by Lisa Kleypas
“If I do nothing for this man, I’ll never be of any use to anyone,” Garrett burst out, trembling from the force of her emotions. “It would haunt me forever. I couldn’t live with the thought that there was a chance to save him but I didn’t take it. You don’t know him. If our positions were reversed, he would do anything for me. I have to fight for him. I have to.”
The older man stared at her as if he didn’t recognize her. “You’re not thinking clearly.”
“I’m thinking more clearly than I ever have in my life.”
“This is the man you met at Lord Tatham’s house last evening.”
Garrett flushed but held his gaze as she admitted, “He and I were already acquainted. He’s my . . . he’s . . . important to me.”
“I see.” Havelock was silent then, stroking his white whiskers, while precious seconds of Ethan’s life ticked away.
“Did you bring the transfuser?” Garrett burst out, impatient to decide on a course of action.
Havelock looked grim. “I’ve attempted blood transfusion on seven different occasions, and every case but one ended in shock, pain, and stroke or heart failure. No one has yet discovered why some blood is compatible and some isn’t. You haven’t seen what happens when the procedure fails. I have. Never again will I knowingly inflict such agony on a patient.”
“Did you bring it?” she persisted.
“I did,” he grated. “God help you and that poor wretch if you try to use it. Be honest, Dr. Gibson: Are you acting on behalf of your patient, or yourself?”
“Both of us! I’m doing it for both of us.”
She saw from his expression that it was the wrong answer.
“I can’t help you to do something against your own interests as well as his,” Havelock said. “This is madness, Garrett.”
He never used her first name.
As she stood there in stricken silence, he gave her a look that was somehow both pleading and stern, before departing the library.
“You’re leaving?” she asked in bewilderment.
He continued past the threshold without replying.
Garrett felt hollow and numb. Dr. William Havelock—her partner, advisor, supporter, and confidant, a man with the unfailing ability to discern right from wrong even in the most complex situations—had just walked out on her. He would take no part in what she was doing. Not because he was wrong, but because she was. He was sticking to his principles, whereas she . . .
She had no principles when it came to Ethan Ransom. She only loved him.
Shaken, despairing, she blinked against a burning wet blur. She was choking on her own breath.
Damn it, damn it, now she was crying.
Someone was standing at the doorway. It was West Ravenel, leaning a broad shoulder against the jamb, his gaze level and appraising. His blue eyes were startling against the sun-browned richness of his complexion.
Garrett lowered her head, swallowing repeatedly against the needling pain in her throat. She had no defenses left. He must have contempt for her, or pity, and either way, one word from him would destroy her.
“Go on and take a crack at it,” she heard Ravenel say casually. “I’ll help you.”
Her head bobbed upward. She stared at him, dumbfounded. It took her a moment to realize he was offering to assist with the surgery. After clearing her throat twice, the clenched muscles loosened enough for her to speak. “Do you have any medical training?”
“Not a bit. But I’ll do whatever you tell me.”
“Do you have any problems with the sight of blood?”
“Lord, no, I’m a farmer. I’m around blood all the time, both animal and human.”
Garrett regarded him dubiously, blotting her cheeks with the edge of her sleeve. “There’s that much blood involved in farming?”
Ravenel grinned. “I didn’t say I was any good at it.” The flash of his smile was so oddly like Ethan’s that Garrett felt a sharp pang in her chest. Tugging a handkerchief from inside his coat, he came forward to give it to her.
Mortified for him to have seen her crying, Garrett wiped her cheeks and eyes, and blew her nose. “How much did you hear?”
“Most of it. Sound carries all through this library.”
“Do you think Havelock was right?”
“About which part?”
“That I should make Mr. Ransom comfortable during his last few minutes on earth instead of torturing him with surgery?”
“No, you’ve already managed to ruin a moving deathbed scene. I couldn’t wait to hear what came after ‘your shadow on the ground is sunlight to me,’ but then you started giving orders like a drill sergeant. You might as well operate on Ransom: we won’t get any more good lines out of him tonight.”
Garrett stared at him with a bewildered frown. The man either didn’t know or didn’t care how inappropriate it was to joke in these circumstances. She suspected it was the latter. On the other hand, she found his cool insouciance rather reassuring. She sensed he could be a bit of a bastard when it suited him, not at all the kind who would fall apart under pressure, and at the moment, that was exactly what she needed.
“All right,” she said. “Go to the kitchen and wash the upper half of your body with carbolic soap and hot water. Make certain to scrub beneath your fingernails.” She looked down at his hands, which were elegantly long-fingered and scrupulously clean. The nails were pared nearly down to the quick, with only the thinnest possible white crescents showing.
“What should I wear?” Ravenel asked.
“A bleached linen or cotton shirt. Don’t touch anything afterward—especially not tables or doorknobs—and come back here directly.”
He gave her a short nod and strode away with a confident stride. His voice could be heard in the hallway. “Mrs. Abbot, I’m going to the kitchen to wash. You’ll want to warn the housemaids to shield their eyes from the sight of my manly torso.”
Kathleen, Lady Trenear, came to Garrett. “Whose housemaids would he be referring to?” she asked dryly. “Ours will be crowding into the scullery to obtain the best possible view.”
“Is he reliable?” Garrett asked.
“Solid as a rock. West manages the estate farms and leaseholds, and is experienced at everything from spring lambing to tending sick livestock. He can handle anything, no matter how revolting. And I’m usually like that also, but . . .” Kathleen paused and looked chagrined. “I’m with child again, and I’m queasy most of the time.”
Garrett looked at the countess with concern, seeing that she was clammy and ashen, and visibly unsteady. The foul smell of polluted water must have made her wretched. “It’s not good for you to be exposed to this contamination,” she said. “You must bathe at once, and lie down in a well-ventilated room. Also, have your cook make tea with fresh gingerroot. That will help to settle your stomach.”
“I will.” Kathleen smiled at her. “You’ll have West and the servants to help you. My husband will be making arrangements for Mr. Ransom to be spirited away from London as soon as possible. He must be taken to a safe place until he’s well again.”
“I fear you may have rather too much faith in my abilities,” Garrett said grimly.
“After the surgery you performed on Pandora? . . . there’s no doubt in any of our minds that you have miracles up your sleeves.”
“Thank you.” To Garrett’s annoyance, her eyes began to water again.
Kathleen’s small hands came to hers and gripped them warmly. “Do your best, and let fate take its course. You can’t blame yourself for the outcome if you know you did everything you could.”
Garrett managed a wobbly smile. “Forgive me, my lady . . . but you don’t know much about doctors.”
“Artery forceps,” Garrett said, pointing in turn to the gleaming sterilized instruments on a linen-covered tray. “Torsion forceps. Wound forceps. Suture forceps. Amputating knife. Double-edged amputating knife. Catlin knife. Resection knife. Middle pointed scalpel, curved scalpel, straight and curved scissors—�
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“You’ll have to tell me as we go along. My mind went blank after ‘amputating knife.’”
West Ravenel stood beside Garrett at the library table, where Ethan’s unconscious form was draped in clean white sheets and a cotton blanket. Garrett had administered chloroform by careful drops into a cylindrical inhaler filled with sterilized lint, while Ravenel had held a nose-and-mouth piece attached to a length of silk-covered tubing over Ethan’s face.
Carefully Garrett folded back the sheets to expose the sinewed, powerfully honed shape of his torso down to his navel.
“What a specimen,” she heard Ravenel say flippantly. “He has muscles in places I didn’t know there were muscles.”
“Mr. Ravenel,” Garrett said, picking up a large irrigator syringe, “please keep your remarks to a minimum.” Carefully she flushed out the wound with a chloride of zinc solution, and set the syringe aside. “Hand me the Nélaton probe—the one tipped with unglazed porcelain.”
After inserting the probe, she discovered the bullet’s path was a straight track, running at a slight upward slant toward the outer border of the first rib. The probe’s tip tapped against something hard. Garrett withdrew the probe, and regarded the blue mark on the end.
“What is that?” Ravenel asked.
“The porcelain turns blue where it comes into contact with lead.”
The bullet had ended up in an area rich with major veins, arteries, and nerves, all protected by an abundance of tough, unyielding muscle.
Garrett had been taught in medical school never to operate on a family relation or someone with whom she had an emotional attachment. A surgeon needed objectivity. But as she looked at Ethan’s still face, she realized she was about to begin one of the most difficult procedures of her career on a man she’d fallen in love with. God help me, she thought, not as blasphemy but as prayer.
“I need the scalpel with the curved edge,” she said.
Ravenel gingerly handed the instrument to her. As she prepared to make an incision just beneath the clavicle bone, she heard him ask, “Do I have to watch this part?”
“I would prefer that you hand me the correct instrument when I ask for it,” she said crisply, “which would require keeping your eyes open.”
“Just asking,” he said. “They’re open.”
She cut down carefully, dividing fibrous tissue and fascia, and clamped the edges of the incision.
The bullet was lodged in the axillary artery, along with what appeared to be a bit of woven fabric from a shirt or waistcoat. As Havelock had suspected, the ends of the severed artery had contracted and sealed inside its sheath. The other side was blocked by the lead slug.
“He should have bled to death within minutes,” she murmured. “But the bullet has temporarily occluded the artery. That, along with coagulum, is acting as a plug.” Still staring intently at the wound, she asked, “Can you thread a needle?”
“Yes.”
“Good, use a pair of forceps to remove a catgut ligature from that bottle, and use it to thread the thinnest needle on the tray.” She positioned Ethan’s arm farther upward to form a right angle with his chest.
As Ravenel saw where she was preparing to make a second incision, he asked, “Why are you going to cut near his armpit when the wound is on his chest?”
“I need to tie off the distal end of the artery first. Please let me concentrate.”
“Sorry. I’m used to operations on farm animals. If he were a plague-ridden cow, I would understand exactly what was happening.”
“Mr. Ravenel, if you don’t stop talking, I will chloroform you and do this by myself.”
He shut his mouth obligingly.
For the next several minutes, Garrett performed the delicate work of ligating the artery in two places, taking care not to damage the network of nerves and veins in the axillary region. She removed the bullet and the bit of cloth, debrided damaged tissue, and irrigated the wound to flush out debris and bacteria. At her direction, Ravenel used a curette to freshen the exposed incisions with antiseptic solution. She installed rubber drainage tubes, painstakingly stitched them in place with carbolized silk, and dressed the wounds with boracic gauze.
“Are we finished?” Ravenel asked.
Garrett was too occupied with evaluating Ethan’s condition to reply immediately.
His knees and feet had acquired a mottled appearance, and his countenance was deathly white. His pulse had fallen to forty beats per minute.
He was sinking.
“Not yet,” she said, trying to think herself into calmness. Her insides were roiling. “I need . . . we need someone else. One person to donate blood, and the other to assist me. The . . . the Roussel apparatus . . . where is it? . . .”
“You’re talking about a blood transfusion?” Ravenel asked. “Does that usually work?”
She didn’t look at him as she replied flatly, “At least half the cases die within an hour.”
Lord Trenear’s quiet voice came from the corner of the room. “I have the apparatus right here.”
Garrett hadn’t realized he’d been watching the operation—she’d been too intent on her work to notice his arrival.
Coming forward, Trenear set a gleaming rosewood case on the library table. “What can I do?” he asked.
“Open the case but don’t touch anything inside it. I need one of you to donate the blood, and the other to help with the transfuser.”
“Take my blood,” the earl said readily.
“No,” Ravenel said, “I insist on being the donor. If he lives, it will annoy him far more.” He smiled slightly as his gaze met Garrett’s. Something about his presence was so relaxed and steady that it smoothed the edges of her panic.
“Very well.” She took a measured breath. “Lord Trenear, please wash your hands in the basin on the other side of the table, and douse them with carbolic solution. Mr. Ravenel, remove your shirt and sit on the table so that your left arm is positioned next to Mr. Ransom’s right one.”
The transfuser was already sterilized. It was a strange-looking device, a collection of delicate unvulcanized rubber tubes sprouting from a rigid cupping glass, like a mechanical sea creature. One tube was connected to a water aspirator, another to a tiny junction tap and a cannula with a needle, and another to a balloon pump regulator.
The unwieldy mass shook a little in Garrett’s hands as she lifted it carefully from the case. Although she had assisted in a transfusion once, the operating surgeon had used a far simpler and more old-fashioned apparatus.
If only Havelock had stayed, damn him, and given her some advice about how this contraption worked.
As Garrett looked up from the transfuser, she blinked at the sight of a shirtless West Ravenel hoisting himself easily onto the table. Despite his earlier crack about Ethan’s athletic form, he was certainly no physical lightweight himself. He had the hard, rippling musculature of a man accustomed to lifting and carrying heavy weight. But what had surprised Garrett was the discovery that his torso was tanned the same shade of golden brown as his face. All over.
What kind of gentleman went outside in the sun for that long with no shirt?
Ravenel’s lips quirked as he saw her expression. A twinkle of arrogant amusement appeared in his eyes. “Farmwork,” he said in a matter-of-fact tone. “And I do some quarrying.”
“Half naked?” Garrett asked tartly, setting the transfuser on an expanse of clean linen.
“I’ve been loading rock into horse carts,” he said. “Which suits my intellectual capacity perfectly. But it’s too hot for a shirt.”
Although Garrett didn’t smile, she appreciated the touch of humor, which helped to stave off an attack of nerves. One mistake—an air bubble in the vein—would finish Ethan off in short order.
The earl came to her. “What now?” he asked.
She handed him a sterilized glass vessel. “Fill this with boiled water.”
While the earl attended to the task, Garrett listened to Ravenel’s heart with the
stethoscope and checked his pulse. He had the heart of an ox, the rhythm strong and regular. She filled the water aspirator of the transfuser and tied a length of surgical bandage firmly around the thick muscle of his upper arm. “Make a fist, please.” His brawny forearm flexed. “A perfect median basilic,” she said, swabbing the inside of his arm with isopropyl alcohol. “I could find it without even tying a band around your arm.”
“I would preen and bask in your admiration of my vein,” Ravenel said, “if I didn’t see that three-inch needle attached to one of those tubes.”
“I’ll be as gentle as possible,” she said, “but I’m afraid it will be uncomfortable.”
“Compared to a bullet in the chest, I suppose one can’t complain without sounding like a milksop.”
His older brother told him kindly, “We all know you’re a milksop. Go ahead and complain.”
“You may wish to look away, Mr. Ravenel,” Garrett murmured, “and keep making a fist.”
“Call me West.”
“I don’t know you well enough for that.”
“You’re draining the life essence from my median basilic,” he pointed out. “I’m on a first-name basis with women who’ve done far less to me than that. Son of a bitch!” The profanity burst out as he felt Garrett ease the hollow curved needle into his vein. He frowned down at the sight of his blood running along the rubber tube into the aspirator. “How much of this is he going to need?”
“Probably no more than ten ounces. We’ll replenish his vessels just enough to restore his pulse to its normal rate and volume.” Garrett tied a band around Ethan’s lax upper arm and hunted for a vein. None were visible. “Lord Trenear, if you would help me by applying pressure to his arm here, and here . . .” The earl clamped his fingers on the places she had indicated.
Nothing. No vein.