‘You are kinder to me than I deserve,’ he said. ‘Be kinder still, and forget what I have been talking about. No! no more about me; I am not worth it. We’ll change the subject, and never go back to it again. Let’s do something. Work, Crayford—that’s the true elixir of our life! Work, that stretches the muscles and sets the blood a-glowing. Work, that tires the body and rests the mind. Is there nothing in hand that I can do? Nothing to cut?
nothing to carry?’
The door opened as he put the question. Bateson—appointed to chop Frank’s bedplace into firing—appeared punctually with his axe. Wardour, without a word of warning, snatched the axe out of the man’s hand.
‘What was this wanted for?’ he asked.
‘To cut up Mr Aldersley’s berth there into firing, sir.’
‘I’ll do it for you! I’ll have it down in no time!’ He turned to Crayford. ‘You needn’t be afraid about me, old friend. I am going to do the right thing. I am going to tire my body and rest my mind.’
The evil spirit in him was plainly subdued—for the time at least. Crayford took his hand in silence, and then (followed by Bateson) left him to his work.
X
Axe in hand, Wardour approached Frank’s bedplace.
‘If I could only cut the thoughts out of me,’ he said to himself, ‘as I am going to cut the billets out of this wood!’ He attacked the bedplace with the axe like a man who well knew the use of his instrument. ‘Oh, me,’ he thought, sadly, ‘if I had only been born a carpenter instead of a gentleman! A good axe, Master Bateson—I wonder where you got it? Something like a grip, my man, on this handle. Poor Crayford! his words stick in my throat. A fine fellow! a noble fellow! No use thinking, no use regretting; what is said is said. Work! work! work!’
Plank after plank fell out on the floor. He laughed over the easy task of destruction.
‘Aha! young Aldersley! It doesn’t take much to demolish your bedplace. I’ll have it down! I would have the whole hut down, if they would only give me the chance of chopping at it!’
A long strip of wood fell to his axe—long enough to require cutting in two. He turned it, and stooped over it. Something caught his eye—letters carved in the wood. He looked closer. The letters were very faintly and badly cut. He could only make out the first three of them; and, even of those, he was not quite certain. They looked like CLA—if they looked like anything. He threw down the strip of wood irritably.
‘Damn the fellow (whoever he is) who cut this! Why should he carve that name, of all the names in the world?’
He paused, considering—then determined to go on again with his self-imposed labour.
He was ashamed of his own outburst. He looked eagerly for the axe. ‘Work, work!
Nothing for it but work.’ He found the axe, and went on again.
He cut out another plank.
He stopped, and looked at it suspiciously.
There was carving again on this plank. The letters F. and A. appeared on it.
He put down the axe. There were vague misgivings in him which he was not able to realise. The state of his own mind was fast becoming a puzzle to him.
‘More carving,’ he said to himself. ‘That’s the way these young idlers employ their long hours. F.A.? Those must be his initials—Frank Aldersley. Who carved the letters on the other plank? Frank Aldersley, too?’
He turned the piece of wood in his hand nearer to the light, and looked lower down it.
More carving again, lower down! Under the initials F. A. were two more letters—C. B.
‘C. B.?’ he repeated to himself. ‘His sweetheart’s initials, I suppose? Of course—at his age—his sweetheart’s initials.’
He paused once more. A spasm of inner pain showed the shadow of its mysterious passage outwardly on his face.
‘ Her cypher is C. B.,’ he said, in low broken tones. ‘C. B.—Clara Burnham.’
He waited, with the plank in his hand; repeating the name over and over again, as if it was a question he was putting to himself.
‘Clara Burnham? Clara Burnham?’
He dropped the plank and turned deadly pale in a moment. His eyes Wandered furtively backwards and forwards between the strip of wood on the floor and the half-demolished berth. ‘O God! what has come to me now?’ he said to himself, in a whisper. He snatched up the axe with a strange cry—something between rage and terror. He tried—fiercely, desperately tried—to go on with his work. No! strong as he was, he could not use the axe.
His hands were helpless; they trembled incessantly. He went to the fire; he held his hands over it. They still trembled incessantly; they infected the rest of him. He shuddered all over. He knew fear. His own thoughts terrified him.
‘Crayford!’ he cried out. ‘Crayford! come here, and let’s go hunting.’
No friendly voice answered him. No friendly face showed itself at the door.
An interval passed, and there came over him another change. He recovered his self-possession almost as suddenly as he had lost it. A smile—a horrid, deforming, unnatural smile—spread slowly, stealthily, devilishly over his face. He left the fire; he put the axe away softly in a corner; he sat down in his old place, deliberately self-abandoned to a frenzy of vindictive joy. He had found the man! There, at the end of the world—there, at the last fight of the Arctic voyagers against starvation and death—he had found the man!
The minutes passed.
He became conscious, on a sudden, of a freezing stream of air pouring into the room.
He turned, and saw Crayford opening the door of the hut. A man was behind him.
Wardour rose eagerly and looked over Crayford’s shoulder.
Was it—could it be—the man who had carved the letters on the plank? Yes! Frank Aldersley!
XI
‘Still at work!’ Crayford exclaimed, looking at the half-demolished bedplace. ‘Give yourself a little rest, Richard. The exploring party is ready to start. If you wish to take leave of your brother officers before they go, you have no time to lose.’
He checked himself there, looking Wardour full in the face. ‘Good heavens!’ he cried,
‘how pale you are. Has anything happened?’ Frank—searching in his locker for articles of clothing which he might require on the journey—looked round. He was startled, as Crayford had been startled, by the sudden change in Wardour since they had last seen him.
‘Are you ill?’ he asked. ‘I hear you have been doing Bateson’s work for him. Have you hurt yourself?’
Wardour suddenly moved his head, so as to hide his face from both Crayford and Frank. He took out his handkerchief, and wound it clumsily round his left hand.
‘Yes,’ he said, ‘I hurt myself with the axe. It’s nothing. Never mind. Pain always has a curious effect on me. I tell you it’s nothing! don’t notice it!’
He turned his face towards them again as suddenly as he had turned it away. He advanced a few steps, and addressed himself with an uneasy familiarity to Frank.
‘I didn’t answer you civilly when you spoke to me some little time since. I mean, when I first came in here, along with the rest of them. I apologize. Shake hands! How are you?
Ready for the march?’
Frank met the oddly abrupt advance which had been made to him with perfect good humour.
‘I am glad to be friends with you, Mr Wardour. I wish I was as well seasoned to fatigue as you are.
Wardour burst into a hard, joyless, unnatural laugh.
‘Not strong, eh? You don’t look it. The dice had better have sent me away and kept you here. I never felt in better condition in my life.’ He paused and added, with his eye on Frank, and with a strong emphasis on the words: ‘We men of Kent are made of tough material.’
Frank advanced a step on his side, with a new interest in Richard Wardour.
‘You come from Kent?’ he said.
‘Yes. From East Kent.’ He waited a little once more, and looked hard at Frank. ‘Do you know that part of the country?’ he asked.
‘Friends of yours?’ Wardour repeated. ‘One of the county families, I suppose?’
As he put the question he abruptly looked over his shoulder. He was standing between Crayford and Frank. Crayford, taking no part in the conversation, had been watching him and listening to him more and more attentively as that conversation went on. Within the last moment or two Wardour had become instinctively conscious of this. He resented Crayford’s conduct with needless irritability.
‘Why are you staring at me?’ lie asked.
‘Why are you looking unlike yourself?’ Crayford answered, quietly.
Wardour made no reply. He renewed the conversation with Frank.
‘One of the county families?’ he resumed. ‘The Witherbys of Yew Grange, I daresay?’
‘No,’ said Frank; ‘but friends of the Witherbys, very likely—the Burnhams.’
Desperately as he struggled to maintain it, Wardour’s self-control failed him. He started violently. The clumsily-wound handkerchief fell off his hand. Still looking at him attentively, Crayford picked it up.
‘There is your handkerchief, Richard,’ he said. ‘Strange!’
‘What is strange?’
‘You told us you had hurt yourself with the axe—’
‘Well?’
‘There is no blood on your handkerchief.’
Wardour snatched the handkerchief out of Crayford’s hand, and, turning away, approached the outer door of the hut. ‘No blood on the handkerchief’ he said to himself.
‘There may be a stain or two when Crayford sees it again.’ He stopped within a few paces of the door, and spoke to Crayford. ‘You recommended me to take leave of my brother officers before it was too late’ he said. ‘I am going to follow your advice.’
The door was opened from the outer side as he laid his hand on the lock. One of the quartermasters of the Wanderer entered the hut.
‘Is Captain Helding here, sir?’ he asked, addressing himself to Wardour. Wardour pointed to Crayford.
‘The lieutenant will tell you,’ he said.
Crayford advanced and questioned the quartermaster. ‘What do you want with Captain Helding?’ he asked.
‘I have a report to make, sir. There has been an accident on the ice.’
‘To one of your men?’
‘No, sir. To one of our officers.’
Wardour—on the point of going out—paused when the quartermaster made that reply.
For a moment he considered with himself. Then he walked Slowly back to the part of the room in which Frank was standing. Crayford, directing the quartermaster, pointed to the arched doorway in the side of the hut.
‘I am sorry to hear of the accident,’ he said. ‘You will find Captain Holding in that room.’
For the second time, with singular persistency, Wardour renewed the conversation with Frank.
‘So you knew the Burnhams?’ he said. ‘What became of Clara when her her died?’
Frank’s face flushed angrily on the instant.
‘Clara?’ he repeated. ‘What authorises you to speak of Miss Burnham in that familiar manner?’
Wardour seized the opportunity of quarrelling with him.
‘What right have you to ask?’ he retorted coarsely.
Frank’s blood was up. He forgot his promise to Clara to keep their engagement secret—he forgot everything but the unbridled insolence of Wardour’s language and manner.
‘A right which I insist on your respecting,’ he answered. ‘The right of being engaged to marry her.’
Crayford’s steady eyes were still on the watch, and Wardour felt them on him. A little more, and Crayford might openly interfere. Even Wardour recognised, for once, the necessity of controlling his temper, cost him what it might. He made his apologies with overstrained politeness to Frank.
‘Impossible to dispute such a right as yours,’ he said. ‘Perhaps you will excuse me when you know that I am one of Miss Burnham’s old friends. My father and her father were neighbours. We have always met like brother and sister—Frank generously stopped the apology there.
‘Say no more,’ he interposed. ‘I was in the wrong—I lost my temper. Pray forgive me.’
Wardour looked at him with a strange reluctant interest while he was speaking.
Wardour asked an extraordinary question when he had done.
‘Is she very fond of you?’
Frank burst out laughing.
‘My dear fellow!’ he said, ‘come to our wedding, and judge for yourself.’
‘Come to your wedding?’ As he repeated the words Wardour stole one glance at Frank, which Frank (employed in buckling his knapsack) failed to see. Crayford noticed it—and Crayford’s blood ran cold. Comparing the words which Wardour had spoken to him while they were alone together with the words that had just passed in his presence, he could draw but one conclusion. The woman whom Wardour had loved and lost was—
Clara Burnham. The man who had robbed him of her was Frank Aldersley. And Wardour had discovered it in the interval since they had last met. ‘Thank God!’ thought Crayford,
‘the dice have parted them! Frank goes with the expedition, and Wardour stays behind with me.’
The reflection had barely occurred to him—Frank’s thoughtless invitation to Wardour had just passed his lips—when the canvas screen over the doorway was drawn aside.
Captain Helding and the officers who were to leave with the exploring party returned to
the main room on their way out. Seeing Crayford, Captain Helding stopped to speak to him.
‘I have a casualty to report,’ said the captain, ‘which diminishes our numbers by one.
My second lieutenant, who was to have joined the exploring party, has had a fall on the ice. Judging by what the quartermaster tells me, I am afraid the poor fellow has broken his leg.’
‘I will supply his place,’ cried a voice at the other end of the hut. Everybody looked round. The man who had spoken was Richard Wardour. Crayford instantly interfered—so vehemently as to astonish all who knew him.
‘No!’ he said. ‘Not you, Richard! not you!’
‘Why not?’ Wardour asked sternly.
‘Why not, indeed?’ added Captain Helding. ‘Wardour is the very man to be useful on a long march. He is in perfect health, and he is the best shot among us. I was on the point of proposing him myself.’
Crayford failed to show his customary respect for his superior officer. He openly disputed the Captain’s conclusion.
‘Wardour has no right to volunteer,’ he rejoined. ‘It has been settled, Captain Helding, that chance shall decide who is to go and who is to stay.’
‘And chance has decided it,’ cried Wardour. ‘Do you think we are going to cast the dice again, and give an officer of the Sea-Mew a chance of replacing an officer of the Wanderer? There is a vacancy in our party, not in yours; and we claim the right of filling it as we please. I volunteer, and my captain backs me. Whose authority is to keep me here after that?’
‘Gently, Wardour,’ said Captain Helding. ‘A man who is in the right can afford to speak with moderation.’ He turned to Crayford. ‘You must admit yourself,’ he continued,
‘that Wardour is right this time. The missing man belongs to my command, and in common justice one of my officers ought to supply his place.’
It was impossible to dispute the matter further. The dullest man present could see that the Captain’s reply was unanswerable. In sheer despair, Crayford took Frank’s arm and led him aside a few steps. The last chance left of parting the two men was the chance of appealing to Frank.
‘My dear boy,’ he began, ‘I want to say one friendly word to you on the subject of your health. I have already, if you remember, expressed my doubts whether you are strong enough to make one of an exploring party. I feel those doubts more strongly than ever at this moment. Will you take the advice of a friend who wishes you w
ell?’
Wardour had followed Crayford. Wardour roughly interposed before Frank could reply.
‘Let him alone!’
Crayford paid no heed to the interruption. He was too earnestly bent on withdrawing Frank from the expedition to notice anything that was said or done by the persons about him.
‘Don’t, pray don’t, risk hardships which you are unfit to bear!’ he went on entreatingly.
‘Your place can be easily filled. Change your mind, Frank. Stay here with me.’
Again Wardour interfered. Again he called out, ‘Leave him alone!’ more roughly than ever. Still deaf and blind to every consideration but one, Crayford pressed his entreaties on Frank.
‘You owned yourself just now that you were not well seasoned to fatigue,’ he persisted.
‘You feel (you must feel) how weak that last illness has left you? You know (I am sure you know) how unfit you are to brave exposure to cold and long marches over the snow.’
Irritated beyond endurance by Crayford’s obstinacy, seeing, or thinking he saw, signs of yielding in Frank’s face, Wardour so far forgot himself as to seize Crayford by the arm, and attempt to drag him away from Frank. Crayford turned and looked at him.
‘Richard,’ he said, very quietly, ‘you are not yourself. I pity you. Drop your hand.’
Wardour relaxed his hold with something of the sullen submission of a wild animal to his keeper. The momentary silence which followed gave Frank an opportunity of speaking at last.
‘I am gratefully sensible, Crayford,’ he began, ‘of the interest which you take in me—’
‘And you will follow my advice?’ Crayford interposed eagerly.
‘My mind is made up, old friend,’ Frank answered, firmly and sadly. ‘Forgive me for disappointing you. I am appointed to the expedition. With the expedition I go.’ He moved nearer to Wardour. In his innocence of all suspicion, he clapped Wardour heartily on the shoulder. ‘When I feel the fatigue,’ said poor simple Frank, ‘you will help me, comrade—won’t you? Come along!’
Wardour snatched his gun out of the hands of the sailor who was carrying it for him.
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