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by E. L. James


  I nod. Holy Moses, if she’s the best Ob/Gyn, he’s scheduled her to see me on a Sunday

  – at lunchtime! I cannot begin to imagine how much that costs. Christian frowns suddenly as if recalling something unpleasant.

  “Anastasia, my mother would like you to come to dinner this evening. I believe Elliot is asking Kate too. I don’t know how you feel about that. It will be odd for me to introduce you to my family.”

  Odd? Why?

  “Are you ashamed of me?” I can’t keep the wounded hurt out of my voice.

  “Of course not.” He rolls his eyes at me.

  “Why is it odd?”

  “Because I’ve never done it before.”

  “Why are you allowed to roll your eyes, and I’m not?”

  He blinks at me.

  “I wasn’t aware that I was.”

  “Neither am I usually,” I snap at him.

  Christian glares at me, speechless. Taylor appears at the doorway.

  “Dr. Greene is here, Sir.”

  “Show her up to Miss Steele’s room.”

  Miss Steele’s room!

  “Ready for some contraception?” he asks as he stands and holds out his hand to me.

  “You’re not going to come as well are you?” I gasp, shocked.

  He laughs.

  “I’d pay very good money to watch, believe me, Anastasia, but I don’t think the good doctor would approve.”

  I take his hand, and he pulls me up into his arms and kisses me deeply. I clutch on to his arms, taken by surprise. His hand is in my hair holding my head, and he pulls me against him, his forehead against mine.

  “I’m so glad you’re here,” he whispers. “I can’t wait to get you naked.”

  Dr. Greene is tall, blond, and immaculate, dressed in a royal blue suit. I’m reminded of the women who work in Christian’s office. She’s like an identikit model – another Stepford blonde. Her long hair is swept up in an elegant chignon. She must be in her early forties.

  “Mr. Grey.” She shakes Christian’s outstretched hand.

  “Thank you for coming at such short notice,” Christian says.

  “Thank you for making it worth my while, Mr. Grey. Miss Steele.” She smiles, her eyes cool and assessing.

  We shake hands, and I know she’s one of those women who doesn’t tolerate fools gladly. Like Kate. I like her immediately. She gives Christian a pointed stare, and after an awkward beat, he takes his cue.

  “I’ll be downstairs,” he mutters, and he leaves what will be my bedroom.

  “Well Miss Steele. Mr. Grey is paying me a small fortune to attend to you. What can I do for you?”

  After a thorough examination and lengthy discussion, Dr. Greene and I decide on the mini pill. She writes me a pre-paid prescription and instructs me to pick them up tomorrow. I love her no-nonsense attitude – she has lectured me until she’s as blue as her dress about taking it at the same time every day. And I can tell she’s burning with curiosity about my so-called relationship with Mr. Grey. I don’t give her any details. Somehow I don’t think she’d look so calm and collected if she’d seen his Red Room of Pain. I flush as we pass its closed door and head back downstairs to the art gallery that is Christian’s living room.

  Christian is reading, seated on his couch. A breathtaking aria is playing on the music system, swirling round him, cocooning him, filling the room with a sweet, soulful song.

  For a moment, he looks serene. He turns and glances at us when we enter and smiles warmly at me.

  “Are you done?” he asks as if he’s genuinely interested. He points the remote at a sleek white box beneath the fireplace that houses his iPod, and the exquisite melody fades but continues in the background. Standing, he strolls towards us.

  “Yes, Mr. Grey. Look after her; she’s a beautiful, bright young woman.”

  Christian is taken aback – as am I. What an inappropriate thing for a doctor to say. Is she giving him some kind of not so subtle warning? Christian recovers himself.

  “I fully intend to,” he mutters, bemused.

  Gazing at him, I shrug, embarrassed.

  “I’ll send you my bill,” she says crisply as she shakes his hand.

  “Good day, and good luck to you, Ana.” She smiles, her eyes crinkling as she does when we shake hands.

  Taylor appears from nowhere to escort her through the double doors and out to the elevator. How does he do that? Where does he lurk?

  “How was that?” Christian asks.

  “Fine, thank you. She said that I had to abstain from all sexual activity for the next four weeks.”

  Christian’s mouth drops open in shock, and I cannot keep a straight face any longer and grin at him like an idiot.

  “Gotcha!”

  He narrows his eyes, and I immediately stop laughing. In fact, he looks rather forbidding. Oh shit. My subconscious quails in the corner as all the blood drains from my face, and I imagine him putting me across his knee again.

  “Gotcha!” he says and smirks. He grabs me around my waist and pulls me up against him. “You are incorrigible, Miss Steele,” he murmurs, staring down into my eyes as he weaves his fingers into my hair, holding me firmly in place. He kisses me, hard, and I cling on to his muscular arms for support.

  “As much as I’d like to take you here, now, you need to eat and so do I. I don’t want you passing out on me later,” he murmurs against my lips.

  “Is that all you want me for – my body?” I whisper.

  “That and your smart mouth,” he breathes.

  He kisses me again passionately, and then abruptly releases me, taking my hand and leading me to the kitchen. I am reeling. One minute we’re joking and the next… I fan my heated face. He’s just sex on legs, and now I have to recover my equilibrium and eat something. The aria is still playing in the background.

  “What’s the music?”

  “Villa Lobos, an aria from Bachianas Brasileiras. Good, isn’t it?”

  “Yes,” I murmur in total agreement.

  The breakfast bar is laid for two; Christian takes a salad bowl from the fridge.

  “Chicken caesar salad okay with you?”

  Oh thank heavens, nothing too heavy.

  “Yes, fine, thank you.”

  I watch as he moves gracefully through his kitchen. He’s so at ease with his body on one level, but then he doesn’t like to be touched… so maybe deep down he isn’t. No man is an island, I muse – except perhaps Christian Grey.

  “What are you thinking?” he asks, pulling me from my reverie. I flush.

  “I was just watching the way you move.”

  He raises an eyebrow, amused.

  “And?” he says dryly.

  I flush some more.

  “You’re very graceful.”

  “Why thank you, Miss Steele,” he murmurs. He sits down beside me, holding a bottle of wine. “Chablis?”

  “Please.”

  “Help yourself to salad,” he says, his voice soft.

  “Tell me - what method did you opt for?”

  I am momentarily thrown by his question, when I realize he’s talking about Dr. Greene’s visit.“Mini pill.”

  He frowns.

  “And will you remember to take it regularly, at the right time, every day?”

  Jeez… of course I will. How does he know? I blush at the thought, probably from one or more of the fifteen.

  “I’m sure you’ll remind me,” I murmur dryly.

  He glances at me with amused condescension.

  “I’ll put an alarm on my calendar.” He smirks. “Eat.”

  The chicken caesar is delicious. To my surprise, I’m famished, and for the first time since I’ve been with him, I finish my meal before he does. The wine is crisp, clean, and fruity.

  “Eager as ever, Miss Steele?” he smiles down at my empty plate.

  I look at him from beneath my lashes.

  “Yes,” I whisper.

  His breath hitches. And as he stares down at me, I feel the atmosph
ere between us slowly shift, evolve… charge. His look goes from dark to smoldering, taking me with him.

  He stands, closing the distance between us, and tugs me off my bar stool into his arms.

  “Do you want to do this?” he breathes, looking down at me intently.

  “I haven’t signed anything.”

  “I know – but I’m breaking all the rules these days.”

  “Are you going to hit me?”

  “Yes, but it won’t be to hurt you. I don’t want to punish you right now. If you’d caught me yesterday evening, well, that would have been a different story.”

  Holy cow. He wants to hurt me… how do I deal with this? I can’t hide the horror on my face.

  “Don’t let anyone try and convince you otherwise, Anastasia. One of the reasons people like me do this is because we either like to give or receive pain. It’s very simple.

  You don’t, so I spent a great deal of time yesterday thinking about that.”

  He pulls me against him, and his erection presses into my belly. I should run, but I can’t. I’m drawn to him on some deep, elemental level, that I can’t begin to understand.

  “Did you reach any conclusions?” I whisper.

  “No, and right now, I just want to tie you up and fuck you senseless. Are you ready for that?”

  “Yes,” I breathe as everything in my body tightens at once… wow.

  “Good. Come.” He takes my hand and, leaving all the dirty dishes on the breakfast bar, and we head upstairs.

  My heart starts pounding. This is it. I’m really going to do this. My inner goddess is spinning like a world-class ballerina, pirouette after pirouette. He opens the door to his playroom, standing back for me to walk through, and I am once more in the Red Room of Pain.It’s the same, the smell of leather, citrus, polish and dark wood, all very sensual. My blood is running heated and scared through my system – adrenaline mixed with lust and longing. It’s a heady, potent cocktail. Christian’s stance has changed completely, subtly altered, harder and meaner. He gazes down at me and his eyes are heated, lustful… hypnotic.

  “When you’re in here, you are completely mine,” he breathes, each word slow and measured. “To do with as I see fit. Do you understand?”

  His gaze is so intense. I nod, my mouth dry, my heart thumping for a way out of my chest.

  “Take your shoes off,” he orders softly.

  I swallow, and rather clumsily, I take them off. He bends and picks them up and deposits them beside the door.

  “Good. Don’t hesitate when I ask you to do something. Now I’m going to peel you out of this dress. Something I’ve wanted to do for a few days if I recall. I want you to be comfortable with your body, Anastasia. You have a beautiful body, and I like to look at it.

  It is a joy to behold. In fact, I could gaze at you all day, and I want you unembarrassed and unashamed of your nakedness. Do you understand?”

  “Yes.”

  “Yes, what?” He leans over me, glaring.

  “Yes, Sir.”

  “Do you mean that?” he snaps.

  “Yes, Sir.”

  “Good. Lift your arms up over your head.”

  I do as instructed, and he reaches down and grabs the hem. Slowly, he pulls my dress up over my thighs, my hips, my belly, my breasts, my shoulders, and over my head. He stands back to examine me and absentmindedly folds my dress, not taking his eyes off me.

  He places it on the large chest beside the door. Reaching up, he pulls at my chin, his touch searing me.

  “You’re biting your lip,” he breathes. “You know what that does to me,” he adds darkly. “Turn around.”

  I turn immediately, no hesitation. He unclasps my bra and then taking both straps, he slowly pulls them down my arms, brushing my skin with his fingers and the tip of his thumbnails as he slides my bra off. His touch sends shivers down my spine, waking every nerve ending in my body. He’s standing behind me, so close that I feel the heat radiating from him, warming me, warming me all over. He pulls my hair so it’s all hanging down my back, grasps a handful at my nape, and angles my head to one side. He runs his nose down my exposed neck, inhaling all the way, then back up to my ear. The muscles in my belly clench, carnal and wanting. Jeez, he’s hardly touched me, and I want him.

  “You smell as divine as ever, Anastasia,” he whispers as he places a soft kiss beneath my ear.

  I moan.

  “Quiet,” he breathes. “Don’t make a sound.”

  Pulling my hair behind me, to my surprise, he starts braiding it in one large braid, his fingers fast and deft. He ties it with an unseen hair tie when he’s finished and gives it a quick tug so I’m forced back against him.

  “I like your hair braided in here,” he whispers.

  Hmm… why?

  He releases my hair.

  “Turn around,” he orders.

  I do as I’m bid, my breathing shallow, fear and longing mixed together. It’s an intoxicating mix.

  “When I tell you to come in here, this is how you will dress. Just in your panties. Do you understand?”

  “Yes.”

  “Yes, what?” He glowers at me.

  “Yes, Sir.”

  A trace of a smile lifts the corner of his mouth.

  “Good girl.” His eyes burn into mine. “When I tell you to come in here, I expect you to kneel over there.” He points to a spot beside the door. “Do it now.”

  I blink processing his words, turn, and rather clumsily kneel as directed.

  “You can sit back on your heels.”

  I sit back.

  “Place your hands and forearms flat on your thighs. Good. Now part your knees.

  Wider. Wider. Perfect. Look down at the floor.”

  He walks over to me, and I can see his feet and shins in my field of vision. Naked feet.

  I should be taking notes if he wants me to remember. He reaches down and grasps my braid again, then pulls my head back so I am looking up at him. It’s only just not painful.

  “Will you remember this position, Anastasia?”

  “Yes, Sir.”

  “Good. Stay here, don’t move.” He leaves the room.

  I’m on my knees, waiting. Where’s he gone? What is he going to do to me? Time shifts. I have no idea how long he leaves me like this… a few minutes, five, ten? My breathing becomes shallower, the anticipation is devouring me from the inside out.

  And suddenly he’s back – and all at once I’m calmer and more excited in the same breath. Could I be more excited? I can see his feet. He’s changed his jeans. These are older, ripped, soft, and over-washed. Holy cow. These jeans are hot. He shuts the door and hangs something on the back.

  “Good girl, Anastasia. You look lovely like that. Well done. Stand up.”

  I stand, but I keep my face down.

  “You may look at me.”

  I peek up at him, and he’s staring at me intently, assessing, but his eyes soften. He’s taken off his shirt. Oh my… I want to touch him. The top button of his jeans is undone.

  “I’m going to chain you now, Anastasia. Give me your right hand.”

  I give him my hand. He turns it palm up, and before I know it, he swats the center with a riding crop I hadn’t noticed is in his right hand. It happens so quickly that the surprise hardly registers. Even more astonishing – it doesn’t hurt. Well, not much, just a slight ringing sting.

  “How does that feel?” he asks.

  I blink at him, confused.

  “Answer me.”

  “Okay.” I frown.

  “Don’t frown.”

  I blink and try for impassive. I succeed.

  “Did that hurt?”

  “No.”

  “This is not going to hurt. Do you understand?”

  “Yes.” My voice is uncertain. Is it really not going to hurt?

  “I mean it,” he says.

  Jeez, my breathing is so shallow. Does he know what I’m thinking? He shows me the crop. It’s brown plaited leather. My eyes jerk up t
o meet his, and they’re alight with fire and a trace of amusement.

  “We aim to please, Miss Steele,” he murmurs. “Come.” He takes my elbow and moves me to beneath the grid. He reaches up and takes down some shackles with black leather cuffs.“This grid is designed so the shackles move across the grid.”

  I glance up. Holy shit – it’s like a subway map.

  “We’re going to start here, but I want to fuck you standing up. So we’ll end up by the wall over there.” He points with the riding crop to where the large wooden X is on the wall.

  “Put your hands above your head.”

  I oblige immediately, feeling like I’m exiting my body – a casual observer of events as they unfold around me. This is beyond fascinating, beyond erotic. It’s singularly the most exciting and scary thing I’ve ever done. I’m entrusting myself to a beautiful man who, by his own admission, is fifty shades of fucked-up. I suppress the brief thrill of fear. Kate and Elliot, they know I’m here.

  He stands very close as he fastens the cuffs. I’m staring at his chest. His proximity is heavenly. He smells of body wash and Christian, an inebriating mix, and that drags me back into the now. I want to run my nose and tongue through that smattering of chest hair.

  I could just lean forward…

  He steps back and gazes at me, his expression hooded, salacious, carnal, and I am helpless, my hands tied, but just looking at his lovely face, reading his need and longing for me, I can feel the dampness between my legs. He walks slowly round me.

  “You look mighty fine trussed up like this, Miss Steele. And your smart mouth, quiet for now. I like that.”

  Standing in front of me again, he hooks his fingers into my panties, and at a most unhurried pace, peels them down my legs, stripping me agonizingly slowly, so that he ends up kneeling in front of me. Not taking his eyes off mine, he scrunches my panties in his hand, holds them up to his nose, and inhales deeply. Holy fuck. Did he just do that? He grins wickedly at me and tucks them into the pocket of his jeans.

  Uncoiling from the floor, rising lazily, like a jungle cat, he points the end of the riding crop at my navel, leisurely circling it – tantalizing me. At the touch of the leather, I quiver and gasp. He walks round me again, trailing the crop around the middle of my body. On his second circuit, he suddenly flicks the crop, and it hits me underneath my behind… against my sex. I cry out in surprise as all my nerve endings stand to attention. I pull against the restraints. The shock runs through me, and it’s the sweetest strangest, hedonistic feeling.

 

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