by Coco Shawndé
Dice set back on her phone, ignoring me for the remainder of the date. I couldn’t even call this a date after how she did me. When it was time to pay the bill, I was tempted to really make her pay, but I bit the bullet. Looking at the bill and her, she knew she got me good this time. Paying and tipping, I was ready to get the hell out of there after she embarrassed me.
Looking at the time, I knew we were supposed to meet up with everybody else. I thought going to eat would break the ice with us, but that seemed to set us back. The whole time we were in route, she refused to speak to me. I knew I fucked up bad by what I said last night, and I decided to shut the fuck up until the time was right for me to come at her.
Pulling up on everybody else, they all were ready to get on the High Roller, which was a big ass ferris wheel to me. It was a long walk from the strip, and Dice politely drifted from my side to join Aja and Miani. I was sure I was the topic, and the guys were in my ear on what the hell I do now.
Filling them in, I had got all they spills on how I fucked up by disrespecting her late husband. In my head, I wasn’t trying to speak ill on the man's name, but simply shed light on the fact that he was gone from this Earth. My words came out wrong, and now I could see how it pushed Dice away even more.
Glad that we had more privacy on the High Roller to where we didn’t have to go up in large groups, Dice was stuck going with me since everybody else was boo’d up. Seeing how lit the shit was, I was like a kid on Christmas once we were on and going up. Dice sat down all in her phone. I was at the windows ready to be five hundred feet in the air.
When Dice´s Facetime ringer was going off, I looked back to her answering the phone for her son. “Hey sonnnn!” she sang.
“Mom, when you coming home?”
“Oh, you miss me, now? When I’m home, you never want to be there. Now I’m out of town and you call me every hour?” she joked back to her son.
“Yep!” he said with no shame. Standing against the glass, I watched her converse with her son.
“Where are you?” C. J asked her.
“I’m actually on this ferris wheel.” she said finally standing up. She kept to her side while she showed him the view.
“Ouuu, can you take me there, momma!? Pleaseee! I want to go. Did daddy ever go on there?”
“Actually, no he was scared of heights. Your dad didn’t like things that went all high in the air.” she told him with a smile.
“I like it. You like it?” C.J asked her.
“Yeah, it’s cool. I don’t mind.” she said in a regular tone.
Sitting back, I was really reliving what type of woman I was dealing with. How much her husband had to mean to her and how my words disrespected what Chaunce was to her. Letting her get off the phone with her son and have that time, I collected my thoughts. We were midway in the air, and barely halfway up, but the view was everything already.
“Dice c’murr for me.” I said talking to her back. “Please...I need to get something off my chest.”
“Well you kinda made it hard for me to get away this time. We about to be five hundred feet in the air and it´s just the two of us.” she smartly replied, facing me now.
“Look, I didn’t take into consideration how you felt. How losing your husband affected you and still does. You know I was just looking at it in my own head and that ain’t what was best. Your feelings got pushed to the side, and what I said about your late husband was out of pocket. That ain’t my place, and it never will be. No matter where this goes from here. I’m grown enough to own that shit and not have an excuse other than me not using the right head.” I said hoping she forgave me.
“I’m reminded everyday my husband is gone when my son asks for him, and it’s nothing I can do but pull out a picture frame. That hurt...you won’t ever get or understand. But I thought you could at least have some type of heart. I don’t need you reminding me where my husband is or anybody else for that sake. I lived long enough to know everybody isn’t going to have the same respect that you have for them. Whatever this is between us, because I definitely have no words for it, it’s only been a thrill to you.” she shrugged, telling me how she felt. “My feelings got wrapped in too soon. I can say that today. Honestly...I was feeling you. You were the first man I even let myself get wet for after my husband. So, this thing, it meant more than you could believe. It was me breathing again. Living, and not feeling like the walls were caving in on me. I was on the edge of I don’t even know what, but I knew it was no good for me or my son. I have had to bring myself out of a lot of dark places...so your little put downs, that’s not what pushed me away. It was me missing my husband, and knowing I can’t get that man back again. And I can tell you now, he served his purpose. He did his job on this Earth. There was nothing else for Chaunce to do and I see that now. He loved me in his own way, he left me his son, and I’m here to continue life and find my own joy in it.” she said as a tear dropped.
If I didn’t look like the dumbest nigga walking...I played the fuck out myself by not doing right from the beginning. I couldn’t push the blame nowhere else, but on myself. I knew from the first time I laid eyes on her that she was more than a banging body and fine features. She was a special one, and I still played on this woman like she was a toss around.
“You absolutely right about everything you said...but you weren't just a thrill to me.” I said straight up. Stepping close enough to reach out and dry the tears off her face. Seeing her showing her tears, it meant something. Dice was always loud mouthing me to hide that she was actually hurting. It was a change to see the tears, and the words behind them.
“What am I then? I gave you all my truths on a platter the first day we met. I received none from you, and I still don’t know who this man is standing before me.”
“You’re someone I messed up with, and I’m asking for a second chance because you´re special. I want to earn my place with you. So, this can start like we just meeting if you want. Whatever to make you comfortable. You got a special kind of heart, and you need me to take care of it. Fuck the past, and the lame shit I was on. Gimme a fresh start, and you won’t need to do it again if you just give me that. I probably don’t deserve it, but I’m deserving of it if that makes sense to ya…” I said giving her a charming grin.
“I’m not ready for a relationship.” she honestly told me. “What you said last night about if you came trying to commit, I couldn’t do it...you were right. But that still didn’t mean I didn’t want to get there. I don’t come out telling people my truths, but I did when it came to you. I’m not sure what I can sign up for anymore.” The look in her eyes carried much doubt, and I could feel her pulling away from me emotionally.
“Let me sign you up for something far more promising than before. Let me wait on you and prove myself. This ferris wheel can do circles all night long. But what’s going to matter is if we can match each other´s love for one another as time grows.” I said standing in my truths. It had been some time since a woman broke me down like she had. Not ashamed, I stood tall behind everything I spoke. I wanted this woman on my side like she was still attached to my rib.
With a grin on my face, I didn’t mean for it to be rude in the moment. I could just read into her mind right now and this woman was hard as hell to break through on. “You ready to scream at me that it’s too fucking late, but I won’t accept that. Let me right all this.” I pleaded.
“I don’t know how you’re going to do it, but I’ll give you that. Hosea, don’t play with my heart.” she threatened, sticking her pointy ass nail in my face.
“That’s all you need to say. I’ll take it from hurr.” I said bringing her into my chest. It was the best feeling knowing I would be able to get to know her all over again in a new setting. It wouldn’t just be us fucking and going our own way while trying to act like we didn’t give a fuck about each other. This was some real love we both was embarking on, and I was ready to give it all I got.
10
Miani
Day
s into my divorce vacay, it quickly turned into a baecation it seems like. Dice had been the one to put everything together, but she had been so under Hosea, I was barely seeing her ass. Obasi was sure to take my mind off the girl´s trip because he was taking me on a new adventure every day in Vegas. We partied throughout the night, slept in, and played tourist during the day. On occasion we would link back up with everyone, but wasn’t pressed on it. Dice and Aja checked on me daily to assure I was enjoying myself, which I was. Today they were coming by to scoop me up, so we could finally get some time away from the guys. This trip had given me everything I needed, and more!
Only complaint I had, was me and Obasi still hadn’t had sex. I didn’t even know if it was a complaint at this point, or I was overly horny. Not knowing if I was trying to move us too fast, but I felt I was well enough in my new happy place to get some dick. Shit, I felt I deserved it after four years of being unsatisfied.
Obasi´s main excuse before was that he didn’t want it to be as if he’s taking advantage if I have been drinking and wasn’t in my right mind. At this point, I wanted him to snatch me the fuck up and tell me how I was going to take his dick. Hell, fuck me until he got me in my right mind, but he opted to take all this slow and not rush into it.
Instead of fucking on each other like porn stars, we spent our nights cuddled up, and having pillow talks. I didn’t want him to stop those, but some sex before would be cool too. Dressed for the day, and waiting for the girls, I joined bae downstairs in the kitchen.
“Obasi!” I said cracking up laughing, watching him tear his food down.
“Hmm?” he said looking up with a mouth full.
“Hurr!” I said sliding him an ashtray. “You so high the ashes going in the food, and you just to eating.” I said not helping but to laugh. Obasi was a real smoker, but I never indulged. I knew I could get around a drug test with working at the Royal’s, but a contact was hard enough on me.
“You ain’t lying.” he said high as a kite. His low eyes, no shirt on, and jewelry on had me drooling over his ass. All this house, and we hadn’t fucked in not one room! Hosea and Dice stayed one night, and we had to kick their loud animal sex having asses OUT! Either that, or I was going to the Penthouse.
“I can’t believe the trip is almost over.” I pouted as I sat on the counter. He had a pound of weed just out on the counter as he ate his food. “Two days left.”
“I know you miss Little E.” he said, sitting back from his now empty plate.
“Miss? I’m dying without him. You heard him last night.” I giggled.
“Yeah, I’m going to let him come up here. Vegas ain’t just for adults. You saw, it´s kids out hurr, and it’s plenty to do. He can have his birthday-”
“You pushing it. Easton is not having his birthday in Vegas.” I said knowing Basi was dead ass serious. He didn’t have kids, so his comment didn’t stick with me. Easton was not flying to Vegas no time soon.
“Already killing me and Little E´s vibe.” he said standing up from the stool. He went out to the first-floor balcony firing up another blunt. In a minute he was going to think he could walk on clouds if he smoked another blunt. “C’murr.” he said fingering me outside. It was a bit breezy, so I held my forearms. Stepping onto the balcony, he reached his arm around my waist. “Sit on it.” he said looking down at his lap. Sit on it? Boy, I’m ready to stand on my head for the dick.
With his legs spread open and legs stretched out, I set my ass right in his lap like I had to think about it. Basi was so damn tall, I didn’t take up much space at all. In my two-piece skirt set, his hands rubbed against my flat stomach.
“Y’all just going to the mall, right?” he asked, digging into his pockets. I had to stop him because he had honestly paid for enough. Between him and Dice, I didn’t spend shit in Vegas. I was so used to pinching off dollars with Ralph, it was hard allowing him to carry the bill and let him run the show.
“Ma-Maa, let my wrist go.” he said with this sexy ass mug that I just fell in love with. His snake bite grill gave him this rough sex appeal that just had my nipples hard off the thought of him biting down on them.
“Mhhhh.” I said kissing his lips, and sucking on his bottom lip. Turning into his chest to wrap both arms around his neck, I felt his hands creep around me as well. All that was heard was our lips smacking into one another, and the slurping. He surprised me with how passionate he would get in kissing me, because from the time that I met him, he disregarded ever being that intimate. Now, you would think the shit was his favorite. The thought alone that this was only shared between the two of us, I could take a tongue lashing from him all damn day. Every time it brought me to my peak, and this time was no different.
Obasi leaned up, wrapping me in his arms tight as he stood up. My legs went around his waist with ease, and I locked them, letting him know I didn’t want him breaking away. He set me on the ledge, and held me from my lower back. Kissing the scars on his face, his lips traced down to my chest. With my hand on the top of his deep waves, his mouth found its way to my pierced nipples. His thick tongue slithered against the metal bar, and my stomach sunk in from the sensation alone. I had to remind myself to release the breath I was holding in.
“You ever had dick go in yo stomach? Not just laid on top. I’m talking in yo shit to where you feel that pressure about to burst your insides?” he asked, making my insides scream out at him.
We both clearly heard the alarm chip indicating that the front door had been open, but it didn’t stop shit. Dice and Aja’s voice could be heard, and I was mad as hell they was fucking up our foreplay. I was feeling how hard Basi´s dick grew, and I wasn't trying to let that go to waste. His shit seemed to grow to larger lengths every time we became intimate.
I don’t even know why I attempted to answer his question. He was thrusting his tongue down my throat letting me know that it wasn’t to be answered. Popping an eye open, the girls quickly stopped in the hall of the doorway, and covered their eyes.
“We didn’t see anything!” Aja loud ass said.
“I know.” Basi said leaning back, and licking his lips, driving me fucking crazy. I was so damn wet between the legs, I needed to change out my outfit. “Go ‘head before they see some shit. I’ll be hurr when you get back.” he said rocking me back and forth with one hand. I jumped lightly when his hand came in my bra top. “I’m just giving you this.”
With a wad of money, he gave me this innocent grin that only he could do. “Go change.” The look in his eyes, I felt this was a whole set up to begin with. He hadn’t said two words about my outfit until now.
Usually when we go out, he was complimenting me. Now it was a simple go change. Shaking my head at him, I took his money and went to change into another outfit that was just like the last. He had this evil grin now, and I acted like nothing had happened.
“I’m ready.” I told the girls, giving him a kiss before we left.
With a hard slap on my ass, I was out of the door.
Dice was adamant on this trip that I was going to be fucked up off alcohol, so I wasn’t surprised that they didn’t drive here. It was another limo waiting out front to escort us to the mall. Before I was settled in my seat, Aja was popping a bottle of Moet open.
“What you and Basi been doing all day?” Dice questioned, being her nosey self.
“I still ain’t got no dick and this shit ain’t fair.” I pouted, mad as hell. I was still high off of the shit that happened on the balcony, but these bitches came fucking up our vibe. “I’m the one that’s need to be dicked down at breakfast, lunch, and dinner.”
“You hating?” Aja said, with a smirk.
“Sure the fuck issss! I mean the mood be so right. We be so into each other, then it’s like he cool off the sheets before we get there...I’m sick of it! Like I’m ready to catch an attitude, but he has been doing everything else right, I can’t even fake the shit to him. All it takes is for him to kiss on my neck, and I be like fuck it.” I admitted, angry that I was ev
en being put through this.
“I can’t relate.” Dice said, tossing her hands up. By the looks of her neck, I knew the hell she couldn’t.
“Maybe he’s just trying to be a gentleman? You know...he’s known in the streets as one of the tops. We all know women come a dime a dozen and it’s never no pressure with our men. Pussy is always thrown at them. Basi´s self-control may seem bad to you now, but it’s telling you that he can control himself.” Aja lectured. Rolling my eyes, I didn’t want to hear that shit.
Arriving at the mall, I tried to clear my head. I had pretty much bought myself everything I could want here. Easton was all I was shopping for now. Calling to check on him, he didn’t care about rushing me off, so he could jump on the game. I was glad my baby was having a good time, but I was coming home sooner than he thought. I had never spent this much time away from him and I hid the fact that I cried once, or maybe even twice since being here.
“What about this, Easton?” I said showing him some shoes.
“Mom, can I please call you tomorrow? It’s fortnite weekend.” he complained. Rolling my eyes, I was ready to take everything I had brought back since he couldn’t talk to me for ten minutes. Letting him off the phone, I shopped for him anyway. Walking through the store with the girls, we were laughing and catching up on shit we hadn’t texted about in the group chat.
“Bitchhh, now how we end up in the baby aisle.” Dice said, and we all looked around.
“I’on know…but y’all got me fucked up. I just got rid of my baby fat.” Aja said. She had hidden her pregnancy after her wedding, only letting a few know due to previous complications. It was like she got married to Keefe, then popped up with a whole baby by his ass months after. I thought she would want more, but she seems like she´s was good with her one, and Keefe´s two older kids.
“Let’s go.” I said cracking the hell up at these bitches acting like being in a baby aisle would result in pregnancy.