“Smuckers,” she whispers. She moves her lips, talking to him. I can’t hear, but I know from past conversations that she’s saying she loves him. Sometimes she confesses she doesn’t want to leave him, doesn’t want to be alone. She’s frightened about being alone.
Feebly she scratches Smuckers’s fur, but she’s focusing hard on me, whispering something fervently. I draw near. Eggplant, she seems to be saying.
“Are you hungry?”
“Eggplant…” she says, voice weak.
“Yes, Bernadette?”
“Eggplant makes your complexion…” she winces hard, “…wormlike.” She manages to infuse the word wormlike with incredulous contempt, as though I’ve performed such a feat of fashion monstrosity that she needs to muster all her strength to let me know.
“Damn. I was going for slug-like,” I joke as I adjust Smuckers so that he’s not on her tube.
She sniffs and turns back to Smuckers.
Over the three years I’ve known her, Bernadette has always been judgmental about my fashion choices. Did you get that out of a 1969 catalog for librarians, Vicky? Did JCPenney have a sale on drab pencil skirts? At times I literally seem to hurt her eyes, what with my uninspired ponytails and glasses and whatnot.
I have this suspicion that Bernadette came from money but that her fortune dwindled over the years. Clue one: her apartment is in an expensive neighborhood, but it’s really shabby inside, like it was once grand and went to ruin. Also, her clothes are worn versions of what was expensive maybe fifteen years back. Really, she seems to spend nothing on herself. But Smuckers? Nothing is too good for Smuckers. No expense spared.
I take her hand and put it where Smuckers most likes it so Smuckers will settle down.
“Smuckers,” she breathes.
I have this impulse to set a comforting hand on her arm, but human contact is not something Bernadette would ever want from me.
I’m really only around as an extension of Smuckers, a conduit for Smuckers’s important communications. Other than that, I’m chopped liver. If Bernadette could somehow automate me or keep me in a sardine tin with just the corner rolled up so my voice can escape, she would.
She looks up at me expectantly. I know what she wants. What does Smuckers have to say?
I’m at a loss for what to say, or rather, what Smuckers might say. I never signed up for this pet whisperer thing with her, and what with her being on her deathbed, it seems especially wrong.
But she’s waiting. Glaring. It’s Smuckers or nothing.
I suck in a breath and put on my whisperer expression, which I would describe as a curious listening face. “Smuckers says that you shouldn’t be afraid to die,” I say.
She waits. She wants more.
“He wants you to know it’s going to be okay, even though it might not feel like that right now.”
She nods, mumbles to Smuckers.
In terms of subject matter, this is getting into new territory. Smuckers has typically confined himself to lifestyle commentary—requests for certain styles of neck scritching or flavors of Fancy Whiskas dog treats.
Now and then he’ll speculate on the antics of pigeons outside the window. He has certainly never betrayed any divine wisdom about death or special understanding of esoteric secrets of the cosmos.
But I can tell from Bernadette’s face that she likes hearing that Smuckers said that.
“Vicky,” she says to Smuckers. “Vicky will care for you.”
“You know I will, Bernadette,” I say. “I’ll care for Smuckers as if he were my own flesh and blood.”
Though not literally. I don’t plan on racing around Central Park eating goose poop with him.
“He’ll live like a little king,” I amend.
Bernadette mumbles something and I settle into the surprisingly luxurious, leather-upholstered chair in the roomy private room they’ve given her. This is the hospice wing of one of the larger Manhattan hospitals where the news often talks about overcrowded conditions.
Maybe she has good insurance or something.
Bernadette scritches Smuckers’s neck. “Love you, Pokey,” she whispers.
I quietly scroll through Instagram, one ear attuned to the door, but all I hear is the sound of footsteps and muted conversations going up and down the hall, along with the occasional intercom announcement. I want to make this visit last as long as possible.
Smuckers will live like a little king, but maybe not a king of a wealthy country. More like a king of an impoverished nation, but one that loves their king. That’s the best I can do for him.
I took Smuckers home two weeks ago, the day before Bernadette went into the hospital. It wasn’t long before I discovered that the raw frozen food he gets is more expensive than spun gold, and I can only imagine what it costs to re-up his puffball hairstyle at his monthly standing appointment at the aforementioned dog salon, which has an original Warhol painting of a poodle in the waiting area.
I’ll just let you do the math on that one.
So, no, I don’t envision keeping Smuckers in the exact life he’s accustomed to. I’ve supported my little sister, Carly, ever since she was nine years old and I want her to have everything I never did. I want her to feel safe and dream big.
And if there’s some left over for a fabulous blowout, it’ll be her in that chair and they won’t have to tie her up to do it like poor Smuckers.
She’s sixteen now. It’s hard to raise a teen in Manhattan, but somehow we make it, thanks to my Etsy store of funky dog accessories. Someday I’ll break into women’s jewelry, but for now, it’s all sequined bow tie dog collars all the time.
Bernadette’s lips move. Nothing comes out except the word alone—I don’t want to be alone.
I feel a pang in my heart.
It’s strange how a long life can be reduced to a darkened hospice room, a stranger scrolling Instagram, and a little white dog.
Though I suppose it’s no more strange than my playing the part of a pet whisperer, which I never in my life wanted to do, and a hundred percent blame my friend Kimmy for.
Kimmy is the one who put on a festival to raise money for her animal shelter, the one who looked at me so beseechingly, holding a colorful scarf and hoop earrings, when the real pet whisperer didn’t show up for the pet whisperer booth.
Just make shit up, she said. It’ll be fun, she said.
I left Carly to handle the booth selling my dog accessories and put on the scarf.
I’d said whatever came into my head that day. A lot of pets had complaints about their food. Most wanted the owners to play with them more. Sometimes, if the companion person seemed sad, the pet would express intense empathy and love. I think, no matter who you are, your pet cares about you.
Sometimes I’d say how much the pet enjoys it when they talk to them or when they sing to them, because doesn’t everyone talk and sing to their pets?
Then Bernadette came by, steely and outraged, smashing the pavement with her cane alongside a tiny, energetic toy dog.
She threw down two five-dollar bills and demanded to know what Smuckers wanted to tell her. I honestly couldn’t tell whether she wanted to debunk me or if she really wanted to know.
So I took the little dog in my lap and rubbed his fuzzy little ears and started talking. I’d found, over the course of my afternoon as a pet whisperer, that the more flattering you are, the more the people buy it.
Smuckers loves you so much, I’d told her. He knows you think you’re too slow for him, but he doesn’t care. He loves you. And he mostly loves to hear you sing. Maybe you can’t run around with him, but he wants you to know that your singing is amazing to him. He thinks you’re beautiful when you sing.
When I looked up, her eyes were shining. She really believed me. I hadn’t felt like a scammer until then. She asked for my card, but I told her it was just for fun.
She didn’t believe I didn’t have a card. Like I was evilly keeping my card from her.
I told her that if she just wat
ched Smuckers closely enough, she could do it, too.
She bit back something about not all of us being pet whisperers and then proceeded to try and get my contact information from other people there, who refused to give it, and who she then insulted.
She finally left, and I thought I was home free, but New York has a way of pulling random people into each other’s lives. And you can be sure that the exact person you don’t want to run into in the city of millions will show up as a regular where you work or shop, or in Bernadette’s case, as a frequent sitter on the bench Carly and I had to pass on the way to her school.
I look up from Instagram to see Smuckers at the edge of the bed, like he wants to jump down. I go over and give him a vigorous ear rub and he circles and settles.
The last time I was here visiting, a priest came in, offering to say a few words, and Bernadette called him a sewer rat in the process of banishing him from the room. Sewer rat is one of her favorite insults for neighbors, mail carriers, clerks, and the revolving roster of maids she has in.
But never for Smuckers. I stay at the bedside, feeling so bad for her.
“Smuckers wants you not to be scared,” I say. “Smuckers says you’re not alone, and you won’t be.”
Her dry lips move. If I could give her anything it would be some way for her not to be scared, but it’s pretty unavoidable in her situation. I don’t care what religion you are, the unknown is always scary, and death is the ultimate unknown quantity.
A nurse comes in just then, entering stealthily. She spots Smuckers before I can flick the sheet over him like I usually manage to do. “You can’t have a dog in here!”
I shamble on a surprised face. “The other nurses didn’t say anything about the dog…” Since they didn’t see the dog.
“You need to remove the animal.”
“Get out,” Bernadette says hoarsely.
“I’m sorry,” the nurse says. “Animals not allowed.”
I go over. “Please,” I say under my breath. “The dog’s all she has. You need to give her a break.”
“Hospital regulations.”
I look back over at Bernadette, who is doing a nervous clutching thing on Smuckers’s fur, something Smuckers won’t tolerate too long. I go back over and put a protective hand on Bernadette’s to get her to stop it.
“A few more minutes,” I say. “If he was a service animal you’d let him in here. Can’t you just pretend he’s a service animal? I mean, he pretty much is one.”
“You’ll have to remove the animal.”
“A few more minutes,” I say.
“I’m getting security.” She spins and leaves. Security.
I turn to Bernadette. “The animal,” I say. “Please.”
She’s only paying attention to Smuckers, though. Her breathing is erratic. She’s upset.
Security will throw us out, and I probably won’t get Smuckers in here again. Which means this is the last time Bernadette sees Smuckers, and maybe she knows it.
I feel sad and helpless, but also like everything is important now. Like I have an important job to do as fake pet whisperer.
That’s when I make up the story.
“Smuckers has something to tell you, Bernadette,” I say. “He has something to say that he never told you before, and he needs to say it.”
She moves her lips. Nothing comes out, but I know what it is.
Tell me.
That’s what she always says when I announce that Smuckers has something important to communicate.
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ACKNOWLEDGMENTS
There is a strong theme of friends lifting each other woven through Breaking the Billionaire’s Rules. And whoa, that was definitely a theme when it came to writing this book and getting the details right.
So many of my book loving/reading/writing/word-nerding friends came throu
gh for me! You guys! What would I do without you?
The following list runs in semi-chronological order of appearance in the process. You guys helped me to reach higher than I could’ve alone.
Mira Lyn Kelly, kisses to you for that coffee shop discussion on the lunch-cart girl concept. Courtenay Bennett, thanks for discussing the pick-up-book-writer-guy concept with me and for being so supportive of the whole thing, plus your amazing read-through and thoughts on Max!!!
Skye Warren and Molly O’Keefe, you guys are such brilliant critique partners! Thank you for seeing so clearly when I couldn’t. Joanna Chambers, thank you for spending hours on Skype with me—all of your insights were pure gold to me. You so pulled me out of the fire! Deepest gratitude to my generous and talented writing group—Elizabeth Andrews, Terri Whitman, Mark Powell, and Marcia Peck—thank you for the thoughtful read and the incredible ideas and discussion of all things Max and Mia. You guys so came through! Thank you to Becca Mysoor for the mind-blowingly important feedback. OMG, you slay!
A wildly grateful shout-out to Sadye Scott-Hainchek for the amazing edits; to Judy Zweifel for the world-class proofread; and to Peggy Schnurr and Hilary Suppes for the late-breaking proofreading—you guys are angels to this writer who could not stop changing the book! Thanks also to Joan Lai for some eagle-eye last-minute catches.
At this point, if there are typos, it’s because I can’t stop changing the book like, ever.
Hugs to the lovely Molly O’Hare for expert assistance in the theatrical department, and Michele Catalano of Catalano Creative for the gorgeous cover.
And to you, Nina Grinstead—you keep me sane with your sweet friendship and crazy smarts! Thank you to the whole Social Butterfly gang—Brooke, Sarah, Chanpreet, Shannon, Hilary and Jen and the rest—love you guys!
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