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by E. L. James


  I pick at an imaginary spot on my mother’s blue and cream quilt.

  “You beguile me, Christian. Completely overwhelm me. I feel like Icarus flying too close to the Sun,” I whisper.

  He gasps.

  “Well, I think you’ve got that the wrong way around,” he whispers.

  “What?”

  “Oh, Anastasia, you’ve bewitched me. Isn’t it obvious?”

  No, not to me. Bewitched… my inner goddess is staring open-mouthed. Even she doesn’t believe this.

  “You’ve still not answered my question. Write me an email, please. But right now, I’d really like to sleep. Can I stay?”

  “Do you want to stay?” I can’t hide the hope in my voice.

  “You wanted me here.”

  “You haven’t answered my question.”

  “I’ll write you an email,” he mutters petulantly.

  Standing, he empties his jeans pockets of BlackBerry, keys, wallet, and money. Holy cow, men carry a lot of crap in their pockets. He strips off his watch, his shoes, socks, and jeans and places his jacket over my chair. He walks round to the other side of the bed and slides in.

  “Lie down,” he orders.

  I slip slowly under the covers, wincing slightly, staring at him. Jeez… he’s staying. I think I’m numb with elated shock. He leans up on one elbow staring down at me.

  “If you are going to cry. Cry in front of me. I need to know.”

  “Do you want me to cry?”

  “Not particularly. I just want to know how you’re feeling. I don’t want you slipping through my fingers. Switch the light off. It’s late, and we both have to work tomorrow.”

  So here… and still so bossy, but I can’t complain, he’s in my bed. I don’t quite understand why… maybe I should weep more often in front of him. I switch off the bedside light.“Lie on your side, facing away from me,” he murmurs in the darkness.

  I roll my eyes in the full knowledge that he cannot see me, but I do as I’m told. Gingerly, he moves over and puts his arms around me and pulls me to his chest … oh my.

  “Sleep, baby,” he whispers, and I feel his nose in my hair as he inhales deeply.

  Holy cow. Christian Grey is sleeping with me, and in the comfort and solace of his arms, I drift into a peaceful sleep.

  The candle flame is too hot. It flickers and dances in the over-warm breeze, a breeze that brings no respite from the heat. Soft gossamer wings flutter to and fro in the dark, sprinkling dusty scales in the circle of light. I’m struggling to resist, but I’m drawn. And then it’s so bright, and I am flying too close to the sun, dazzled by the light, fried and melting from the heat, weary in my endeavors to stay airborne. I am so warm. The heat… it’s stifling, overpowering. It wakes me.

  I open my eyes, and I’m draped in Christian Grey. He’s wrapped around me like a victory flag. He’s fast asleep with his head on my chest, his arm over me, holding me close, one of his legs thrown over and hooked around both of mine. He’s suffocating me with his body heat, and he’s heavy. I take a moment to absorb that he’s still in my bed and fast asleep, and it’s light outside – morning. He has spent the whole night with me.

  My right arm is stretched, no doubt in search of a cool spot, and as I process the fact that he’s still with me, the thought occurs that I can touch him. He’s asleep. Tentatively, I lift my hand and run the tips of my fingers down his back. Deep in his throat, I hear a faint distressed groan, and he stirs. He nuzzles my chest, inhaling deeply as he wakes. Sleepy, blinking gray eyes meet mine beneath his tousled mop of hair.

  “Good morning,” he mumbles and frowns. “Jesus, even in my sleep I’m drawn to you.” He moves slowly, unpeeling his limbs from me as he gets his bearings. I become

  aware of his erection against my hip. He notices my wide-eyed reaction, and he smiles a slow sexy smile.

  “Hmm… this has possibilities, but I think we should wait until Sunday.” He leans down and nuzzles my ear with his nose.

  I flush, but then I feel seven shades of scarlet from his heat.

  “You’re very hot,” I murmur.

  “You’re not so bad yourself,” he murmurs and presses himself against me, suggestively.

  I flush some more. That’s not what I meant. He props himself up on his elbow gazing down at me, amused. He bends, and to my surprise, plants a gentle kiss on my lips.

  “Sleep well?” he asks.

  I nod, staring up at him, and I realize that I’ve slept very well except maybe for the last half-hour when I was too hot.

  “So did I.” He frowns. “Yes, really well.” He raises his eyebrows in confused surprise.

  “What’s the time?”

  I glance at my alarm.

  “It’s 7:30.”

  “7:30… shit.” He scrambles out of bed and drags on his jeans.

  It is my turn to look amused as I sit up. Christian Grey is late and flustered. This is something I have never seen before. I belatedly realize that my behind is no longer sore.

  “You are such a bad influence on me. I have a meeting. I have to go – I have to be in Portland at eight. Are you smirking at me?”

  “Yes.”

  He grins.

  “I’m late. I don’t do late. Another first, Miss Steele.” He pulls on his jacket and then bends down and grasps my head, his hands on either side.

  “Sunday,” he says, and the word is pregnant with an unspoken promise. Everything deep in my body uncurls and then clenches in delicious anticipation, the feeling is exquisite. Holy hell, if my mind could just keep up with my body. He leans forward and kisses me quickly. He grabs his stuff from my side table and his shoes – which he doesn’t put on.

  “Taylor will come and sort your Beetle. I was serious. Don’t drive it. I’ll see you at my place on Sunday. I’ll email you a time.” And like a whirlwind, he’s gone .

  Oh my, Christian Grey spent the night with me, and I feel rested. And there was no sex, only cuddling. He told me he never slept with anyone – but he’s slept three times with me.

  I grin and slowly climb out of my bed. I feel more optimistic than I have for the last day or so. I head for the kitchen, needing a cup of tea.

  After breakfast, I shower and dress quickly for my last day at Clayton’s. It is the end of an era – goodbye to Mr. & Mrs. Clayton, WSU, Vancouver, the apartment, my Beetle. I glance at the mean machine – it’s only 7:52. I have time.

  From: Anastasia Steele

  Subject: Assault and Battery: The after-effects

  Date: May 27 2011 08:05

  To: Christian Grey

  Dear Mr. Grey

  You wanted to know why I felt confused after you – which euphemism should we apply - spanked, punished, beat, assaulted me. Well during the whole alarming process I felt demeaned, debased and abused. And much to my mortification, you’re right, I was aroused, and that was unexpected. As you are well aware, all things sexual are new to me – I only wish I was more experienced and therefore more prepared. I was shocked to feel aroused.

  What really worried me was how I felt afterwards. And that’s more difficult to articulate.

  I was happy that you were happy. I felt relieved that it wasn’t as painful as I thought it would be. And when I was lying in your arms, I felt – sated. But I feel very uncomfortable, guilty even, feeling that way. It doesn’t sit well with me, and I’m confused as a result. Does that answer your question?

  I hope the world of Mergers and Acquisitions is as stimulating as ever… and that you weren’t too late.

  Thank you for staying with me.

  Ana

  From: Christian Grey

  Subject: Free Your Mind

  Date: May 27 2011 08:24

  To: Anastasia Steele

  Interesting… if slightly overstated title heading Miss Steele.

  To answer your points:

  • I’ll go with spanking – as that’s what it was.

  • So you felt demeaned, debased, abused & assaulted – how very Tess Durbeyfi
eld of you. I believe it was you who decided on the debasement if I remember correctly. Do you really feel like this or do you think you ought to feel like this?

  Two very different things. If that is how you feel, do you think you could just try and embrace these feelings, deal with them, for me? That’s what a submissive would do.

  • I am grateful for your inexperience. I value it, and I’m only beginning to understand what it means. Simply put… it means that you are mine in every way.

  • Yes, you were aroused, which in turn was very arousing, there’s nothing wrong with that.

  • Happy does not even begin to cover how I felt. Ecstatic joy comes close.

  • Punishment spanking hurts far more than sensual spanking – so that’s about as hard as it gets, unless of course you commit some major transgression, in which case I’ll use some implement to punish you with. My hand was very sore. But I like that.

  • I felt sated too - more so than you could ever know.

  • Don’t waste your energy on guilt, feelings of wrongdoing etc. We are consent-ing adults and what we do behind closed doors is between ourselves. You need to free your mind and listen to your body.

  • The world of M&A is not nearly as stimulating as you are Miss Steele.

  Christian Grey

  CEO, Grey Enterprises Holdings Inc.

  Holy crap… mine in every way. My breath hitches.

  From: Anastasia Steele

  Subject: Consenting Adults!

  Date: May 27 2011 08:26

  To: Christian Grey

  Aren’t you in a meeting?

  I’m very glad your hand was sore.

  And if I listened to my body, I’d be in Alaska by now.

  Ana

  PS: I will think about embracing these feelings.

  From: Christian Grey

  Subject: You Didn’t Call the Cops

  Date: May 27 2011 08:35

  To: Anastasia Steele

  Miss Steele

  I am in a meeting discussing the futures market if you’re really interested.

  For the record - you stood beside me knowing what I was going to do.

  You didn’t at any time ask me to stop – you didn’t use either safe word.

  You are an adult – you have choices.

  Quite frankly, I’m looking forward to the next time my palm is ringing with pain.

  You’re obviously not listening to the right part of your body.

  Alaska is very cold and no place to run. I would find you.

  I can track your cell phone – remember?

  Go to work.

  Christian Grey

  CEO, Grey Enterprises Holdings Inc.

  I scowl at the screen. He’s right of course. It’s my choice. Hmm. Is he serious about coming to find me, should I decide to escape for a while? My mind flits briefly to my mother’s offer. I hit reply.

  From: Anastasia Steele

  Subject: Stalker

  Date: May 27 2011 08:36

  To: Christian Grey

  Have you sought therapy for your stalker tendencies?

  Ana

  From: Christian Grey

  Subject: Stalker? Me?

  Date: May 27 2011 08:38

  To: Anastasia Steele

  I pay the eminent Dr. Flynn a small fortune with regard to my stalker and other tendencies.

  Go to work.

  Christian Grey

  CEO, Grey Enterprises Holdings Inc.

  From: Anastasia Steele

  Subject: Expensive Charlatans

  Date: May 27 2011 08:40

  To: Christian Grey

  May I humbly suggest you seek a second opinion?

  I am not sure that Dr. Flynn is very effective.

  Miss Steele

  From: Christian Grey

  Subject: Second Opinions

  Date: May 27 2011 08:43

  To: Anastasia Steele

  Not that it’s any of your business, humble or otherwise, but Dr. Flynn is the second opinion.

  You will have to speed, in your new car, putting yourself at unnecessary risk – I think that’s against the rules.

  GO TO WORK.

  Christian Grey

  CEO, Grey Enterprises Holdings Inc.

  From: Anastasia Steele

  Subject: SHOUTY CAPITALS

  Date: May 27 2011 08:47

  To: Christian Grey

  As the object of your stalker tendencies – I think it is my business actually.

  I haven’t signed yet. So rules schmules. And I don’t start until 9:30.

  Miss Steele

  From: Christian Grey

  Subject: Descriptive Linguistics

  Date: May 27 2011 08:49

  To: Anastasia Steele

  Schmules? Not sure where that appears in Webster’s Dictionary Christian Grey

  CEO, Grey Enterprises Holdings Inc.

  From: Anastasia Steele

  Subject: Descriptive Linguistics

  Date: May 27 2011 08:52

  To: Christian Grey

  It’s between control freak and stalker.

  And descriptive linguistics is a hard limit for me.

  Will you stop bothering me now?

  I’d like to go to work in my new car.

  Ana

  From: Christian Grey

  Subject: Challenging but amusing Young Women

  Date: May 27 2011 08:56

  To: Anastasia Steele

  My palm is twitching.

  Drive safely Miss Steele.

  Christian Grey

  CEO, Grey Enterprises Holdings Inc.

  The Audi is a joy to drive. It has power steering. Wanda, my Beetle, has no power in it at all – anywhere, so my daily workout, which was driving my Beetle, will cease. Oh, but I will have a personal trainer to contend with, according to Christian’s rules. I frown. I hate exercising.

  While I am driving, I try and analyze our email exchange. He’s a patronizing son-of-a-bitch sometimes. And then I think of Grace and I feel guilty. But of course, she wasn’t his birth mother. Hmm that’s a whole world of unknown pain. Well, patronizing son-of-a-bitch works well then. Yes. I’m an adult, thank you for reminding me, Christian Grey, and it is my choice. The problem is, I just want Christian, not all his… baggage – and right now he has a 747 hold’s worth of baggage. Could I just lie back and embrace it? Like a submissive? I’ve said I’d try. It’s an awfully big ask.

  I pull into the parking lot at Clayton’s. As I make my way in, I can hardly believe it’s my last day. Fortunately, the store is busy and time passes quickly. At lunchtime, Mr.

  Clayton summons me from the stockroom. He’s standing beside a motorcycle courier.

  “Miss Steele?” the courier asks. I frown questioningly at Mr. Clayton, who shrugs, as puzzled as me. My heart sinks. What has Christian sent me now? I sign for the small package and open it straight away. It’s a BlackBerry. My heart sinks further. I switch it on.

  From: Christian Grey

  Subject: BlackBerry ON LOAN

  Date: May 27 2011 11:15

  To: Anastasia Steele

  I need to be able to contact you at all times, and since this is your most honest form of communication, I figured you needed a BlackBerry.

  Christian Grey

  CEO, Grey Enterprises Holdings Inc.

  From: Anastasia Steele

  Subject: Consumerism Gone Mad

  Date: May 27 2011 13:22

  To: Christian Grey

  I think you need to call Dr. Flynn right now.

  Your stalker tendencies are running wild.

  I am at work. I will email you when I get home.

  Thank you for yet another gadget.

  I wasn’t wrong when I said you were the ultimate consumer.

  Why do you do this?

  Ana

  From: Christian Grey

  Subject: Sagacity from one so young

  Date: May 27 2011 13:24

  To: Anastasia Steele

  Fair point-well made, as
ever Miss Steele.

  Dr. Flynn is on vacation.

  And I do this because I can.

  Christian Grey

  CEO, Grey Enterprises Holdings Inc.

  I put the thing in my back pocket, hating it already. Emailing Christian is addictive, but I am supposed to be working. It buzzes once against my behind… how apt, I think ironically, but summoning all my willpower, I ignore it.

  At four, Mr. and Mrs. Clayton gather all the other employees in the shop, and during a hair-curlingly embarrassing speech, present me with a check for three hundred dollars.

  In that moment, three weeks of – exams, graduation, intense, fucked-up billionaires, de-

  flowering, hard & soft limits, playrooms with no consoles, helicopter rides – and the fact that I will move tomorrow, all well up inside me. Amazingly, I hold myself together. My subconscious is in awe. I hug the Claytons hard. They have been kind and generous em-ployers, and I will miss them.

  Kate is climbing out of her car when I arrive home.

  “What’s that?” she says accusingly, pointing at the Audi. I can’t resist.

  “It’s a car,” I quip. She narrows her eyes, and for a brief moment, I wonder if she’s going to put me across her knee too. “My graduation present.” I try and act nonchalant. Yes, I get expensive cars given to me everyday. Her mouth drops open.

  “Generous, over-the-top bastard, isn’t he?”

  I nod.

  “I did try not to accept it, but frankly, it’s just not worth the fight.”

  Kate purses her lips.

  “No wonder you’re so overwhelmed. I did note that he stayed.”

  “Yeah.” I smile wistfully.

  “Shall we finish packing?”

  I nod and follow her inside. I check the email from Christian.

  From: Christian Grey

  Subject: Sunday

  Date: May 27 2011 13:40

  To: Anastasia Steele

  Shall I see you at 1 p.m. Sunday?

  The doctor will be at Escala to see you at 1:30.

  I’m leaving for Seattle now.

  I hope your move goes well, and I look forward to Sunday.

  Christian Grey

  CEO, Grey Enterprises Holdings Inc.

 

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