“I think we need to change the rules a bit.” He says once he reaches the pitcher’s mound.
“Okay.” I position my hands on the bat and flash him a smile. “Tell me these new rules and maybe I’ll agree on them.”
“If you miss this ball.” He tosses it up and catches it with confidence. “Then I get to kiss you . . .” he lowers his eyes toward my pussy. “Right there.”
I can practically feel my face turn red as I imagine him between my legs, tasting me. “And what if I hit it?”
“Then I’ll take you on another date.” He smirks and gets into position, looking so damn sexy.
“I can agree to those new rules, Mr. Cocky.”
He does this little thing to make me believe he’s about to pitch the ball, but then stops and changes positions.
“What are you doing over there? Come on!” I yell out.
He cracks his neck and smiles. “Making sure you miss this ball. That’s what.”
Right when I lower the bat and laugh, he pitches the ball. Excitement and adrenaline courses through me as I quickly swing the bat out, my heart racing with anticipation.
Kash smiles when the crack of the bat hitting the ball rings out through the park.
He runs over and stops in front of me. “I was secretly hoping you’d hit it.” He wraps his fist into the back of my hair and leans down to whisper in my ear. “I can always kiss you down there after the date.”
I swallow and reach for the extra ball he brought. Keeping a smile on my face, I walk over to the pitcher’s mound and run my fingers over the dirt on the ball. “If you miss this ball, then you have to cook me dinner.”
“And if I hit it?” he raises the bat and swings out as if he knows there’s no way he’s missing it.
“Then you get to give me that massage you promised. And I’ll let you do it in the nude so you can do it to your full ability.”
He bites his bottom lip as if he’s picturing it now. “I so fucking agree to these rules.”
Putting on a serious face, I pitch the ball and watch as it flies across the park, Kash hitting it further than the last time we were here.
Shaking my head, I walk toward him and stop in front of him. Feeling his breath against my neck as he moves his body up against mine has me wanting him like crazy right now.
I grin and reach for the top of his jeans. “I changed my mind . . . I say we start out where we left off now. This game didn’t count.”
With a small smirk, he grabs my waist and slowly backs me against the fence. “That would be with you pinned against this fence with me about to fuck you so good that you’ll forget any other guys exist.”
“Oh yeah?” I whisper, while unbuttoning his jeans. “I definitely want to start there, Kash.”
He flexes his jaw and grabs onto the fence, watching me as I lower his jeans. “You sure that’s where you want to start? I’ve been craving to be inside you for days. It’s not going to be gentle or sweet.”
Wanting nothing more than for him to take me how he wants, I run my hands up his chest, before wrapping my arms around his neck. “I don’t want you gentle or sweet. I want you just the way you are.”
With a small growl, he pins me against the fence with his body. “Fuuuck. I hope no one interrupts us, because this time I’m not stopping.”
Putting all gentleness aside, Kash bites the top of my tank top before ripping it open with his hands. Goosebumps cover my entire body as I grip onto the fence behind me and hold on as he yanks my jeans and panties down my legs.
With this look of need in his eyes I’ve never seen before, he bites my bottom lip and grabs my ass, lifting me up so that my legs are wrapped around his waist, just like the last time he had me pinned against this fence.
I moan into his mouth and dig my nails into his shoulders when I feel him slam into me, stopping once we fills me completely.
“I need you to tell me something,” he breathes against my lips. “And I need you to mean it.”
“What?” I dig my fingers deeper into his shoulders and squeeze him with my legs when he begins pumping in and out of me. “Holy . . . Kash . . . that feels . . . good . . . so damn good.”
He pushes deeper inside and stops, leaning in so our mouths are brushing together. “Tell me I’m the only one you want inside of you. That there’ll be no one else fucking you the way I do.”
The truth is, I can’t even imagine another man being inside me the way Kash is right now and feeling as good as it does. I don’t want any other men. I want him. So fucking much.
“There’ll be only you, Kash. I don’t want anyone else. I mean it.”
“Good. That’s all I needed to hear.”
Slamming his lips against mine, he pushes me up the fence with one hard thrust, causing me to grab onto his hair for support.
With each perfect move of his hips, excitement and need overwhelm me, causing a mix of chills and heat to run throughout my entire body.
I close my eyes and lean my head against the fence when Kash’s hand moves up to brush over my throat. “It’s okay,” I breathe. “Don’t be scared of hurting me.”
“Fuck!” He growls and grabs my throat, gently squeezing it as he continues to thrust in and out of me, his thick dick slamming into me hard and deep.
I open my eyes and look around, a new kind of excitement filling me as I take in the open field around us.
Anyone could show up at any moment and all Kash is thinking about is me and his need to take me.
I find it extremely hot.
My body tenses around his and I moan out the moment I feel his thumb reach in between us to rub my clit.
“Oh fuuuckkk . . .” I reach behind me and hold onto the fence, breathing heavily as he continues to fuck me and rub me at the same time. “Keep going,” I beg. “I’m so close.”
He rubs his mouth up my neck, before biting it and thrusting into me at the same time, causing me to clamp around his dick and scream out in pleasure as an orgasm rushes through me.
I can feel him smile against me, before he moves around to kiss my lips. “Hold on for this part. Okay, baby.”
I nod my head and hold onto the fence as tightly as I can.
He grabs my waist with both hands, his fingers digging in as he pounds into me hard and fast.
So hard and fast that I feel as if I’m close to another orgasm.
Holy shit . . . this feels so damn good. I can’t imagine anyone fucking as good as Kash.
He thrusts into me a few more times, before pushing in as deep as he can and growling against my lips as he comes.
Him filling me has another orgasm washing through me, causing me to moan against his mouth and wrap my arms around his neck for support.
As soon as I’m able to catch my breath, Kash kisses me, being gentle and careful as if he wants to take care of me now.
He holds me against the fence for a few minutes, our lips touching as we fight to catch our breath, before he lowers me to the ground.
“You okay?” he questions, while caressing my cheek.
I smile and nod my head. “More than okay, Kash. I told you not to be gentle and I meant it.”
He smiles back and helps me get cleaned up, before slipping his shirt over my head and getting dressed himself. “Sorry about the shirt. I’ll replace it.”
I shake my head and walk into his arms as he holds them out for me. “This one will do just fine.”
He kisses the top of my head and smiles against it. “Then it’s yours.” He grabs my hand and walks out into the open field, before laying down and pulling me into his arms. “We have a little more time before I have something to take care of tonight. Something important to help me open my training gym. My dad used to train fighters and I always thought we’d open a gym together.”
I lay my head on his chest and look up at the stars, wishing that we could stay out here like this all night. Us just talking. “Where’s your father now?” I hate to ask this. Worry kicks in that I might get an answer
I don’t want.
“He passed away three years ago.” He holds me tighter. “I’m doing this gym all on my own.”
“I’m sorry, Kash. So sorry to hear that.” I kiss his arm, wanting to show him I care. “What happens after you open this gym? Will you be working at the club too?”
“Nope. I’m done with the club as soon as I get the cash I need. It’s the only reason I really started stripping in the first place.” Kash grabs my hand and places it on his chest, holding it over his racing heart. “It feels really nice being here with you, Eden. I know you don’t want to rush into anything and I don’t blame you. It’s not just yourself you have to worry about. But I want you to know I care about you a lot. It’s not often that I let women into my life. You’re the first since high school.”
My heart swells up from Kash’s words and I find myself smiling so big that it hurts. First I find out that he won’t be staying at the club much longer and now this. I wasn’t expecting either. “I care about you, too. You have no idea how much it means to me that you understand my situation and respect it. It’s just that . . . well Alec is still so young. I don’t want to confuse him if I don’t have to. I need to know one hundred percent that you’re in it for the long run before I even think about you two meeting. You understand, right?”
He nods his head and smiles, but I can see the worry in his eyes as if he has something he wants to tell me. “I’m in it for as long as you’ll have me, Eden. I’m not going anywhere. I meant what I said. But I know it’s still early. I need you to trust me. When the times comes . . . I have something important to tell you. Promise me you’ll let me tell you when you know the time is right.”
“I promise, Kash. If that’s what you want.” I relax into him and close my eyes, getting comfortable as he begins rubbing my head.
We lay this way for close to an hour before I feel my phone go off in my pocket.
It’s getting late so I know it’s Alec, calling me before he’s about ready to fall asleep.
“I’ve gotta go,” I whisper. “I want to be home before Alec goes to bed.”
He stands up and helps me to my feet. “I love that about you.”
I wrap my arms around his waist and just hold him for a few minutes, not wanting to leave him yet. It only seems to get harder the more we spend time together.
Looking down at me, he grabs my face and kisses me. “Call me when you get off work tomorrow?”
I nod my head and jump inside my jeep when Kash opens the door for me. “I can do that. “I smile and grab his neck, pulling him down so I can kiss him one last time. “Goodnight.”
He smiles and shuts the door, before jogging over to his truck and jumping inside.
I get this sinking feeling in my stomach as I drive off, leaving Kash in the parking lot. I hate the feeling of leaving him.
Maybe it’s about time I talk to Alec about him. It’s too late tonight and I need a little time to clear my head and think it over before I figure out how to explain Kash to him.
I hope tomorrow is the right time and I’m not being stupid by doing this too soon.
But I know without a doubt that I have fallen for Kash. I know that because it hurts right now not being able to be with him.
I’ve never felt this way. Not even with Knight . . .
Kash
FUCK . . . LAST NIGHT REALLY GOT to me in a way I wasn’t expecting it to.
After Eden jumped in her jeep and took off, I sat in the parking lot for a good twenty minutes trying to get my head straight.
I thought long and hard about showing up at her doorstep and telling her the truth, hoping like hell she didn’t slap me and then slam the door in my face, never wanting to see me again.
I’m in too deep with Eden to just let her walk away and forget I ever fucking existed all because I was a selfish prick, afraid of losing her over the truth.
She needs to know that I’ve been spending time with Alec for over six months and love the kid and care about his safety just as much as she does. I never want to see him hurt. Ever.
I was so damn close to telling her at the park, until she came out and told me she wasn’t ready for Alec to know about me yet.
That messed me all up and even my fight wasn’t enough to pull my head away from that shit.
My head wasn’t into the fight at all last night. Not one damn bit.
It almost cost me my fight and then I would’ve been fucked on getting the money I need to buy the warehouse from Don. The big fight—that has now gotten pushed to next weekend—has a prize of ten grand so last night was important. You need to be ready at all times. Locations and dates always change when you least expect it. That’s why I was even fighting last night to begin with. But I’ll take what I can get.
I only need eight more grand since I’ve been saving for a while now, but I know it’ll take years for me to save that kind of money with helping my sister out with rent and taking care of my place too.
The big fight will get me there next week instead.
But to tell you the truth, I’d give it all up for Eden anyway. But then where would that leave me?
Stripping to get by. I can’t do that shit. Not if I want to be in her and Alec’s lives.
That’s why I need to be on top of my shit next week. There’s no way in hell I’m letting Knight win. If anything, wanting to beat his ass for hurting Eden will be all the motivation I need to win.
He may have more experience and training, but I have more heart and I’ll put every bit that I have into taking his ass down.
There’s no way he’s walking out of that ring without getting the fucking message.
Eden is mine and there’s no way I’m allowing him to hurt her anymore. Her or Alec.
I just need for Eden to know that too.
And no matter how much it might hurt me in the long run, I’m letting her know tonight. Every little fucking detail. I don’t matter. They do. If she leaves me to keep them both from hurting, then I’ll take all the pain thrown at me.
I overslept this morning, apparently exhausted from my fight last night so it’s now well into the afternoon.
It may be a little too late to bring Alec pancakes, but it’s never too late to play with his new ball with him. I missed bringing him yesterday and it fucking hurt my heart. So here I am. And who knows if I’ll get to see him again after this.
Without knocking, I walk into my sister’s house to see Alec and Hannah coloring at the table. He looks bored and I can tell he’s ready to get up move around.
I’m right, because a smile immediately takes over his little face the moment he notices me standing in the doorway. “Hunter!” He jumps up from the kitchen table and runs into my arms. “You made it today. Did you bring pancakes?”
I laugh and set him back down to his feet, feeling bad that I was too late for breakfast. “Not this time, little man. It’s a little late for breakfast.” I bend down and grab his shoulders. “Did you bring your new ball?”
He nods his head with excitement. “I did! It’s in my backpack. I keep it in there.”
“Okay good. Why don’t you run and grab it and we’ll play a little ball.”
I stand up and lock eyes with Hannah from across the room after Alec rushes to the spare bedroom, excited to play.
“What the hell, Hunter?” she whisper yells. “You’re dating Eden and you didn’t tell me?” She rushes over to me and slaps my shoulder. “She doesn’t know either, does she? She doesn’t know you’ve been spending time with Alec?”
I shake my head, guilt taking over as I watch Alec drag his backpack over to the couch and begin digging through it. “Don’t start, Hannah. I already know I’m a huge jerk for not telling her in the beginning. You think I wanted things to go this way? That I expected to meet Alec’s mother and fall for her? It just sort of happened.”
She smiles slightly at the fact that I just admitted to falling for someone. Hannah knows more than anyone how hard it’s always been for me to find a girl I
truly want to be with. “Well when did you find out then?”
“I found out after we were already spending time together. I didn’t know how to come out and tell her without scaring her off.” I flex my jaw and watch as Alec runs out the door, yelling for me to follow him. “I was going to tell her last night but then she said she wasn’t ready for us to meet yet. What the hell was I supposed to say to that?”
“I don’t know . . .” She huffs and shakes her head. “I get it. Eden is tough when it comes to Alec. I know she’s been hurt by his father and I know she’s overprotective of Alec. But she’s going to be really pissed and hurt once you finally tell her. Maybe you shouldn’t worry about her not being ready and more worried about how upset and hurt she’s going to be that you waited so long.”
“Fuuuck.” I run my hands through my hair, knowing she’s right.
“Fuck is right. You better tell her today, big brother. She may be pissed for a while, but she’ll eventually forgive you. I believe that because I’ve seen how happy she’s been lately. It’s the happiest I’ve seen her since I began watching Alec for her.”
“I hope so.” I push the screen door open and join Alec in the yard, knowing that my sister will most likely join us outside if she still wants to talk.
I just hope she doesn’t because I’m already feeling really fucking emotional and I’ve never done well with my emotions.
Alec looks over as soon as I step outside and barely gives me enough time to stop, before he tosses the ball to me.
“Whoa!” I quickly reach out and catch it, pretending as if I’m about to fall over. “You’ve got a strong arm there, buddy. How about you be more careful next time so you don’t hurt me.”
Alec laughs and reaches out to catch the ball when I toss it back. “I don’t think so, Hunter. You just need to be as strong as me. Maybe drink more milk?” He shrugs. “That’s what mommy makes me drink to be strong.”
“I’ll try, buddy. I’ll try . . .” I toss the ball back and he jumps into the grass to catch it.
“I almost missed it! Did you see how fast I am?” He jumps to his feet and runs around in a circle yelling about how fast he is.
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