before opening it. ‘Don’t expect the fatted calf, Adam. M’father...as I said earlier...he’s become accustomed to having the income from the estate at his disposal and he wouldn’t be human if he didn’t feel some bitterness towards you. He won’t like having to return to his former, restricted way of life.’
His comment echoed the doubts Adam had just been having, but about Tolly. He didn’t reply as Green opened the front door and bowed.
‘Welcome to Kelridge Place, my lord.’
Inside, a soberly dressed man of around fifty was descending the stairs.
‘Mr Bartholomew, sir. It’s a pleasure to see you.’ The man bowed.
‘Thank you, Corbett. This is Lord Kelridge. Adam, Corbett is my father’s valet. Is Father about?’
Corbett bowed to Adam. ‘Welcome, milord.’ He didn’t quite meet Adam’s eye before he turned to Tolly. ‘Mr Trewin has just this minute gone up to change for dinner. Shall I have hot water sent up for you both? I dare say you will wish to refresh yourselves after the journey.’
The valet only spoke directly to Adam when he had no choice. ‘The master’s bedchamber is ready for you, milord, and Mr Bartholomew’s chamber is always kept aired in case of a visit.’
‘Thank you, Corbett. And, yes, please send up hot water. I shall meet my uncle later.’
Chapter Nine
‘So. You’re m’nephew?’
Adam nodded at his uncle’s rhetorical question.
Uncle Grenville stood before the empty fireplace in the drawing room of Kelridge Place, his hands behind his back as he rocked up on his toes and back down again. He’d adopted the dominant stance the minute Adam joined him in the room to await the announcement of dinner. Adam allowed himself a wry smile and sat on a nearby chair, crossing his legs. He wouldn’t take part in games of one-upmanship, if that was his uncle’s aim. It mattered not how long Grenville had regarded himself as master of Kelridge Hall—that was now Adam’s role.
‘I realise my existence must be somewhat...difficult...for you to accept, Uncle, but we cannot change that. I should like to reassure you, however, that you may continue to regard Kelridge as your home for as long as you wish.’
Grenville nodded, his expression thoughtful. He was still a fine figure of a man despite nearing sixty years of age. Tall, with an upright posture, and with steel-grey hair that showed no sign of receding, his shoulders were broad, his belly st
ill flat and his features chiselled—no hint of a double chin above his neatly tied neckcloth. A legacy, maybe, of his years in the cavalry—as the younger son, that had been his chosen career.
‘That is decent of you in the circumstances. And, as you have so generously made the offer, I have no hesitation in accepting it. While we are on the subject, have you a preference as to which bedchamber I use from now on? When my brother became too ill to climb the stairs, he moved into apartments on the ground floor and I moved into the master’s suite of rooms. I have, of course, vacated them, since I learned that you...’ His voice trailed into silence.
‘That I am alive? It must have come as a...shock, after all these years.’
Adam had been going to say ‘a blow’ but, at the last minute, dismissed the term as too provocative. He and his uncle must learn to rub along together. A flash of some strong emotion crossed the older man’s features—gone in an instant.
‘A pleasant shock, Nephew. I am delighted Gerald’s bloodline has not died out.’
At least he sounded sincere.
‘As to which bedchamber you should occupy, Uncle, ye may choose whichever ye please, other than the Countess’s suite—well, that goes without saying, for I am sure you would have no desire to occupy those rooms—or the principal guest bedchamber, which I shall require for guests.’
Uncle Grenville’s brows beetled. ‘Guests? What guests? When do they arrive?’
‘I have issued no invitations yet, but I shall require the principal guest room for any guests I may choose to invite in the future. You surely willna deny me the right to invite friends to stay in my own house?’
After what Tolly had revealed of Adam’s father’s character—and now he understood better the reasons his mother had fled his father—Adam hoped he could now persuade Ma to come and make her home at Kelridge Place, where she belonged. He did not, however, expect his uncle to welcome that news.
‘Very well.’ Uncle Grenville inclined his head. ‘I shall instruct my man to move my belongings again.’ He paused, his chest moving rapidly up and down as his jaw clenched. Then he shook his head. ‘I apologise if that sounded a touch bitter, Ambrose.’
‘Adam.’
‘Adam. My apologies. Anyway, I find as I get older I do not care for change. I have had sole responsibility for this place for over five years since your father first fell ill and I also shouldered much of the responsibility in the years before that. It is where I grew up and, although I have my own house near Kelworth village, I have always regarded the Place as my home. Yet now I am to be relegated to a minor bedchamber to give way to occasional guests.’
Adam rose to his feet and strode over to the window, staring out unseeingly to give himself time to consider how best to respond. He had learned over the years that was the best way to control his sometimes fiery temper—words flung out in the heat of the moment could do more damage than intended. A temper—he was now aware, his stomach churning uneasily—he might have inherited from his father. His mother’s constant correction of his boyish outbursts made sense now. Had she seen hints of his father’s temperament in Adam? The very thought made him shudder after what he’d learned from Tolly and he vowed to work doubly hard to keep his anger on a firm rein.
‘I am sorry you find change uncomfortable—’ he swung around to face his uncle, ‘—but you have had several weeks now in which to become accustomed to the fact I am still alive to claim my inheritance. And, as you have said, you do have a perfectly good house of your own near to the village.’
Grenville folded his arms, his expression stormy. ‘It is hardly a fitting home for the son of an earl. Six bedrooms only and a mere thirty acres of land. Of what use is that? A gentleman is entitled to live in comfort. It is what I was born to.’
‘It is more than most people have. It is far more than I ever had. And I, too, lest you forget, am the son of an earl.’
‘You knew no better. Dragged up in a heathen country by that—’
‘Take care!’ Adam stalked back to face his uncle, but resisted the urge to grab him by the lapels and shake him, the spectre of his father looming large. ‘Do not, if you know what is good for you, insult my mother. Ever. I might have sympathy for your plight, hence my offer for you to continue to make Kelridge Place your home, but do not mistake my sympathy for weakness.’
He swallowed down his rage as his uncle’s colour heightened.
‘You—’ Uncle Grenville broke off as the door opened.
‘Good evening. Is this a private party, or may I join you?’
Tolly’s amused tones floated into the charged atmosphere and Adam looked around to see his cousin had halted on the threshold, his eyebrows arched. A faint smile played around his lips, but his expression was watchful. He had donned a brown-leather eyepatch and that, coupled with his scrutiny, gave him a somewhat sinister appearance.
Adam forced a smile.
‘Come on in, Tolly. Your father and I were just discussing the new arrangements to be made here at the Hall.’
Uncle Grenville’s hand landed on Adam’s shoulder. ‘I spoke out of turn, my boy. This is a difficult adjustment for me...and for us all, you included. I confess I find it hard to forgive your mother for depriving my brother of his son and heir. Surely you can acknowledge how hard that is to stomach?’
Adam stared at his uncle. ‘Nay. I canna acknowledge it, as it happens. My mother should have been safe in her own home and yet your brother...my father—’ even saying that brought the sour taste of bile to his mouth, ‘—made her feel so unsafe that she had no choice but to leave.’
Grenville’s eyes glittered as he folded his arms. ‘Gerald was my brother and, for all his faults, he was Esther’s husband—the man she vowed to honour and obey. You were too young to know the truth of it. I—’
‘Father.’ Tolly stepped forward, his voice low and soothing. ‘You cannot defend the indefensible. I witnessed my uncle’s violence for myself and I can readily believe my aunt feared for her own life and for the safety of her child.’
‘The law says—’
‘Enough!’ Adam paced the room in another attempt to calm himself. ‘I dinna care what the law might say. My heart tells me that no mother should fear for either her safety or that of her child. But what I do care about is that you continue to blame my mother for something that was clearly the fault of my father.’
Grenville shook his head. ‘Neither of you understand what it was like, when Gerald and I were growing up.’
Adam sat down and gestured to Tolly to do the same. ‘Tell us, then.’
‘It was not Gerald’s fault he was the way he was. Our father—your grandfather—he had a temper, too. But Gerald...he always protected me...took the beatings...distracted my father when he was drunk and in the mood to lash out. I...’ Grenville looked from Adam to Tolly and back again, his eyes glittering with emotion ‘...I owed him. I know he had a nasty temper, especially when he’d been drinking, but he deserved my loyalty. Especially when your mother left him...the humiliation he suffered...his despair at never knowing what had become of you, Amb—Adam. It drove him to even greater excess. He was a bitter man.’
Adam sighed. Having learned the truth about his father’s violence from Tolly, he did not now want to feel even a sliver of sympathy for the man. But Grenville’s story did leave him with a touch more understanding of both his father’s temperament and, more importantly, his uncle’s loyalty to him.
‘I am sorry for what you and your brother suffered as children,’ he said. ‘But that is no excuse for the way your brother treated my mother.’
‘I accept that. Maybe I could have stopped him, had I been here, but I was away campaigning for much of the time in the early years of their marriage. And, once your mother had gone, all I could do was support him as best I could.’
Adam felt better to have cleared the air and the three men spent the evening
together without further discord. By the time Adam retired to the master bedchamber, he felt more hopeful than he had at any time since his mother had told him the truth of his origins.
* * *
‘I’ll show you around the place after breakfast.’ Uncle Grenville spoke through a mouthful of devilled kidneys the following morning. ‘There’s a decent hunter in the stables that’ll be up to your weight. You’ll be keen to get your bearings, I make no doubt.’
Adam picked up his coffee cup and drained it. ‘I am.’
At that moment Tolly sauntered into the morning parlour, bleary-eyed.
‘You look as though your night was as restless as mine, Cousin,’ Adam said, with a grin.
Tolly yawned widely. ‘I stayed up playing billiards after you both retired. Too accustomed to town hours.’
His yawn triggered Adam to yawn in his turn—he had lain awake for many hours in the night, pondering not only what he had learned about his father, but also dwelling on Kitty. And she was still on his mind this morning. Who had she danced with last night? What would she be doing today? Did she think of him at all? And, finally, how soon would she return to Fenton Hall, and when would he get that chance to ask her again about what had happened after he left her fifteen years ago? Learning how he had jumped to conclusions about his mother had prompted him to wonder if he had also made assumptions about Kitty’s behaviour. And the only way to know that was to ask her...and keep asking until she told him.
Adam clenched his jaw as he scraped butter on his toast, pondering his contradictory attitude to Kitty. In London he had vowed not to go out of his way to meet her or to speak to her and it had been easy enough to stick to his resolve. But he’d seen her at a distance—in the Park, across a ballroom, at the theatre, and there had always been the anticipation...the hope...that they might meet, even though he had not recognised it as such. And, somehow, that had been enough. Their meetings at Almack’s and at the Change had been all the sweeter for being unexpected, despite the squabbles that had marred each occasion.
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