by Jane Austen
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Miss Bates looked about her, so happily!-"He promised to come to me as soon as he could disengage himself from Knightley; but he and Knightley are shut up together in deep consultation. -Mr. E. is Knightleys right hand. "
Emma would not have smiled for the world, and only said, "Is Mr. Elton gone on foot to Donwell?-He will have a hot walk. "
"Oh! no, it is a meeting at the Crown, a regular meeting.
Weston and Cole will be there too; but one is apt to speak only of those who lead. -I fancy Mr. E. and Knightley have every thing their own way. "
"Have not you mistaken the day?" said Emma. "I am almost certain that the meeting at the Crown is not till to-morrow. -Mr. Knightley was at Hartfield yesterday, and spoke of it as for Saturday. "
"Oh! no, the meeting is certainly to-day," was the abrupt answer, which denoted the impossibility of any blunder on Mrs. Eltons side. -"I do believe," she continued, "this is the most troublesome parish that ever was. We never heard of such things at Maple Grove. "
"Your parish there was small," said Jane.
"Upon my word, my dear, I do not know, for I never heard the subject talked of. "
"But it is proved by the smallness of the school, which I have heard you speak of, as under the patronage of your sister and Mrs. Bragge; the only school, and not more than five-and-twenty children. "
"Ah! you clever creature, thats very true. What a thinking brain you have! I say, Jane, what a perfect character you and I should make, if we could be shaken together. My liveliness and your solidity would produce perfection. -Not that I presume to insinuate, however, that some people may not think you perfection already. -But hush!-not a word, if you please. "
It seemed an unnecessary caution; Jane was wanting to give her words, not to Mrs. Elton, but to Miss Woodhouse, as the latter plainly saw.
The wish of distinguishing her, as far as civility permitted, was very evident, though it could not often proceed beyond a look.
Mr. Elton made his appearance. His lady greeted him with some of her sparkling vivacity.
"Very pretty, sir, upon my word; to send me on here, to be an encumbrance to my friends, so long before you vouchsafe to come!-But you knew what a dutiful creature you had to deal with.
You knew I should not stir till my lord and master appeared. -Here have I been sitting this hour, giving these young ladies a sample of true conjugal obedience-for who can say, you know, how soon it may be wanted?"
Mr. Elton was so hot and tired, that all this wit seemed thrown away.
His civilities to the other ladies must be paid; but his subsequent object was to lament over himself for the heat he was suffering, and the walk he had had for nothing.
"When I got to Donwell," said he, "Knightley could not be found.
Very odd! very unaccountable! after the note I sent him this morning, and the message he returned, that he should certainly be at home till one. "
"Donwell!" cried his wife. -"My dear Mr. E. , you have not been to Donwell!-You mean the Crown; you come from the meeting at the Crown. "
"No, no, thats to-morrow; and I particularly wanted to see Knightley to-day on that very account. -Such a dreadful broiling morning!-I went over the fields too-(speaking in a tone of great ill-usage,) which made it so much the worse. And then not to find him at home!
I assure you I am not at all pleased. And no apology left, no message for me. The housekeeper declared she knew nothing of my being expected. -Very extraordinary!-And nobody knew at all which way he was gone.
Perhaps to Hartfield, perhaps to the Abbey Mill, perhaps into his woods. -Miss Woodhouse, this is not like our friend Knightley!-Can you explain it?"
Emma amused herself by protesting that it was very extraordinary, indeed, and that she had not a syllable to say for him.
"I cannot imagine," said Mrs. Elton, (feeling the indignity as a wife ought to do,) "I cannot imagine how he could do such a thing by you, of all people in the world! The very last person whom one should expect to be forgotten!-My dear Mr. E. , he must have left a message for you, I am sure he must. -Not even Knightley could be so very eccentric;-and his servants forgot it. Depend upon it, that was the case: and very likely to happen with the Donwell servants, who are all, I have often observed, extremely awkward and remiss. -I am sure I would not have such a creature as his Harry stand at our sideboard for any consideration. And as for Mrs. Hodges, Wright holds her very cheap indeed. -She promised Wright a receipt, and never sent it. "
"I met William Larkins," continued Mr. Elton, "as I got near the house, and he told me I should not find his master at home, but I did not believe him. -William seemed rather out of humour.
He did not know what was come to his master lately, he said, but he could hardly ever get the speech of him. I have nothing to do with Williams wants, but it really is of very great importance that I should see Knightley to-day; and it becomes a matter, therefore, of very serious inconvenience that I should have had this hot walk to no purpose. "
Emma felt that she could not do better than go home directly.
In all probability she was at this very time waited for there; and Mr. Knightley might be preserved from sinking deeper in aggression towards Mr. Elton, if not towards William Larkins.
She was pleased, on taking leave, to find Miss Fairfax determined to attend her out of the room, to go with her even downstairs; it gave her an opportunity which she immediately made use of, to say,
"It is as well, perhaps, that I have not had the possibility.
Had you not been surrounded by other friends, I might have been tempted to introduce a subject, to ask questions, to speak more openly than might have been strictly correct. -I feel that I should certainly have been impertinent. "
"Oh!" cried Jane, with a blush and an hesitation which Emma thought infinitely more becoming to her than all the elegance of all her usual composure-"there would have been no danger. The danger would have been of my wearying you. You could not have gratified me more than by expressing an interest-. Indeed, Miss Woodhouse, (speaking more collectedly,) with the consciousness which I have of misconduct, very great misconduct, it is particularly consoling to me to know that those of my friends, whose good opinion is most worth preserving, are not disgusted to such a degree as to-I have not time for half that I could wish to say.
I long to make apologies, excuses, to urge something for myself.
I feel it so very due. But, unfortunately-in short, if your compassion does not stand my friend-"
"Oh! you are too scrupulous, indeed you are," cried Emma warmly, and taking her hand. "You owe me no apologies; and every body to whom you might be supposed to owe them, is so perfectly satisfied, so delighted even-"
"You are very kind, but I know what my manners were to you. -So cold and artificial!-I had always a part to act. -It was a life of deceit!-I know that I must have disgusted you. "
"Pray say no more. I feel that all the apologies should be on my side.
Let us forgive each other at once. We must do whatever is to be done quickest, and I think our feelings will lose no time there.
I hope you have pleasant accounts from Windsor?"
"Very. "
"And the next news, I suppose, will be, that we are to lose you-just as I begin to know you. "
"Oh! as to all that, of course nothing can be thought of yet.
I am here till claimed by Colonel and Mrs. Campbell. "
"Nothing can be actually settled yet, perhaps," replied Emma, smiling-"but, excuse me, it must be thought of. "
The smile was returned as Jane answered,
"You are very right; it has been thought of. And I will own to you, (I am sure it will be safe), that so far as our living with Mr. Churchill at Enscombe, it is settled. There must be three months, at least, of deep mourning; but when they are over, I imagine there will be nothing more to wait for. "
"Thank you, thank you. -This is just what I wanted to be assured of. -Oh! if you knew how much I
love every thing that is decided and open!-Good-bye, good-bye. "
CHAPTER XVII
Mrs. Westons friends were all made happy by her safety; and if the satisfaction of her well-doing could be increased to Emma, it was by knowing her to be the mother of a little girl.
She had been decided in wishing for a Miss Weston. She would not acknowledge that it was with any view of making a match for her, hereafter, with either of Isabellas sons; but she was convinced that a daughter would suit both father and mother best.
It would be a great comfort to Mr. Weston, as he grew older-and even Mr. Weston might be growing older ten years hence-to have his fireside enlivened by the sports and the nonsense, the freaks and the fancies of a child never banished from home; and Mrs. Weston-no one could doubt that a daughter would be most to her; and it would be quite a pity that any one who so well knew how to teach, should not have their powers in exercise again.
"She has had the advantage, you know, of practising on me," she continued-"like La Baronne dAlmane on La Comtesse dOstalis, in Madame de Genlis Adelaide and Theodore, and we shall now see her own little Adelaide educated on a more perfect plan. "
"That is," replied Mr. Knightley, "she will indulge her even more than she did you, and believe that she does not indulge her at all.
It will be the only difference. "
"Poor child!" cried Emma; "at that rate, what will become of her?"
"Nothing very bad. -The fate of thousands. She will be disagreeable in infancy, and correct herself as she grows older. I am losing all my bitterness against spoilt children, my dearest Emma.
I, who am owing all my happiness to you, would not it be horrible ingratitude in me to be severe on them?"
Emma laughed, and replied: "But I had the assistance of all your endeavours to counteract the indulgence of other people.
I doubt whether my own sense would have corrected me without it. "
"Do you?-I have no doubt. Nature gave you understanding:-Miss Taylor gave you principles. You must have done well.
My interference was quite as likely to do harm as good. It was very natural for you to say, what right has he to lecture me?-and I am afraid very natural for you to feel that it was done in a disagreeable manner. I do not believe I did you any good.
The good was all to myself, by making you an object of the tenderest affection to me. I could not think about you so much without doating on you, faults and all; and by dint of fancying so many errors, have been in love with you ever since you were thirteen at least. "
"I am sure you were of use to me," cried Emma. "I was very often influenced rightly by you-oftener than I would own at the time.
I am very sure you did me good. And if poor little Anna Weston is to be spoiled, it will be the greatest humanity in you to do as much for her as you have done for me, except falling in love with her when she is thirteen. "
"How often, when you were a girl, have you said to me, with one of your saucy looks-`Mr. Knightley, I am going to do so-and-so; papa says I may, or I have Miss Taylors leave-something which, you knew, I did not approve. In such cases my interference was giving you two bad feelings instead of one. "
"What an amiable creature I was!-No wonder you should hold my speeches in such affectionate remembrance. "
"`Mr. Knightley. -You always called me, `Mr. Knightley; and, from habit, it has not so very formal a sound. -And yet it is formal.
I want you to call me something else, but I do not know what. "
"I remember once calling you `George, in one of my amiable fits, about ten years ago. I did it because I thought it would offend you; but, as you made no objection, I never did it again. "
"And cannot you call me `George now?"
"Impossible!-I never can call you any thing but `Mr. Knightley.
I will not promise even to equal the elegant terseness of Mrs. Elton, by calling you Mr. K. -But I will promise," she added presently, laughing and blushing-"I will promise to call you once by your Christian name. I do not say when, but perhaps you may guess where;-in the building in which N. takes M. for better, for worse. "
Emma grieved that she could not be more openly just to one important service which his better sense would have rendered her, to the advice which would have saved her from the worst of all her womanly follies-her wilful intimacy with Harriet Smith; but it was too tender a subject. -She could not enter on it. -Harriet was very seldom mentioned between them. This, on his side, might merely proceed from her not being thought of; but Emma was rather inclined to attribute it to delicacy, and a suspicion, from some appearances, that their friendship were declining.
She was aware herself, that, parting under any other circumstances, they certainly should have corresponded more, and that her intelligence would not have rested, as it now almost wholly did, on Isabellas letters. He might observe that it was so. The pain of being obliged to practise concealment towards him, was very little inferior to the pain of having made Harriet unhappy.
Isabella sent quite as good an account of her visitor as could be expected; on her first arrival she had thought her out of spirits, which appeared perfectly natural, as there was a dentist to be consulted; but, since that business had been over, she did not appear to find Harriet different from what she had known her before. -Isabella, to be sure, was no very quick observer; yet if Harriet had not been equal to playing with the children, it would not have escaped her. Emmas comforts and hopes were most agreeably carried on, by Harriets being to stay longer; her fortnight was likely to be a month at least. Mr. and Mrs. John Knightley were to come down in August, and she was invited to remain till they could bring her back.
"John does not even mention your friend," said Mr. Knightley.
"Here is his answer, if you like to see it. "
It was the answer to the communication of his intended marriage.
Emma accepted it with a very eager hand, with an impatience all alive to know what he would say about it, and not at all checked by hearing that her friend was unmentioned.
"John enters like a brother into my happiness," continued Mr. Knightley,