by Karen Deen
Taking in a big breath, I wait.
For what, I don’t know.
But I know it will be amazing and that’s all I need.
Kane
Holy shit!
Pull it together, man. I stand outside the bedroom just trying to stop my cock from exploding in my pants. I spent all afternoon trying to think how I’m going to let her go and then she does this.
Fuck, Red, what are you doing to me?
Her submitting to me and giving me total control over her body is more that I can ever ask for from her. I never expected we would get to this place. Her spirit is so strong and wild, I knew I could push her and bend her to my will but not for her to totally let go.
She is my perfect woman.
How the hell do I let her go?
My hands are running through my hair and pulling on it, trying to focus my energy.
I might not know how to get through tomorrow but I sure as shit know what to do with this sexy woman cuffed to my bed.
Walking to the kitchen, I grab two glasses with ice and a bottle of scotch. None of this fancy shit tonight. We need something hardcore. Hooking my phone into the sound system, setting up the mood for a night of hot, sexy fucking. That’s what my Red wants and that’s what she is going to get.
Standing at the doorway watching her lying like a sacrifice on my bed, I can’t seem to move my eyes from her. It’s like she’s a mirage, and I’m afraid if I walk any closer, she’ll disappear. Slowly, I pour two scotches, setting them on the dresser just inside the door. I take a gulp of mine then leave them there, ready for later. The music in the background is breaking the silence that was filled with just breathing a moment ago.
I slowly strip off my clothes, I don’t want to rush. Putting on a slow torturous show for her is going to build her anticipation. Already her legs are moving as she tries to find some release.
“Like what you see, Red? Do you approve?”
“Very much,” she pants. “I want to touch you, too.”
“Do you now? Not sure you’ve earned touching yet. We need to work up to that. Remember rule two. I control what happens in the bedroom.” Oh, that flush across her body has me wanting to roll her onto her stomach and pull that pussy up in the air and fuck it hard. Show her how in charge I am. I can’t rush this, though. I only get one night of this, so I need to pace her. Bring her almost to that peak many times before I finally let her fall. Then I will fuck her like she has never been fucked before. I might not be able to keep her, but damn if I’ll make sure she never forgets she’s mine.
I’m such an arrogant asshole, but I don’t give a fuck. No one will ever make her feel like I can. They may be a better man and be able to keep her safer than I can, but sexually they will always be second in line. She won’t tell them but deep down she’ll wish they’re me. My caveman is beating his chest, happy about this.
“Kane, please. I need you.” Her anticipation is building nicely. I lean down and kiss her roughly on the mouth. Not asking for permission, just exploring her mouth, and her back arches off the bed, wanting more.
“What do you want, Red? You have to tell me what you need.” Her head is starting to thrash from side to side gently.
“My tits. Oh god. Touch, suck, lick, just anything.” She’s panting.
I want her on a high, hanging for release, but I don’t want her past the point where it becomes pain.
Bending down, I very gently lick both her nipples, one at a time. Then blow on them while they’re nice and wet. Watching them harden like little bullets standing at attention, rock hard. This attention just makes her squirm more. I put my hand on her breast and squeeze it firmly as I take the other one into my mouth, sucking it hard. Rubbing her nipple between my finger and thumb, the loud moan is like heaven. I crave to hear more.
I keep caressing her chest, alternating between each breast with my hands and mouth. Her lower body is moving constantly. I know I’m building the pressure and driving her to want a release but I’m not ready to let her come yet.
“How badly do you want me to fuck you, Red?” I ask as I climb onto the bed. I straddle her body as I bury my face in her neck. I breathe in her anticipation as it oozes from her skin in the sheen of sweat.
“So bad, so fucking bad. Now. Want. Now,” her breathy voice passes by my ear. She’s finding it harder to hold herself together now that I’m keeping her from moving with my body. My hands start the journey down as I raise my head, looking into her eyes. I want to see everything she’s feeling. Her eyes are the window to her soul.
“Soon, baby. You can take more first. I plan on shattering you before I slam into you. As you are falling over that giant cliff, then I’ll fuck you through your climax. It will be like nothing you’ve ever felt before. I promise you that.” Wriggling backwards down the bed, now my mouth is resting on her stomach planting little soft kisses. She is mewling now every time I touch her.
“Kane.” She’s desperate for me to help her out.
“Shh, just feel it. Keep your eyes open and watch me. See me take what’s mine.” Pushing her legs apart as far as I can, I’m now positioned lying between them. She is so aroused that she is glistening. All pink and ready for me. Taking that first slow swipe with my tongue from the bottom of her folds to her clit, I groan at the taste. Like liquid gold to me. She lets out a little squeal at the touch on her button that is so close to detonating with pleasure. The idea of me holding her off is getting harder as I can feel my cock leaking and straining to the point of pain.
The noises she’s making are driving me crazy. I want more. I can’t hold back anymore. I begin to ravage her like I’m taking my last meal, which in a way I am. The more I lick my tongue over her nub, the louder she screams.
Watching her, I take her clit into my mouth and suck with all I have as I slide two fingers inside her at the same time. Her body arches as she explodes with an intense orgasm firing through her body. I lap up everything she releases all over my tongue. A taste I will never forget.
While she’s trying to come down from the high, I raise to my knees and lift her ass up and slam home inside her. I want to feel her pussy muscles still contracting around my cock that’s so hard it’s like a steel rod. So wet and tight, she wraps around me, like I’m where I belong.
“Kane. Now, fuck me now,” she begs me. Oh, how I’ve longed to have her here bound and begging for me to make her come again with me pounding her as hard as I like. This is like the fantasy that I never knew I wanted until it was laid out in front of me.
Just. Like. This
“Oh, Red. God. You’re everything. My everything.” I can’t hold back any longer as I slam into her and fill her with all that I am. Marking her as mine. She will always be mine.
Falling forward, totally wrung out, I’m lying on her chest just slowly kissing her. I can hear her breathing slowing as she starts to come back to the here and now. I move to the side so I can see her face and check on her.
“You are amazing, baby.” She smiles at me, her sated body lying limp. I reach behind to grab the keys so I can release her. Her arms will be sore from being held up and straining against her cuffs. As I click the lock on each wrist, I rub the dull red marks. Lucky we didn’t use my cuffs. They aren’t very forgiving, especially when she was pulling so hard, right at the point when she fell into the blissful world I took her to.
Placing soft kisses on her wrists, I then wrap her in my arms as I lie back on the bed. Drawing her as close as I can. Neither of us speak we just stay in the moment together. Slowly she starts to draw circles on my chest. Her tender touch seems such a contrast to what we just shared, but also seems so right. With the music still softly playing in the background, there’s so much I want to say, but can’t.
“Well, little lady, that was unexpected.” She lets out a little giggle that resonates in my chest making my heart skip a little beat. “Want to tell me where they came from? Or are they from your little box of treasures you have at home?”
; “What?” she says sitting up a little, resting her head in her hands on my chest. “I don’t have a box of tricks, well, I didn’t before today anyway.” Her cheeks blush a little, which makes me smile. My confident Lilly a little embarrassed is just perfect.
“Well, well, well. Tell me where you’ve been today then, my cheeky girl. Did a bit of shopping just for me, did we?”
“What makes you think I shopped for you?” She tries to look all sassy but she’s not fooling me.
“Let me see,” I place my finger on my chin. “The previous interest by a certain person in this room in my handcuffs and what they may or may not be useful for. The fact the handcuffs currently hanging on my headboard are red just like a certain person on my bed’s name when she is being sexy. Last but not least, the fact you chose that bag over being fucked. I know you shopped just for me, baby, and I applaud your choice.” By now she’s laughing at me, so I roll her on her back and hover above her. “That was so fucking hot, walking in to find you cuffed to my bed, naked and waiting just for me.”
I pause watching her breathing change.
“So. Fucking. Hot.” Her hands come up to cup my face.
“I loved it too. You are the only person I would trust to do that.”
Goddammit. How do I answer that? Words are too hard. Lips say it better.
We start softly, but as it does every time, it heats up quickly.
“So, tell me, Red, what else did you buy on your little adventure today?” I pull her hands over her head again stroking her wrists. “More presents for me, I hope.”
“Actually, the rest are for me.”
“You know I want a show and tell now, don’t you? There is no way you’re getting out of here without me knowing what else you have hidden in that bag. You might think they’re for you, but I bet I could find a use for me to enjoy them too.”
“Always an answer for everything. You always try to make everything about you.”
“You should know by now I’m the center of the universe.”
She dips her head slightly and whispers, “Definitely the center of mine.”
Shit, I’m so screwed. This is not going to end well.
22
Lilly
KANE IS PRESSING TO see what else I bought today but I’m too embarrassed to show him. The handcuffs are pretty out there, even for me.
Best sex ever, though!
Oh my god, I’m never going to regret that decision.
“Maybe we can keep the other things for another time. I don’t want to give away all my secrets in one night,” I say with a little trepidation, but Kane laughs at me.
“You know that’s not happening, right, Red? I’ll cuff you to the bed if I have to and make you watch as I take my own tour through your bag,” he exclaims.
“You wouldn’t,” I gasp trying to get out from under him to get to my bag.
“Oh, I certainly would. Now, we can do this the easy way or the hard way. Your choice, little one. So, let’s try this again. Want to show me what’s in the bag?”
“Excuse me, Officer , I am not one of your suspects, you know. Where is your search warrant?” I giggle as his face drops down close to mine.
“Baby, I don’t need no piece of paper to tell me I can search and touch every single inch of your body. Those handcuffs are all the permission I needed from you. Now let’s play show and tell, shall we. Little Red, show the big bad wolf what’s in your basket.” He’s smiling but it is such a wicked smile. One that tells me he knows he has the power and he loves it way too much.
“Fine. But if you make fun of me, I’m going home.” I pout at him.
“The only fun I’m looking for is playing with more toys. Now get moving, time’s a wasting, woman.” He slaps me on the ass as I get up to walk across the room to retrieve my bag. I give myself the mental pep talk: ‘Come on, you just cuffed yourself naked to his bed, this can’t be any more embarrassing than that. Pull your sassy pants up, woman!’
Pulling the shopping bag out, Kane is already grinning at the plain brown paper bag. They don’t want to embarrass you, so the packaging is plain and inconspicuous. The contents, however, are far from plain and boring.
I could drag this out or just get the humiliation over with all in one go. I tip the bag upside down on the bed next to him. His eyes almost pop out of his head.
“Oh, Red, we are going to have so much fun here tonight. What an interesting assortment of goodies you’ve brought in your basket. The wolf is hungry. I think he needs to eat. Let’s start with the edible undies and chocolate paint. This is going to be so much fun. Get over here now.” He reaches up and grabs my hand, pulling me on top of him on the bed. Before I know it, we’re rolling around on the bed laughing and arguing about who gets to use the paint first.
The night gets crazy and we proceed to test out the different vibrators I have, including the vibrating cock ring, which barely fits around Kane. I got an extra-large, but they need another size bigger than that called wolf size. I’m not sure who enjoyed that one more, him or me. His neighbors might be asking some questions tomorrow. I screamed so loud when we climaxed together, I’m sure they heard it all. I never knew it was possible to come so many times in one night.
***
I have no idea what time it is. We’re both just lying wrapped together on the bed. Hot, wet and sticky. Kane suggested we need to shower but neither of us have the energy to get up.
“Have you ever been fucked to the point you don’t even have the energy to move?” he asks in a low whisper into the darkness.
“Yes, five minutes ago, in this bed by a big bad wolf. I don’t think I’m capable of anything more than sleep right now,” I answer.
“Let’s do that then. Sleep now and shower in the morning. I don’t want to let you go. I want you stuck to me all night. Literally.” He quietly chuckles to himself.
I slap his chest. “You’re disgusting, but I’m too tired to disagree.” I start to snuggle in tighter and Kane reaches down to pull the quilt over the top of us. The music is still playing in the background in a peaceful low level. It’s like a lullaby helping me to fall into dreamland. The thoughts that are in my head as I drift off are not ones I can share. I don’t want to scare him away. They’re safe just as dreams for the moment.
Tonight, has been the most amazing night of my life. For the first time I have found a man who totally gets me. All of me. The sassy, the confident, the demanding, the vulnerable, soft and caring. But then there is the submissive lover part to me that I never knew existed, and he totally owns that too.
As I give in to sleep, I hear Kane’s breathing evening out. I’m right where I belong. Right where I want to stay from now on.
Kane
I’ve never had a night where I have literally fucked myself to exhaustion.
Last night was insane.
Everything I could have ever asked for.
I’ve been lying her for the past hour just listening to music and watching Lilly sleep in my arms. I’ve memorized every line on her face. The way her cheekbones run across her face. The length of her eyelashes as they lie on her skin while her eyes are closed. How long it takes between each of her breaths as she breathes in her sleep. Feeling the softness of her hair and the silkiness of her skin. I need to remember every square inch of her.
How am I going to do this?
Last night she laid herself wide open for me. Gave me every single ounce of her soul. Using it at times to tell me things she can’t yet voice.
Now I’m going to crush her heart and tear it apart. Push her to walk away while I watch her leave a trail of blood behind her. She’s not the only one this is going to devastate.
I feel her breathing start to change slightly, then her body moves a little. My heart starts beating hard in my chest in anticipation.
“Morning,” she says looking up at me with such gorgeous eyes like I hang the moon for her. I lean down and kiss her forehead, holding my lips there that little bit longer just to savo
r. I inhale her beautiful scent of seduction mixed with the smell of sex.
I hear the song change and Meghan Trainor and John Legend start with ‘I’m gonna love you like I’m gonna lose you’. I’m lost in the two voices saying all the words I’m feeling. The ones I can’t say but I know I can show Lilly. Just one last time, but this one’s different.
I start to kiss her softly on the mouth. I want this to be more than fucking, I want her to feel everything I can’t tell her out loud.
“You are everything. Never forget that,” I whisper as I kiss her and slowly slide inside her. She opens willingly to me, her eyes fixed on mine. Our rhythm is perfect and sensual. There’s no rush. We need to savor every second. I wish I could tell her that, so she knows to hang on to every memory. Part of me senses she already knows. Reality is, though, that’s just my guilt trying to make me feel better. How could she know, that by making hot, sweet love to her I’m saying goodbye in the only way I can.
We’re both riding the emotions as we’re close to the final climax. I want to pull out to make it last longer, but nothing is going to stop me from feeling this moment of the release of love. Looking down at Lilly as she arches her back, her mouth open and head back. She is so beautiful. In the throes of ecstasy, she finally lets herself go. Calling my name from her lips as I pump every last drop of myself into her. Telling her over and over in my head, how much I love her and always will.
My little Red
You will always be my little Red.
***
I can’t bear to shower together this morning. It’s just going to be too hard. I send her in to shower on the promise I’ll make her breakfast. It’s the least I can do before we have the talk. The one I’m dreading. The one that sucks big time. The one that’s going to kill us both. The worst part is that I can’t tell her the truth, so she’s just going to think I’m an asshole and not worth the air I’m breathing. I only pray deep down her soul remembers the real me. Then one day it reminds her when I can finally let her in to the truth where I’ve been.