by Dawn Brower
She…hated being home.
There were too many reminders of the love she had lost. Scarlett had never truly recovered from being abandoned at the altar. JD’s betrayal had scarred her, and because of that, she had trouble letting anyone in. Trust wasn’t easy, and she held on to her independence with everything inside of her. She would never allow anyone to hurt her like JD had again.
She pulled her car into a nearby parking slot and killed the engine, then stepped out of the cherry red Camaro. She hadn’t put the top down on it, but she might on her way home. Scarlett loved having the wind blow in her hair. It helped her to feel alive and free. She pocketed her key fob and headed to the boardwalk. Waves crashed to the shore in a spray of white foam, then retreated back to sea. The white sand sparkled in the sunlight, and she bet it was scorching hot to walk on barefoot. She was tempted to find out, but she kept her shoes on and stayed on the boardwalk as planned. If she strolled along the blue bridge that connected to the boardwalk, it would lead out to a breakwall that kept some of the largest waves from battering the coast. She had always liked walking along the stone and steel breakwall. She especially liked it when the waves were at their roughest and some of the salty spray washed over her.
Scarlett shoved her hands into her jean pockets and strolled across the bridge. The sea was tranquil it helped calm her. She didn’t know what she had to be nervous about, but she couldn’t shake the feeling. There were several people already crossing the bridge. Some were heading toward the breakwall, and others were making their way back to shore. She ignored most of them, not wanting anyone to recognize her. This was her time for herself.
When she reached the breakwall, she stopped at the edge and stared out at the dark blue water and sighed. She leaned against the railing and closed her eyes. Scarlett took a deep breath and listened to the wind. A soft melody was already forming in her mind…
“Scarlett?” a male said.
That voice was familiar. Memories Scarlett wanted to forget, that she’d believed she’d buried deep, resurfaced. His laughter echoed through her mind. That husky tone of his voice crashed over her, when he'd whispered sweet words, naughty innuendos, and promised to love her forever. Her heart beat faster, and she found it difficult to breathe in and out. Pain shot through her lungs as they became oxygen deprived.
This couldn’t be happening. Not now. She had to be mistaken… He couldn’t possibly be in Sparkle City. All right, it was possible, but she hadn’t seen him in a decade. He’d done his best to avoid her, and she’d done the same. Slowly, she let her eyelids flutter open, and she turned to glance in the direction the voice had come from. Scarlett would not freak out. She wouldn’t. He was still as handsome as she remembered; no, more so. He had stubble on his chin that made him sexier. He had a scar on his forehead that should have diminished his allure, but it only made him more appealing. His dark hair was disheveled as if he had finger-combed it—or someone had done it for him. She repressed that sting of jealousy at the idea of him with another woman. He wasn’t hers anymore and never would be again. “JD,” she said. Her voice was barely above a whisper. He was really there, and she would have to talk to him. No… She didn’t have to. Scarlett owed him nothing.
She turned to leave, but he reached out and grasped her upper arm, preventing her from taking another step. Scarlett spun around and glared at him. “Let me go.”
“Please don’t leave,” he said. His voice was hoarse with emotion, but she wasn’t sure what for. “I…” He swallowed hard. “There are some things you need to know.”
“I don’t,” she insisted. “If it has anything to do with you, it’s best you keep it to yourself. Whatever there was between us ended when you left me at the altar.” God, it was so hard to say that aloud. “Now kindly remove your hands from me, and we can part in peace.”
He let her go and shoved his hands into his pockets. “I made a mistake.” His voice flowed with remorse, and she almost believed him.
She snorted at his words and laughed a little maniacally. “A mistake?” Scarlett shook her head in disbelief. “Is that what you’re calling ditching me and running off with my best friend?”
“It wasn’t like that…” He blew out a frustrated breath. “There was never anything between me and Shayla. I’d never do that to you.”
“No,” she said with disgust. “You would leave me to face all our friends and family alone.” She took a step forward and jabbed her index finger into his chest a few times. “You would run away like a coward and pursue your dreams. Not once considering what I wanted.” She poked him again. “You would let me believe the worst of you so it made your life easier.” She glared at him. “But you want to know what? None of that matters. I’ve moved on, and so should you. If you see me again, do me a favor and do not bother to speak to me. I don’t give a damn about your explanations or your messed up version of an apology.”
With those words, she stomped away from him. Why had the whispers told her to come to the beach? She didn’t want to see JD, and she sure as hell had no desire to have a conversation with him. A part of her wondered if he was back in Sparkle City for good. The other part of her dreaded the idea of it. If he’d come home, then there was a good chance they would run into each other again. That would mean more opportunities for them to have disagreements and awkward interactions.
What had she done to deserve this? Maybe she should go back on tour. At least then she’d be saved from reliving her worst heartache.
EXCERPT: Better as a Memory
Begin Again 2
Prologue
Belle brushed her hand down the skirt of her black cocktail dress. The ballroom of the hotel where the fundraiser was being held was decorated in high style. She hated these events her parents insisted she attend. Her father, Wentworth Brennan, was a United States senator. She’d gotten used to attending the tedious events early on in her life. That didn’t mean she’d ever grown to like them. This one would be no different than any of the others.
“Hello, dear.” Her mother, Adria Brennan, leaned down and kissed her cheek. “I’m glad you were able to attend tonight. Has work been keeping you too busy to pay us a visit?”
She grimaced at her mother’s condescending tone. Adria didn’t approve of her occupation. Belle worked as an emergency room doctor at the local hospital in Castleberry. It kept her busy and she loved the constant adrenaline rush involved. She couldn’t imagine doing anything else. Her mother thought it was beneath her. It wasn’t being a doctor she objected to. It was not having a prestigious doctor in the family. Belle had a lowly position at the hospital without any real ambition to climb to a higher one. A different specialty would have been better, anything other than a general surgeon. It was, in her mother’s mind, uncouth. Her daughter should rise higher and do better. She came from one of the best families, and there were expectations.
“Everything is fine at work, and yes I’ve been busy.” Belle glanced around the room and spotted a gorgeous man sipping a glass of champagne. His dark hair curled around his ears enticingly, and his gaze left her breathless. He was staring at her, and her mother. At least it appeared as if he was. She could be wrong. With a quick glance she surveyed her surroundings. No, there wasn’t anyone else near enough for it to be anyone else. Who was he?
“Are you listening to me?” her mother demanded.
“Hmm?” she said absentmindedly. The man called to her on a level she didn’t understand, and wasn’t sure if she wanted to. He might make this evening worthwhile after all. She’d have to introduce herself later, after she made sure to speak to both her parents. “I think I’ll go say hello to father.”
After she hugged her mother she turned on her heels to leave. She didn’t want to give her mother any reason to keep talking. Belle had heard it all before. Why should she listen to her tirade any longer? It had been old before and now it was ridiculous. She loved her mother, but that didn’t mean she had to follow a path of her design. This was her life and she’d
live it as she chose, not how her mother wanted her to.
Belle strolled over to her father’s side and waited for him to quit speaking. He turned toward her and smiled. “I didn’t see you come in. Have you been here long?”
“No. I arrived a short time ago.” She gestured to the room in general. “This is a huge turnout. What’s the cause this time?”
Her father was as far from a corrupt politician as one could get. He supported a lot of liberal causes that put the conservatives on edge. He was big on preserving the environment and cutting down this generation’s carbon footprint. It was one of the things that appealed to the voters. He was charismatic and had big ideas. Those ideas kept him in office, and they evolved with whatever he deemed necessary to the preservation of the country he loved. Sometimes she wondered what her parent’s saw in each other. They were two totally different people.
“This one is to raise awareness to a number of environmental concerns. There is also a few endangered species I want to bring attention to.” He grinned. “If you get me going on this topic you won’t be able to shut me up.”
“You’re enthusiastic about it.” She smiled back at him. “I see nothing wrong with that.”
Her father was amazing, but he never had a lot of time for her. His causes always pulled him way from the family. She rarely saw her parents when she was growing up. It wasn’t a bad childhood. Belle had everything she could possibly want or need. Except attention from the two people who had brought her into the world. She’d accepted it, mostly. They meant well and they loved her in their own way. That was all that counted.
“Pardon me, Senator Brennan,” a man interrupted. He was glancing around the room with agitation. “I was wondering if you had a moment to speak privately.”
“I’m sorry this isn’t a good time,” her father stated. “Please set up an appointment and I’ll gladly speak with you in my office.”
The man sighed and shook his head. “I’ve already tried that. Your secretary said you don’t have any immediate openings. Please, sir, it’s important.”
Her father nodded, resigned, to dealing with him. “I’m sorry, dear. We’ll catch up later.”
“Don’t worry about it. I know how to entertain myself.” Belle sadly, did. This sort of thing happened more often than not. Perhaps she should seek out the gentleman who’d been staring at her earlier. His gaze had promised entertainment. She could use a diversion. After scanning the room and being unable to locate him she became resigned to another boring evening.
Why did she even come to these functions anymore? She should go home and kick her shoes off. Days off didn’t come around often enough for her to enjoy as it was. She’d already handled all the niceties by speaking with both her parents. In all honesty she could leave and call it good. They’d not bother her any more that evening. An appearance was all that was required of her. She grabbed a glass of champagne off the tray of a nearby waiter and downed it. She set it on a different waiter’s tray passing by, and grabbed another. She sent up a silent thanks for her parents’ belief in having plenty of wait staff on hand for their fundraisers. One was always nearby when a drink was needed.
“What are we drinking to?”
Belle turned toward the man she’d been thinking of a few moments prior. Damn he was sneaky and quiet. Where had he come from? “My freedom for the evening. You?”
“I’m not much for drinking.”
She wanted to call bullshit, but refrained. It hadn’t been her imagination that he’d been nursing his own glass of champagne earlier. Though she supposed he could have not finished it. Maybe he’d grabbed a glass for show. These events could be rather tedious and boring. Sometimes it helped to have something to hold onto.
“Your loss.” She grinned. “I rather enjoy a good glass of champagne every now and then.”
He lifted it from her hands and set it aside. “Why drink when you can do other things to make you feel just as pleasurable.”
Belle shivered at his words. More pleasurable indeed—what did he have in mind? Down girl—you don’t even know his name. “I agree.” She licked her lips. “However I don’t have anything else to elicit such feelings so I’m opting for a known quantity.”
Let’s see what he takes from that. She itched to pick her champagne glass back up and take a sip. She resisted, but only because what she really wanted was to put her hands on his chest and see if he felt as good as he looked. When had she turned into a wanton? What was it about this man that made her want to throw all caution to the wind and take a chance? This was not her, and yet she liked it.
His steel grey eyes filled with something she couldn’t quite identify. Desire? Interest? Whatever it was it made her tingle from the inside out. “Maybe I can help you with that.”
She bet he could. He was so damn delectable. “Why sir I’m not that kind of lady.” She leaned into him and ran her hand across his jacket. “At least not without a proper introduction first.”
“What’s the fun in that?” He leaned down and whispered in her ear. His hot breath caressed her cheek. “Don’t you like a little mystery?”
Ah hell. He was smooth. “Does this usually work for you?”
He chuckled lightly. “Yes, actually it does.”
Belle believed him. She was about to throw herself into his arms and beg him to take her in front of everyone. Her body lit up hotter and brighter than a firework on the 4th of July. What would it hurt to give in and take what she wanted? His words promised they could enjoy each other and leave any and all expectations behind. Could she do it? She might need a little more liquid courage to throw away all her inhibitions. She glanced up and was mesmerized once again by the gray pools of his eyes. All she had to do was reach up and she could run her fingers through his dark tresses. Would he let her? Ah, yes, he would. He wanted her to give in and take what he was offering.
“Your offer does sound—intriguing,” she replied. “I’m not sure it’s for me though.”
“Oh sweetheart,” he said huskily. “You’re the only one it could ever be for. Don’t think, just feel.”
He leaned down and brushed his lips across hers. A rush of tingles spread throughout her entire body. The jolt pushed her forward and she gave in. She wrapped her arms around him and allowed herself to become lost in his kiss. Working in the hospital drained her and left her without any motivation to do anything other than crash in her bed. This man did things to her that she’d never experienced before. She wanted all of it.
The kiss ended as abruptly as it began. He stepped back and lifted his hand to caress her cheek. “Let’s get out of here.”
She should say no. It wasn’t a wise choice to leave with a man she didn’t know. “Where would we go?”
His lips twitched into a smile. “As luck would have it I have a room here. Say the word and I’ll take you there.” He leaned down, his nose touching hers. “I promise you won’t regret it.”
That showed how little he knew her. She’d regret it, dissect it, and question every part of it. It would bother her until the day she died. The very fact she was contemplating going through with it was so out of character for her she might as well be someone else entirely. He was so enticing, and out of her league. His touch was magic and she wanted to drown herself in it.
Was she really going to do this? Yes, absolutely she was. For once she’d take something she wanted and the consequences be damned. “Lead the way, Mr. Mysterious.” She promised herself she wouldn’t think to hard about what she was about to do. If she did she’d back out of it. So she focused on what she wanted. One night where she’d have all of him, and he’d have all of her. Tomorrow wasn’t always promised after all. So she’d take it and keep it as a treasured memory.
“Thank Heavens.”
He didn’t wait for her to change her mind. The enigmatic man pulled her hand into his and led her away from the ball room. The time for conversation had ended and the promise of something wonderful awaited her on the horizon. They rushed
to his room. He caressed her every step of the way. In the elevator he kissed her breathless. In the hall outside his room he pushed her against the wall and ran his hands up the skirt of her dress. Her body was alight with sensation. It took a long time for them to even make it into his room and make good use of the bed inside. It was wild, thrilling, and more than she could have ever imagined.
Every part, every inch, and every single touch was perfect.
It truly was. That night was one she’d never forget. He kept every one of those promises he made and then some. She was loved in so many different ways she’d lost count. Her body ached in a good way. He was an amazing lover, and he ruined her for all other men.
Somewhere in the aftermath of passion and the contentment only found after truly unforgettable loving she’d thought she heard him whisper, “I’m better as a memory than as your man…”
Then he left without a word. It broke her heart into a million pieces. He promised she wouldn’t regret the night in his arms. In a way he was right. She’d not have traded it for anything in the world, but she did regret one thing.
Belle never did get his name.