"I are aware of it. I'll tell you by-and-by means of."
"Is the ache better now?"
"Oh, sure, a good deal higher, you are so cozy, Jo."
"Go to sleep, expensive. I'll stay with you."
So cheek to cheek they fell asleep, and at the morrow Beth seemed quite herself again, for at eighteen neither heads nor hearts pain lengthy, and a loving word can remedy most ills.
But Jo had made up her mind, and after considering over a mission for a few days, she confided it to her mother.
"You asked me the opposite day what my needs were. I'll tell you one in every of them, Marmee," she commenced, as they sat along collectively. "I want to move away someplace this wintry weather for a exchange."
"Why, Jo?" and her mother appeared up speedy, as though the phrases recommended a double that means.
With her eyes on her paintings Jo spoke back soberly, "I need something new. I experience restless and demanding to be seeing, doing, and gaining knowledge of greater than I am. I brood an excessive amount of over my very own small affairs, and need stirring up, so as I can be spared this winter, I'd like to hop a touch manner and attempt my wings."
"Where will you hop?"
"To New York. I had a vibrant idea the previous day, and this is it. You recognise Mrs. Kirke wrote to you for a few respectable younger person to educate her kids and stitch. It's alternatively hard to discover just the aspect, but I assume I must healthy if I tried."
"My expensive, go out to service in that tremendous boarding house!" and Mrs. March looked surprised, but not displeased.
"It's now not precisely going out to service, for Mrs. Kirke is your buddy—the kindest soul that ever lived—and would make matters best for me, I recognise. Her own family is separate from the relaxation, and no one is aware of me there. Don't care in the event that they do. It's honest work, and I'm no longer ashamed of it."
"Nor I. But your writing?"
"All the higher for the change. I shall see and hear new things, get new ideas, and even if I have not plenty time there, I shall convey domestic portions of material for my rubbish."
"I haven't any doubt of it, but are these your handiest motives for this unexpected fancy?"
"No, Mother."
"May I realize the others?"
Jo looked up and Jo regarded down, then stated slowly, with surprising shade in her cheeks. "It can be useless and incorrect to say it, however—I'm afraid—Laurie is getting too fond of me."
"Then you don't care for him inside the manner it is glaring he begins to care for you?" and Mrs. March regarded disturbing as she put the question.
"Mercy, no! I love the dear boy, as I always have, and am immensely happy with him, but as for some thing extra, it is out of the question."
"I'm happy of that, Jo."
"Why, please?"
"Because, expensive, I do not assume you acceptable to one another. As pals you're very glad, and your common quarrels soon blow over, but I fear you'll both insurrection if you had been mated for existence. You are an excessive amount of alike and too keen on freedom, now not to say warm tempers and strong wills, to get on luckily collectively, in a relation which needs countless staying power and forbearance, in addition to love."
"That's just the feeling I had, though I could not explicit it. I'm happy you suspect he's best beginning to take care of me. It would trouble me lamentably to make him unhappy, for I could not fall in love with the pricey vintage fellow merely out of gratitude, could I?"
"You are positive of his feeling for you?"
The shade deepened in Jo's cheeks as she replied, with the look of mingled delight, delight, and ache which younger ladies wear while talking of first enthusiasts, "I'm afraid it is so, Mother. He hasn't stated something, however he appears a fantastic deal. I suppose I had higher go away earlier than it involves some thing."
"I consider you, and if it can be controlled you shall move."
Jo regarded relieved, and after a pause, stated, smiling, "How Mrs. Moffat might wonder at your want of management, if she knew, and the way she will be able to have fun that Annie can also nonetheless desire."
"Ah, Jo, moms may vary of their management, but the hope is the same in all—the preference to peer their youngsters satisfied. Meg is so, and I am content material along with her achievement. You I go away to revel in your liberty until you tire of it, for simplest then will you discover that there's some thing sweeter. Amy is my leader care now, but her properly sense will assist her. For Beth, I indulge no hopes except that she may be nicely. By the manner, she seems brighter this ultimate day or two. Have you spoken to her?'
"Yes, she owned she had a trouble, and promised to inform me by-and-through. I stated no extra, for I think I comprehend it," and Jo advised her little tale.
Mrs. March shook her head, and did now not take so romantic a view of the case, but looked grave, and repeated her opinion that for Laurie's sake Jo have to go away for a time.
"Let us say nothing about it to him till the plan is settled, then I'll run away before he can accumulate his wits and be tragic. Beth should suppose I'm going to delight myself, as I am, for I can't communicate approximately Laurie to her. But she can pet and luxury him after I'm gone, and so cure him of this romantic belief. He's been through so many little trials of the type, he's used to it, and will quickly get over his lovelornity."
Jo spoke hopefully, however couldn't rid herself of the foreboding worry that this 'little trial' would be more difficult than the others, and that Laurie might now not get over his 'lovelornity' as easily as heretofore.
The plan changed into talked over in a own family council and agreed upon, for Mrs. Kirke gladly widespread Jo, and promised to make a pleasing domestic for her. The teaching would render her independent, and such entertainment as she got is probably made worthwhile by way of writing, at the same time as the brand new scenes and society could be each beneficial and agreeable. Jo liked the prospect and became keen to be gone, for the home nest was developing too narrow for her stressed nature and adventurous spirit. When all turned into settled, with fear and trembling she told Laurie, but to her marvel he took it very quietly. He were graver than ordinary of late, however very best, and whilst jokingly accused of turning over a brand new leaf, he spoke back soberly, "So I am, and I mean this one shall live grew to become."
Jo turned into very a lot relieved that one in all his virtuous suits should come on just then, and made her preparations with a lightened coronary heart, for Beth regarded more pleased, and was hoping she was doing the excellent for all.
"One element I depart to your especial care," she said, the night before she left.
"You suggest your papers?" asked Beth.
"No, my boy. Be excellent to him, might not you?"
"Of route I will, however I can't fill your location, and he's going to pass over you unfortunately."
"It will not do any harm him, so recall, I depart him for your price, to plague, puppy, and keep in order."
"I'll do my first-rate, on your sake," promised Beth, questioning why Jo looked at her so queerly.
When Laurie said top-through, he whispered significantly, "It might not do a chunk of properly, Jo. My eye is on you, so thoughts what you do, or I'll come and convey you domestic."
CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
JO'S JOURNAL
New York, November
Dear Marmee and Beth,
I'm going to put in writing you a normal quantity, for I've got lots to tell, even though I'm no longer a great young lady travelling at the continent. When I overpassed Father's expensive vintage face, I felt a trifle blue, and may have shed a briny drop or , if an Irish female with four small kids, all crying greater or less, hadn't diverted my mind, for I amused myself by dropping gingerbread nuts over the seat whenever they opened their mouths to roar.
Soon the sun came out, and taking it as a great omen, I cleared up likewise and enjoyed my journey with all my coronary heart.
Mrs. K
irke welcomed me so kindly I felt at home at once, even in that large house full of strangers. She gave me a funny little sky parlor—all she had, but there is a range in it, and a pleasant desk in a sunny window, so I can sit down right here and write on every occasion I like. A fine view and a church tower opposite compensate for the various stairs, and I took a flowery to my den instantaneous. The nursery, where I am to train and sew, is a nice room subsequent Mrs. Kirke's personal parlor, and the 2 little women are pretty youngsters, as a substitute spoiled, I fancy, but they took to me after telling them The Seven Bad Pigs, and I've absolute confidence I shall make a version governess.
I am to have my food with the kids, if I opt for it to the extraordinary desk, and for the present I do, for I am bashful, although nobody will consider it.
"Now, my expensive, make your self at domestic," said Mrs. K. In her motherly manner, "I'm on the drive from morning to night, as you can suppose with any such own family, but a super tension could be off my mind if I recognise the kids are secure with you. My rooms are constantly open to you, and your very own will be as at ease as I could make it. There are some high-quality humans within the residence in case you sense sociable, and your evenings are constantly unfastened. Come to me if whatever is going incorrect, and be as glad as you could. There's the tea bell, I have to run and exchange my cap." And off she bustled, leaving me to settle myself in my new nest.
As I went downstairs quickly after, I noticed something I liked. The flights are very lengthy on this tall residence, and as I stood ready at the pinnacle of the 0.33 one for a little servant lady to lumber up, I noticed a gentleman come along behind her, take the heavy hod of coal out of her hand, bring it all of the manner up, positioned it down at a door close to through, and walk away, saying, with a type nod and a foreign accent, "It is going higher so. The little again is simply too young to haf such heaviness."
Wasn't it properly of him? I like such matters, for as Father says, trifles show person. When I cited it to Mrs. K., that nighttime, she laughed, and stated, "That have to had been Professor Bhaer, he is constantly doing things of that sort."
Mrs. K. Informed me he become from Berlin, very discovered and precise, however negative as a church mouse, and gives instructions to help himself and two little orphan nephews whom he's educating here, in step with the desires of his sister, who married an American. Not a very romantic story, however it involved me, and I turned into glad to hear that Mrs. K. Lends him her parlor for a number of his pupils. There is a tumbler door among it and the nursery, and I mean to peep at him, and then I'll let you know how he seems. He's nearly 40, so it is no damage, Marmee.
After tea and a cross-to-bed romp with the little girls, I attacked the large workbasket, and had a quiet evening talking to my new friend. I shall maintain a journal-letter, and ship it once per week, so goodnight, and more day after today.
Tuesday Eve
Had a energetic time in my seminary this morning, for the children acted like Sancho, and at one time I surely thought I have to shake them all spherical. Some good angel inspired me to strive gymnastics, and I stored it up until they have been glad to sit down and maintain still. After luncheon, the girl took them out for a stroll, and I went to my needlework like little Mabel 'with a willing mind'. I become thanking my stars that I'd discovered to make pleasant buttonholes, when the parlor door opened and shut, and a person started to hum, Kennst Du Das Land, like a large bumblebee. It become dreadfully mistaken, I realize, however I could not withstand the temptation, and lifting one quit of the curtain earlier than the glass door, I peeped in. Professor Bhaer become there, and at the same time as he arranged his books, I took an awesome take a look at him. A everyday German—alternatively stout, with brown hair tumbled all over his head, a bushy beard, good nose, the kindest eyes I ever saw, and a great large voice that does one's ears accurate, after our sharp or slipshod American gabble. His clothes have been rusty, his palms were massive, and he hadn't a virtually good-looking feature in his face, except his stunning teeth, but I favored him, for he had a nice head, his linen was very first-class, and he appeared like a gentleman, although two buttons have been off his coat and there was a patch on one shoe. He looked sober regardless of his buzzing, till he went to the window to turn the hyacinth bulbs towards the solar, and stroke the cat, who acquired him like an vintage pal. Then he smiled, and while a faucet got here at the door, referred to as out in a loud, brisk tone, "Herein!"
I turned into simply going to run, when I stuck sight of a morsel of a baby wearing a huge e book, and stopped, to peer what was occurring.
"Me desires me Bhaer," said the mite, slamming down her book and walking to fulfill him.
"Thou shalt haf thy Bhaer. Come, then, and take a goot hug from him, my Tina," stated the Professor, catching her up with a laugh, and retaining her so excessive over his head that she had to stoop her little face to kiss him.
"Now me mus tuddy my lessin," went at the funny little component. So he positioned her up at the table, opened the incredible dictionary she had added, and gave her a paper and pencil, and she or he scribbled away, turning a leaf now after which, and passing her little fat finger down the web page, as though locating a phrase, so soberly that I almost betrayed myself by way of fun, even as Mr. Bhaer stood stroking her pretty hair with a fatherly look that made me assume she should be his very own, even though she seemed extra French than German.
Another knock and the advent of young girls despatched me back to my paintings, and there I virtuously remained thru all of the noise and gabbling that went on round the corner. One of the girls stored guffawing affectedly, and pronouncing, "Now Professor," in a coquettish tone, and the other suggested her German with an accent that ought to have made it hard for him to maintain sober.
Both appeared to try his persistence sorely, for extra than as soon as I heard him say emphatically, "No, no, it is not so, you haf not attend to what I say," and as soon as there has been a loud rap, as if he struck the desk with his ebook, accompanied through the despairing exclamation, "Prut! It all is going terrible these days."
Poor man, I pitied him, and when the women had been gone, took just one more peep to peer if he survived it. He regarded to have thrown himself again in his chair, worn-out out, and sat there together with his eyes close till the clock struck two, while he jumped up, positioned his books in his pocket, as if geared up for some other lesson, and taking little Tina who had fallen asleep at the couch in his arms, he carried her quietly away. I fancy he has a tough existence of it. Mrs. Kirke asked me if I wouldn't cross right down to the five o'clock dinner, and feeling a bit bit homesick, I idea I could, simply to see what sort of humans are below the equal roof with me. So I made myself decent and attempted to slide in behind Mrs. Kirke, but as she is short and I'm tall, my efforts at concealment were as a substitute a failure. She gave me a seat by means of her, and after my face cooled off, I plucked up courage and appeared approximately me. The lengthy table was full, and every one rationale on getting their dinner, the gents especially, who regarded to be ingesting on time, for they bolted in each experience of the phrase, vanishing as soon as they have been carried out. There turned into the standard collection of young guys absorbed in themselves, young couples absorbed in every different, married women in their babies, and old gents in politics. I don't assume I shall care to have tons to do with any of them, besides one sweetfaced maiden woman, who looks like she had some thing in her.
Cast away on the very bottom of the table was the Professor, shouting answers to the questions of a very inquisitive, deaf old gentleman on one facet, and talking philosophy with a Frenchman on the alternative. If Amy have been here, she'd have turned her again on him forever due to the fact, sad to narrate, he had a amazing appetite, and shoveled in his dinner in a manner which might have horrified 'her ladyship'. I did not thoughts, for I like 'to look oldsters eat with a appreciate', as Hannah says, and the terrible guy ought to have wanted a deal of meals after coaching idiots all da
y.
As I went upstairs after dinner, of the young men had been settling their hats earlier than the hall reflect, and I heard one say low to the opposite, "Who's the brand new birthday celebration?"
"Governess, or something of that type."
"What the deuce is she at our desk for?"
"Friend of the old lady's."
"Handsome head, however no style."
"Not a chunk of it. Give us a light and come on."
I felt angry at the start, after which I failed to care, for a governess is as precise as a clerk, and I've were given feel, if I haven't style, that is more than some humans have, judging from the comments of the elegant beings who clattered away, smoking like terrible chimneys. I hate ordinary human beings!
Thursday
Yesterday became a quiet day spent in coaching, stitching, and writing in my little room, which may be very comfortable, with a mild and hearth. I picked up some bits of news and was brought to the Professor. It appears that Tina is the kid of the Frenchwoman who does the first-class ironing in the laundry right here. The little aspect has misplaced her heart to Mr. Bhaer, and follows him approximately the house like a dog each time he is at home, which delights him, as he may be very keen on children, although a 'bacheldore'. Kitty and Minnie Kirke likewise regard him with affection, and tell all styles of memories about the performs he invents, the affords he brings, and the notable tales he tells. The younger guys quiz him, it seems, call him Old Fritz, Lager Beer, Ursa Major, and make all way of jokes on his name. But he enjoys it like a boy, Mrs. Kirke says, and takes it so precise-naturedly that they all like him notwithstanding his foreign methods.
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