the best a man can get
JOHN O’FARRELL
Also by John O’Farrell
things can only get better
this is your life
may contain nuts
global village idiot
i blame the scapegoats
the best a man can get
JOHN O’FARRELL
Copyright © 2000 by John O’Farrell
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The slogan ‘The Best a Man Can Get’ is used with
the permission of The Gillette Company
Originally published in Great Britain by Doubleday,
a division of Transworld Publishers
Printed in the United States of America
eBook ISBN-13: 978-0-8021-9788-7
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To Jackie, with love
Acknowledgements
With thanks to Georgia Garrett, Bill Scott-Kerr, Mark Burton, Simon Davidson and Charlie Dawson.
chapter one
the best a man can get
I found it hard working really long hours when I was my own boss. The boss kept giving me the afternoon off. Sometimes he gave me the morning off as well. Sometimes he’d say, ‘Look, you’ve worked pretty hard today, why don’t you take a well-earned rest tomorrow.’ If I overslept he never rang me to ask where I was; if I was late to my desk he always happened to turn up at exactly the same time; whatever excuse I came up with, he always believed it. Being my own boss was great. Being my own employee was a disaster, but I never thought about that side of the equation.
On this particular day I was woken by the sound of children. I knew from experience that this meant it was either just before nine o’clock in the morning, when children started arriving at the school over the road, or around quarter past eleven – mid-morning playtime. I rolled over to look at the clock and the little numbers on my radio alarm informed me that it was 1:24. Lunchtime. I had slept for fourteen solid hours, an all-time record.
I called it my radio alarm, though in reality it served only as a large and cumbersome clock. I had given up using the radio-alarm function long before, after I’d kept waking up with early morning erections to the news that famine was spreading in the Sudan or that Princess Anne had just had her wisdom teeth out. It’s amazing how quickly an erection can disappear. Anyway, alarm clocks are for people who have something more important to do than sleeping, and this was a concept that I struggled to grasp. Some days I would wake up, decide that it wasn’t worth getting dressed and then just stay in bed until, well, bedtime. But it wasn’t apathetic, what’s-the-point-of-getting-up lying in bed, it was positive, quality-of-life lying in bed. I had resolved that leisure time should involve genuine leisure. If it had been up to me there would have been nothing at the Balham Leisure Centre except rows of beds with all the Sunday papers scattered at the bottom of the duvet.
My bedroom had evolved so that the need to get out of bed was kept to an absolute minimum. Instead of a bedside table there was a fridge, inside which milk, bread and butter were kept. On top of the fridge was a kettle, which fought for space with a tray of mugs, a box of tea bags, a selection of breakfast cereals, a toaster and an overloaded plug adapter. I clicked on the kettle and popped some bread in the toaster. I reached across for that day’s newspaper and was slightly surprised as a set of keys slid off the top and clinked onto the floor. Then I remembered that I hadn’t slept for fourteen solid hours after all; there had been a vague but annoying conversation very early that morning. As far as I could remember, it had gone something like this:
‘’Scuse me, mate?’
‘Uh?’ I replied from under the duvet.
‘Excuse me, mate. It’s me. Paper boy,’ said the cracking voice of the nervous-sounding teenager.
‘What do you want?’
‘My mum says I’m not allowed to deliver the paper to the end of your bed any more.’
‘Why not?’ I groaned, without emerging.
‘She says it’s weird. I had to stop her ringing Child Line.’
‘What time is it?’
‘Seven o’clock. I told her you paid me an extra couple of quid a week to bring it up here and everything, but she said it’s weird and that I’m only allowed to push it through the letter box, like I do for everyone else. I’ll leave your front door keys here.’
If anything had been said after that I didn’t remember it. That must have been the moment when I went back to sleep. The clink of the keys brought it back like some half-remembered dream. And as I flicked through the stories of war, violent crime and environmental disaster, I felt a growing sense of depression. Today was the last day I would ever have my newspaper delivered to the end of my bed.
Lightly browned toast popped up and the bubbling kettle clicked itself off. The butter and milk were kept on the top shelf of the fridge so they could be reached without leaving the bed. When I’d first bought the fridge and placed it in my room I had sunk to my knees in mortified disbelief. The fridge door opened the wrong way – I couldn’t reach the handle from the bed. I tried putting the fridge upside down, but it looked a bit stupid. I tried putting it on the other side of the bed, but then I had to move my keyboard and mixing desk and all the other bits of musical equipment that were packed into my bedroom-cum-recording studio. After several hours spent dragging furniture into different positions around the room, I finally found a location for the bed that would comfortably allow me to take things from the fridge, make breakfast, reach my phone and watch telly without having to do anything as strenuous as standing up. If Boots had marketed a do-it-yourself catheter kit, I would have been the first customer.
The only thing more self-indulgent than breakfast in bed is having breakfast in bed at lunchtime. There’s a decadence to it that makes lightly buttered toast taste like the food of the gods. I sipped my tea and, with one of several remote controls, switched on the telly just in time to see the beginning of one of my favourite films, Billy Wilder’s The Apartment. I’ll just watch the first few minutes, I thought to myself as I fluffed up the pillows. Just the bit where he’s working in that huge insurance office with hundreds of other people doing exactly the same monotonous job. Forty minutes later my mobile phone jolted me out of my hypnotized trance. I switched the television to mute and removed the mobile from its charger.
‘Hello, Michael, it’s Hugo Harrison here – from DD and G. I’m just ringing in case you’d forgotten that you said you’d probably be able to get your piece of music to us by the end of today.’
‘Forgotten? Are you joking? I’ve been working on it all week. I’m in the studio right now.’
‘Do you think you’ll be able to deliver it when you said?’
‘Hugo, have I ever missed a deadline? I’m just doing a remix, so you’ll probably get it around f
our or five o’clock.’
‘Right.’ Hugo sounded disappointed. ‘There’s no chance that we might get it before then, because we’re sort of hanging around waiting to do the dub.’
‘Well, I’ll try. To be honest, I was going to go out and get a bite of lunch, but I’ll work through if you need it urgently.’
‘Thanks, Michael. Bloody brilliant. Speak to you later, then.’
And I turned off my mobile, lay back in bed and then watched The Apartment all the way through.
What I hadn’t told Hugo from DD&G was that I had in fact completed my composition four days earlier, but when someone pays you a thousand pounds for a piece of work, you can’t give it to them two days after they commission it. They have to feel they’re getting their money’s worth. They might have imagined that they wanted it as soon as possible, but I knew that they’d appreciate and enjoy it far more if they thought it had taken me all week.
The slogan the agency were going to put over my composition was ‘The saloon car that thinks it’s a sports car’. So I did a ploddy easy-listening intro which switched into a screeching electric-guitar sound. Saloon car, sports car. Easy-listening for the humdrum lives of all those thirty-something saloon-car drivers and electric guitar for the racy, exciting lives that they are starting to realize have gone for ever. Hugo had thought this was a great idea when I’d put it to him, so much so that fairly quickly he was talking about it as if it was his own.
Generally speaking I did every commission straight away, and would then phone the client at regular intervals and say things like, ‘Look, I’ve got something I’m really pleased with, but it’s only thirteen seconds long. Does it really have to be exactly fifteen seconds?’ And they’d say, ‘Well, if you’re really pleased with it, maybe we should have a listen. But is there no way you can make it fifteen? Like, just slow it down a bit or something?’
‘Just slow it down a bit! What are you talking about?’
‘I don’t know. I’m not a composer.’
And then I’d pretend to find a solution and the client would hang up feeling reassured that I was still working on it and pleased that they had helped me get that much closer to completion. And all the time a fifteen-second jingle was already on a DAT in my studio. Whenever I had sent ad agencies work straight away, they were always initially enthusiastic, but then came back to me a few days later saying they wanted it changed. I had learned that it was far better to give it to them at the last minute, when they had no choice but to decide that it was great.
I had persuaded myself that actually I probably did roughly the same amount of work as many men my age, namely around two or three hours a day. But I was determined that I wouldn’t waste the rest of my life pretending to be working, flicking my computer screen from Solitaire to a spreadsheet, or suddenly changing the tone of personal phone calls when the managing director walked into the office. From what I could gather from my contemporaries, there were a lot of jobs where you arrived in the morning, chatted for an hour or two, did some really useful work between about eleven and lunchtime, came back in the afternoon, sent a stupid e-mail message to Gary in accounts before spending the rest of the afternoon in apparent total concentration while downloading a picture of a naked transsexual from http://www.titsandcocks.com.
The film was interrupted by adverts and I couldn’t help but take a professional interest in the music they employed. The jingle for the Gillette commercial claimed that the new twin-blade swivel head with lubrastrip was ‘the best a man can get’. I thought that this was a pretty bold claim for a disposable plastic razor. A new Ferrari maybe or a night in bed with Pamela Anderson might arguably have the edge for most men, but not according to this singer, no, give him a good shave any day of the week. Then The Apartment came back on and I thought, No, this is the best a man can get: just being tucked up warm and cosy, watching a great film with tea and toast and nothing at all to worry about.
When people asked me what I did I generally mumbled that I was ‘in advertising’. I used to say that I was a composer or a musician, but I found this prompted a level of fascination that wasn’t fulfilled when they discovered this meant I’d written the music for the Mr Gearbox ad on Capital Radio. I was a freelance jingle writer – although other people in the business were too pretentious to call them jingles – working at the bottom end of the freelance jingle-writing market. If the man who composed ‘Gillette! The best a man can get!’ was the advertising equivalent of Paul McCartney, that made me the drummer for the band that came fifth in last year’s Song for Europe.
People always presume there’s lots of money in advertising, but I was beginning to sense that I was never going to make a fortune writing twenty-second radio jingles, even if I took it upon myself to start working an eight-hour day.
There had been a time in my life when I’d really believed I was going to be a millionaire rock star. When I’d left music college I had returned to my home town and formed a group that played in pubs and at university summer balls. Call me immodest, but I think I can honestly say there was a point in the late Eighties when we were the biggest band in Godalming. Then it all fell apart when our drummer left the group because of ‘musical differences’. We were musical, he wasn’t. Despite being the crappiest drummer I’d ever heard, he had been the most important member of the band because he had been the one with the van. I found you couldn’t fit many amplifiers on a moped. After that highpoint I had carried on recording songs and trying to form bands, but now all I had to show for those years was a box of demo tapes and one precious copy of my flexi-disc single.
I got out of bed and played this track again as I got dressed. I was still proud of it, and had never quite forgiven John Peel’s producer for saying they didn’t play flexi-discs. The journey to my place of work involved walking from one side of my bedroom to the other. Before I started I generally preferred to convert the room from bedroom to studio, which involved transforming my bed back into a sofa and removing any socks or underpants that I had left on top of my keyboard. As well as my Roland XP-60, the recording studio side of my room contained a computer, an eighteen-channel mixing desk, a sampler, a reverb unit, a midi-box, several redundant sound modules, amplifiers and tape decks and, behind it all, seven and a half miles of intertwined electrical cable. If you knew nothing at all about music I suppose all this gear might look quite impressive, but the reality was far more chaotic. The more equipment I acquired, the longer I had to search every time a mystery buzz made it impossible to do any work. Generally I relied upon the keyboard, with its built-in sound module and my multi-talented sampler, which would gamely have a stab at the noise produced by most musical instruments. Although there appeared to be a lot of state-of-the-art technology on display, the stuff was either several years out of date or would be by the time Pd worked out how to use it. Because I’d never got round to reading the manuals I was like the owner of a Ferrari who only drove around in first gear.
I lumbered into the bathroom and stared in the mirror. During the night the grey strands on the side of my head had fought their way to the front and a whole swathe of hair above my ears had acquired a silvery sheen. Those of the wiry grey variety were thicker and stronger than the wispy dark hairs they were gradually replacing. The greys were still in a minority, but I knew that, like the squirrels of the same depressing colour, once a few had got a foothold eventually all the indigenous hair would be pushed to the brink of extinction, with maybe a couple of breeding colonies remaining on either eyebrow and perhaps a few shy black hairs that would occasionally be spotted peeking out of my nostrils. On the side of my nose a large yellow-headed spot had ripened and was deftly milked with the dexterity that came from nearly twenty years’ practice. In my teens I think I’d presumed there would be a golden period in my life after my spots cleared up and before my hair started to turn grey. Now I realized that was hopelessly naive of me; in my early thirties I was already past my physical peak. The summer seems to have only just begun when you real
ize the nights are already drawing in.
At around four o’clock I finally strolled into the living room, where Jim had spent the last couple of years researching his Ph.D. Today this involved playing Tomb Raider with Simon. They both managed to mumble hello to me, though since neither of them managed to look up from the screen I could just as easily have been the creature from the black lagoon wandering in to put the kettle on. Jim and Simon looked like the ‘Before’ and ‘After’ drawings in the Charles Atlas body-building adverts. Jim was tall and muscular with the healthy complexion of a boy who’d been skiing every winter since he was five years old, and by contrast, Simon was skinny, pallid and awkward. If they made Tomb Raider any more realistic, Lara Croft would turn round and say out of the TV screen, ‘Stop staring at my tits like that, you little creep,’ and blast him off the sofa. He had a promising career serving pints of lager in plastic glasses to students of the university from which he had graduated some years ago. He had got the job on the day he’d left and was hoping to earn enough money to one day pay off the debts he had accumulated on the other side of the bar.
At that moment the front door slammed and Paul returned home, dumping a pile of tatty exercise books on the kitchen table with a martyred sigh that was far too obviously intended to elicit concerned enquiries about his day and consequently received none.
‘Dear oh dear,’ said Paul, but we all still refused to bite. He put a carton of milk back in the fridge and took a couple of old tea bags out of the sink, tutting quietly to himself. His sighs not only announced his irritation that everyone else didn’t tidy up as they went along, but also his annoyance that it should be left to him to clear up when he had already done a full day’s teaching. It was as if he was implying that Simon’s evening job or Jim’s Ph.D or my composing at my keyboard were somehow less-demanding work. The fact that this was true was entirely beside the point.
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