by Alma Nilsson
The slave artist looked down at the hair covering Jane’s sex and said, “Just like a little animal.” He rubbed her sex a little bit and she made a pleasurable sound and closed her eyes. He continued rubbing. It had been years since had been with a woman and never a human.
Jane responded by arching her hips up. It all felt too good, the men were caressing and licking her breasts and now teasing her as well.
The slave artist took his large penis and positioned it at her small wet entrance. He looked up as his real lover sucking the human’s newly pierced nipple and imagined him as he plunged into the woman.
They all took turns in Jane’s vagina. All making comments about what a feral human she was. Finally, it was Jei’s turn and she wanted to feel his familiar penis in her. But to her dismay, he flipped her over and said, “Now it’s my turn to fill your virgin anus. This might hurt at first.”
Jane was so disappointed, and she was thinking about his words as she felt his finger and oil fill her anus.
He smacked her bottom.
“Yes, Primary.”
Jei began moving his large finger in a circular motion and then in and out of her anus. “Jane, you need to relax and enjoy this.”
“Yes, Primary,” but the truth was she was anything but relaxed. She already felt stretched by his fingers.
Jei began talking to the other men and they surrounded her again. One began kissing her on the mouth, with his teeth nibbling at her. Another was fondling her breasts and the others were on their knees, one licking her clitoris and the other fingering her vagina. Then with Jei’s finger in her anus she let all the attention and pleasure overwhelm her. She was almost ready to come again by the time he slowly entered her with his enormous ridged penis, it was a sweet pleasure and pain that she was sure she would regret later.
“That’s a good human pet. Take it all the way in,” Jei said and then he slowly began to move in and out of her anus while the other men pleasured her everywhere else.
It was almost too much, all the new sensations of being treated in such a degrading manner but being aroused by it at the same time. Feeling afraid but at the same time trusting Jei completely to know nothing would go too far.
Jei came inside of her anus and then moved back to watch the come and oil spill out. He slapped her bottom and spoke to the slave artists. Everyone switched positions but this time one man laid down on the bed and Jane was positioned over him and another man behind her and then the others in front of her. One man entered her vagina, the other her anus and then the others were kissing and nibbling on her nipples. She really was in ecstasy then. So many sensations that it almost felt like an out of body experience. She felt so naughty but loved it and loved that Jei was watching all these men take her.
Finally, when all of the men had come inside her one way or another they left and Jei picked her up and they both got into the shower together.
“Do you feel truly Alliance now Jane?”
“I do,” she said honestly. “So wickedly so, Primary.”
Jei gently smacked her bottom and then commenced his daily routine of washing her as if she really was his pet.
Jane realized as he was washing her hair that this had been one of his fantasies just as much as it has been hers. She smiled at the thought and just relaxed as he bathed her. And she remembered what Kara had said about Alliance men wanting to care for their wives all the time and thought, I’ll have to tell Kara it’s probably all part of this human pet fantasy they have. And then a darker thought ran through Jane’s mind, 200 years ago, if I were on an Alliance ship I probably would have been taken and used as a pet. She tried to shoo that thought away, but she couldn’t and then she was reminded of the brutality of this culture and questioned what she was becoming. She was ashamed of herself suddenly.
After the shower they dressed. Jei wanted his evening meal of course, but Jane made an excuse and wanted to return to her quarters.
“I don’t want you to go,” Jei said. He was concerned for her. “What has made you so upset?”
Jane looked at this man, trying so hard to please her according to his culture and had she not let the forget-me-not wear off, he still would be so pleasing to her. But now, with her right mind and memories, she was confused and upset. “I can’t explain it to you. It’s a human thing.”
“No, it’s not. This is a Jane thing and I’ll not just let you walk away from me without a better explanation.”
Jane looked up into his grey eyes and longed for him to be someone else. She didn’t know what to do then so she just bolted from his quarters. She ran through the corridors of the ship, but not wanting to go to her quarters either she didn’t know where to go so she ran to the shrine. When she saw that she was the only one in there, she locked the door behind her and sat in the center of the shrine with the statues of the Alliance gods with their short hair and green clothing all looking at her with only the quiet and the smell of incense and burning candles. After a few minutes, Jane put her knees up and her head on her knees and began to cry. She asked the gods through her tears, “Why have you done this to me? Wasn’t it enough torture to take me away from my family? But now this? I hate you. I wish you were real so I would have something more than the vague Empire to hate.”
Jei closed the shrine’s surveillance off to the military stream so that they would not be able to see Jane losing her mind in the shrine. He went to stand outside the door. He would stand there all night if he had to waiting for her.
Thankfully, after an hour she emerged. He looked at her. “Do you feel better now?”
Jane was surprised to see Jei waiting there for her. She was relieved in some ways. “I want to say sorry, but,” she began but he stopped her with his hand.
“No, Jane. You don’t need to apologize. I should have backed off. Now if you want to come with me, you may. I always like holding you when I sleep, but if you want to return to your own quarters, I understand that too. I’ll escort you there.”
“I want to go with you.”
This made Jei’s heart sing, but he merely took her elbow and they walked back to his quarters in silence. When they reached his quarters he asked, “Do you want something to eat?”
“I’ve missed the evening meal haven’t’ I?”
“Yes, but you can eat if you want.”
Jane shook her head, “I don’t want to do anything else wrong today.”
Jei took Jane in his arms, “You’ve done nothing wrong.” He touched her forehead, “You’re making this all up in here.”
Tears welled up in her eyes, “I don’t know how to stop it. I just want one life and now I have two and one I can’t ever have again.”
“Let’s get married, have a family and then you will have both,” Jei said gently. “You’ll be able to see your human family. I know you want that more than anything. It’s natural to want that.”
Jane shook her head, “I can’t. I can’t.” She began to sob.
“Jane,” he took her chin in his hand and directed her gaze to him. He felt so sorry for her that she was so sad, but he was confident that time would work this out. “Listen to me, I’m only going to say this once. I’m the Admiral of the Alliance Fleet. I’m over 200 years old. I’m not jealous or intimated by any human man who you used to have a relationship with. In fact, I think he’s a fool not pining away forever for you or trying to rescue you. I can share your love with him and with your human children. You don’t need to choose between us.”
“My heart is one. What you are asking me to do is to break it in half. I can’t do that, not even for you.” She cried and he held her. “I want to love you with my whole heart. That’s the way I love Jei. Not half here or half there, I’m not an Alliance person.”
Jei stroked her hair and listened to her. He didn’t know what to say. More than anything he wanted to resolve this issue so that they could go back to being happy. He wondered then if he should tell her that she was pregnant. Doctor Rea had told him as her urine alerted the D
octor to it immediately but the he didn’t think she should be told given the condition she was in. Jei also knew that she wouldn’t necessarily suspect because she always said her period was untrustworthy and liked to play hide and seek. As he stroked her hair, he considered her reactions, but in the end decided now was probably not a good time. However, any Alliance women would have been alerted to the fact that she was pregnant by the fact that she was sucking on men’s penises and offered food outside of designated eating times. But this was just another stark reminder to Jei how human and ignorant Jane was of so much of his culture. “I want you to love me however you can. Why don’t we begin there?”
Jane nodded, “I think I just want to go to sleep now.”
Jei led her into the bedroom that had all been cleaned now and asked her, “Do you want to sleep with your night clothing? I can send my squire to fetch it from your quarters.”
Jane thought it was very sweet of him to ask, “No I want to be next to you, skin to skin. It’ll make me feel better. I just want you to hold me as I fall asleep.”
Jei was not tired at all, but he took off his clothes and got into bed with Jane. He held her close to him as he always did. He kissed the top of her head and held her tight. He didn’t want to talk unless she did.
After several minutes of silence, she asked, “What if I can’t be the woman you want me to be? The woman I was a few weeks ago.”
“ZZsss,” he said trying to calm these thoughts. “This is just an aftershock from the forget-me-not, the doctors on the Zuin were fools giving it to you in the first place. You’re still that woman. You just remember more now, but the forget-me-not doesn’t change you, it just brings different parts of you forward.”
“But what if I’m not?” Jane really believed that her memories changed her. She remembered how free and easy she felt before when she was under the influence of the forget-me-not. Jim and Sandra’s relationship hadn’t bothered her, but now, it was as if weights were chained to her body and everything, she did was a struggle. “Maybe I can have the memories permanently erased.”
“No, don’t do that. You’ll get through this. Just close your eyes now and sleep. Tomorrow go see Doctor Rea.”
“I was going to.”
“Good.”
After a few minutes of silence Jane said, “I think the sex was too much.”
Jei smiled, but she couldn’t see it. “I hope we didn’t hurt you?” She didn’t make any sounds of displeasure that he could remember.
“Not at the time, but it was that pleasure and pain sensation that you know later is going to be all pain.”
“Should we call Doctor Rea here now?”
Jane considered this, but they were already in bed having this quiet and reflective moment together, but before she could say, ‘no, it’s fine,’ Jei had already summoned him.
In minutes, Doctor Rea came into the bedroom and asked, “What’s the emergency?”
Jane blushed and Doctor Rea knew from reading her mind what the problem was.
“I’m actually relieved you can read my mind and I don’t have to verbalize this,” Jane admitted.
Doctor Rea nodded and said professionally, “Please come over here. This shouldn’t be a problem. It happens to a lot of people.”
Jane walked over in front of the doctor naked and he investigated the problem with some of his portable medical devices. After some lasers and she didn’t even know what kind of devices he directed into her anus, she felt better.
“I’d also like to heal some of those bruises if you don’t mind, I’m a doctor I just can’t walk away looking at those on your pale skin.”
Jane looked down and noticed that she did have bruises all over her body. She didn’t remember anything particularly hurting but then again, it was a crazy afternoon. “Sure,” she said casually making eye contact with Jei across the room. He didn’t even look the slightest bit guilty for the bruises. “You bruised your pet,” she said baiting him.
“Now I’m having her healed.”
Jane gave him a smile and he smiled back.
Doctor Rea finished then nodded to Jei and bowed to them both and left.
Jei crossed the room quickly, picked Jane up and carried her back to bed. “Now I am going to kiss away all of these bad thoughts. I’ll make you forget how you could have ever loved a human man. And I promise you Jane, if your people were to try and take you back somehow as I know they did with Kara, I wouldn’t be as diplomatic as Tir. I’d kill to get you back. You remember that when you think about your heart.”
The Alliance part of Jane was wooed by this hypothetical act of love and she tried to tell the human Jane to be quiet and love this strong violent man as this was her new life. After they slowly and gently made love, she drifted off to sleep thinking about Jei rescuing her as if they were in an old adventure story.
For the next weeks, Jane and Jei were in a constant state of flux. Sometimes everything was normal and wonderful, other times Jane felt terrible, as if she we a traitor to humanity and her family. However, she still wasn’t ready to talk to Jim or Sandra. She talked to her children just as regularly as she always did and put on a brave face. She told herself that her children were almost adults now and didn’t need her, when she felt guilty about her new life with Jei. But that only half-worked.
One day she came off duty and then accepted Doctor Rea’s invitation to play a strategy game, so she was later than usual returning to Jei’s quarters. But in the Alliance, most things were taken for granted such as mealtimes. One was always expected to have the evening meal with their family. And for Jane that meant Jei. But she was having so much fun with Rea she lost track of the time and had to walk quickly to Jei’s quarters as to not to miss the evening meal. It wasn’t because he would be angry, but it was just she didn’t want to keep him waiting as she knew he wouldn’t begin without her as eating alone in the Alliance was considered unlucky.
Jane walked past Jei’s guards with a nod, into his quarters and then into the private dining room. She stopped short then when she heard music. She had not heard music in over a year. The Alliance didn’t have music. She stood there in awe and listened,
But the room was hummin' harder
As the ceiling flew away
When we called out for another drink
And the waiter brought a tray
And so it was later
As the miller told his tale
That her face, at first just ghostly
Turned a whiter shade of pale
It was the song a Whiter Shade a Pale. It was her favorite song. She walked into the dining room and looked at Jei with surprise. He was patiently waiting for her. “Do you hear the music? Or am I losing my mind?”
He smiled, “I’m glad you hear it. I went to a lot of trouble to get it.”
She went over and kissed him while she listened to the rest of the song. She decided she would have the computer play it over and over again all night. “I hope you like it too. I’m going to play it a lot.”
Jei didn’t understand how this gift could be more rewarding than jewelry to Jane. She couldn’t show this off to anyone and it was for no one but her. He didn’t mind the human music, but he couldn’t say this was something he would long to hear either. He hoped that this gift would lead here to the realization that she was pregnant. He was surprised now that she had not noticed herself. Doctor Rea had told him that it was best she discovers it than they tell her, but Jei didn’t think that was a good idea. He had seen how powerful denial could be in men and assumed it could be two-fold in women. Meaning that he knew if Jane willed herself to believe something, no matter how many facts there were to the contrary she would stick to it until she would be forced to do otherwise.
“How did you know I liked this song out of the trillions of Earth songs?” Jane asked.
“I had to contact Tir and have him pull the files from the Dakota. Then find what you liked the best. To be honest, I was looking for your taste in clothing or jewelry.”
“Human women don’t really have clear set preferences that would be noticeable for men to easily buy as Alliance women do.”
“I realized that but then I noticed every crew member had a lot of entertainment and that some music was played again and again. So, I assumed you would like to hear this again.”
“That doesn’t sound too troubling,” Jane commented.
“No, the troubling part was Tir. He charged me a fortune to look through the Dakota’s files.”
Jane stilled then, “You didn’t listen to my personal logs or read my messages, did you?”
“No, of course not. I wouldn’t want you doing that to me, so I would never do that to you. Plus, what would be the point? Circumstances have changed. If you listened to my messages to my former wife would you feel jealous?”
“No.”
“Exactly. That life you had is your own and I didn’t know you then. My sole purpose was to find something to make you happy. Now let’s eat before the evening meal is finished and we miss it.”
They both sat down and ate the food. Jane had the song on repeat. “Did you get any other music?”
Jei laughed, “Not with Tir being so annoying and reminding me you weren’t allowed to have it yet.”
“I forgot,” Jane replied, and she was so lost in thought thinking about her old life she didn’t even think about the significance of the music or his comment ending in the word, ‘yet’.
Jei sighed and thought while he looked at Jane, I will give her three more weeks and then I will just tell her because we will have to marry, or this child will be Houseless.
Problems inside House Human
Jane was just finishing her lunch with Jei when she received an automated message about House Human from the High Council. She said before looking at it, “I hope it’s not another fine. These women, I tell you.” However, she paled when she read the message,
Please be informed Babette Lynn Thomas of House Human is pregnant and unmarried.